Okay i know i have taken forever to update and i am sorry for that.

After losing my Grandmother and my Cousin in a matter of four months i have been a total wreck

but i am getting back into everything.

For those of you still following my stories, i thank you.

Chapter 12 -Renee's Secrets

BPOV

"Come on out with it?" Rosalie growled. I hissed, "Rose" then I turned to Renee "So you where saying."

She seemed confused for a moment but found her words. "Right, Bella first I want you to know I love you very much, and I cant explain the things I have done or the choices I made. They were completely selfish. But I was sent here to spy on you at first. After the news reached Aro that THE ONE had been born, well he was furious. And when you came there and he saw you, he knew you where my daughter. But after looking into your mind he saw nothing to question what you said so he let you go, but not without sending me to follow."

I was more than pissed. I truly thought Aro hadn't suspected anything. "He really only sent me to satisfy Jane. She thought something wasn't right, she really thought it was you. After all she saw what happened that day at the school."

That was when Emmett chimed in. "If Jane suspected us all along then why didn't she just come herself, why have Aro send you?" Emmett asked her.

"Yes, that is a good question," I added. I could see Emmett smile from the corner of my eye. Gloating bastard. "Aro knew Bella was my child, so he thought when she saw me she would welcome me. Which is not what happened in the least. But he figured I could get closer to her than anyone else could," Renee answered.

She was of course right in her reasoning and that I could not deny, but something was missing in this story and I just couldn't put my finger on it. "Why did the brothers agree to this outrageous act?" my love asked her.

Of course the others, they do nothing without a vote. "well Aro did not include them in this. He acted on his own" Renee told us.

I felt it again, that burning inside me, the one that tells me I was made for this. I was ready to fight, I was ready to tear him apart. Edward would say I needed more time to be ready but in all honestly It was him that needed the time. He needed more to come to agreement with what was to happen. The chance I would not make it out of this alive was great.

I turned and started to walk away, I needed to get away for a while. "Bella, where are you going?" my darling asked. "I just need some air is all," I told him. He asked to come with me but I told him he needed to stay, she needed to tell them everything and only he could see what she was thinking other than me of course.

I ran and ran until I figured I was far enough away, that no matter what they would not find me. There was something that I needed to do and it was going to break all their hearts when I did it. I would go to Italy and take him down now, before anything or anyone can be destroyed.

"You really didn't think this one thru did you," Alice said as she appeared. Dammit! How could I have forgotten Alice, of course she would see what I was going to do. "Alice, there is no reason for you to even try. There will be no talking me out of this," I told her. She just stared at me for a while then when she finally did speak it was not what I was expecting.

"Well then I guess I will be going with you, Yes that is the only way."

Hold up wait a minute, "What do you mean the only way?" I asked her.

She smiled, "the only way you will come back home to us silly. If you go alone he wins. If I tell Edward, you both die. But If Rose and I go with you then there is a chance we will all return safely."

Rose? "Oh I forgot to mention Rose is over there, I thought you would hear her thoughts" Alice finished.

Huh, what hadn't I heard her thoughts. That is strange come to think of it I didn't hear Alice either as she got closer. "Did I hear correctly you are just going to leave?" said my love.

Dammit, he would come looking for me. "Yes, this is the way it has to be."

"you would not say that if you heard the rest of what Renee had to say" He paused then she appeared he turned to her "go ahead tell her."

I looked at my so called mother then and I could see she was herself again, no longer under my influence. "Bella you cant go there, not yet. He will be expecting you" she told me.

"What! Why is that?" I asked her. She grimaced, "Because he knew that if it was true, if Jane was right then you would figure things out and you would get me to tell you everything you wanted to know. What he didn't count on was my overhearing him tell Jane to have everything ready for when you would come. He knew that the will to fight would get you and you would go there blindly and then he would have you."

I could not believe what I was hearing. How was I suppose to be this great powerful person who was meant to beat him, if every time I turn around someone is telling me not to go and fight him.

"that is the power talking. You know just as I do that going in blind is no good," Edward told me. Sometimes I wonder if he lies about not hearing my thoughts clearly. "Yes well I am ready to fight," I said firmly.

"you may feel ready sweetheart but you are not," Renee said to me. That was the last straw, this women was not going to act like my mother.

I was on her faster than light, she had no time to react. "Don't you dare act as if you are my mother. You are nothing! Nothing! You understand that? Esme is my mother now, and all you are is a traitor. Someone who gave up their only child to be immortal. I despise you Renee. And that may not ever change." I dropped her then and she fell to her knees. "you don't meant that," she whispered. I laughed, "Yes I do. You did not care then why should you now?"

"I made mistakes Bella, I know that. But I have always loved you. I may not remember being your mother or what is was like to love you. But in my bones I can feel this connection and all I want is to protect you, at any cost."

Ha! She thinks she will win me over what that little speech? Well she if off her rocker. "You may have a way with words Renee but I will not forgive you easily. You did all of this and now I have to clean up your mess, just like I have my whole life."

Renee was silent for a long time after that. When she finally spoke it was not what I was expecting. "I deserve that im sure. Something just tells me I do. As a human I may not have been the best mother to you, but I did love you. I can feel that. I just hope one day you will come to forgive my mistakes," she took off into the woods after she finished. My family was just staring at me, like I beat up the handicap. "What?" I screamed.

"Bella that was a little harsh," Alice commented. Huh if they only knew. "You guys don't know what it was like for me growing up. Renee was never the parent. She was more a child then I was. I had to take care of her and then when she got sick it only got worse." I know its not right to say something like that but it was true.

"Bella love she is your mother," he paused "She couldn't have been all bad are you wouldn't be so good." God I hate when he does that, being all logical and what not. "Maybe not, but I hate what she did Edward. I was her only daughter! Her only child! And she gave me up to be immortal, and AFTER all that she goes and gives me up to the Vampires who want me dead!" he went to say something but I cut him off "how can I forgive her for that? It was the worst betrayal." I ran then, I went as far as I dared. I didn't need to be too far, I didn't trust Renee so leaving with her so close to the man I love was out of the question.

It wasn't that I didn't want to let her in or that I didn't want to believe she was being honest; Trusting Renee is dangerous. With everything that has been uncovered trusting her is not something I am ready to do.

It was on my way back to my home that everything changed.

First, I heard Alice scream( something that never happens)…

Second, I caught the scent of another Vampire, one I had never seen before….

I ran as fast as I could to get home but by the time I got there it was too late.

"Bella, They have Edward," Alice whispered to me. That was the last thing I heard before the world disappeared.