HELD ONTO YOU
A/N - The last chapter. I am in a hurry due to my ever hectic schedule. Fuck my job. I am sorry if I made you upset, cry or if the story doesn't meet your expectations. Thanks for all your responses. I read all of your reviews and you are awesome. ;) x
A Great Big World – Already Home
I ain't a writer. Unedited. Not Beta'd.
Disclaimer: OUAT, the characters and the songs/lyrics belong to their rightful owners, who obviously are not me.
You say love is what you put into it
You say that I'm losing my will
Don't you know that you're all that I think about?
You make up a half of the whole
You say that it's hard to commit to it
You say that it's hard standing still
Don't you know that I spend all my nights
Counting backwards the days 'til I'm home
Emma slowed down her car when she saw the huge signboard of the Mills' ranch. She looked through her window, wishing that she would happen to see the person she was looking for. She was really hoping that her hunch was right. The blonde already reassured everyone especially Henry that she would find Regina and she was so confident at that time. She hoped that she would not let everyone down mainly Henry. However, Emma knew Regina pretty well. Unlike Emma, the brunette was not the type of a person that would flee because of something so trivial. The blonde sighed, calling off one's wedding on the day itself was not a trivial matter. It was pretty intense to anyone.
The blonde parked her bug right in front of the ranch's entrance. She saw a glinted black car parked by the side of the road and she smiled in relief. Emma definitely recognized the black Mercedes. Emma got out of her car, almost jumping excitedly. She walked up to the main gate of the ranch and noticed that it was locked. The blonde had a quick thought that everyone in the ranch was supposed to attend the wedding. She surveyed the locks and grumbled. "Those are some huge-ass locks. How the hell did she get in?" Emma peered up and studied the tall gate, thinking that there was no way in hell Regina would climb it in her wedding dress. She kept walking around until she noticed a smaller gate not so far away from the main one. The detective ran towards the small gate and noticed that it was ajar. "Perfect." She assumed that Regina must also had the key to the ranch. Emma pushed the gate open and walked through it. She looked around wishing that the brunette would be around but she saw no one. Then, she looked at the stable and headed towards it. "Of course."
Emma walked along the walkway in between the stalls. She took a peek at all of the stalls, one by one, unsure of what she was looking for. Then, she noticed that one of the stalls was empty. She recalled a brown stallion that Regina rode just few days back. She grinned widely. Regina was there. "She is still here." Well, Emma decided to walk since she was not planning on riding a horse and ended up with a concussion. So, the blonde walked out of the stable with so much anticipation. She was going to get her girl back.
Emma could feel the soft breeze brushing her hair and her cheeks when she walked up the small hill towards the old oak tree. Her face lit up as she walked on her sacred place. As she ascended the small hill, she was really hoping that Regina would be around. However, she was disappointed when she finally reached the top of the hill and found out that there was no one under the old oak tree, empty. She sighed, beaten and she sat down on the grass. Emma stretched as she rested her back against the tree. Emma could not help wondering what Regina was thinking when she decided to run off from her own big day. It was something so reckless for the brunette.
The blonde gazed across the wide meadow in front of her, spotting a spirited creature in the middle of the vast field. Then, a grin slowly formed on her lips.
"Emma?" The raspy voice sounded so enthralling.
The blonde heard the sound of footsteps rustling through the grass behind her. The blonde let out a soft chuckle, trying not to look so surprised. Quietly, the brunette walked up to a spot next to where Emma was sitting and she stood there still.
"I wasn't really into rom-com or chick flick or anything like that, but I watched The Runaway Bride once because you girls made me. I am very sure that I slept through the movie and I still had no idea why on earth was Julia Roberts riding a horse in a wedding gown. It was kind of ridiculous. I just never thought that I would have to search for a bride who happened to ride a horse today." Emma said, still gazing across the wide land before her eyes. She saw the brown stallion running freely in the middle of the meadow. The blonde was wondering how the brunette rode a horse in her wedding dress. She would ask the other woman later. Regina peered down to look at Emma and the brunette smiled.
"I found you." Regina took a seat next to Emma.
"No, I found you." Emma said to the brunette without looking at the other woman. "You were never good in seeking or hiding or escaping anyway."
"I hate playing hide-and-seek." Regina turned her face forward, following Emma's gaze.
