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Chapter 14- Wanting

Gail stared down at the box on the table, a half dozen donuts sat there. The coffees next to them one with cream one without and sugars lying beside them, she had really thought this through, she was like that.

"Gail I think we work, and I know you went away but you had too, I get that and I missed you sure and it hurt how things got left but I want you." She sighed, she had tried to end things with Chris quickly and painlessly but he wasn't getting it. "I want you back. So here I am."
"I see that."
"Well, what do you say?"

"What are you asking?" She needed to hear him say it, so she could answer it without any lingering doubt for him.
"Well… I want you back,"
"So are you asking me to be your fuck-buddy?"
"What?! No."

"'cause that is what we were Chris, that's all it ever was, we weren't in a relationship."
"Yeah I thought that's what you wanted, you know, no strings no emotional messiness."
"And I thought I wanted that too." She had to admit; those were pretty much her exact words. She had wanted ease, that's half the reason she choose Chris.
"Want-ed, as in past tense? As in you want more, cause I can do that Gail." He was like an eager puppy.

"Chris, no, well yes, but no. I… I think I know I deserve more now, and I'm willing to be happy for the first time in a long time." Chris' face dropped slightly, but he recovered fast with a small solemn smile.
"I get it, you want more but not with me. You do deserve more Gail, I'm glad you see that even if its not with me." He let out a long breath, "I hope whoever they are they make you happy."
"They do. I am sorry Chris."
"You don't need to be."

She put her hand out to rub his arm, but he stepped into it giving her a big hug. Even with the 'deserving-wanting-to-be-happy' Gail this was still not how she communicated.
"Errr… Chris…"
"Oh right, yeah… so still no hugs." He chuckled slightly as he let go.
"Yeah."

"DIAZ? Diaz where the hell are you?" It was Swarek, he was calling from the middle of the station obviously fairly frustrated at the disappearance act Chris had pulled.
"Shit I said was going to get coffee. I better go." He ran out, glancing back slightly at her before disappearing completely.

Gail looked back down at the desk, at the now probably cold coffees. Shit. She checked the clock again, 11.40- double shit. She still had another 6 hours left, another 6 hours before she could go apologise to Holly, and another 6 hours sat in the evidence room going over everything that just happened and how she was going to make said apology, shit shit shit.

By 1 luckily someone eventually came to log some evidence unfortunately it was Officer Epstein. He entered with his head down, throwing the evidence bag on the table, Gail tried her hardest to be civil. She refused to let whatever it was they had effect the way she behaved at worked, no matter how much of a prick he was. She passed over the paperwork for him to fill out and she logged the evidence in. The only words that passed was when Dov had finished the paperwork and asked "Is that it?" to which she just nodded before he hastily left.

By 2 she had dug her phone out again attempting to write a text to the doctor.
'Thanks for the donuts' No- too avoiding.
'Sorry about earlier.' No- too admitting

She had sat there staring at her phone blankly for the most part.

By 3 she had finished all the donuts trying not to write and then delete anymore texts.

By 4 she finally cracked and sent a text.

'Hi'

By 5 she cracked again, with no reply from the doctor she sent another message.
'Can we talk?'

Then another

'tonight?'

By 6 even with the distraction of everyone coming in with their evidence before the shift change, she did something she really shouldn't have. She looked Holly up; address, contact information and a few speeding tickets came up, turned out Holly liked to go fast.

At 5.55 she was working at super-speed, she couldn't leave until all the evidence that came in on her shift was logged. 5.58- everything was away, she glanced at the door, 2 more minutes, if anything came in now she would be stuck her. She glanced across at the clock again, 5.58.40- just go!

knock knock
Goddammit- Holly looked around herself, she had literally, actually literally just sat down. The blanket was in her hand half way to it being around her, glass of wine had just been placed down next to her bowl of popcorn and the remote was on the arm of the sofa ready for her to hit play.

Holly waited, not moving, she counted to 5, if they really needed her they would have called or knocked again. 1… 2… 3… 4… 5. Prefect. She pulled the blanket completely over her and sunk into the sofa a little further.

knock knock

"God fucking dammit." Holly was not one to usually curse but she was in a foul mood. She jumped off the sofa, discarding the blanket and grabbing her wine storming towards her front door. Whoever was knocking was about to get the back end of all of Holly's frustration and anger, which she had hoped the long run and soak in the bath had rid her of, obviously not.

"What the fuck," She started whilst opening the deadbolt, "do you want?" She finally looked up as the door swung open.

