Back to Sebastian's POV … because I just love writing him.
As always, thanks to my Beta KioshiUshima.
Chapter 14 Constant struggle, occasional victories
"Nice comeback," Sebastian chuckles.
"Thanks," Kurt mumbles into his chest, not showing the slightest inclination to move any time soon.
But that's totally fine with Sebastian. His arms are still wrapped around the succubus, and he wouldn't mind staying like this for the rest of the night.
Which is another first for him.
Cuddling after a heavy make-out session.
It doesn't feel like a duty, like he always thought it would be. No, it's the complete opposite. It feels good, kinda … right. But he would never, ever, say that out loud.
They stay like this for a few more minutes before Kurt moves off him. But he doesn't go far, he just lies down next to Sebastian.
"How are you feeling?" Kurt asks. His voice is soft and utterly caring. It does things to Sebastian, that he isn't sure he likes.
"Shouldn't I be the one asking you?" Sebastian retorts, moving to face the succubus.
"You know what I mean."
"A little woozy, I guess," Sebastian admits, "but otherwise I'm fantastic. Now show me your stomach."
Kurt complies without kicking up a fuss, rolling onto his back. Sebastian slightly leans over him, letting his fingers run over Kurt's stomach. His skin looks perfect again. The wounds are completely gone. "Does it still hurt?"
"No," Kurt answers. He sounds just as amazed as Sebastian feels. Not that he had any doubts, but seeing it with your own eyes is different from just reading or hearing about it. Sebastian keeps examining his skin until Kurt calls his attention by cupping his face and pulling him closer.
"Thank you." There is so much gratitude in his blue eyes, and longing, the vampire has no choice but to respond in kind.
"My pleasure," Sebastian breathes, closing the gap between them.
This kiss is different.
Even though he initiated the kiss, Sebastian lets Kurt set the rhythm, just following his lead. It's slow, almost reverent, and it's utterly exciting. There are so many little things he missed before. Like the way Kurt pulls his bottom lip between his teeth, tugging gently before swiping his tongue over it. Or the way he angles his head to deepen their kisses just a bit more …
Unfortunately, just when it's starting to get interesting, Kurt stops and pulls away, breathing heavily. "We need … we need to get dressed. Jeff gave us two hours, and I'm sure they are almost over."
"Buzzkill," Sebastian grumbles, but complies nevertheless.
But only because he can sense Kurt's urgency, not because he wants to.
Kurt is right though.
They have only twenty minutes left to spare, which means they do have to hurry.
That's why Sebastian suggests that they take the shower together. And why shouldn't they? After everything they did so far, seeing each other completely naked is the next logical step. And it would be fun, too, lathering each other with soap.
Of course, Kurt declines his offer, politely but firmly. Which isn't really a surprise. Maybe it's too soon for him. Or maybe he simply doesn't want to take this, whatever this is between them, any further. Which would be a pity, but something Sebastian could live with.
There are other fishes in the sea.
They both shower in record time, getting dressed equally as fast. They even have enough time clean up the mess in the bathroom. Kurt makes sure there are no blood spatters to be found, while Sebastian gathers up the soiled tissues and Kurt's shredded shirt, stuffing everything in a plastic bag and hiding it in the back of his closet. They can't just leave anything lying around for the Brownie to find, and their closets are the only space that's off limits.
"You need to take that with you the next time you leave Dalton," Sebastian instructs, and his roommate agrees with a nod. Then he walks over to his window, opening it. Getting rid of all the physical evidence is one thing, but the room still reeks of blood and sex. True, the smell doesn't bother Sebastian in the slightest. Actually, if he could he would bottle the fragrance and call it 'Kurtbastian'.
But something tells him that Kurt has a problem with being reminded of what just transpired between them.
Apparently, it's not just a hunch, because when they are about the leave the room, Kurt grabs Sebastian's arm and stops him, clearly demanding his attention.
"We can't keep doing this."
"I beg to differ."
"Of course, you do." The succubus huffs. "I'm not talking about the feeding. Well, that too. Sooner or later someone will notice something, and I don't want to get either one of us in trouble. But I'm talking about the other thing."
"The sex?" Sebastian translates, adding with a smirk, "Honey, if you are doing it, you should be able to say it."
"Yes, I mean the sex." Kurt exclaims, blushing like crazy. It's cute, but kinda redundant. But maybe he just realized that he isn't a virgin anymore. Well, he still is, technically, but not in the true sense of the word. And Sebastian gets it, sort of. Taking that step is a big deal for some people. But it's also natural to indulge in one's sexual desire.
"Don't tell me you didn't enjoy it?" Sebastian remarks, cheekily.
"That's not the issue." Kurt sighs, not even trying to deny it. Probably because he knows Sebastian would be able to call him out on a lie.
"Then what's your problem?"
"You."
Rejection stings.
Next to hunger it's without a doubt the worst thing Sebastian has ever experienced.
