Five years later

This wasn't the life I wanted.

I didn't want to be a monster. Yet here I was, forced to be a member of the Volturi guard. It's been five years.

I got on the plane with Demetri for my family. I could've refused. I did not want a fight with the Volturi for there would be plenty of lives lost no matter who won. I didn't want that. I'd rather see my family live on without me than that.

I did what I was told. As long as I obeyed, my family would be safe.

I had to wear black dresses and a cloak at all times. The worst part was being forced to drink human blood. I was compassionate about it. I always snapped their necks before they could scream. I refused to look at their faces as I drank the life at of them.

I murdered people. I think they enjoyed seeing me do things I would never do. I always had to accompany Felix on missions. When I wasn't on missions, I was Aro's personal body guard. They kept me busy. The only time I had to myself was when I was in my room or doing perimeter checks around the castle. The only time I was happy was when I ran. They trusted me enough to let me go alone. Besides, why would I try?

I had no reason to disobey them. As long as I stayed, they would leave my family alone.

I didn't make friends with them. I tolerated them to a point.

Me and Felix were heading outside; we were informed of a vampire causing a disturbance. We put our hoods on and went into the sunlight. It didn't take long to track it down. We could hear the commotion as soon as we stepped outside.

We made our way quickly to the screams. A car was flipped over. A vampire was dragging bodies out. He was insane with thirst.

"You are in violation of the Volturi laws! Stop now." Felix barked out.

The vampire hissed at us and sprung at us. I expanded my shield. The vampire hit my shield and fell backwards in confusion. This gave Felix the time to grab him and tear his limbs off. I ran to the car to find any survivors. The parents were dead but a little girl was in the backseat crying. She had seen everything.

She was a liability.

I reached in and grabbed her. She screamed as she looked into my red eyes. I threw her to the ground and snapped her neck. Her crying stopped. I picked her up and threw her back in the car. Her screams still echoed in my head.

Afterwards me and Felix cleaned up the mess, and made it look like a car accident. We torched the car after tossing the vampire's limbs into the car.

Felix nodded to me in approval and we reported back to the castle.

Murdering innocent people was emotionally draining for me. I wasn't a killer, I just followed orders. I liked it better when I killed vampires.

We returned to the throne where Aro was waiting.

"Well done."

He turned to me.

"I believe Jane needs your help in the sparring hall."

I nodded. Jane didn't like my help but she couldn't fight Aro's decisions.

The sparring hall was chaotic. Newborn vampires were closing in on Jane. I was not in the mood for this.

With a twitch of my head, my shield expanded and collided with the newborns. The shield shoved them back into the long wall. Jane looked my way.

"I didn't need your help." She hissed.

I snarled. "Aro sent me. Your welcome." I snapped.

I turned around and quickly went to my room. I confined myself into a ball on my bed.

Edward, I miss you terribly.

I could still see the little girl's eyes staring at me. The last five years weighed on my shoulders. I missed my family. I wondered how long it would be before I went insane here without them.

I got up and looked into my mirror. This was not the Bella I remembered. My eyes were the part that scared me the most. My bright red eyes stared back at me. I missed my gold ones. I hated this Bella.

I just wanted to go home. I needed to run to clear my thoughts. I made my way to the closet exit and started to run.

I ran as fast as I could deep into the forest. I didn't stop until I saw the flash of white pass my vision. I stopped in my tracks and watched as it circled me.

"Alex." I breathed out.

The huge white wolf towered over me.

I ran a perimeter check around the castle. It had to be in the middle of the night. I froze as a stench filled my senses. I followed the stench to find a giant white wolf. I had no idea Italy had a wolf pack.

"Who are you?" I ordered.

The great wolf turned around and bared its teeth.

I crouched ready to attack but stopped short when it didn't. I approached it carefully.

"Who are you?" I asked again.

It shook its mane out and I watched in awe as it morphed into a man. He had a strong build like Jacob. This man had deep blue eyes and shaggy blonde hair.

"Call me Alex." He replied.

"Okay Alex. What are you doing so close to the castle?"

"Looking for a way in."

At least he was honest.

"I got news for you kid, you won't be getting in."

"Why is that?"

"Because you will be out numbered and they have me." I said with a smirk.

"Maybe you should consider switching sides." He suggested.

This had to be a joke.

"Why are you interested in taking down the Volturi?"

"This forest is my pack's land. Vampires run this city, it is almost impossible to keep the people safe."

I nodded. I understood more about the wolves than he thought. He would have no chance of taking down the Volturi with just a pack.

"You're not like other vampires." He commented.

Yeah because I didn't want to be a killer I thought.

"I should have killed you already." I admitted.

He stared at me shocked.

"If it had been any other guard, you wouldn't be talking." I added.

"Like I said, not like other vampires." He said stepping towards me.

"You should consider an alliance with us."

I wanted to laugh. Why would they want a bloodsucker's help?

I shook my head and turned to leave.

"I know this isn't your life." He called out.

I fumed, what did he know?

I turned back to face to him.

"I know." I said quietly before running back to the castle.

That was how I first met Alex. He kept running into me on purpose afterwards. The boy had a death wish but he could also read me like a book. Something Edward could never do.

The big white wolf stared at me concerned.

"I'm fine." I told him.

He bent his head down. I scratched his head. I watched as he backed away before shuddering into his human form.

"Bella what happened today?" he asked.

"I murdered an innocent little girl."

He crushed me to his chest, despite the fact that I was freezing cold to his touch. Okay, so I did have one friend.

"I am so done. I want to go home." I said gritting my teeth.

"You said it yourself, you can't leave without the Volturi coming after you."

"So we kill them all." I suggested.

He pulled away from me wide eyed.

An evil smile played on my lips.

Bella always has a plan! She's had enough and devised an evil plan. Tomorrow you will see how ruthless Bella really has become so she can get back to her family. Please review!