Soulmates Chapter 13: Million Reasons, a glee fanfic

A/N: Yay! Update!

This chapter is going to have a big reveal by the end which will make you very angry with me.

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(Phone conversations in bold & italics)

Chapter 13: Million Reasons

Two weeks had passed by so quickly for them, in the rush of planning the funeral to getting things arranged and Blaine being busy at work all the time, trying to gain composure back into the company after having all his father's work and empire dropped all of a sudden into his hands, he felt so out of place yet so lost. It was like he was on a clockwork, and he couldn't just sit around and grieve, he had to fulfill the Anderson family legacy, it was all he had, his father's company was his biggest investment. His mother wasn't taking things too well. The first month for the family went in a blur. His mother didn't leave her room for a week, after coaxing her to come out Kurt came back home earlier from college to look after her. But she remained in her own bubble, it wasn't until a month later was when she started moving about.

She mostly just went to Sebastian's mom's place, and spent most of the time there with her. As for Blaine, he was still dealing with the loss. Because for the first two weeks he hadn't cried once. It was one night when he came home after a stressful day of meetings with the lawyers' insurance companies and shareholders. He entered his bedroom looking tired and emotionally drained, he stood there in the middle of the bedroom staring blankly at the floor, he waited as he heard Kurt getting up from their bed and it wasn't until Kurt took him in his arms he started crying.

That night he cried till he was exhausted, Kurt being the ever so patient loving husband held him through it, he had a raging headache and sore neck, he didn't know when or how did he get into bed, without his clothes on, all he knew was drifting off to sleep with his head in Kurt's lap and his husband's fingers massaging his neck till he gave into sleep.

The first month was hard on the family, but life went on, and so did theirs. Blaine couldn't be weak now, he had to fulfill his father's hard earned company. Which also involved late-night meetings, earlier mornings, and less time with Kurt.

Kurt was also busy in his first mid-term exams, but they both knew that at this time it was hard to get the timeout for one another. The only time they did get was at night, where even if Blaine came home late from work, he would find his husband dozed off in bed, holding his course book in his lap; Blaine would change into his clothes, put away Kurt's book and take him in his arms to go to sleep. Safe to say, the less time together also meant that their previous discussion of wanting a baby was long forgotten, but Kurt didn't forget as such, he knew other things were important now. But however that being the case, it was almost two months now, and there was so much lack of intimacy between them, just a good morning kiss and that's it. Blaine decided to take some time off for the weekend, and he planned to spend a couple's night with his husband, his mother had decided to go on a weekend spa trip with Sebastian's mom so he thought this would be a great time to spend with his husband

But luck had its own way because that day Kurt had to go to a wedding of his class fellow's,

"I can stay back if you want, baby, I know you had planned for the weekend, and this just came up" Kurt explained as he walked in and out of the bathroom.

"It's fine," Blaine said flipping through the channels of the television in their bedroom. Kurt knew Blaine was being passive aggressive, cause from the look of it, Blaine was clearly disappointed, "Blaine…"

"I said, it's fine, now if you want to make it to the wedding on time I suggest you hurry up so I can drop you off" He said, Kurt frowned and went back into their walk-in-closet, he knew Blaine was unhappy since he cleared his schedule to spend the entire weekend with Kurt without any distractions, especially after everything that happened two months back. He also knew that their lack of intimacy thought there weren't any complaints here or there, but Blaine clearly wanted to be with Kurt that way. He was just too much of a gentleman to come out and say it straight to his face.

As soon as he got ready and dressed in his suit and tie, he stepped out walking over to Blaine, clearing his throat to get Blaine's attention he said "I'm ready"

Blaine looked up, and paused for a moment to just take in his husband's appearance, he was too beautiful, and days like these just made him want to keep Kurt locked away from everyone to see him. He knew he was terribly attractive, and most men didn't even look down at the wedding ring on his finger before approaching him. Maybe he should have gone with Kurt because there nothing that made Blaine more insecure than his husband, insecure in the way that he just didn't want anyone looking at him in the way he did. He loved Kurt and he would protect him as long as he could, till his dying day.

