AN: I am so sorry it took so long to get this out. I have had it written for a while but didn't have time to type it up.

Chapter 14

I decided to stay at our house while Edward and his mom ate, I already knew that his mother liked me and I didn't really need to listen into their conversation. I was met by an extremely happy Esme in my room. She was sitting on my couch practically bouncing like Alice.

"Oh Bella he is just so wonderful for you!" She exclaimed as she quickly stood and grabbed me in a tight hug lifting me off the ground and twirling me around.

"Yeah all except for the whole he is human thing." I said as she put me down.

"That is something that could be fixed you know." She said looking at me totally serious.

"I will not allow that." I said as I sat down on my couch and looked at my hands in my lap.

"Even if that is what he wants?" She asked sitting next to me and tucking some hair behind my ear.

"He shouldn't want this, this is not the life I would wish on anyone and you know it. Carlisle changed you and Rosalie because he thought he was saving you guys. He loved you right away and then after Rosalie found Emmett dying he changed him so Rosalie could be happy like you two and save Emmett. Edward would be throwing his life away, losing his shot at heaven and cursing himself to walk the earth for all eternity never changing. I can't do that to him. He will lose his chance at children, having a successful career, and growing old." I said with a sob at the end. I didn't let anyone know but now that I found Edward I wished that I was able to give him a child. I never really cared and didn't fully understand Esme and Rosalie's want and need to have children but I did once I admitted I loved Edward.

"If it is something that he wants and you already know that you love him with all your heart then you might want to consider it. I know you aren't going to want to continue without him and I am not losing my first daughter." She said as she stood. She then kissed the top of my head and left me to think about our conversation.

I sat on my couch for an hour thinking over everything about Edward and I when Alice came dancing into my room. "Don't you knock?" I asked still looking down at my hands.

"I knew you were going to let me in so what was the point?" Alice countered. She came and sat next to me. "So do I get to talk to Edward openly now? Will he be coming around the house more often, I know Esme would love that." She said.

"I guess there is no stopping you from talking to him now. As for him coming here, yes he probably will be." I said in a sigh looking up to her.

"Why does it bother you so much, him being around us?" She asked me looking slightly hurt.

"How many times do I have to tell you all? I don't want him becoming like us and I want him to live a normal human life. Him being around all of us is risking it, hell him being around me is risking it Alice and that alone is killing me. He wants to be like us and he shouldn't. You don't remember your human life at all so you don't mind being what we are but the rest of us would rather be human or dead we just don't talk about it and go on with our daily lives, well except for Rose, she reminds us every once and a while." I said standing quickly and turning to her with my fist clenched.

Alice stood up and put a hand on my arm. "Bella, he is what you want. You love him with all your heart and we can all tell that he has changed you for the better. If this is what he wants you should be willing to give it to him, it wouldn't just be you being selfish and keeping him forever, it would be making the two of you happy for all eternity." She said as she sat down and pulled me next to her again.

"Just please let it go Alice. Please, it is killing me how you guys keep bringing it up, like I don't torture myself with this enough. I will leave if I have too, he will live a normal, human life." I said dropping my head in the beginning and then the last sentence was between clenched teeth.

"Bella, try as you might but all my visions of his future lead to him being like us. Since you have decided that you are going to keep him human you only prolonged it but it will happen. You should know by now not to bet against me. Just keep that in mind. He will be one of us and a member of our family some day, this is something that you cannot stop from happening." She said as she stood to leave.

"I will do all I can to try and stop it and you know that." I growled out. Alice left seeming unfazed by my reaction.

I couldn't take my thoughts anymore in my room so I jumped out of my window and ran. Running always helped release some of my stress and tension and when I got to Edward's house I was in a better mood though I was still thinking over my two conversations. Edward was in bed already when I got there so I climbed in his window. He was still awake, I figured he had been waiting for me.

"You know you should be asleep." I said with a chuckle as I moved over to his bed.

"What's wrong?" He asked as I sat down.

"What are you talking about? Why do you think something is wrong?" I asked him as I settled down next to him.

"I can see it in your eyes. Please tell me and I can try to make it better for you." He said pulling me closer to him and kissing my forehead.

"I really don't want to talk about it with you Edward, I am sorry to say that but it is true. I don't want to risk breaking anything in your room and alert your mother to my presence." I said with a sigh.

"Please Bella, it is going to bother me knowing that there is something that is bothering you and you won't share it with me." He said. He looked at me through his eyelashes and I lost my resolve.

"Two of my family members came to talk to me when I got home after I brought you home. They are excited that I have finally found you and they shared that with me. They also questioned me about you." I said.

"Why would that bother you so much?" He asked me.

"Because they were asking about our future, mainly focusing on yours."