"Well, well, well, Hummel. I didn't know you had it in you. Crushing a man's ego with a single word … that's quite an achievement." Sebastian remarks, snidely. For once he doesn't care if his wounded pride is showing on his face or not. A part of him wants Kurt to know how much he just hurt him. "Well, at least I know where I stand."
"You know, I didn't mean it like that." Kurt defends himself, fervently.
"Sure, you didn't." Sebastian scoffs.
"I didn't." Kurt repeats, emphasizing the last part. "I really wish we had more time to talk about this," he sighs, "I don't have any experience with this. So sue me, if I make mistakes expressing myself. But this thing between us … whatever it is … it scares the crap out of me. I know you don't do relationships, and that's okay. But I'm not like you. I can't just jump into bed with someone and play it down. I'm not wired that way despite what people may believe about my kind. It's already hard for me to tell my feelings and my urges apart. And doing those things with you … as much fun as it is … I just can't …"
"Okay, okay, I get it." Sebastian interrupts. As much as he wants to listen to Kurt's rambling, the succubus is right. Now is not the time. "You need some time to figure things out."
"Do you really mean that? Or are you just saying it to shut me up?" Kurt asks, eyeing him with suspicion.
"If I just wanted to shut you up, I would simply kiss you again." Sebastian points out.
Instead of getting angry, Kurt laughs. "I take that as a yes."
"If you like …" Sebastian smirks. He is glad Kurt loosened up some. All this touchy feely stuff is making him extremely uncomfortable, and being able to literally sense Kurt's discomfort isn't helping either. "We really should be going. Unless you want Jeff to burst in here and make a scene …"
"No, you are right. Let's go." Kurt says, moving past him to open the door. But just before he walks through, he turns around and winks at him. "But just for the record, I think you are a great kisser."
For a moment Sebastian is completely stunned, but he recovers quickly. "You are such a tease."
"Takes one to know one," Kurt shrugs, walking down the corridor.
Sebastian can think of a few witty comebacks off the top of his head, but he decides to keep his mouth shut this time. Sure, the hall is quiet and all doors are closed, but given his track record, he doesn't want to take any chances, like yelling something after his roommate which could arouse suspicion. With a shake of his head and a smile on his face, Sebastian closes the door behind him and follows Kurt.
'This is far from over, succubus.'
They don't have to go far, since Nick and Jeff live on the same floor.
Kurt, being the polite one of them, knocks before he enters their friends' room.
"Wow, look at that. You're punctual on the minute." Nick remarks from his spot on the window sill. "Jeff was just about to go and get you."
The nymph rolls his eyes, but doesn't contradict his boyfriend. "Did you guys make some progress?"
"I don't know. What do you think, Kurt?" Sebastian smirks.
"We still have a lot of kinks to work out, but yes, I think we made some progress." Kurt replies, not rising to the bait. He just gives Sebastian a hard look before he turns his attention back to Jeff and the table full of food. "Wow, you really outdid yourself. This looks great."
"Cas helped." Jeff admits, blushing at the compliment, but never one for taking credit for someone else's work. "Well, go ahead. You must be starving."
Sebastian doubts that's the case, but apparently he is wrong. Kurt takes a seat on the couch next to Jeff and grabs a sandwich. He takes a small bite and moans in appreciation. It's cute and kinda distracting, but certainly not faked. Maybe he is not ravenous, but he certainly has an appetite.
'Come to think of it, I could eat something too.' Sebastian decides, helping himself to another sandwich and plopping down on the floor.
"Did we miss anything?" Kurt asks, dipping a carrot stick into what looks like guacamole.
"No," Nick replies, "But the moon just rose. So, I guess, things will get more interesting pretty soon."
Right on cue, a loud animal sound echoes through the backyard. It almost sounds like a battle cry.
"What the hell was that?" Kurt jerks. "That didn't sound like a howl, more like a roar."
"It was." Nick grins, "That's Josh."
"Josh?" Kurt frowns.
"He is a werebear."
"Really?"
Sebastian understands his reaction. Sure, he had been able to tell that Josh is a shifter right from the start, but not what kind. Going by his physical appearances, he had gone with a mouse or a deer perhaps. After all, how could someone as small and wiry as Josh be a bear? But looks can be deceiving. He would have never guessed that Kurt is a succubus if Jeff hadn't told him.
"Looks like he is going after one of the wolves." Nick comments, squinting his eyes. "Wait a minute … I think it's Blaine."
"Huh, I wonder why?" Sebastian grumbles, reaching for the popcorn. "Maybe someone has been a bad puppy and needs to be punished …"
It's clear that Kurt heard him, but apparently his worry over Blaine's well-being outweighs his need to put Sebastian in his place. Without even so much as a disapproving look, Kurt jumps on his feet and runs over to the window.
"Where?"
"Over there." Nick points to the left. "They are gone now, vanished into the woods. Don't worry, Kurt. I'm sure Blaine is fine. Considering how fast he is, he can easily outrun Josh."
Kurt nods in agreement, but Sebastian can tell he is still worried. If he could he probably would go right out there and look for his furry friend, making sure that he is in fact okay.