"Because I was good at it?" Emma sounded so arrogant.
"You always cheated." The brunette rolled her eyes and Emma laughed.
"No, I never cheated. I was just…" Emma stammered. "I am just good at finding people and also hiding and escaping and running away, you know." The blonde sighed. "And being an idiot."
Regina chortled softly. "Yes, something that we can agree on."
Emma turned to look at the other woman. "I guess it runs in the family and I think we both need to stop doing this. This is a bad influence on our son." Regina faced Emma with raised eyebrows. The blonde was amused with Regina's adorable quizzical look. "Well, you see. I ran away years ago. Then, Henry ran away over and over again and we all agreed that he got it from me. But then, here you are running away from your big day." Emma paused. "Or sort of." Regina laughed at that and Emma found that she really loved the sound of it. She really could get used to it.
"I don't know what I was thinking. I just thought that it was the right thing to do at that moment. So, I just took off."
"Been there, done that." The blonde shrugged off.
"The next thing I knew, I'm already here thinking about everything, in this." Regina gestured at her dress. "This is somewhat a weird way of me expressing myself."
"It is." Emma sniggered. "It is weird even for me. I have no idea that Regina Mills is weirder than me. This is a brand new information." They looked at each other and laughed. "We'll get back to that someday."
"Sure, we will."
"Yeah, because we have some other things to, you know, deal with."
"He knew." Regina said softly and Emma tilted her head as she looked at the brunette with a puzzled look. "Graham knew all along. I tried to tell him about the thing that we had together but he refused to listen." The brunette made an air quote as she talked referring to the night they had together at Emma's summer house. Emma shifted tensely in her position and it did not go unnoticed by Regina.
"I tried to tell him everything. He realized that. Though, he still had hope for me and him to happen. Somehow, Graham didn't want to push me into it." Regina leaned forward, wrapping her arms around her knees and pulled them closer to her chest. "I didn't want to let him down. I didn't want to let everyone down." Regina said almost whispering, comfortably rested her chin on her knees and her arms loose on her legs. "I ruined it anyway. I ruined my own wedding. I walked away."
Emma watched the brunette, noticed how small she was despite the spread out wedding gown she was wearing. The blonde held the urge that she had to pulled the smaller woman into her arms and comfort her. Regina was too fragile at that moment and all she needed at that time was a company. "You didn't ruin it. You didn't ruin anything." Emma said with a reassured tone. "I did it. Blame it on me and Operation Swan-Queen. Mission accomplished." Regina's eyebrows raised at that. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sound so proud or anything but it is just me talking again. You know how it usually sounded, right?"
"No, Emma. You don't get all the credit. I ruined my own wedding." Regina sat up straight as she gave Emma her signature pointed look.
"Nah, I still blame me. Everything would work out fine for you if I weren't here in this town."
"It wasn't your choice. You had to bring back Henry to us. So, no, you don't get to blame yourself." Regina shook her head in disagreement.
"Yeah, still I had the chance to walk away the day after that. I kept telling myself to bolt but no. I stayed until this freakin day!" Regina rolled her eyes. Of course Emma would not back away from an argument. "I've been in this town for a week and that is already seven days."
"I can count, Emma."
"If my mom was around she would say 'Finally, I thought that you had a head concussion and forgot your way home, young lady.'" The blonde rambled, imitating her late mother's diction. Regina smiled but she felt the heartache upon remembering Ingrid. "I might be hesitated at first but then I decided to stay here in this town, 'Gina. I decided to sing to you. I decided to stop your wedding."
"I could've just ignore you this whole week. I could've just focus on my work and my wedding, Emma. Instead, I chose to hang out with you and I just… I just love every moment of it. I enjoyed every moment of it and I weren't even sorry. I chose that instead of my wedding arrangement."
The blonde's heart fluttered at that. "I led you on."
"It was my choice."
"For God's sake, 'Gina!" Emma said in exasperation. "I sang to you! I tried to pursue you despite knowing that you're getting married. Then, you know the rest of the story." Emma blushed when she recalled the night she slept with Regina and she noticed that the brunette also had a similar expression.
"Well, I knew that I should stay sober that night but I was already drunk before I even got there. I mean, not that drunk or inebriated." Regina rolled her eyes when Emma gave her a pointed look. "Ugh whatever, point is I still let the liquor got the best of me when I knew I shouldn't."
