Nessie: I'm sorry
Jacob: What for, being attractive to me( a low laugh)
Nessie: Know for being stupid and not realising how you feel
Jacob: No, your not stupid I'm the one who can't keep his thoughts to himself even your dad heard what I thought how sick am I ( his head now resting in his head)
Nessie: My dad. What?
I looked at him like I was crazy and yet it was funny.
Jacob: When I dropped you of he heard my thoughts
Nessie: Oh…what where you thinking?
Jacob looked at me like I was nuts and looked down he looked Embarrassed. I was curious still trying to understand it all.
Jacob: I can't tell you, your not ready for things like this
Nessie:( I leaned closer to him touching his chin) Don't you think I should decide that for myself
Jacob: I do but it's not right
Nessie: How so, we're going to be together for the rest of eternity and your worried about what I'll think
Jacob: Your not old enough
Nessie: what?, this is about age again
Jacob: No I mean yes ( he breathes heavily) it is .You've only started High school you need more time to discover different things
Nessie: Jacob the only reason I'm in school is to feel at least a tad bit normal…don't you get it I want to learn more about you more than just my old Jacob but my boyfriend. Who's better to tell me things like this than you
Jacob: Please don't make me tell you ( he pleaded with his eyes)
Nessie: Tell me I want to know , I promise I won't freak out
Where had this sudden confidence come from probably my curiosity to know what he thought about me and how bad it was that my father heard what he thought.
Jacob: Okay…( he breathed out again) I sorry if I make you anyway uncomfortable
Nessie: You could never make me feel that
Jacob: Really you think so…
Nessie: ( I nod looking into his brown eyes) I know so…
Jacob: I…when we watched that video a thousand thoughts came to my head but just one stuck and it made me feel strange almost excited ( I listened inattentively) I thought about being together in more intimate way…me holding you close to me and you holding me to you almost clingingly . I pictured you beneath me loving me the way I love you. I hoped that one dya we would be more than just together but as one person. I guess I made it worst when we rode up to your cottage in on the motorbike they way your arms tighten round me and they way your thighs clung onto me when we turned that corner… I am truly sorry for ….( I kissed him deeply showing that it was okay. I then pulled away)
Nessie: Never ever be sorry for feeling that way
Jacob: But you don't understand…
Nessie: I do now, better than anything else I may not know about those kind of relationships but what I do know what you described sounds exactly the way would want to be with you…you're my Jacob and always will be no matter what you think as long as it about me.
Jacob started laughing like mad man.
Nessie: What's so funny?( I looked t him crazily)
Jacob: Why do you always amaze me?…you'd think I was used to it I was shocked when you showed me your first memory but this is even more amazing
Nessie: Thanks, I think…
Jacob: You are truly and amazingly beautiful and perfect in every way and I am most grateful and happy that you love me the way you do
Nessie: Bought time you realised
Jacob: don't you worry I know( he nods)
Nessie: So my father freaked out. that's why he acted strange when I came into the cottage today
Jacob: Please I'm lucky I'm still breathing…if I had a daughter the guy would be dead
Nessie: So your saying if we have a little girl you'd kill the guy who thought of her in a non-innocent way
Jacob: Yeah no question to it…wait a minute you would have my children
Nessie: Yep…why don't you want a little girl to pay with or a little boy to teach how to swim
Jacob: Yes, I just err thought ,I think you've amazed me again
Nessie: have I really ( cheerful)
Jacob: Yeah, I think you should stop doing that before I die with happiness
Nessie: One day we'll be together in that way we will become one and I'll have lot's of dark haired children with my brains and your amazing smile
Jacob: Really you think so…
Nessie: yep once we're married
Jacob: Married. You've been thinking a lot
Nessie: Yeah ever since i realised that I liked you in more than friend way which has been a long time
Jacob: How long as that been?
Nessie: the day we talked about my skin glowing like…rain
Jacob: Rainbow on your skin but not with different colours, but with different shades of yellow and gold
Nessie: Yep that's it
Jacob: That long…why didn't you say something
Nessie: I wanted you to have time first and so that I didn't lose you has a friend
Jacob: you'll never ever lose me
Nessie: You promise…( looking into his eyes)
Jacob: Promise ( his forehead rested against mine)
We then fell asleep again in each others arms thinking about our future together an how we wanted it to be. Tonight taught me , Jacob was here forever like he had always been and even though I was terrified of 'that kind' of a relationship I wouldn't mind it with my Jacob because he lived for me and only me and I him.