And a part of Sebastian gets it. They are friends. They care about each other. But after what happened, Kurt should no longer feel this way about the werewolf. He should be angry, just like he is. Angry and quickly losing it …
His fangs punch out of his gums in primal, urgent response.
His hands are balled into fists.
His blood is practically boiling in his veins.
Sebastian has no idea why he is so pissed off all of the sudden. Maybe it's the memory of Kurt's perfect skin, all scratched up and bloody. Maybe it's Kurt's naivety. Whatever it is, he knows he needs to get out of here, and fast.
"Where are you going?" Jeff asks.
"I'm tired." Sebastian grunts, avoiding eye contact with the nymph. "I'm going to bed."
"Okay," Jeff replies. He is clearly puzzled by Sebastian's sudden departure, but he is smart enough not to try and hold him back. And fortunately, so are Nick and Kurt. "See you, tomorrow."
"Yeah sure," the vampire agrees and then he is out the door, practically running down the hall. He closes the door behind him with more force than necessary and slumps back against it, breathing heavily.
Sebastian has never had a panic attack before, but this certainly feels like one. Thankfully, the window is open. The fresh air seems to help. That is until he hears a wolf howling.
"You may be able to outrun Josh, Blaine, but wait until I get my hands on you."
Sebastian doesn't make good on his threat, though.
He wants to.
Of course, he does.
But he decides to keep his distance instead, from Blaine and from Kurt.
Well, he tries to do the latter. But it's not easy when he shares a room with the succubus, and more importantly when he is able to sense Kurt's longing. Sure, he can't be completely certain it's directed at him, especially when they are around other people, but a part of him hopes he is the object of the succubus' hunger.
God, he is turning in such a sap.
Sure, he wants Kurt, sexually speaking, and he certainly wouldn't mind taking another sip from his vein, but he doesn't want anything more. So why does he feel this way? All tense and angry when Kurt is hanging out with wolves, and especially when he sees him with Blaine. Sure, he always loathed the guy, but this is different, more intense. The vampire tries to chalk it up to being angry at the shifter for hurting Kurt, but deep down he knows it's more than that. It has to be.
Unfortunately Kurt doesn't make his plan to keep his distance very easy.
Out of nowhere he suddenly decides to come and watch him play Lacrosse.
Okay, maybe he isn't here to watch him. There are other players, but aside from Josh, he barely knows any of the others guys. Okay, he does, but as far as Sebastian knows Kurt isn't very keen about spending time with Hunter and his goons.
Unfortunately, having Kurt watch him doesn't improve his game. If anything, he makes more mistakes than he usually does, like his roommate's presence is making him nervous or something. Which is completely ludicrous, of course. Nobody makes him nervous.
It's a good thing he is not alone on the field and his teammates aren't suffering from the same affliction he is. They win in the end, but it's a close call.
Everyone leaves quickly after the game is over. No wonder, it's pretty cold and it's starting to drizzle. From the corner of his eyes, he sees Jeff taking Kurt's hand, leading him away. The only one deciding to stay behind, besides him, is Nick.
"Don't you wanna go with them?" Sebastian grumbles, emptying the ball basket on the ground. Then he snatches one up with his stick and hurls it in the directing of the goal. He hits it, but just barely. What's wrong with him?
"No," Nick replies, "Kurt and Jeff have a date."
The word doesn't sit right with him, and apparently it shows.
"It's not what you think," Nick rolls his eyes at him. "They're just having another cooking session with Cas. Like I would ever let someone take Jeff away from me. We are bonded, for crying out loud. Kurt might not know what it means, but you do."
"Whatever," Sebastian shrugs, "What are you still doing here?"
"You and I need to talk."
"No, we don't."
"Yes, we do." Nick persists, clearly not taking no for an answer. He picks up a lacrosse stick left behind by one of his teammates and walks over to Sebastian. "I'll make you a deal. If I manage to get this ball past you and hit the goal, you'll answer my questions. If I miss, I'll leave."
As bets go, this is an easy one to win. Nick might know pretty much everything about anything, but knowing how something works in theory doesn't mean you can put it into action. Sure, Sebastian isn't at the top of his game, but still, Nick doesn't stand a chance against him.
"Alright, let's do this." Sebastian agrees, walking over to the goal, positioning himself in front of it.
Nick smiles, clearly feeling confident to win this. As if. He takes a few moments to get the right grip on the stick, and then he takes a swing. The ball sails through the air at an unexpected velocity … right past Sebastian's stick, hitting the inner net in the upper left corner.
"Oh my God," Nick exclaims, clearly just as surprised as Sebastian that he hit the goal on the first try. "I did it. I wish Jeff had been here to see that."
"Lucky shot." Sebastian grumbles.
"Maybe." Nick allows, still grinning like a loon. "But I've been watching you for months. I know your blind spot is your left side. Anyway … a deal is a deal."
"Fine. Just go ahead and ask your question."
"What's going on between you and Kurt?"