"You had a few drinks and you drove to the bar? That really doesn't sound like you at all."
"Zelena drove me to the bar that night." Regina paused. "Yes, it really doesn't sound like me at all but that was what had happened anyway. I made mistake. As you can see, Regina Mills can make mistake. Regina Mills ruined her own wedding."
"Regina, stop blaming yourself. Trust me, I am the reason of all these events. I am!" Emma said as she raised both of her hands dramatically in the air and pointed herself with her thumbs. Regina chuckled and shook her head.
"You're infuriating." The brunette felt so tired and defeated but somehow delighted. Emma sniggered at the comment and she felt that the tension in the air slightly lifted. "I am so sorry, Emma." The blonde woman eyed at Regina, baffled. "When I said that I was scared of you. I meant that I was scared of…"
"Seeing me walk away again?" Emma interrupted her. "I won't walk away again, Regina. I told you that I won't walk away from you ever again." Emma' voice was firm and her gaze fixed on the brunette's eyes.
"I know. You kept telling me that. I had doubt. I messed up. I was so stupid. I'm really sorry, Emma." The blonde nodded at her with a comforting smile on her pink lips. "Then, when you told me that you're leaving the town, I was so scared. I felt so hopeless. I realized that I'm making a mistake again. I don't want this." Regina muttered as she gestured at her dress. "I don't want to live without you ever again. I don't think I can handle that again." The brunette said almost whimpering and Emma's heart skipped few beats at that. "I wanted you to stay. I really wanted to tell you to stay. So, I took off. I went to your summer house just now, Emma. I was looking for you!" The brunette raised her voice.
"What?" Emma was so flabbergasted.
"Obviously, you weren't going to my… that wedding."
"What? No, I wasn't really planning to… but I eventually got there… or something" The blonde stuttered.
"Sure. Tardy as usual. Eloquent as always." The brunette grinned.
"Well, yeah I overslept as usual. Then, I had to be there because the bride was missing and there was no wedding at all anyway. Everyone was panicking and the whole world turned upside down." Emma glowered at her friend. "What an event." She puffed.
"You weren't home. I thought that you were already gone." Regina continued with a smile. "But I have no idea why I still had hope that you would still be around."
"Yeah, and my guts kept telling me that you would be around as well." They glanced at each other for a moment. They realized that they really missed their bickering and they could not help antagonizing each other. "So, you decided to come here?"
"And I found you." Regina said with a raised eyebrow.
"No, it was me who found you." Emma snickered as she shook her head in disagreement.
"Right. Whatever." The brunette sighed, clearly too tired to argue with the blonde.
"Well, like I said I'm always good at this thing." The blonde said smugly.
"Ever so proud." Regina said with her smoky voice. She stared at the blonde but Emma noticed the witty smile plastered on Regina's face.
"Always so stubborn." Emma grinned as she moved closer to the smaller woman.
"Insufferable."
"Touchy."
"Bumptious."
"Mouthy."
"Bullheaded."
"Midget."
"Idiot."
"Your idiot." Emma leaned in towards Regina, whispering her words with a victorious smile. "This idiot is madly in love with you, Regina Mills."
"I don't usually fall in love with an idiot." Regina said and moved closer into the blonde's personal space. Emma's breath hitched and she felt the butterflies in her stomach. Their faces inched closer and closer. Emma breathed in deeply, taking in Regina's scent of apple and lilac.
"I think you can make an exception, your majesty."
"I think I already made an exception. In fact, I do fall in love with that one lovely idiot."
"You do?" The blonde whispered. Emma's green eyes were fixed on Regina's brown ones. The tips of their noses brushed against each other's. The blonde gently placed her hands on the brunette's waist.
"Yes, I do." Regina nodded as she whispered so closely against Emma lips. Emma wrapped her arms around Regina and pulled the brunette closer. She held Regina tight to her chest, feeling the other woman's heartbeats. They stared at each other intently, their faces mere an inch apart. The blonde's gaze moved down to the scar just above the brunette's upper lips, craving to actually taste it. Emma gave Regina an affectionate smile before deciding to close the small gap in between them.