"I still don't fully understand."

"They were asking about you becoming a vampire. They already know about my feelings about that and I couldn't take it anymore." I said in another sigh looking away from him.

"Oh, I see." Edward said with a sigh of his own. He then pulled me closer to him and made me look at him. "Listen to me, we don't have to talk about that tonight but we will talk about this again, probably multiple times because I already know what I want and there is nothing that you can do to change my mind."

"Edward…"

"No Bella, I mean it, we won't talk about it tonight because I don't want to upset you anymore this evening. I can already tell how upset you are from them talking to you about it and I don't want to make it worse. I am just letting you know that you and I will be talking about it though." He interrupted my argument.

Edward then leaned in and kissed me. When he tried to deepen the kiss I quickly had to pull away. "Edward, you seem to think I have such superb self control. You really give me a lot more credit than I deserve." I said.

"I am sorry but it helped you forget earlier didn't it?" He asked.

"Yes, you did a good job at that. Thank you." I said with a smile. "You know you really should go to sleep though Edward."

He gave me one more quick kiss and then we settled into our normal nightly positions. I was slightly leaning against the headboard while Edward was cuddled up to me with his head on my stomach.

Through the night I read one of Edward's books. He really didn't talk that much through the night but he seemed to have good dreams. When morning came and Edward woke up, he looked up to me and smiled his brilliant crooked smile and said, "Good morning Love." He blushed when he realized what he had said.

I felt my heart swell. "Well good morning to you too Edward. Now that you are awake I am going to go get ready for school and you can get ready for school too."

Edward sat up and let me get up. "Bella, your eyes are black again."

"Oh, well about that, I didn't explain the real reason for our eyes changing colors. No matter which diet a vampire is on their eyes will change depending on their thirst, when a vampire is thirsty their eyes turn black You already know that human drinkers have red eyes while we have gold with our select diet."

"So last night must have been torture for you. I am sorry about that." He said looking down a little.

I walked back over to the bed and knelt down on the floor making him look me in the eyes. "Edward you listen to me, if it would have become too much for me I would have moved. I won't ever push myself too far because I would die if I killed you, heck I will want to die when you do." I said and then I kissed him. I did pull away before it got to intense. "Your mom already left for the day. I will be back to pick you up for school."

"Do I ever get to drive you to school?" He asked as I stood up.

"You do if you let me buy you a new car that goes faster. Your truck goes way to slow." I said with a chuckle.

"Why must you pick on my truck, it is reliable. Besides how would you expect me to explain my new vehicle to my mom along with everyone else? Don't you think that it would be a little odd for my girlfriend who is only seventeen to be buying me a brand new vehicle? I know I would, even with you being a member of the rich Cullen family, everyone is going to think that it was Carlisle's money and it will start a whole big thing." He said getting up and standing in front of me.

"Ok, so I won't buy you a new vehicle now but I will get you one. Until then I will be driving." I said with a sly satisfied smile.

"Can't I drive your car?" He asked.

"That would be a no, sorry Edward but Rosalie has put in so many modifications and upgrades that you wouldn't be able to handle the car. It goes really fast and is really sensitive in a way that only a vampire can drive it." I said. I pecked him on the cheek and jumped out the window. "Get ready, I'll be back in a little bit." I said a little louder so he would hear me, then I took off for home.

On my way home I had three deer to satisfy my thirst. When I got home I took a quick shower and got dressed in the outfit Alice had laid out for me. I didn't run into any of my family members on my way out of the house. Before I even had the car stopped in front of Edward's house he was walking out to meet me.

When he got in and shut the door I said. "Hello Edward, were you watching for me?"

"Hello Bella, yes I was, I figured it made it easier." He said with his crooked smile.

"I know it was because you were anxious to see me, I was anxious to see you too." I said with a smile of my own which made his heart race. I then started off towards school.

"So what if that is the truth, can you blame me?" He asked smiling again.

"No I can't. I watch you sleep every night because it tortures me being away from you." I told him.

"How long did you do it before I knew about it?" He asked me.

"Since the day that I came back, even though I tried to make you hate me and distance yourself from me I had to be near you." I said as I pulled into my spot next to Rosalie's car. There were some guys surrounding it again but not nearly as many as the day before.

"If you loved me so much then why were you trying to make me hate you?" He asked me as we both got out of the car.

"Because Edward, I could tell from reading Jasper's mind that you loved me too and Alice's visions were ones that I had to stop from coming true, I still do. Plus your life is in danger every time you are around me or anyone from my family and I hate the fact that I keep putting you in danger like this because of how selfish I am. You don't seem to fully grasp just how dangerous we really are, all other humans shy away from us though they really don't know why." I said to him in a whisper as we walked hand in hand to his first class.

