Live Fast

Chapter 10

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"Casey…I have protection." he said before kissing her. "I have protection." he repeated.

"I know…me too. But, I've never done this before. What if I'm not emotionally ready for this kind of commitment?" Derek pulled entirely away from her.

"We have to stop, then." he said understanding. "It happens when it happens." he said gazing into her eyes with his own lustful ones. "If we did do it, then it would be me who took your virginity. I don't know if I could handle that."

"For some reason thinking about it being you, makes this fear inside me just….dissolve into anticipation."

Derek didn't know what was going to happen next.

He was scared.

XOXO

Derek weighed his options but in the long run, he knew exactly which one he would pick. It's the one his gut told him to pick.

"Honestly…I don't think either of us are ready …for this." he said insinuating the two standing right across from each other. "Yet, at least." Casey nodded.

"You're completely right, Derek." realization hit her. "I hate losing control. It didn't hit me till now for me to realize how easy it is letting temptation take over your body." she said. "That scares me more than anything."

"So, we agree?" he asked, hands in his pockets as he looked at her nervously.

"Entirely." she said. The two stood their awkwardly unsure of what to do or say to each other.

"Wanna get some pie?" Derek asked her, trying to break the ice.

"Absolutely." Casey couldn't have said fast enough.

After the two of them finished off an entire pie; which might I add was not even close to the delightful taste of The Pie Hole's specialties, they made it home to their dark and dim apartment.

They walked in, Derek closing the front door and Casey switching the light on.

"Dessert was good." Casey said setting her purse down. "Thanks."

"That was the best pie I've ever had." Derek said.

"You say that about almost everything you eat." she said laughing lightly.

"I like food." he said smirking as he started rolling up his sleeves to his elbows.

"Anyway, I think I'm gonna go to bed." she said informing him. "So, I'll see you tomorrow."

He nodded.

"See you tomorrow." he said standing there, finishing his left sleeve, not looking at her.

Derek looked up at her when he saw her standing there still. She knew she got caught staring at him. She smiled nervously before she quickly disappeared into her room. Derek released a sigh and rubbed the back of his head before smirking. Casey had impressed him all night and he wasn't used to that.

He laid on his bed; still dressed in his jeans and shirt he wore earlier. The darkness of the room surrounded him and they only thing he could stare at was his clock which read 3:15am. He couldn't fall asleep no matter how hard he tried.

Casey too couldn't sleep. She had to think about what happened that night. It was strange though, she knew that she had acted out of character but sitting outside on the balcony at that moment made everything seem okay. The stars above her sparkled and shined so bright that she couldn't help but feel safe and hopeful with them hanging above her.

"Most of those stars are already dead." a deep voice said behind her.

"They're alive to me." Casey said, not moving a muscle as she gazed longingly at the night sky. She was laying back on a sun chair, feet-crossed and one hand behind her head.

"What are you doing out here?" He asked laying on the sun chair next to hers, trying to see what she saw in the sky.

"For some reason, I couldn't sleep." she said turning her head to look at him. "I have no idea why." she couldn't help but let a small smile escape her lips, as Derek locked eyes with her. She turned her head and looked back at the glorious sky. But, Derek continued to look at her. He was fixated with her. It was amazing how fast somebody's mindset could change and Derek's changed so abruptly when it came to Casey. Not to mention, being an 18 year old boy didn't help the fact that his attractiveness for Casey grew stronger and stronger the more he saw her.

When Derek was lying in his bed, his thoughts ran back and forth thinking about how his body was feeling, the excitement he got from her touch. The thrill he felt almost giving into her appeal. He was going out of his mind thinking about what almost happened and how he regretted it not happening as he laid alone in his bed.

So now here he was. Sitting on the balcony, gazing longingly at the girl who made him reevaluate everything. She was taunting him but not on purpose, which only made him want her more. She just laid back on her chair looking so tempting. He felt so vulnerable…and he couldn't take this aching feeling of want and desire running through his body any longer.

So, he let his actions take him over as he got off his chair swiftly and sat on the end of her chair. Not wasting a second, he reached over, grabbed the side of Casey's face and leaned in briskly and kissed her. He kissed her mouth ravishly with his own. She was not hesitating on her part, either. As soon as Derek felt her kissing him back; which started about a second after their lips connected, he leaned in to her, making the two come closer together if possible.

Casey's mind was corrupted by Derek's weight on her. His lingering cologne was so overpowering, in the good sense. It made her feel lightheaded just thinking about how good he smelt.

At this point, he was pretty much hovering right above her, trying to hold his weight up, but Casey could still feel his tight upper body against hers. The kiss had matured when he started kissing down her neck as his left hand managed to slip past the bottom part of her shirt, making skin contact. Derek continued to support himself with his right arm.

Slowly, his left hand began to ride up under her shirt.

"We said we wouldn't." Casey said trying to hold back her want. "This is crazy." she said looking into his dark eyes as he pulled his lips away and looked down at the girl he was crushing below him.

"Yeah. That's why I trust it." Derek said before he smirked. "Casey…please don't do this to me again." Derek said truthful. "I am going insane wondering why you can make me feel this way. I need to know."

"What are you feeling?" she asked quietly and curious, like a child.

"Horny?" he asked her as a question, smirking.

"Derek, seriously."

"Fine." he said his expression becoming serious. "Right now I feel excited…and crazed." he took a second to think. "A rush is flying through my veins and I feel a strange feeling I haven't felt before." he said trying to think. "All I know is that I can't stop this time. I can't sleep because of you! And I want to sleep! I love to sleep! So, fix it!" he said his eyes piercing through hers; abrasive and domineeringly.

"You're such a drama queen." Casey said laughing as she leaned up and kissed Derek passionately.

He slowly reached into his back pocket and pulled a small packet out.

"Derek." she said breaking away. "We are not doing anything on this balcony."

"No one can see us! It's 3 in the morning and our next door neighbor is an 80 year old woman from Russia who hasn't stepped out on her balcony for twenty years."

"Uh, no." she said pushing Derek off her as he went flying off the chair.

"Where's your sense of adventure?" he asked as she got off the chair and walked back into the apartment.

"You were my sense of adventure, remember?" she said opening the fridge. Derek walked up right behind her and slammed the fridge door shut. Casey turned around and Derek pinned her to the door.

"Casey…just live. Live before you're dead." he said trying to break through to her. "You have to live fast before the opportunities are gone! My heart is beating faster than a drum and I can't hear my own thoughts and it's because I'm in love with you and that drives me insane because I never even thought I could stand to be in the same room with you! Tell me why I hate you so much but even though I hate you, I still manage to love you! I don't understand it! I don't understand anything anymore!" he needed to breath; he was just yelling in her face and she didn't do anything to calm him down. She wanted to hear what he had been thinking. And she did.

"You love me?" she asked disbelieved. She was swooned by his words and not just the fact that the shadows and moon played the features on his face. He attacked her mouth with his, holding back nothing so she would see the point. His kiss was strong and passionate like the kind you see in movies. The kind that makes your own heart flutter even though it's not happening to you. But, as fast as his lips came, they were gone.

"Opportunities are gone that fast." he said snapping his fingers in the silence that surrounded them.

A/N-Hey Guys!! I'm just starting to get my writing rhythm back so give me a break! I had slight writer's block but I am trying! I hope this chapter didn't feel rushed to you!! Please leave a review and tell me what you think? I also need to know what you guys expect in upcoming chapters. I need to know what you all like to read about! So, please don't be shy!!

BTW: Props to James Dean for "Live Fast". RIP