Hey everyone. To the readers still with me thank you. Sorry the story hasn't been updated in a while its been a crazy month. Thank you for sticking with the story. Ive had some major writers block and school kicking my ass. Who knew keeping an A in college and high school classes could be so hard? I hope this chapter makes up a little for the late update. Ill try to tonight post another chapter later if not I will have one up every week. Thanks again.
~Katie
All the characters belong to Stephenie I just shake up their life a little bit.
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Chapter 12: Shoulder To Cry On
I don't know what I expected them to say but it was sure as hell not that. Seth was dead. I was free of him. Was it wrong to feel this I mean I just lost my "future husband", haha who am I kidding if he hadn't died he would be dead anyways.
I looked up to see Rose, Dr. Cullen, and Ali staring at me. They all looked at me with eyes of symothoy. What did they know? "Isabella, we know Seth told you he loved Jessica." How did he know what I was thinking about. I guess I had actually said it out loud.
I had so many questions but I didn't want to talk to everyone just Rose who looked the worse. "Dr. Cullen, Ali can you leave the room and go to jasper. I need to talk to Rose. I need my sister and I think she needs me."
"Isabella, I will be outside your room if you need anything and Rose if Isabella or yourself needs anything tell me." Rose nodded a simple head nod in answer for both of us. Alice and Dr. Cullen left the room without another word. Rose came back and sat on the bed with me.
"Bella I have some news. Please hear me out. I actually have two things to tell you. I'm surprised you haven't asked one of them." I knew what she was talking about. She was going to tell me about my baby. If she really only knew. I knew something was wrong. My stomach wasn't as big and I couldn't feel the baby. "Bella, you..you..whensethreckedyoulostthebaby "
She had just told me what I figured. I didn't know what to feel I just wanted to scream and cry and blame it on someone. I wanted to blame me. It was my fault I ever stayed with Seth through all the shit he gave me. I don't know when but I started to sob when I noticed I was shaking from crying so hard. I layed down and curled up even with the pain. I had lost that one part I needed, the baby was all I had that gave me strength through the rape through it all. Seth took my child away from me. I could see rose leave the room crying. She never cried and she wasn't one to comfort. I didn't want her here anyways I was hurting her with my tears. I was hurting everyone. I laid there with my eyes closed crying. I heard someone walk into the room. I looked up through my tears and saw Edward in jeans and t-shirt. Why was he here? I looked at him just crying I couldn't stop. Why was I always the one to go through shit and pain?
"Shhh, Bella it will be okay you are strong from what your friends and sister tell me. You will get through this the pain and crap. Everything, you will get through.' What was he replying to I had no clue but it helped. I had to be strong crying only made it hurt the ones I loved. But why couldn't I have someone hold me up for once. I just wanted to be held and be able to cry until I cant anymore.
"Bella, scoot over… you are going to scoot over in the bed and I will hold you and you can just cry until you cant anymore. It is killing your friends and if its okay with you I will be your friend and just hold you. Im not your doctor right now." I just simply nodded my head and scooted over. I never thought someone would just let me cry. I hated to admit it but Edward doctor or not was helping. I just laid there and cried till I fell asleep. I didn't know Edward but I wanted to.
*Raises Hand* Edward can come hold me while i cry watching BD2.
Just again thanks for sticking with the story. Did you like the progression with Edward and Bella? I know its going slow but Bella's been through a lot. Everyone got their BD2 dvd's? I know I got emotional with it. Hopefully a chapter later tonight but who knows?
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