A/N: Kerii-tan: Welcome back, everyone! How are you? ^ ^
I'm as dandy as candy, but anyways.
Len gets a bit upset in this chapter, and you'll see why.
But I won't go on like this, so let's get right to the important stuff.
Editing: Sayaka-chan Forever [her fics are cool go read In Ruins.]
Characters: Not owned by me, at all, Crypton Future Media, blahhh.
Okay, now let's start with chapter 14, yes?
Chapter 14- Len's POV
The room was deadly silent, except for the constant beeping from the machine or the heartbeats and breaths that would echo in this room with machines and wires. All I did was stare at the floor shamefully, while trying to prevent myself from keeling over. I also couldn't help but wallow in my self-pity. I've caused Rin's upgrade error. She has an error because of me; because I chose to love her. I chose to have feelings for her, only thinking of myself, and now this is what I have done. I've done something bad to her without even trying. I bit my lip, tightly shutting my eyes, and clenched my fists against the freezing cold chrome flooring. I turned to the side slightly, and opened my eyes, squinting. I'm pathetic.
"Len-kun…" Miku knelt besides me, putting her arm on my shoulder, the warmth of her breath radiating onto my left cheek. "You…you didn't know. It's not your fault. …And this means Rin-chan likes you too, right…?" she said quietly, only for me to hear. I glanced at her for a short moment, observing her sad, wet eyes that shone from the light reflecting against the floor, but I looked away. Her pitying eyes made me feel self-conscious; so upset.
"…Kagamine Len and Rin love each other." Sonika said after a moment, actually not looking at the computer screen or managing the large machine. I raised my head up at her, my face wearing a pained expression, and she tilted her head, sadly.
I love Rin, and she loves me. That's a good thing. So why do I feel so…upset…? And dead inside…? This isn't fair for Rin. It never was. How can she go on with life like this? It's so…I don't know. I just…I just feel like screaming…
"Wait a moment."
We all looked up at Luka, and she had a serious look on. Her eyes looked confused almost, and she tilted her head to the right.
"Len-kun…your…mother would never…approve of this." She said, looking at me. I widened my eyes in astonishment. …My mother would never…?
"…That's…incest." She finished, and then I snapped. Literally snapped. Like electricity in dry air. My feelings exploded like a bomb and I screamed at her. Like no one but us were in the room. I only wanted to scream at her with all my anger and frustration and sorrow and… love.
"She is not my mother! We don't have parents, Luka!" I stood up and walked towards her, still yelling. "We VOCALOIDs never have or will! We're robots, remember? My "mother" doesn't care about me at all! She doesn't care about any of us!"
Luka looked taken aback, but she stayed calm, which of course only made me feel more angered and emotional. That…that-!
"Then what about the incident with Yowane Haku? And all those meetings we'd have to go to that she'd strongly encourage?" she asked somewhat smugly, and I snorted.
"She only did that because when Yowane Haku died because of her "incident", she lost a lot of money that we make for her. And to prevent that from happening again, she had to make sure constantly that we never died like she did!" I yelled into Luka's face angrily, close to tears for some reason. I felt like crying. And I was not sure what Miku and Mikuo and Dell and Sonika were doing, I was only focusing on me and Luka; what was in front of me that seemed so calm and "motherly", but in the end, created another problem for Rin. And now, I was incredibly infuriated by her comment that truly, I could have cared less about.
"Len-kun, please stop yelling like that."
"Why should I ca—?" Before I got to finish my sentence, Luka pushed my face with her hand towards everyone else. What I saw made my heart sink, and I immediately felt ashamed of what I have just done. Miku's face was so scared, and I haven't even noticed she was crying again. But she was looking at me, terrified, all those tears and fear in her eyes, and I gasped quietly, shocked. Dell was holding her, but he just stared at the floor with his same-old apathetic look on. Mikuo was giving me a considerably condescending look that made me regret yelling… The way he just kind of…glared at me, almost. It made me feel so…hurt inside. And there was Sonika, who was just sadly looking at Rin, who, to much of my disappointment, was still asleep.
I didn't say anything; I only looked down to the floor and squeezed my eyes shut. I've…I've said too much…But…I don't care what she thinks. Why should that stop me and Rin from loving each other…? How stupid…!
I clenched my fists and took a deep breath; I turned around to Luka, praying that I looked strong and serious.
"…But Luka-san, I…I won't let her get in the way of me and Rin. I already love her, and there's nothing she can do about it. I don't care about incest or what my guardian thinks." I still stared straight into Luka's glacier blue eyes, and she sighed.
"Alright, Len-kun…I was just telling you, so…" she only said quietly. I nodded thanks and turned to the others. They all looked at me, and I tried to smile.
"I'm sorry, everyone." I turned to Rin sadly, and went on. "I…I don't know what came over me, I'm sorry."
Miku sniffed, nodding, while Dell just gave me a somewhat approving look. Mikuo nodded, and Sonika simply smiled. I turned back around to Luka and she raised her eyebrows.
"…And I'm sorry, Luka-san, for yelling at you." I apologized, and she smiled at me.
"That's quite alright, Len-kun. Thank you."
I smiled weakly at her and slowly walked over to Rin's side. I knelt besides the gurney and sighed, patting her head gently. Rin, and I'm sorry too. Sorry that I contributed to your error…Sorry that you have to go through this. It's not your fault. …Why do we loving each other have to be such a problem for the both of us…? But… Suddenly, my heart started beating very fast, and I felt my face turn hot and I bit my lip nervously. …But you…really love me, too…?
"I suppose Kagamine Rin and Len love each other because…" Sonika started to say randomly out of the silence as if she read my mind, which made me jump. "…Well, they must feel a…very intense connection as twins, and there must be some type of opposite attraction of ACTs…" she trailed off, looking at the computer screen again. "It's strange, because…we haven't done an upgrade like this for a very long time. I thought all the ACT1 VOCALOIDs were gone, but I guess not. Kagamine Rin is the first we've had in a very long while." I looked back at Rin and an overwhelming urge came over me to hug her, but in her position, that'd be slightly difficult…
"So…Will she ever be upgraded correctly…?" Miku asked Sonika, and she sighed, running her hand through her bangs.
"No…she won't, unfortunately." She said, and then a question came to me out of the blue that I had to ask.
"But…when will she wake up?" I asked, curious, and Sonika's face turned depressed and she shook her head.
"Well, she needs some time to recover from the error. All we can do is wait. And even after she wakes up, she'll only have limited amount of time to live."
Wait…what…?
"…The time for her to live is uncertain and we're not quite sure how long it'll be because it's different for everyone, but…" she paused, looking up.
I couldn't feel anything. I couldn't breathe, although my heart was beating so hard against my chest and my blood was flowing faster then normal. I couldn't take my eyes off of Sonika, her words taking so long for me to process. And I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe it at all.
"So…Rin's going to…?" I started to say, but didn't finish; I couldn't.
Sonika looked at me smiling sadly, and shook her head, looking close to tears.
"Yes, I'm sorry, but Kagamine Rin will die soon."
-CHAPTER 14: END-
A/N: Kerii-tan: AGGGGH WHAT?
You're probably thinking how the heck am I gonna pull this off, aren't you?
Well, you'll see, you'll see. I will come through in flying colors! 8DDD /hit.
But anyways, REVIEW PLEEEASE, because you love me. /kicked.