Finally, John opened the door to greet Cynthia. Meanwhile I was pretending to be asleep in Paul's bed.

CYNTHIA: Oh John, did I wake you? - Said pouncing on him and kissing him nonstop.

JOHN: Yes, but nevermind, it's time to wake up, today I'll have all day for you, honey.

Honey … I couldn't hear John say that to Cyn before me …

CYNTHIA: You know how much I've missed you? I love you…

JOHN: I know, honey, I love you too

CYNTHIA: Oh, looks like Gina is still sleeping, I met Pete on the stairs and told me that she came as a surprise, what adorable , isn't she? Come on, get dressed and get out for a walk, I want to know all of Hamburg! - Said enthusiastically.

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry for the innocent words of Cyn.

John got dressed and left the room with her, I heard their voices as they went down the stairs.

When he left, I was alone in the room, I opened my eyes and I was silent assimilating what had happened. Toward few hours I was making love with John, and in the twinkling of an eye he was back away from me, Cynthia had taken him from my side, or… did I steal him from her side that night?. That didn't matter, I knew that would be hard to be with Cynthia those days, and I had to be strong.

I turned to curl up on the sheets, the bed of Paul was unmade as two days ago , he didn't sleep there that night, he was with … Erika.

I smelled the pillow and I could feel his characteristic smell of soap, memories of our afternoons in Liverpool between rides and iced teas came back to me . How would be Mike and James? I decided to go see them again in Liverpool.

Paul was clean and tidy, and I was surprised by the fact that he left with his bed unmade, What was wrong? So close, yet so far away … I ran my hand down the side of the mattress to place well the blanket and something stopped me. I looked, and I saw Paul's recorder and some tapes.

There were about five tapes with labels and two without. Songs from the backyard, I Lost My Little Girl, Home demos, PS I love you, Song for Gina (one and one is two) … Song for Gina. The curiosity came over me, that tape had a label where said that this song was for me, I was afraid to listen it, perhaps would reveal the reason for his attitude with me, but I wasn't sure. Nervous and impatient I took the tape with my name and I put it on the recorder, I had to rewind and pressed the Play. It was a recording of a song unfinished and shoddy, but I could understand the lyrics perfectly:

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One and one is two

What am I to do

Now that I'm in love with you?

I'm hoping everyday

I'm gonna hear you say

"You really make my wish come true"

Can you feel when I'm holding you near

All The Things That I do?

So, my love, am I making it clear?

One and one is two

Can not you see I've loved you from the start?

Do not you love me too?

I love you, but you're breaking my heart

From wanting you.

If you say that you're gonna be mine

Everything is alright

All the world would look so fine

If you'll be mine tonight

I Stopped the tape. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Paul had opened his heart in that song, He explained how he was feeling , the whole truth.

I remember the phrase he said to me at the casbah while we kissed:

"PAUL: What am I to do? - He whispered.

GINA: For now just kiss me. "

Now … that I'm in love with you? Paul was declaring his love for me in a song, him and his guitar.

How had I not noticed?

I love you, but you're breaking my heart , from wanting you… , oh my god … I'm hurting him with my indecision and Paul doesn't deserve it, I was feeling the cruelest person in the world.

The song was beautiful, I didn't understand why he never showed it to me , or why he didn't say what he felt directly.

I stopped the tape and put the recorder in the place where I had found, I dressed and went to the common room.

George was there with some guys who I didn't know

GINA: Hello George

GEORGE: Hello Ginie '

GINA: You look tired, did you sleep well?

George was lying on the sofa with face like he wouldn't slept in days.

GEORGE: Yes, I slept well, but you know … give everything , every night, is tired.

The boys began to laugh

GEORGE: Oh guys, come on, I mean playing in the pub!

GINA: Well, but it all pays off, you probably already have enough money to buy that guitar you wanted.

GEORGE: Not really … besides the money, to be in Hamburg helps us to be known, these days we have played with Sheridan there were been some men from the world of music to have a look, they want us to return to Liverpool .

GINA: Really?

GEORGE: Yes, actually, I miss England …

GINA: So , will you come back?

GEORGE: our contract ends In two weeks , It was just for 48 nights. We agreed that we could extend it, but it's time to be back.

GINA: I understand …

- Yes, and let more audience for us! - Said the guy sitting next to George.

GEORGE: Oh, he's …

RINGO: Richard Starkey, drumer, you can call me Ringo.

Ringo Starr was the drummer for Rory Storm and the Hurricanes, and had become a close friend of the boys, apparently was from Liverpool, but I never seen him.

GINA: A pleasure Ringo.

I said goodbye to the boys and went downstairs to go outside, I usually see Hamburg at night than during the day and I wanted to know more places of the city, especially the antiques market and the port.

The day was beautiful, the air was cool and everything seemed quiet, at times, while walking, I managed to forget that John was with Cynthia somewhere or that Paul would be with Erika, I was alone again, without either of both.

I walked to the port, it got up some air and I had to tie my hair to keep my hair out of my face. I went down to see the boats, wandering aimlessly among the fishermen and the occasional visitors, that like me, wanted to walk near the water.

- Gina!

I turned to hear someone shouting my name , it was Astrid, wearing a beret and a green skirt.

ASTRID: Hello Gina, what are you doing in the port so early?

GINA: Walking a little, I wanted to see the port and be alone to think.

ASTRID: Oh, am I upsetting you?

GINA: No, not at all. Come on , let us walk.

Astrid joined my morning walk without hesitation, she was full of vitality.

ASTRID: Oh and … how are you? I've seen John with Cynthia on the market.

GINA: Well, I could be better … I don't understand his game Astrid, I don't know what he wants from me …

ASTRID: And , Do you know what you want?

I kept quiet.

ASTRID: And how are the things with Paul?

GINA: Well … I found a tape in his recorder where he confessed he was in love with me … but I don't know what to think …

ASTRID: Oh, yes, "One and one is two"

GINA: How do you know?

ASTRID: Paul showed me the tape on the condition that I wouldn't say anything.

I didn't know that Astrid and Paul had so much confidence to show her this so personal song , I felt jealous for a second because Paul had more confidence in her to tell that sort of things. But , it's Astrid , you could tell her everything.

GINA: I don't understand, to neither of both , I'd rather to hate them … but I can't …

ASTRID: Because you love them.

GINA: Yeah, I guess so … but I get dizzy, John, Paul, John Paul …

ASTRID: Well, first was John, Paul, Stu …

I blushed, I thought Astrid knew nothing of what I had with Stu.

ASTRID: Oh, quiet, never mind, that was before he met me - said, winking.

I was relieved.

GINA: Well, then … you talked to Paul … you know why he is upset with me?

ASTRID: why don't you ask him yourself?

GINA: How? He don't want to talk … and he may be with "Erika" - said in a tone visibly upset.

ASTRID: No, he is not with her, is there.

Astrid pointed towards the wooden stairs.

I looked, and there was Paul, thoughtful and leaning on the rail, as that day waiting in Mendips.

I hesitated a second but I headed to the wooden stairs ready to get an answer.