Vampire Academy: 3rd Times the Prince Charming

Chapter 14 of my Vampire Academy story, enjoy.

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Disclaimer: Vampire Academy belongs to Richelle Mead.

Chapter 14

LISSA POV

I sighed as I sat on the sofa. I had my knee drawn up to my chest, one arm wrapped around them. My free hand was winding a lock of hair around one finger. To say I was confused wouldn't be deep enough. I was conflicted, lost; I still couldn't believe I had done what I did. It had been three days and since then I had done my best to try and act normal, but every time I saw Christian I was reminded of what I had done.

'How could I just kiss him like that; I'm supposed to be with Aaron, what I did there, it's, it's not…' My thoughts raced before trailing off.

In truth I knew, more or less, why I had kissed Christian. I had been desperate, starved of affection. Aaron and I had actually been growing distance as his disappearances became more frequent. It didn't excuse what I did though; this whole thing was a mess and now I was afraid of Aaron finding out.

I groaned as my thoughts began racing again. 'What am I gonna do; I don't know anymore…How I feel; it's all such a mess. Why did my family have to die, worse, why did they have to be who they were, I just wish things were simpler…Without everyone expecting so much from me.' I sighed sadly, before realizing the way my thoughts were going and tried to control myself quickly.

It had taken a long time but I finally worked out what element I specialized in; a very rare fifth element that almost no one had heard of, Spirit. While it had been useful on certain occasions it had unfortunate side-effects. One of which was depression; there were more advanced stages but I was hopeful that I hadn't yet and would never reach them. I had to really control myself, or the depression would get out of hand. This was one of those moments and I desperately tried to calm myself down, and to control it. Luckily at that moment Rose arrived and sat down next to me.

"Hey, you okay, you look a little…tense." She said casually, although I noted the hidden question in her tone. The bond we shared meant Rose could feel my emotions, particularly the dark depression; I worried about how it affected her but she always brushed it off. Therefore, I knew lying to Rose would be pointless.

So I looked around carefully before speaking. "Rose; I…Everything's such a mess right now, I don't know what to do."

Rose looked at me seriously and then asked, "Is there anything I can do to help?"

"I don't know."

There was a brief silence before Rose spoke up again. "Okay, look, tell me what's going on, I'll see if I can figure something out."

I shook my head but knew there was no other way, so I quickly prepared myself. Then I faltered for a moment, wondering how I could possibly word this and make it sound good. Then I remembered I was talking to Rose, not one of the other Royals; she wouldn't spread it like gossip and I just had to say things exactly as they were.

"Okay, well, recently…Aaron and I have been having some problems." I began to explain while Rose listened intently. "We've not really had any proper contact for two weeks now and well; things are getting a little tense between us. At best I'd say we were distant. Anyway, that's was on my mind, even three days ago, when I went to talk to Christian."

I could see Rose stiffen and I remembered that I had forgotten to tell her how that conversation had gone.

"Lissa…" She began, a worried edge in her voice.

I shook my head. "It's okay, I…I fixed things, told him about how I knew the truth now and, well, we both apologized. Things were fine until…Thinking about how I was missing those feelings I usually got from Aaron and…seeing Christian there and, thinking about him I…I kissed him."

Rose looked at me confused and I realized I had merely whispered the last part. "What?"

I cleared my throat and tried again. "I kissed him."

Rose stared at me, wide-eyed, clearly shocked at what I was admitting. Finally, after a long silence, during which Rose rocked back in her seat; still staring, she recovered.

"Lissa, I…" She hesitated briefly before continuing. "Look, given how you've explained everything, I can kinda understand. You're conflicted in your feelings, the only question is, can you work out what's best for you?"

I didn't know how to reply to that. Was it true? Did I really have feelings for Christian, feelings I was only now noticing since my feelings for Aaron were dying due to our lack of contact?

I managed a small smile. "Rose I…Thanks; I think I understand but, how do you know about this, this conflicted feelings stuff?"

I could've sworn I saw Rose blush at that, but she shook her head. "No-no reason, I just…I heard it somewhere."

I wanted to pursue the subject but Rose had to go to her extra training lesson. Shortly after she left I also left, deciding to go looking for Aaron, to see if I could find him. If I did I would see what happened. If it was as I thought, then at least I knew what was going on now. My searching was mostly in vain however; despite all my best efforts I couldn't find Aaron anywhere in the Academy and the people I asked hadn't seen him either. Finally I gave up and decided to head to my dorm room; I would confront him about his disappearances the next time I saw him.

Unfortunately, to get to my dorm I had to pass Veronica Lazar's room. The door was ajar and from within I could hear disturbing and…lustful sounds. I fought the impulse to roll my eyes and tried hard not to think about what Veronica must've said or done to lure whoever the man was to her bed. But then I heard the man responding to Veronica's moans and I froze.

'No…It couldn't be, surely not…It can't…'

Slowly, nervously I approached the door. It inched open and I froze, wide-eyed, shocked, a strange sickening jolt striking in my stomach. It was as I feared, Veronica was in bed with Aaron, when he looked up and saw me, his face said it all. This was where he had been disappearing to; this whole time he had been cheating on me with Veronica and now I had caught them at it. I couldn't take it, the pain was too raw, everything was just too much. I did the only thing I could think of, and turned and fled; tears streaming down my face.

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