"I may kiss the bride." She joked before their lips finally touched each other's. The kiss started off gentle as they initially explored each other's needs. Emma breathed in the sweet scent of the brunette and then she pressed her lips against Regina's with so much passion. The blonde could feel that her heart was pounding hard against her chest as some wild desire rushing down her spine. Then, Regina wrapped her arms around the blonde's shoulder and she moved forward to deepen the kiss. Emma's tongue traced the fullness of Regina's soft lips, begging for an entrance. Regina sighed as she parted her lips and granted Emma's tongue the access that she sought for. Their tongues danced together and they savored each other's taste. Regina moaned softly and it gave a rush of sheer pleasure inside of Emma. They were lost in heated passion until they both had to pull back when they needed the air to breathe. Emma rested her forehead on Regina's, slowly opening her eyes to see the woman before her. Regina still had her eyes closed and her arms wrapped around Emma's shoulders.
"Wow." Regina whispered as she opened her eyes.
"Yes, indeed." Emma smiled triumphantly. "Why didn't I kiss you before this?" She placed her hand on Regina's cheek, caressing it softly with her thumb.
"I don't know. Maybe because you were too busy to be a superstar, you had everyone all around you. So many boys… or girls to be kissed." Regina sniggered at the other woman.
"Gosh, Regina. That is so not legit. They're all my dudes, I love them all but they're not you. I don't want everyone or anyone. I want you." Regina was so speechless but had a small smile on her face. Tears welled up in her eyes. Emma leaned forward and captured the brunette's lips with her own again. Regina deepened the kiss and Emma let go a soft groan against the brunette's lips. They smiled into the kiss before pulling back and stared at each other with so much fondness.
"Are you sure about this, Emma? You'll be sorry because whatever this is between us, it won't get any easier."
"Has it ever been?" Both of them chuckled lightly as they rested their foreheads on each other's. "I've never been sure of anything, Gina, but this. I am very sure about this. I am very sure about you. I want this. I want us." Emma pulled back to look into Regina's stunning brown eyes. "How about you? Are you sure about this? Do you want this?"
Regina giggled endearingly before answering. "I am very sure about this, Emma. I want us too."
"Good." Emma's grin widened. "I told you this before but I really wanted to tell you this again. Henry brought me back here because he wanted me to bring you happiness. He actually brought me to my happiness instead. It's you. You are my home. You are my happiness. I want to keep it that way. I'm keeping you and Henry."
"I really don't like the idea of him travelling alone to get you." Regina paused, realizing something. "He is grounded forever." Emma chuckled at that. "But I am glad that he actually brought you back here because I really wanted to tell you something, Emma. Something that I kept to myself for way too long."
"And what is that?"
"I love you, Emma Swan." Regina said with so much affection. The blonde inhaled deeply as she beamed.
"I love you, Regina Mills." She leaned in and kissed the other woman again. This time, the kiss lingered.
The yellow bug was parked by the side of the road in front of the Mills' mansion. The two women were still in the car. Both were still anxious of their current state. Emma and Regina shared a look and the blonde placed her hand on the brunette's.
"I think they're all in there, waiting for us."
Regina huffed. "I really had no idea what I was thinking when I took off just now. I feel like an idiot. I don't know what to explain to them. It is going to be so awkward."
"Yeah, a runaway bride. That should be something." Regina glared at the blonde. "What? It is true." Emma laughed and Regina pouted at her. "Hey, don't worry. I'm pretty damn sure that they will understand. We're the two idiots in love. That would explain it."
"Yes, that is pretty much self-explanatory." Regina said, clearly not so amused with that.
"Hey, I promised you that it is not going to be that bad." She cupped the brunette's face in her hands and their gazes met. Regina noticed the warmth and reassurance in Emma's eyes. She swore she could get lost in those mesmerizing green eyes. "You're not doing anything alone because I will be there as well. We're in this together. And if they don't like it then they will have to deal with both of us." Emma said and Regina noticed the encouragement in her tone. "Or my fist."
"Emma, no fist!" Regina frowned and she pinched Emma's arm as hard as she could through the folds of Emma's red leather jacket.
"Ouch, I was joking." Emma laughed at that, still holding Regina's face in her hands. "So, are you ready to go in now?"
"Whenever you are."
"Great." The blonde said as she brushed away a strand of hair that fell across Regina's face. The brunette then leaned forward and planted a soft kiss on Emma's lips. "I'll never get tired of that." Emma had an adorable grin on her face and Regina chuckled at that.
