A/N: Full chapter is here

FOUR POV

WEEK 3

I knew it was inevitable, but I was just hoping it would be a much longer before I saw that face again. Stella. It's hard to say my feelings, because I don't even understand them myself but oh how I wish I did. In all honestly, the best way to describe it is it just being a whirlwind of emotions running through my head on replay. I just dread having to stand next to her on this podium, but I don't have much of an option regardless. I know right now I am in a puddle of mess, but all I can think about Tris and I can already feel how this has knocked our relationship back a step.

TRIS POV

"Four's ex, please take stage next to Four." Jeanine's voice rings through the silent air.

The girls and I watch intently as ex number 5 walks meekly to stand next to Four, a little closer to him then what would be viewed as friendly but it seems like she just can't help herself.

I knew what Four and I had would be short-lived, he was honestly too good of a person- too good of a man to be with me. Here his ex stands in all her glory, still with feelings left for him lingering. I don't know how I am supposed to compete with that, or if I even should knowing that I don't stand a single chance because by the looks of it, he still has some feelings for her. I haven't known him long enough to even be seen as competition- she's already got him.

I can feel Christina tugging on my ring finger, and I look over to her to see her offering a small smile, trying to tell me its okay- she knows it's not.

"Stella, how do you feel about seeing Four again?"

"I don't know I mean-" she takes a deep breath and looks at his face, "I mean it just brings the feelings rushing back" she laughs a little. She seems like a sweet girl, which just adds to the growing aching pain in my heart, but I put a brave face on.

Jeanine cocks and eyebrow and says, "Four, any comments?"

"If I had any, I would have said something earlier." Four then puts his head down, a stoic expression guarding his face. I wonder what he is thinking? That didn't give me much insight into what he thinks about this situation, it rather just confuses me further. However, if I am right, Four will no longer be thinking about me anymore.

"Okay well thank you, please Stella and Four leave the stage."

As they walk of the stage, I catch Four's eyes and they are gleaming with sadness and that's all I need to confirm his feelings. He is leaving me today.

And as soon as that thought comes to mind, a lone tear falls from my eye, and I leave it there with my feelings on the line.

Right now the house is divided; I mean literally divided. The girls have occupied the right side of the common room whilst the boys have taken it upon themselves to lounge om the left. The silence in the room lingers in the air, nobody dares to speak after the past few hours since the challenge ended. Most of us girls are all trying to make sense of the situation that has truly changed the game and made most of us doubt where we are- what position we are with our boys. I mean for girls like Marlene she hasn't got much to worry about, just a boy that bought a really really bad present for his ex girlfriend, but for some of us we have a dilemma on our hands.

I look up from what I was previously doing which was playing with the bracelet dangling on my wrist trying to distract myself from the pain I am feeling and see Shauna staring directly at me. She motions with her eyes to go upstairs, and it is only then that I see Marlene, Shauna and Christina also looking at me motioning upstairs. I nod and we all stand up, attracting attention to everyone in the common room as it is the first real movement made since we all sat down in the common room. As us 4 make our way up the stairs, I know Four is staring directly at me but I am not giving in. I am not going to look at him, I am not going to let him brake me, he's done enough. Is it too much to preserve the last bit of my heart?

As soon as we make it upstairs, Christina breaks down into tears.

Shauna and Marlene look confused, Christina sure is someone who doesn't cry very often, but I know her. This must be big for her.

She never cries over boys, she always brushes her heartbreaks off with a little shove of her shoulder and a knee in the groin for the boys.

"It can't be true, Will isn't that type of man-" she looks up at us with her mascara dripping down her cheeks trying to find any signs reassurance or agreement with her proclamation, but when she doesn't see any she sobs out "right?" she whispers and looks down at the once bright carpet but right now everything I see is dull and drab.

Will means something to her, just like Four means something to me. Four, I don't want to think about him, because I know that if I do, I won't be able to stand here and face the girls. I have always been good at hiding my emotions, but right now I feel like I am just going to combust because I can finally see and feel how real all of this is.

I don't think I can even stay in this house anymore.

I just don't know.

With all these feelings rushing wild I know I can't stay here. I can't let them see me like this.

"I am sorry Christina; I just can't be here right now." And with that I run outside the room and to the balcony, the only place I can seek solace and harmony. Now it's time to deal with my heart.

FOUR POV

"Man what's Chris going to think of me now-"Will stops mid-sentence to run his fingers through his messy tuffs of hair.

"She is really going to hate me now." He rests his head in his hands shaking profoundly.

Right now the Will, Uriah, Zeke and I are gathered in the corner of the common room, away from the ears of the remaining downstairs.

"Well Will you did mess up," Zeke says boldly.

Will looks at Zeke incredulously looking like he is ready for a battle, "Says the one who has the freak of an ex, who he slept with just recently before he got signed onto this damn experiment." His voice going an octave higher then a whisper.

"I may have messed around, must I remind you BEFORE the show, but I sure never tried to cheat on someone and I most definitely never will. So don't try to escape your shit Will, I'm not. I know what I've and now I am going to face it the best I can without trying to lose the new light in my life. The person who has changed me, Shauna. Maybe you should try that to Will and stop throwing yourself a pity party." Zeke's face grows more annoyed as each second of this conversation passes.

"Boys can we take it down a notch. We don't need anymore problems then we already have at the moment," Uriah interjects.

"Easy for you to say, with your harmless shit present giving tendencies. That might even be seen as cute by some of the girls. You and Marlene are fine Uriah." Will says still feeling down.

"Four, what about you, how do you feel?"

I don't even know who asked the question. I don't feel the need to even join in on the conversation, I am still battling my feelings in my head.

Why didn't Tris look at me when she was walking upstairs with the girls? What is she thinking about me right now? Certainly not good things.

Stella being back. Tris's tear as she stood and watched Stella and I walk of the podium. How do I feel? I don't even know, but if I am sure of anything, it is Tris. I wouldn't trade anything in the world for the newfound feeling I get from just being around that girl. She ignites something new, something bright in me. Something I never experienced, I honestly did not think anyone would change me, the way I am and make me a better person. She has changed all aspects in my life and for that I will forever be grateful.

All the internal battles I fought on the daily, nightmares of my dads, the daily weakness and cowardliness my childhood makes me feel. She is the one who helps me, helps me tuck away those fears and feel free for once in my life. Even though she doesn't know what she's doing she is still there for me in a way I never thought anyone would be able to.

I don't want Stella. I was confused as to why she stood on that podium and claimed she wanted me when she knew that we never connected on any level. We were simply put together by convenience which we both knew and accepted, but there was never anything there and she knew it. But seeing her again honestly just shocked me, as it has been three weeks inside the house and nothing from my past has appeared until she waltzes in. Although she wasn't necessarily anything good or bad in my past; she is still part of my past and I want to escape my past. For good. And I know just how.

A/N: I bet you didn't expect me to update this soon aye? Yes, I made a JB reference in the last A/N well spotted reviewer, however it was completely relevant because I let you all down with my constant lack of updates. Here is a song lyric insight into Four's feelings:

"You gave me something that I didn't have before. So I'ma give you something, to stop you saying more."

What is Four going to do? That lyric is from one of my favourite songs and singers. Please favorite, follow and review this story if you liked it.