Chapter 14

I got off of the phone with Belly and I just stood there in shock. She really wanted space after everything? Then what I said really sunk it and I groaned. Why on earth did I just say that I was going to have fun, that isn't going to bring her any closer to wanting to be with me but actually further away. It took me a long time to realise but I do love her and I'm not prepared to see her with anyone else.' I'm never going to allow her to fall into another situation like what happened with Jere. I hear a knock on my door and Steven walk in.

"Were you just on the phone to Bel?" He asks and I let my back fall against the bed. "Wow, that bad. What happened?" Steven walks closer into the room and sits down on the chair.

"I need you to not be a brother for a minute because I need a friend to make me feel less stupid. We were just talking and then she blacks out for like a minute and I ask what's up and she just tell me she wants have this summer to have fun because Max is showing her how to have a good time and be immature, which is something I lack. That's fine however I just got a bit overwhelmed and surprised by what she said so I told her that she can do that as long as I'm allowed to have my fun. I could have said it better or not at all but now I've ruined it by being the biggest prat on the planet." I blurt it out to him and I worry about how he is going to react.

"Wow, that's a big deal if she is saying that to you. In any normal situation if I didn't know the girl I would tell you to drive down to her to fix it because you shouldn't let her brain and a guy get between you two but this time you should. Belly has been in love with you for so many years that if she is finally giving herself some space then it could do you both good. Plus Max will take good care of her out there." Steven goes quiet for a moment looking at me, debating whether to tell me something.

"Spit it out." I smirk at him, holding my breath for what he is going to say to make me disappointed.

"I know this is hard to here and they are broken up but Belly is also Jere's first love. I think Belly, no matter how hard she tries, would ruin your relationship because the other always knew what it was like to have that. If she did leave you it might be for the best." He explains gently and I truly think about it. Since Belly and Jere broke up I haven't asked him once about it or how he feels. I cared so much about how I could have a chance with Belly and what her feelings were for me that I almost forgot. I forgot about my own brother's feelings. I'm a shit brother.

"You're right. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to grab my bro and we are going to go somewhere to talk." I let out to Steven and he gives me a grin.

"It's about time mate. My sister means the world to me; but I would never let her get between the two of you, just like I don't let anyone get between the two of us." He hits my back as we both walk out of my room, where he heads to his room and I knock on Jere's door.

"Come in." Jere calls out and I open the door. "Yo, what's up?"

"Do you mind if we go to mum's room to talk about some things? I feel like we need to." I say to him holding my breath. Out of the two of us it's always Jere talking about his feelings or wanting to talk. I hold everything in which gets me into situations that are stupid and if I can't open up to my brother then who can I open up to. I need to do it for me, for him and for mum. She can't watch over us and know that we don't understand each other. Jere looks confused but stands up and we go into mum's room. Jere goes under her covers and I place some of her peaceful music before going under the covers like Jere. The purple satin covers drape over both of us, the amounts of fluffy pillows consumes us and the distant smell of mum drifts over us. Being him makes me question why it took us so long.

"You always were the poetic one, Con. Making us have the talk we have needed for years in the place mum tried to make us having this conversation the most." We both let out a quiet laugh and he looks at me. "What are we doing Con? We messed up so much and everyone has lost relationships. I won't ever get my best friendship back with Bell; I haven't been the brother I should be to you. I just got so worked in finally getting the girl, not caring that I didn't get her in the right way that I realised it didn't make me happy. The idea of being with my best friend and who mum wanted me to be with just got in the way that when I finally started getting over that I realised neither of us were happy. I did so wrong against her at the end, if that was anyone else who did that to her I would have killed them but I just couldn't break up with the girl that I gave so much up for. It's a blessing she wasn't in love with me or else this could have been hard. She's always been yours Conrad, I realise that now and if you are coming here to ask if I'm okay, I have been okay with it since 4 years ago, I just haven't ever been ready to admit anything."

"I don't think I'm the one to decide that decision anymore. Bell called me earlier to tell me she wanted to have more fun as I have forever been making her try to act more mature than she needs to be, which I can understand. I love her Jere, but I'm losing her right now and I think I'm losing her to herself. I want to have the fight to go after her and show that I'm the one for her but I'm not going to let her ruin her time to grow. Also if she wants fun then I'm not the right guy for her. I need to improve on how much fun I have but I'm not her ideal guy for this moment and as much as it hurts it isn't my main concern. She said she wanted her fun and I stupidly said I was going to have my own as well. It's true I want to have fun this summer, but I don't want this summer to be the summer about Jere Vs Con battle number 23, I want it to be Jere and Con Vs the world. I want us to get close, make mum proud but also make ourselves proud. If Bel falls into my line then I will be happy but I can't spend my life ignoring you for her. You might be over the idea of a relationship but our relationship isn't where it should be and I want to make that better. So will you give me the honour of starting fresh as brothers and truly having quality time?" I confess and Jere looks at me with a sarcastic shock face.

"Didn't know you could ever speak so long at once Bro! Of course I will be taking that offer up. Who would ever have thought the Fisher brothers getting along without anyone pushing it and aiming to improve?" Jere jokes and I give him a hug that has been too long since we last had one.

"I love you." I state and he nods, clearly too overwhelmed to say the words back but I knew he felt them.

In this moment the loss of Belly wasn't as big as it had been. Both of us needed growth and if our growth led us down paths that don't cross for romance then I'm getting more accepting of it as each second goes on with my brother.

A/N: So my surprise was Conrad's chapter. I wasn't expecting this to come out however I'm so glad it did. Family love is becoming evidently important to me and sometimes these stories don't focus on a sibling love triumphs over a different type of love. Also, Con is so mature he has to get to know the point that love isn't his only need in the world. Anyways, hope you enjoyed. Love you all and please review

-Dreamworldstorymaker :D