Just finished a 5k color run and I feel like CRUD (happiest 5k on the planet, my eye.). So here it comes. The next chapter.
I roll down the window of Christina's car and let the wind whip through my hair.
I feel uncomfortable, as I'm squeezed into the backseat with Four, Uriah, and Shauna, listening to a popular radio station, on the way to the hospital to visit a sick boy that I don't know very well.
" There's an "S" under my clothes, On my chest where nobody else can see
I light up when the doors are closed I am free, yeah"
Not to mention sitting this close to Four is making me dizzy.
It was never quite like this with Robert, none of the uncertainty, none of this awareness that courses through me with a strange sweetness.
I should not be comparing Four to Robert.
I close my eyes and focus on the music instead.
"I'm a badass jumping off the moving train, I'm a Jane Bond, putting all the guys to shame
I'm a wild card, and I'm gonna steal your game
You better watch out, I'm a fire starter"
I gasp as the car swerves, sending me crashing into Four.
He puts his hand on my back, gently restoring my balance. I feel the ghost of where his hand was when he takes it away, and I can't breathe.
"I'm a fire starter, I'm a sweet disaster. I melt hearts like water" Christina yells, singing along with the radio.
I roll my eyes, but I'm smiling.
"No, you don't," says Will, and Christina raises her eyebrows at him.
"Admit it, Will. You think I'm hot."
He shakes his head. "No. I don't."
"Yes you do. I heard you say as much to Four the other day."
Will turns bright red and mutters something incoherent. Christina grins.
"Awwww, thanks. That's sweet of you."
I can't help it. I'm laughing.
Everyone is more sober as we park the car in the hospital parking lot and walk into the lobby.
The still whiteness and the smell of antiseptic overwhelms me. It reminds me of all the times over the summer that I was placed here for not eating, or slicing a line through my wrist, and the time I got attacked and Four rescued me...
I am barely paying attention as Christina and the rest head over to the elevator.
"Tris?" Four says. "You coming?"
When I make no sound, he walks over to me and grabs my shoulder, guiding me to where his friends wait.
"It's the smell," I say softly. "It brings back some really bad memories."
Four nods, and bends down so that he's at eye level with me. "All of that's over now. It's okay. You're okay. You feel me?"
I nod.
"Let's go. Zeke is waiting."
When we push open the door to Zeke's room, we find him flirting with a nurse as she gives him an injection of some sort.
"Hey, guys," he says when he sees us.
Shauna fakes a glare. "You aren't cheating on your girlfriend, are you?"
Zeke grins. "Never."
I look away as they share a kiss.
"So what's the news?" he asks us, his eyes bright and extremely cheerful for someone so sick. And he is sick. He has tubes in his arms and he is connected to a bunch of machines.
"Well, Will here has the hots for Christina-" Uriah says as Will flushes bright red and Christina smirks.
"So why don't you two make out and get it over with already?"
In two strides, Christina crosses the room and kisses Will right on the mouth.
I wish that was Four and me. I do not want it to be Four and me.
"So what's new with you, Tris?"
"I got attacked by a group of guys, got sent to the hospital, and I'm scarred for life."
"Four's not having a very good week either," says Uriah. We are all quiet for a moment.
"I, um. I called the police about it," he says. "Last night. I'm moving into my own apartment soon."
"Let's have a party!" Christina squeals.
"Yeah, the doc says I'll be out of the hospital by next week," Zeke says.
"That's good," I say. "School isn't the same without you."
Is it my imagination or is Four looking a bit jealous?
"Don't I know it," says Zeke, and suddenly we are all smiling.
Song was Fire Starter by Demi Lovato. This song is what I think Christina would choose for herself. My friend thepandagirl16 and I were listening to this yesterday and it just screamed Divergent! I'm a badass jumping off a moving train...