Surprises Ch14

A/N: So sorry that it has taken me forever to update, things have seem to get away from me, and I have been stretched too thin, unfortunately something had to give and it was the writing. Hopefully I'm back … for a while at least.

"JJ please calm down. I am going to be ok.. I do think that we need to talk though"

"You're definitely right about that Em, but right now your daughter needs to see you, and you need to see her too"

With that JJ went out to the hall way and brought Anna in

"mama, boo boo" the little girl said pointing at the bruise that was forming on the side of Emily's head

"yea, sweetie, mama has a boo boo, but I will be ok"

After a few minutes Anna just snuggled up next to her mom, and fell asleep. Emily then called JJ back in so that they could talk.

"JJ I know that there are ten million things that you want to say right now, and I want you to say them. I want to know what you are thinking and what you are feeling.. If we can't have an honest conversation then we are never going to figure whatever this is out"

"Ok, but you are going to be getting more then you asked for"

"I can handle it.. I promise"

"Emily 4 years ago I saw that you were in love, I knew that Alex made you happy, and I was glad that you were finally going to be happy, but I was also sad because I wasn't the one that was going to be making you happy. I tried to keep my emotions bottled up, and just let you have your glow, but then you decided that you wanted to start a family, it was then when I knew that I was just going to have to get over what I was feeling and move on, But soon after Alex just disappeared and I knew that now was not the time to tell you how I felt, so I stayed by your side, as a friend and someone that you could count on, and the more that I was around you and Anna the more that I was falling in love with you. The sad part was that even though Alex was gone, you were still grieving her and I always felt that I had to compete with her. I can't compete with memories Em, and after a while I just stopped trying. But that doesn't mean that my feelings changed, it just meant that if this was going to turn into something more then you had to be the one that came to me"

"wow, Jen, why didn't you say anything before, if you had you would have realized that the feelings were equal. Yes, I loved Alex, hell I think that I will always love Alex, she is the mother of my child, but I knew long ago that she wasn't coming back, but to be honest my gaydar must be broken because I thought that you couldn't be any less interested in wanting something more"

"hmm, for being profilers be both kind of suck don't we?"

"It seems that way"

"now our problem, is that we are here and Alex is back and I don't know what to do now Em. If you want Alex I will stand beside your decision and keep my place where I am, but to be honest I don't want to have to do that anymore"

"I hope that you won't have to, I don't know how to answer your question Jen, I know that seeing Alex here was a shock and I let my emotions get the better of me on more than one occasion, and I can't just walk away from New York and never look back especially now that Zoe knows that Alex is her mother. But what I can promise is that I will figure it out and I will try my best not to push you aside as I do, and I will think before I act. I mean I know that you know that I slept with Alex, and so Olivia probably knows as well, yet she still risked her life to save mine. I owe her, and because of that I can't not take her feelings into consideration anymore either. I think that this is something that we are all going to have to sit down and talk about. There are a lot of questions that need answers and a lot of stuff that needs to be figured out"

With that they let the topic drop for a little while as they sat there holding hands, Emily ended up falling back to sleep and JJ just sat at her side, often switching her view from what was on t.v to watching Anna and Emily sleep.

A/N: so what do we think about my update. I know that it still has a way to go, but I'm hoping to get back into it.. Next chapter is being written now, and it will be a conversation with Olivia and Alex, hope to see your review