Lexi POV

Katie came up and hugged me. I felt my stomach get that familiar queasiness.

"Are you feeling sick right now?" she asked me.

"Yes." I said

"Me too!" she yelled.

"I call the downstairs bathroom!" I yelled and ran to the bathroom. Katie ran upstairs, Jack followed her and Alex followed me to hold my hair back. I thanked him and washed out my mouth in the porcelain sink.

"I'm hungry," I said and went into the kitchen to find Katie eating a Nutella sandwich. I took the other half and bit into it. Yum.

"We have to go to the studio. Bye babe," Alex said and kissed me. Jack said bye to Katie and left as well. Now it was just us three girls.

"Now I'm the one without a bun in the oven," Kara stated and laughed

"Haha, well it's only a matter of time," I said and wiggled my eyebrows (something I learned from Alex.)

"Don't joke I'm not ready for that." Kara replied, looking slightly freaked out. "Excuse me," I said and headed to Alex's and I's bathroom.

I silently took out my razor and cut into my skin. I smiled at the familiar feeling of metal-on-skin, and then I looked down at my arm. Shit, I thought. The cut was bleeding too much. I was out of practice. I wrapped a towel around my arm, then started to feel dizzy. I couldn't do this to myself anymore. I couldn't do it to the baby. I needed help.

When I exited the bathroom (wearing a hoddie) Kara and Katie were talking quietly about her baby.

"Have you thought of names?" I asked.

"Jack and I have kicked around a few names but I don't know," she shrugged, "when it gets closer we'll talk more seriously."

I nodded and grabbed two waters out of the fridge, "I'll see you guys later, I need to go talk to someone."

"Okay," Kara said, slowly. "What about us?"

"Um," I thought, then shook my head. "No, sorry guys."

"It's okay," Katie smiled at me, "go do what you have to do."

I nodded and left the house, heading over to the recording studio. When I entered I saw Rian sitting on the couch, and Alex was in the recording booth. He waved me, then continued to sing.

"Where are Jack and Zack?" I asked.

"Out getting lunch," Rian replied, "why?"

"Can we talk?" I asked him.

"Sure," Rian answered, getting up from the couch and following me. I made sure no one was in the living room, then I sat down on the couch, and Rian sat next to me. I handed him the water and leaned into the couch.

"What's going on?" he asked.

"I'm still cutting," I mumbled, "but I want help. I want to stop."

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