"Bella, if anyone is being selfish it is me. I don't care what the risk is, I just want to be with you forever. I love you Bella, I want to be with you forever, I want to be a vampire." He whispered as he kissed the back of the hand that he was holding.

I quickly pulled my hand out of his. "You do not want to be a vampire, a soulless monster. I will not allow that to happen to you. You will live a long human life, I will make sure of that. When you tire of me and move on I will let you go, I will stay away from you in the shadows and protect you the best that I can." I said moving slightly away from him.

"I will never move on from you Bella so just get that out of your head right now." He said getting a little angry.

"Look Edward, neither one of us are going to win this now, especially not you. It's time for class, I'll see you at lunch." I said as I started to turn away from him.

"You aren't going to walk with me between classes?" He asked sounding a little hurt and I immediately felt horrible knowing that I was the cause of his hurt.

"I think we both need the couple hours to cool down. By lunch we should be back to our happy selves." I said and then was forced into seeing a vision from Alice which proved me correct. "Yes definitely lunch will be good, Alice confirmed it." I said.

"Ok, then, see you at lunch." Edward said and I couldn't resist it, I went and gave him a quick kiss before heading off to my own class. I was sitting down in my seat as the bell rang.

I sat through my classes not paying attention, instead I was watching and listening to Edward through other people's thoughts. It was torture to not walk with him between classes. When it was time for lunch I went straight to the cafeteria and waited for him in the hallway so that I could still pay for both of our lunches.

When Edward spotted me he looked surprised. "How were your morning classes?" He asked me while pulling me into a hug.

"They were boring like always. How were your classes?" I asked him back.

"I don't know, I was having trouble focusing." He said as we walked into the lunch line.

"Me too, I was watching you." I told him as I started to load our tray. "Here." I said as I slid some money into his hand so he could pay for our lunch.

We walked to the table in silence while Edward carried the tray like usual. We sat at our normal table and I was surprised when Alice came over and sat with us shortly after we sat down. "Do you mind if I join you today?" She asked.

"You already know my answer and I know you will stay anyhow so what is the point." I said in a sigh.

"I don't mind Alice." Edward said.

"Well at least someone likes me here." Alice said with a chuckle.

"So Alice, why don't you just spit out what brought you over here. You can stay after you say it but you might as well get on with it." I said with another sigh.

"Ok, well there is going to be a storm tonight and Emmett is dying to play baseball so I was wondering if you guys wanted to join us?" She asked.

I felt the smile spread across my face and Edward turned and looked at me as if asking if he could. "You can't play Edward but you can watch if you want to." I said.

"Why can't I play and why do you need the storm?" He asked.

"Because it will be vampire baseball, you couldn't keep up in any way. And as for the storm you will see." I said.

"Won't we get wet?" He asked.

"No, the storm will be over Forks, since we don't live in Forks per say and the clearing where we play is near our house we will just have the thunder which is what we need." Alice said. "Besides, we would still play if it rained but I wouldn't have said a thing to the two of you seeing as Bella doesn't want to risk you getting sick and all."

"Ok, I would like to see this game if my mom doesn't mind." Edward said looking excited.

"Excellent!" Alice exclaimed.

The rest of lunch wasn't anything special. Edward ate lunch while Alice and I pretended to. I noticed that Rosalie was staring daggers at me and her thoughts were not pleasant at all towards me. Edward and Alice chatted about everyday things. I also noticed how Edward was able to figure out some things that Alice was thinking and when I went through my memories with him I noticed he was able to do that with everyone but me.

We went through the rest of the school day like we normally did. When I took Edward home his mom was already there. I walked in with Edward so I could be there when he asked his mom about going to watch us play baseball.

When we walked in Elizabeth was sitting at the kitchen table writing bills. When Edward sat his book bag down she looked up. "How was your day Edward? Oh hello Bella nice to see you." She said.

"My day was good." Edward said.

"Nice seeing you again as well Mrs. Mason, I mean Elizabeth." I said with a smile, careful not to show too much of my teeth.

"Mom, I was wondering if I could um, if I could…" Edward stumbled over his words getting nervous.

"My family and I are going to play baseball tonight and we were wondering if Edward could come and join us." I said. Edward gave me a quick look of relief.

"I guess that would be alright as long as you have your homework done." She said looking to Edward.

"I already did what homework I had during my English class since we had a sub and just watched a movie." He said.

"Alright then I don't see why not. Just don't stay out too late and be careful. Bella I don't expect you personally to keep him safe but if you could tell your brother's to take it easy on him I would greatly appreciate it." She said with a smile.

"Of course Elizabeth, I will make sure that nothing happens to him." I said with a firm nod of my head.