"you're staring" Kurt muttered under his breath shyly, a blush creeping up on his already naturally pink rosy cheeks, Blaine's heart always skipped a beat knowing he was the one to put that blush on his face. He still had that effect on him. Blaine smiled and got up from his seat, he took Kurt's hand in his and kissed his hand where his wedding ring stayed in its rightful place. "I can't help but stare at you, love" Kurt bit his lip and let Blaine lead them out of their room.

As they approached the venue where the wedding would take place, Blaine walked out and opened the door for Kurt, he stepped out of the car and let his husband close his door for him. From a distance he could see Mercedes, Chandler, Rachel, and Adam standing waving at Kurt, Kurt waved back making Blaine look towards where he was waving. Blaine's eyes narrowed when he saw Adam, he didn't like Adam which was pretty much clear for him. He didn't like the way he looked at Kurt, he didn't like how at times close he stood next to Kurt or even when he placed his hand on his shoulder for a 'friendly' pat, as 'friends'.

For all he knew, Adam's intentions could be bad, Kurt was young, handsome, and too naïve to notice Adam's advances, though Kurt refused several times to Blaine, over one of their arguments that happened last month when Kurt had been leaving the library and Blaine saw how Adam gave him a hug. Kurt brushed off Blaine's jealousy then and didn't pay heed to it, but that didn't make Blaine feel any better. And then what happened last week

(FLASHBACK)

"Hey babe, I got off early from work today, are you free to go out for any of your free period?"

"Yeah, I am, I'm sorry but I can't an emergency came up"

"What emergency? Are you okay? Did you get hurt?" Blaine asked, turning off to the side to listen to Kurt's call.

"no, no everything's fine, it's just Adam has an accident and he needed blood, so turns out he has the same blood group as I do, so I was going to the hospital with Rachel to donate"

"oh… that's thoughtful" Blaine said, tuning out of the conversation, the last thing he heard was Kurt saying sorry and an 'I love you' before he ended the call. That same day, when Blaine came home from work, he had a nasty argument with Kurt because he was being a bit bitter towards him, something which Kurt didn't like. And even see the bandage on Kurt's arm was enough to remind him of his noble act for Adam.

For whatever reason, Blaine didn't like Adam, and he surely didn't like how he tried to squirm his way to get attention from Kurt. Blaine had ended up complaining about Adam and Kurt told him not to worry, it wasn't that he didn't trust Kurt he was afraid of losing Kurt to Adam or worse Adam stealing him away through his likes and interest he shared with Kurt, because compare to Blaine, he did have more in common with Kurt than him. And this did nothing but make matters worse for Blaine inside his head.

(END OF FLASHBACK)

"Why's Adam here? He's a senior" Blaine said, eyeing Adam. Kurt sighed and tugged at Blaine's arm to make him look at him instead of his friends "He's a friend of Jenna, they go way back, kind of like family friends"

"Oh… right" Blaine said, glancing back towards Adam, before returning his attention back to Kurt's.

Kurt frowned and said "we can go back home if you want, its fine"

Blaine shook his head, he placed his hands on Kurt's hips and pulled him close "no, you just got here, don't say that to make me feel better, I'm fine, baby, I want you to have fun"

"It would have been fun with you" Kurt said, leaning against Blaine, placing his hands on Blaine's neck.

"I wanted to spend my weekend home, but its fine, have fun with your friends," Blaine said and kissed Kurt before letting him go. He watched Kurt walk away saying 'I love you' to him, as soon as he went in to meet his friends, everyone hugged him, Blaine's eyes narrowed at Adam, he saw how he wrapped his arms around Kurt's waist instead of his shoulder and what made him angry was when Adam looked up at him and smirked. Blaine gritted his teeth muttering 'that fucking bastard' before he got back into his car and drove off.

It was after four hours when Blaine had come to pick up Kurt, he waited and watched Kurt stepping out of the hall with his friends, they all parted and waved goodbye as they left, and Adam stayed back and gave Kurt another hug, making Blaine's blood boil with anger. Kurt blushed and waved before walking towards Blaine. He never blushed like that with someone else, he only did it with him, Blaine thought.

"Hey!" Kurt said and sat inside the car, he smiled over at Blaine for a response, but Blaine just sat their silently.

"What's wrong?" Kurt asked he could tell from even a mile away when Blaine was angry or upset.

Blaine didn't look at him, he simply stared ahead and pulled out of the parking lot area, he muttered "nothing"

Kurt pursed his lips and reached to cover Blaine's hand "come on, tell me, did something happen?" Kurt insisted, he took Blaine's hand but Blaine took it away from him and placed it on the steering wheel.

