The two boys walked until they reached the lake. Throughout the entire walk, neither of them spoke. The tension between them was so thick it was almost tangible. Remus stood by the edge of the lake and looked out onto the rippling water. He had so many things he wanted to say—he had actually envisioned having this conversation and had different speeches planned out. But, now that he was here, he just couldn't find the right words.
Severus was at the ground (not sure what you mean by this…). He knew that this conversation was bound to happen sooner or later, but he had no idea what to say or think. He had so many thoughts running through his head and so many conflicting emotions about Remus and his condition. It was all giving him a rather large headache.
"Severus," Remus was finally the one to break the silence. His voice sounded soft and unsure. "I—I'm sorry."
Something snapped in the dark haired Slytherin. "Sorry? I could have died and all you have to say to me is 'sorry'?" Severus had no idea where that anger came from. He knew he was angry at Remus for a few things—for not telling him about his condition, for keeping something this important from him, and for nearly killing him—but he didn't realize just how angry he was until the words spilled out. "How long have you been that...that monster?"
The word stung. Remus hung his head in shame. "Since before I came to Hogwarts, first year."
A part of Severus tried to reach out when he heard the sad, almost helpless, tone in the other boy's voice, but his anger got the better of him. "And they let you go to this school? What the hell was Dumbledore thinking, letting you in here?"
Tears started to form in Remus's eyes but he kept them from falling. "Severus…I—"
"Potter knows." It was a statement, not a question. He didn't know why he was dredging this up, since Lily had already confirmed it. But he had to hear the truth from Remus. "And if he knows, Black and that Pettigrew know, too."
Remus said nothing and Severus' lip curled.
"You told those imbeciles and you didn't bother to tell me? I'm your boyfriend! And Lily! She knows, too!"
"I didn't tell them. They figured it out for themselves," Remus retorted, defending his friends. "They figured it out back in second year."
"When did you plan on telling me about your…condition?" Severus asked after taking a few calming breaths.
Remus looked up, mouth opened, ready to answer, before he realized that he had no answer. He had no idea when he'd planned on telling the other boy anything. He'd never even considered the thought.
Anger once again flashed in Severus' dark eyes as he took in the meaning of that hesitation. "You weren't even going to tell me? Did you plan on keeping something as serious as this from me forever?"
"Sev, please, just let me explain."
"What is there to explain? You were going to keep it from me, your boyfriend, forever, while those stupid idiots you call friends have known for years."
Remus clenched his fists tightly in anger. He was getting tired of Severus insulting his friends. "Are you even still my boyfriend? You've been ignoring me since I got out of the hospital wing! And stop insulting my friends! At least they didn't act this way when they found out. They accepted me!"
"Because accepting a monster is just the stupid Gryffindor thing that they'd do," Severus muttered bitterly. But Remus caught every word.
"So I'm a monster now, am I?" His eyes were shining brightly with tears, but they were no longer hurt tears; they were tears of anger.
"It was bad enough that you're a stupid Gryffindor half-blood. But now I find out you're not even human?" Severus spat out, coldly.
Remus felt like he'd just been hit by the Hogwarts Express. Never once had he heard such malice come from the other boy; and never once had he seen so much disgust in the eyes that once looked at him with love.
Severus sneered at Remus, who was frozen in shock. "I've had enough of this."
Remus watched him turn on his heel and leave. He wanted to call out to him, call him back so they could talk this out some more, or say some comeback to what he said, but all that came out of his mouth was a choked sob.
Sirius walked out of the Great Hall in search for Remus. He had yet to see the other boy and he was getting worried. He heard footsteps approaching and turned to the direction of the sound. He raised an eyebrow as he saw a very irate-looking Snape approaching. A cold glare appeared on his face upon seeing the Gryffindor, but he said nothing and walked past him into the Great Hall.
A feeling of dread washed over Sirius. He had no idea where the notion came from, but he had a feeling that Snape and Remus had finally talked. Without another thought, he ran out onto the grounds and began to look for the boy he was in love with.
Hey guys, it's been a while, hasn't it? Well, I had a busy break. I went to Philippines, then Singapore, then back to Philippines, then there was a death in the family and now school's started up again. So I apologize for the lack of updates and the shortness of this chapter. I'll make it up to you by making the next one longer. Sorry if it's a little off, the huge gaps between chapters kind of threw me off.