I'm actually starting to enjoy this. Trying to figure out how to end it.
I finished all my homework yet grimaced at my psychology work.
Why did she look so worried earlier? I shook my head before turning on my music and closing my eyes.
My eyes weren't even closed for ten seconds when I heard pounding. I took out my earphone.
"Open the door! Now! I'm going to-to-I don't know! Open up Ben!"
What?
I unlocked the door and the pounding ceased.
I looked down at her and she was flustered and out of breath.
"What the hell?"
"What?"
I crossed my arms.
"Why is your grade dropping? Is this another game you're pulling to get my attention?"
I looked away and wanted to laugh.
"No. I just can't think straight, alright?"
"Why?"
She always needs an answer, doesn't she?
"You know what, think whatever the hell you want. Don't come to me just to yell."
I walked back into my room and fell onto my bed. She stepped in.
"Why're you being like this? You know how hard it's been for me these past few weeks?"
I could hear her tears but that was nothing to what she said. I sat up, grabbing at the sheets in anger.
"What? It's been hard onyou? I've been trying to talk to you about it, about anything. You left me.Youleftme."
"Ben, you're such an ass! I can't stand it."
I walked up to her. She backed herself up against the wall.
She was terrified. I grabbed her neck and she gasped.
"You should've stayed, you know that? Instead, you decided to hurt both of us and ruin everything."
Tears slipped down her face, trickling on to my hand.
"I wouldn't have even if you forced me to."
"You left me in the snow for that damn traitor! I'm the one you were supposed to be with, not him!"
She shook her head and grabbed my wrist with both her hands.
I wasn't hurting her, she just couldn't get out. She was locked under my hand like a ball and chain.
"Why're you so damn stubborn?! You're mine dammit!"
My hold on her neck didn't waver.
"That's not fair."
I was shaking with anger.
"Because you're mine too."
I couldn't do anything at that point except kiss her, so I did.
There were so many 'Forgive me's' mumbled in between kisses.
"I love you Rey." I dropped my hand off of her neck.
"I know."
She grabbed my face almost as forcefully as I grabbed her throat and kissed me.
My body pushed into hers, pinning her to the wall.
She clawed at my shirt. This was like Halloween all over again.
She jumped into my arms and I grabbed her thighs to keep her up. She kept moaning and I couldn't get over it. It made me want her more.
"Rey," I growled. She looked me in the eyes and honestly, I've never seen such fire come from her until she began kissing me.
"No, there is nothing between me and her. I don't even know her name."
She giggled and I wanted to kiss her.
"What about you and, you know,that guy?"
"Finn? Don't worry about him. He's my best friend. I mean..."
I felt her body tense. I rubbed her shoulder. "What?"
"I don't love him the way he loves me."
Oh.
I held her closer to my chest.
"He won't take me from you, I promise. Besides, you are my fiancé, aren't you?"
If I was drinking something, I would've spit it out.
I thought we were just dating, we werelovers.
I forgot I asked her that day.
"Yes, sweetheart."
"You forgot you asked her to marry you?"
Hux and Phasma began laughing.
"Why are you laughing?"
Phasma patted me on the back.
"Oh maybe because it's the biggest question you can ask a girl."
Hux wiped away tears. "Okay but seriously, do you at least have a ring?"
"No."
"Ren, you are probably the stupidest man I know."
"Who is she friends with?"
I clenched my jaw. "Why does that matter?"
"They might be able to help your hopeless case," Hux began laughing again.
"I hate you so much."
Phasma straightened up. "Wait, why don't we just go with you?"
My eyes widened. "No, I can do this-"
"Oh come on. It's not like we hate her friends. We don't even know them."
"I can't believe we know them."
Hux had his arms crossed. We were spying on Rey with her best friends. She told me she'd be going out to some book cafe down the street of the school.
It was an open window cafe so it was easy to spot them from across the street.
"I don't like this Ren."
"Did I ask you to?"
"You can't marry her."
"Oh my god!"
"Her taste is horrifying. But then again she started dating you."
"Hux! Shut up!"
"You know I'm right."
"I'm going to punch you if you don't-"
"Always resorting to violence. Imbecile."
"Can you go-"
Phasma grabbed our collars. "Look."
Rey was leaving the cafe with the guys. Shit.
"She can't know we've been spying on her."
Phasma pushed me forward as they ran. What happened to that part about going together?
Talk about not being obvious.
Rey looked up and her face lit up.
"Ben? Oh my gosh. I was just talking about you."
She ran across the street to me, throwing her arms around me.
"Uh yeah I was taking a stroll and now I'm done so I'll be going."
I turned around but she caught my hand.
"Now come on, we're not going to take long."
"No Rey, really I-"
She began dragging me across the street.
My heart was racing. I couldn't think. Why was it so hot today? That damn traitor was walking through the cafe doors with that other guy.
My throat got tight.
"Rey, we should go."
She was in the middle of the street. "Come on. They won't be mean. And if they are, I'll beat their ass."
She began running across the street again, reaching out to me.
A car zoomed around the corner. None of us had time to blink.
Rey. She was going to get hit, the car was coming right for her.
The impact of the car hit me like a ton of bricks. My vision flickered as I was thrown back down.
Dots were everywhere. I felt the hot pavement under me, running red.
People were screaming. I know one person for sure was Rey.
I landed on my back but I couldn't feel anything.
"Ben! Oh my god! Why'd you do that?!"
Rey's hands were shaking.
"I'm fine. I feel fine."
She shook her head. "You're such an idiot. They'll be here soon. Oh god. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
Even though she was crying, she had never looked more beautiful with her hair down in that yellow dress.
I closed my eyes and for some reason, her cries lulled me to sleep.