"Errr… hi." It was Gail. Stood there, helmet dangling off one arm, take-out food in a bag held tightly against herself and a six pack of beer in the other arm.
"Hi." Holly was stunned.
"I bought food."

"Why?"

"You bought donuts." She simply stated as if that was an explanation.

Holly inspected her, she was out of uniform and her slightly wet hair would implied she had showered but it was only 6.30, and the previous night she mentioned how she didn't finish til 6 the next day. She must have rushed straight out of her shift, ordering food on the go, showered changed and sped straight her picking up the food on the way. She had come straight here, she must have planned it.

"What food?" Holly kept her voice stern, the blonde was trying but she wasn't going to let her off the hook so easily.
"Chinese, I got a mix."
"hmm… okay." She stepped away from the door making her way into her apartment, Gail following closely behind.

After a few minutes of silence, getting food on plates and Gail followed Holly over to the sofa. Usually their silences were comfortable, a break in conversation where the both just enjoyed each other's company, but this silence was heavy filled with all the things they wanted to say.

Holly couldn't help but speak even if she was hoping Gail would break first.
"I'm sorry I didn't reply to your texts I just needed some time to think. You blindsided me a bit today."
"Holly…"
"Gail no."
"No Holly you need to listen to me."

She was shocked at Gail assertiveness. Gail was a woman of few words and Holly without being cocky liked to think Gail spoke more with her than with most. But the way she held Holly's gaze and the seriousness of her tone, she knew whatever Gail had to say it was going to be important.

"I know what today with Chris must have looked like. It's not like that, not… not anymore. I… I don't do this…" She was gesturing between them, "I don't do talking about feelings, or dates or relationships or just being happy. What happened with Chris was just in the academy and was just sex." Holly knew she was frowning at that, she didn't care if it was childish. She didn't want that image. "And it didn't mean anything." Gail seemed almost pained speaking, she's really trying, "It's not like this… I…"

She didn't get a chance to finish her sentence as Holly's lips were on her again and Gail hummed into the kiss her hands finding their way quickly to the doctor's side trying to pull her forward, but just as quick as Holly's lips were on the blonde, she had pulled away.

"Just checking."
"Checking?"
"Yes, I've dated…no… I've been with straight people before Gail and I don't want to be someone's experiment again. But if you want to be my friend I can be that, so I was checking."
"Checking that I want you?" There was an amused expression playing on Gail's lips.

"Yes." Holly was blushing she could feel the heat rising, Gail was calling her out on her worry, she shouldn't have run off and she knows it, she should have replied let Gail explain.
"You get me to come all the way over her, after 6 hours sat in that evidence room on my own thinking of everything I just mucked up, with food and beer to apologise and you even got me to do sports… and you are worried that I don't want you."

Holly was biting at her bottom lip nodding nervously. You idiot. She looked up at Gail again, seeing beautiful blue eyes staring into her.

Holly was up grabbing both of their now empty plates and taking them back into the kitchen area. From the sofa Gail was able to turn and watch the brunette. She was just so… unknowingly gracefully beautiful. Gail shook her head attempting to compose herself. She took another swig of her beer finishing it off.

"Hey do you want another beer?" Holly called pulling her wine out of the fridge and pouring herself another glass. Holly had matched her glass for beer, Gail knew she knew that was Gail's second beer which meant she knew that if Gail had another one she couldn't drive. Does she want me to stay… should I stay…. Stop overthinking.

"Yeah sure, if you're sure." Gail turned back around on the sofa leaning over the back edge. Holly smiled back before walking over with her glass and another beer for Gail.

"Here you go," Gail noticed the way her hand lingered when Gail's fingers brushed the doctors.
"Thanks," she beamed at up her. Sliding slightly across the sofa she made it clear where she wanted the doctor to sit.

A coy lopsided grin which was quickly becoming one of her favourite sights spread across Holly's face before she obliged and sat down next to Gail even snuggling slightly closer into her side. Gail wasn't used to this sort of intimacy but she liked it and she was trying. Not knowing what to do she reverted to what she thought might be expected.

It was one of the corniest things Gail has ever done, shifting her beer into her other hand and wriggling her arm out she did it. Forcing a yawn and slight stretch she slowly extended her arm around the doctor bring it to rest on her shoulder.

She could feel the doctor vibrating next to her, "Are you laughing at me?!"
"I'm sorry," The amusement in her voice was obviously, "I just…" Now she wasn't even trying to hide it, she was in full hysterics "Did you actually just do that?"

