Chapter 14
Chloe sat next to Beca's bed as they were waiting for the results of all the tests Beca had done that morning. Beca was playing nervously with her hands and looked at the clock.

"The time isn't going faster if you keep looking at the clock..." Chloe laughed.

"I know..." Beca mumbled. Chloe took her hand in her own and kissed her cheek.

"Just try to relax..." Beca sighed. Then a doctor came in. He had some papers in his hand and he sat on the end of the bed.

"So miss Mitchell." The doctor said as he came into the room.

"Just say Beca." He just nodded.

"You've done some tests today... We have good news but also bad news..."

"Just begin with the good news please." He nodded again.

"The good news is that the medicines are working and your nerves are recovering..."

"What?! That's amazing!" Beca exclaimed excited.

"What is the bad news?" Chloe asked carefully.

"We're not sure if your body is strong enough to recover with the medicines we're giving you now..."

"What? I just survived all this shit and now you think I'm not strong enough to recover from this?!"

"This is different Beca... It's a long and hard program... And if you survive there is a change you will be in a wheelchair for ever..." Now Beca was silent. -For ever in a wheelchair...- she thought as her eyes filled with tears.

"Shh it's okay he says maybe..." Chloe hushed as she pulled her into a hug. Beca just stared into nothing. The doctor explained something about the program she had to do but Beca didn't listen and just looked at the doctor. He left and Chloe held her hand. "You want me to leave you alone for a sec?"

"Yes please..." Beca mumbled.

"Okay I'll be in the hallway when you need me." Chloe kissed her cheek and left. Beca looked at the papers the doctor gave her. There were some medical terms that Beca didn't understand and there was a program for the time coming up. She had to go to physiotherapy and there were a lot of different kinds of medicines on her list. She started to get angry. She had been through all this shit and now he isn't sure if she's strong enough?! She threw the paper through the room and yelled. She yelled that it was not fair. She fought so hard! So hard! And what was her reward? A painful program which she might not survive! All she had fought for could be for nothing... She was so angry that she smashed the stuff off of the little table next to her bed and cried. She covered her face in her hands and yelled. Chloe ran into the room to Beca and pulled her into a tight hug. She had heard everything and felt really sorry for Beca. She gently rubbed her back and tried to calm her down but Beca was really upset.

"It should get easier from now... But it's only getting harder Chloe... It's not fair..." She sobbed.

"I know..." Chloe mumbled.

"I don't know if I can do this anymore Chloe..." She whispered. Chloe noticed how tired she sounded.

"It's okay just lay down and close your eyes for a moment." Chloe laid her on her back and stroked her cheek. Beca laid her hand on Chloe's as her thumb stroke her cheek and sighed.

"I'm just so tired..." She mumbled.

"I know you are... It's okay Beca."

"It's such a long way to go... And what if I die..."

"Then you fought till your last breath..." Chloe said with a tremble in her voice. Beca opened her eyes and saw Chloe's tear filled eyes. Chloe looked away from Beca.

"Hey..." Beca whispered as she laid her finger under Chloe's chin so she would look at her again.

"Don't cry..." Chloe nodded as she bit her lip. "Come here..." Beca mumbled weak. Her explosion had made her really tired. She laid her arms around Chloe so she would lay next to her. Chloe sobbed softly against her shoulder. Beca had never seen or heard her cry before... "It's okay... I'm going to do the program and I will survive it... I promise..." Chloe didn't say anything and just hugged Beca tight. Beca kissed her head and tried to stay strong. She wished she could lay there forever with her.

"I don't know what to do when..." She stopped talking.

"When I die..." Beca added. Chloe nodded and started sobbing again. "Just stay strong okay?" Beca gently stroke her hair. "Promise it to me..."

"I promise..." Chloe whispered.

"Okay..." Beca kissed her head and held her tight. She closed her eyes and thought of her and Chloe... She saw them laying on the beach... Laughing, cuddling and kissing... They looked so happy... But she knew it might never happen..