"Since when were you and Adam so friendly together?" Blaine asked, his eyes still on the road, Kurt sighed and sat back in his seat, and he crossed his arms and said "is that what you're angry about? Adam?"

Blaine rolled his eyes and didn't say a word, "Blaine, this is childish, I'm married, in case you forgot, and I'm married to you, do you think I'd ever be interested in someone else?"

"I don't know are you?" Blaine asked bitterly.

Kurt scoffed and said "unbelievable, I love you, but right now you're just being unreasonable"

"I'm being unreasonable, mind I tell you that I freed my weekend for you"

"And I asked you if you wanted me to stay back because I'd more than happily would have, you told me to go," Kurt said, staring angrily at Blaine. "Well I don't like how Adam looks at you, and since when did he start hugging you, when did you have this progress in this relationship?"

"Progress? Are you crazy, Blaine I love you, I don't know why it's so hard for you to believe that I don't see in any other way than just a friend?"

Blaine pulled into the drive way, and turned the engine off, he looked at Kurt and said "and I don't understand how you can't see that he likes you, married or not, he wants you, and you're being too fucking naïve to see that, but I'm not blind, I don't like the way he looks at you" Kurt groaned and ran his hand over his face tiredly "we've been through this before, Blaine, I don't want him, I don't go around questioning you do I? I'm married to you"

"you were married to me by force, god knows if you had the chance you'd go to some other guy if you could have beside me, you didn't want me near you when we first met, and when you met Adam you had no problem with him meeting him" Blaine said "fuck it, I'm leaving, also I'm going to New York tomorrow, for a week so don't wait for me, have fun with your friends "After saying that Blaine got out of the car and slammed the door behind him making Kurt jump at the sound.

Kurt watched Blaine walk inside the house not waiting for him to come as well, Kurt sighed, he loosened his tie and got out of the car to go inside. Upon entering the room, he saw Blaine dragging a suitcase out of his closet with an armful of clothes. Kurt stood there silently watching Blaine shove his clothes inside the bag. "Here let me…"

"I don't need your help" Blaine said, not once looking at Kurt. "Are you leaving because of me?" he asked timidly.

Blaine scoffed, he finally looked up and said "not everything is about you, Kurt, believe it or not"

His words stung him pretty bad, he knew Blaine was angry but he never thought he'd be this angry with him, Kurt nodded silently without saying another word, he felt tears leak through his eyes, he walked into the bathroom. Blaine sighed and heard Kurt walking away, he knew he was bound to cry inside the bathroom but right now he was just so pissed, why can't Kurt see Adam's intentions, why does he trust him, why does he need him as a friend, surely he has better friends than him. But most importantly, why can't Kurt see he is only saying that because he means well for him. Sure he could have said this better but he was so angry, Blaine Anderson never worried about things, because everything came to him on a silver platter he never had to work for it. But Kurt was what proved him wrong, that he did have to work for things, and somehow he was afraid of losing Kurt because he just couldn't bear the thought of Kurt breaking his heart.

They both didn't say a word the whole night, they didn't even sleep wrapped in each other's arms. Kurt couldn't sleep at all, he turned around to look at Blaine sleeping on his side with an arm thrown over his eyes, his lips slightly parted as he slept soundly. Why did they always end up fighting over such stupid things, and right now he didn't want his husband to leave while he was angry at him, he hated this so much. Kurt slipped out of bed and walked outside of their bedroom, with his night robe pulled over his shoulders. He walked straight to the guest bedroom, the very bedroom his father had used during his final days. Kurt sat down on the bed and stared out the window that viewed towards the garden.

I wish you were here Kurt thought, he took one pillow from the bed and clutched it to his chest, he let a few tears fall, he wanted his daddy, he wanted his mommy, he just wanted his parents' on days like this. And right now he just wished they were here to help him, he knew Blaine was still recovering from his own father's death, but his attitude had been so off, and bitter, he wanted his husband back as well.