"Well if that's how you feel…" She started to take her arm back before Holly grabbed it by her wrist pulling it back down.
"Hey. Just cause it was cheesy doesn't mean I don't like it."

There it was again, that feeling the doctor kept making her feel. It was more than happiness and she didn't quite know how to describe it. She leant her head back down on top of the doctors.

"Do you want to watch a film or something?"
"Yeah sure what do you have?" Holly picked up the remote and starting flicking through her TiVo. "Hang on…" Holly stiffened beside her, busted. "Was that Sons of Anarchy?"

"Errr, yeah it might be… well I was curious and was doing lots of research on motorcycle clubs and stuff…" Holly was on a roll and Gail was trying to not let her smile show. "And lots of the website kept mentioning the show and so I thought maybe I should watch it and then its quite addictive and I was still on leave so I watched some…"

"How much?" Gail interrupted her.
"What?" Holly turned slightly still in Gail's embrace.
"How much did you watch?"
"Aroundseasonthree" Holly mumbled out.
"Season three?" Gail couldn't hold her smile in anymore. This beautiful woman was so curious about her that she researched her and motorcycle gangs and now started watching SoA. She felt the doctor nodding into her. "Well we can watch that if you want?"

"Really? You've seen it?"
"Yeah before I started my undercover stuff I did some research too." Holly hit the remote and the episode came up on the screen, Holly settled further into Gail, her head finding its way into her lap and stretching her own legs out across the sofa. About half way through the episode Gail's hand had found its way onto Holly's hair and brushing it repeatedly when she spoke up causing Gail to freeze in her actions.
"So does this make me your old lady?"

Gail was stumped, she knew the connotation of the word, she might as well have said girlfriend. The panic must have been written all over her face because the next thing she knew Holly was sat up on the sofa leaving a small, but what felt like a giant, distance between them.

"Gail, I'm sorry, I was just joking," No no no, she thinks…. She acted before she could doubt herself.

Practically lunging at the doctor she captured her lips in a crashing kiss. They both feel backwards in the far arm of the sofa Gail sliding her way up Holly's body refusing to end her new favourite activity so soon. Holly who was initially taken by surprise started reacting into the kiss, her hands snaked around Gail's back pulling her flush against her.

Gail broke the kiss keeping her face close to the doctor's, her lips ghosting the brunette's as she spoke. "Do you want to be?"
Holly blinked a few time beneath her, struggling to find the words, "I… what?"
Gail chuckled, "Cat got your tongue?"
"I thought your name was Gail?" Holly wriggled her eyebrows. Touché

Gail leant in again this time Holly meet her half way before pulling her back down as she fell back in the sofa. It was slower than all their previous kisses they were taking their time, the kisses were gentle but wanting. Holly's hand were around Gail head and neck before one starting drifting down her back. Not fair… Gail wanted to touch Holly to feel her under her, manoeuvring slightly she leant her weight on one of her bent arm by the doctors shoulders allowing her left arm to wander.

The slight movement though had caused her belt buckle to rub in and Holly hips jolting slightly against her, her mouth dropping open in a deep appreciative moan. That was all the invitation Gail needed. Her tongue sort out the doctor's, who deepened the kiss further pulling Gail's impossibly closer, while Gail's hand had found the doctor's hip gripped as she 'manoeuvred' herself again atop the doctor.

The kisses became more passionate so quickly; she could hear the moans and breathlessness of the doctor through them. Holly's own hands didn't stay still for long, one ended on Gail's ass trying to pull her in and speed up the agonizingly slow pace she had set, the other was causing havoc for Gail; slowly making a path underneath her from her hip just to the base of her breasts the doctor's surely talented fingers gazing them every so lightly before starting their trail back down.

It was Holly's fourth journey with her hand when it dipped slightly lower and under Gail's top, and Gail couldn't control herself anymore. Her hand, which had now made its way up the doctor's thigh, slammed down beside them on sofa trying to steady herself as her body trembled at the contact. Its been a while that's all… focus on something else… Family… Grandmother… Steve… Mother…Oh God Elaine… eggs… tomatoes…. Holly's hands… Holly…. Gail couldn't keep her thoughts in line though, she was getting worked up very quickly, too quickly, as Holly's hand made its way past her rib cage to the base of her breast and it didn't stop.

Her mind went blank for an instance the only thing she knew for sure was the feeling of Holly's hands cupping her over her bra. She broke away from the kiss as a deep guttural moan escaped her. Looking up at the doctor, her parted swollen lips and darken eyes she knew everything she needed too; she wants you too.

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