"Me too."
"Okay, shall we go now?" Emma asked and the other woman nodded. They both got out of the yellow bug and Regina stared at her mansion while Emma walked around her car to get to the brunette. The blonde offered her hand to the brunette and Regina accepted it, intertwining their fingers firmly together. They gazed into their lover's eyes and smiled at the thought. Then, they walked up towards the front porch, hand-in-hand until they heard the clicking sound of the front door being opened.
"Moms!" Henry stepped out of the mansion and rushed towards his mothers. The two women enveloped the boy into an embrace. "I knew it. You'll find her, Emma." Henry beamed at Emma.
"Nah, we both found each other." Emma stole a glance at Regina before smiling back at her son. The boy's grin grew wider.
"Operation Swan-Queen is a success?" Henry asked both of his mothers. Regina glowered at that and Emma laughed.
"Well, I guess you can say that." The blonde smiled at Regina and the smaller woman then returned the smile at her.
"I knew it. I can see that mom is so happy now!" The boy pulled away from the embrace, jumped around as he raised his fists into the air and let go a joyous squeal. "I did it!"
The two women laughed at their son. "Hey, maybe we should let him be happy for the day and then he'll be grounded forever." Emma whispered at the brunette. "I'll talk to him about this operation later."
"You and I both."
"Yes, sure." The two woman gazed at each other knowingly.
"Regina!" Both of the women turned to look at the group of people who just walked out of the mansion. Cora and Henry Sr. walked up to their daughter and pulled her into a family hug. Mary-Margaret and David who was holding his son followed the old couple. Emma noticed that her friend, Ruby, was in the group as well. David nodded at Emma and the blonde smiled at her brother.
"I am glad that you're okay, dear." Cora said to her daughter.
"I'm fine, mom."
"I'm sorry, my girl." The mayor had a sad smile on his face. "I really didn't know…"
"It's okay, dad. I'm fine really. I learned a lot from this I guess." Regina placed her hands on his father's reassuringly. "I made mistake. I'm really sorry. And trust me, it isn't your fault, daddy."
"Thank you, my dear." The three of them smiled at each other. The old couple then simultaneously turned to look at Emma. The blonde's eyes widened at that. She could feel that her heart was pounding so hard against her chest. "Thank you very much, Emma." The mayor said to the blonde with his genuine smile.
"No problem, Mr. Mayor. It is my pleasure." Emma laughed nervously and the old man nodded at her. Fuck away the fucking fuck! David tried to hold his laughter when he noticed the uneasiness on his sister's face.
"We will talk about all of this later but right now I'm going to call Zelena. She was so worried just now." Cora interrupted them, saving Emma from an awkward situation. Regina looked at her mother with pleading eyes and Cora smiled at her daughter. "Henry dear, please come with me." Cora told her husband and then turned to look at her daughter again. "Regina sweetheart, I think you need to talk to your friends. They were worried sick about you." The brunette glanced at her friends and chuckled.
"Sure, mom." Both Henry Sr. and Cora planted a kiss on Regina's cheeks before walking together into the mansion.
"Damn, that was so close." Emma muttered and David laughed at her so hard. The blonde glared at the man. "Shut the fuck up."
"Regina! What were you thinking?" Regina rolled her eyes when she heard the familiar high-pitch voice. "You should know better than this." Mary-Margaret said with her arms crossed over her chest.
"I am so sorry for making you worried about me, Mary-Margaret."
"I can't believe it!" Mary-Margaret pulled her friend into a tight hug. "Emma and you are together now!" Regina's cheeks turned bright red and Henry laughed at them.
"Hey, good job girl." David muttered at Emma with a snicker. The blonde shook her head with a smile on her face and she mouthed 'shut up' to him. Then, the man walked up to his wife, swaying his son in his arms towards Regina.
Ruby walked up to the blonde with a mischievous grin on her face. Emma rolled her eyes when she noticed Ruby was approaching her but the blonde could not help but smiling as well. "What are you doing here?" Emma asked her best friend warily.
"Hey, be thankful. I babysat Henry because Zelena's baby had a tantrum and all of you were going crazy. Someone needed to be the sane one around Henry and I guess it had to be me after all." Ruby sniggered. "So, you and Regina?"
"Shut up." Ruby raised her eyebrows at the blonde. "Yes, Regina and me."