Without even thinking, Kurt didn't know when he started singing,

You're giving me a million reasons to let you go
You're giving me a million reasons to quit the show
You're givin' me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

If I had a highway, I would run for the hills
If you could find a dry way, I'd forever be still
But you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Kurt let out a sob into the pillow, his voice broke in-between the verses as he continued singing, completely unaware of the bedroom door opening behind his back because he was too lost in his own world

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare
It's like that I've stopped breathing, but completely aware
'Cause you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

Blaine had noticed Kurt leaving the bedroom when he turned over in his sleep to reach for Kurt, he couldn't sleep until he felt Kurt close, but when he came in contact with an empty side, he left the bedroom in search for Kurt. The house was quiet, he looked everywhere until he passed the bedroom and heard muffled sobs coming from inside, he stopped in the door frame, when he heard Kurt singing. The lyrics practically piercing through his heart like a thousand knives.

And if you say something that you might even mean
It's hard to even fathom which parts I should believe
'Cause you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

Baby I'm bleedin', bleedin'
Stay
Can't you give me what I'm needin', needin'
Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith
But baby, I just need one good one
Good one, good one, good one, good one, good one

When I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one, good one
Tell me that you'll be the good one, good one
Baby, I just need one good one to stay

Kurt covered his face with his hands and sobbed loudly this time, Blaine couldn't take it anymore, and he silently slipped behind Kurt and wrapped his arms around him. "I miss my daddy" Kurt cried when he felt Blaine holding him close to his chest. Blaine kissed the side of Kurt's neck and whispered against his soft hair "I know baby, I miss my dad too"

He sobbed louder this time, Blaine too felt tears leave his eyes, he buried his face in Kurt's neck and let his husband cry it out for a while. "I hate fighting, Blaine"

Blaine nodded and said "I hate it too", Kurt sniffed and rubbed his eyes to wipe away the tears he groaned, "Ugh, why am I so fucking emotional"

"I don't mind, I love you" Blaine said, turning Kurt around in his arms, Kurt saw Blaine's own cheeks stained with tears, he gingerly placed his hands on either side of his husband's face, wiping away the remaining tears from his face "are you angry with me?"

"Kurt…"

"Please don't go to New York because of me" Kurt said, Blaine sighed and pressed his forehead against Kurt as he said "I have to, things are different now"

"I feel like we're drifting" he said in return and clutched Blaine's nightshirt tighter in his hands.

"don't think too much about this, come on lets go to bed" Blaine said, and took Kurt's hand in his, they both silently slipped back into their room and snuggled under the covers, Kurt placed his head on his chest and stayed there for a few minutes just listening to Blaine's heart beating, Blaine caressed Kurt's back and his arm with his free hand. They both remained like that for a few minutes before Kurt broke the silence and said "Blaine?"

"Yeah?"

"Please make love to me" Kurt whispered, without saying yes, Blaine flipped their positions and began stripping his husband out of his clothes and he followed suit. They both shared gentle kisses, and touches as Blaine prepped him slowly, he whispered 'I love you' to him before he slowly slipped inside of Kurt completely forgoing the condom. He slowly and passionately made love to Kurt, before they both drifted off to sleep in each other's embrace.

It was almost a week since Blaine had left for New York, they briefly got the chance to talk because Blaine was so wrapped up in meetings and conferences that the only time they got for calling was at night and even that was short, just a check in on how their day went, and I love you or good night to end the call.

Kurt was excited that Blaine would be home today but it was when he got a call from him telling him he might have to stay a week more in New York, it pissed Kurt off, they ended up having an argument once again before Blaine ended the call and turned his phone off. Kurt threw his phone on the bed angrily, and sat down, he tried to calm himself but he felt sick to his stomach and dizzy. He had been feeling that for a few days, it only got worse over time. It wasn't a minute before Kurt had rushed into his bathroom and began throwing up. He heard a knock on his door and said "come in"

"Kurt, honey, are you alright?" Jane asked, knocking on the bathroom before she opened the door.

"I feel like I can't stomach anything, I think I have the stomach flu or something" Kurt said, he walked over to his sink and took out the mouthwash to rinse his mouth clean. Mrs. Anderson frowned and said worriedly "honey, you need to go to the doctor, you can't stay like this and risk your classes as well"

"I know, I just thought Blaine would be coming home today so he could take me tomorrow" He said tiredly.

"I'll take you, dear, don't worry about Blaine, I'm here to help you"

"Can you take me?" Kurt asked.