"Finally! Anyway, the bridal suite is still there. I heard that they paid so much for it. Don't want to waste it, right?" Emma's cheeks turned bright red and she scowled at her friend. Ruby laughed loudly at that. "By the way, aren't you supposed to get back to work anytime soon?"
The blonde watched the group of people before her. David was happily holding his son, Neil, in his arms while Regina was teasing the little boy. Mary-Margaret and Henry were laughing as they talked with each other. Then, Emma looked at Regina, her Regina, with a knowing smile. "Nah, I'll call in sick. New York can wait." She was too excited to be working. She just found her family. So much flaws but it was the perfect family for her. It was her happy ending but with a new beginning. "Maybe I'll stay."
Regina peered over her shoulder to look at Emma and smiled at the latter. Emma returned the smile. "Yeah, I'm staying."
Flashback.
The two women chattered happily after they introduced their daughters to each other. It was the first day of the girls in the kindergarten. The brunette girl in her pink plaid dress peered up at her mother with an innocent look. Cora noticed that her girl was staring at her, so she bent down at the girl's height. "Regina, come on. You met Emma before. Well, you girls were babies." Cora said as she turned to the other girl. "But trust me, you've seen her before. Both of you can be good friends." Regina glanced at the blonde girl who was in a white t-shirt and a pair of baggy blue jeans. Emma was wearing her blue baseball cap but Regina noticed the beautiful long blonde hair that she had. The blonde looked at Regina and smiled at her, her dimples were showing.
"Mom, can I play with her at the playground." Emma pulled the hem of her mother's blouse as she pointed at Regina with her other hand. Ingrid squatted down to face her daughter.
"Sure honey. Go ahead but you have to be careful." The blonde woman said as she removed the blue cap from Emma's head. "And remember to play nice."
"Oh yeah! Thanks mom!" Emma beamed at her mother and hugged the woman tightly. She let go of her mother and turned around to talk to Regina but the other girl had already walked towards the playground. "Hey, wait for me." Emma called up Regina and started running after the smaller girl. The two women laughed at the girl before walking up to other parents.
Regina kept on walking until Emma caught up to her. The brunette stopped and stared at the girl next to her. "Wow, you're fast. You were suddenly gone." Emma babbled and puffed at the same time. The other girl rolled her eyes and walked away, leaving the dumbfounded girl. "Seriously?"
"Hey, wait. Where are you going?" Emma followed the other girl. "Hey, say something, midget!"
"That is mean!" Regina scolded the other girl and she crossed her arms over her chest.
"You can talk." Emma said with a grin. Her eyes widened in awe.
"Of course I can talk." Regina scowled at her. "Why are you looking at me like that?"
"Like what?"
"Like you are so surprised."
"I am surprised. Your voice is cute just like your eyes." Emma shrugged and Regina blushed at the compliment.
"Thank you."
"You're welcome. I am Emma." The blonde smiled and Regina noticed how adorable Emma was.
"I know. Your mom told me just now."
"No, you should tell me your name as well."
"You already know me." Regina
"Yeah, I know but I want us to actually say hi to each other."
"Why?"
"Because when my mom told me that we have met before, I can't actually remember you." Emma's brows furrowed. "I really want to remember you the next time I see you and I really want to be your friend." Emma grinned and Regina found that it was infectious. She returned the blonde's smile.
"Fine." Regina nodded at her and she had a sweet smile plastered on her face. The taller girl found that it was so endearing.
"Great." Emma's grin grew wider. "Hi, my name is Emma Swan." The blonde girl offered her hand at the other girl.
"Hello, I am Regina Mills." Regina said with a tinge of pink on her cheeks. She accepted the blonde's hand and gently shook it. Emma smiled at the smaller girl, promising herself that she would always remember the other girl. Regina had the feeling that she would never forget the blonde after this.
It was their first touch. It was the beginning of a beautiful friendship that would become something so much more. They held each other's hand and their small fingers intertwined firmly. They kept holding onto each other ever since that day, and they were already home.
When life takes its own course
Sometimes we just don't get to choose
I'd rather be there next to you
Promise you'll wait for me
Wait 'til I'm home
All I have is this feeling inside of me
The only thing I've ever known
If only New York wasn't so far away
I will be there every step of the way
And when you're scared and alone
Just know that I'm already home