She nodded and said "I'll call the driver to bring the car up front and we'll leave right now, I'm sure Dr. Charles is there, he's our family physician, wash your face and I'll see you downstairs"

(Hospital)

"So you've been having nausea, stomach pains, night sweats, and dizziness, am I right?"

"And I vomited this morning" Kurt added, Mrs. Anderson took his hand and patted it comfortingly to calm him down. Dr. Charles nodded and wrote down on his notepad before asking "have you been experiencing any change in your appetite lately?"

"Yes, I don't feel like eating much that might be due to nausea"

"I see… can you follow me to the radiology department, I would like to get an ultrasound done to be sure, it isn't anything alarming" He said, and took his notepad with him, he gestured Kurt to follow him, Mrs. Anderson held his hand as they followed the doctor to the ultrasound room. The nurse helped prop him on the examination table next to the machine and squirted the cold gel on his belly after giving him a bottle of water to drink till it was empty.

The doctor set up the system and placed the wand on Kurt's skin. He narrowed his eyes and nodded saying "I see you're a carrier, am I correct?"

"Yes, I found out about that at a very young age from my dad after my mom passed away" Kurt explained.

"And have you been sexually active in the past week?" he asked.

Kurt blushed and eyes Mrs. Anderson from the side out of embarrassment because this was his mother-in-law, and the man was asking whether he had sex with his son in the past week. "Well?" Mrs. Anderson urged him, still patting his hand in comfort not wanting Kurt to feel uncomfortable.

"Yes," Kurt whispered shyly.

Dr. Charles nodded and clicked a few buttons before he turned the screen towards him and said "well, you're not suffering any stomach flu that's for sure, you see this white dot on the screen right here" he pointed out before continuing "that dot, is an embryo, you're pregnant, congratulations Kurt"

After getting prescribed medicines and a suggestion for a new doctor specializing in male carries, Kurt and Mrs. Anderson went straight home. She had hugged him and congratulated him, gushing about how happy she was that she was going to be a grandmother.

"Alicia, will bring you ginger ale and chicken soup up to your room, honey, so you should rest the maximum you can alright? Are you going to tell Blaine?" she asked as they walked into the house.

Kurt bit his lip and thought for a moment before he said "what do you think? I was thinking maybe I should wait till he comes home, this is a big news and I want to tell him in person"

She nodded and said "yes, that would be a better time to tell him for sure, oh my, I'm so excited, and I'm going to tell my friends! You should go up to your room now, dear, I'll come to check on you in a few minutes" Kurt nodded and went towards his room.

Jane stood there watching Kurt leave before she went directly to her room. She locked the door, and threw her bag angrily on the bed stomping her foot down in anger, before she grabbed her cellphone and dialed the number

"Hello Jane, how was the doctor appointment?" She heard Annie, saying on the phone.

"He's fucking pregnant!" Jane exclaimed into the speaker letting out her frustration all at once.

"What?! How?"

"What do you mean how? That little tramp obviously sleeps with my baby boy! He's going to ruin everything we planned"

"Oh my, if Sebastian's finds out he's going to be devastated"

Jane sighed and nodded worriedly before saying "I know! Ugh, that little bitch was smarter than I thought"

"What are we going to do now? If Blaine finds out he will never go ahead with leaving Kurt"

"Yes, I know, my baby boy is too nice to ever leave a tramp like him, wait… that cousin of Sebastian's the one you told me about, he still loves him right? Because I heard from one of the eavesdropping maids here that Blaine and Kurt had a fight over some boy in Kurt's college"

"Yes, he is still desperately trying to weave his way into Sebastian's life, even after the plane you to him to do a few weeks back"

"Hm, well Annie, I know exactly what we need to do, call Adam to your place and make sure Sebastian isn't home when you do this, it's time to go ahead with plane B, call Sebastian when we are done talking to Adam and then we can fill him in on the plan, I'm going to get rid of that fucking money whore if it's the last thing I do"

A/N: Like I said last time, I'm going to try to pick up the speed in this story so we can finish the first part and reach the second part of this.

Song used: Million Reasons-Lady Gaga

I love the song, because it speaks to me emotionally on another level with a lot of things in my life, so I had to make a mention of this song in this fanfic at least once.

But I hope you enjoyed reading and liked this little big bang at the end.

Hoping on reading your reactions in the review