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Chapter 12+13

Edward Cullen POV
As She Left

Song: Writing To Reach You by Travis.

#Because my inside is outside
My right side's on the left side
Cause I'm writing to reach you now but
I might never reach you #

"Edward? Walk with me?" She asked me. I nodded and grabbed her hand. We walked the short distance between our houses in silence, relishing in the quiet. I'm not sure what Bella was thinking but I knew what I was. We arrived at her front door.

"Why do I feel as if this is a goodbye?" I said quietly.

"I'm sorry." She blurted out, dodging my question. She's been doing this a lot lately.

"Why Bella?" I asked me worriedly.

"Let's just say goodbye Edward."

"To what?"

"To us. Literally. Just know I'll see you soon." She sighed.

"Bella?"

"I love you Edward Cullen. I'm sorry that I never told you that before. Maybe you would've loved me too by now. I'll miss you so much." Her tears flowing relentlessly down her face. Bella stood on her toes and kissed me, flinging her arms around my neck.

"Now go, Edward. Remember I love you and I'll be missing you. Tell Alice and everyone I'm sorry. Charlie'll be over tomorrow with things. I hope you'll try to understand why I'm doing this. I love you." I was kissed briefly and watched as she turned and ran away into the house.

I stood in the same spot. The raindrops joined my tears in running down my face. My girlfriend is saying goodbye for no reason that I'm aware of. I didn't mean to kiss that girl, I just did. I didn't think it would send Bella away so far. She's not been the same since. And it's my entire fault.

I turned and ran away. Away from Bella. She doesn't want me anymore. I don't go anywhere that I'm not wanted. There's nothing to hold me there. Man, what's wrong with me?

I heard Bella's front door swing open as she ran outside. I walked faster into my own house as she stepped out and called something out. I didn't listen to it.

I walked through to the garage. I could hear murmurs through the door. I opened the door and it was black apart from the TV flickering. I pressed the light switch down to turn it on.

My friends turned to me and stared. I guess my eyes were red from crying.

"She keeps saying goodbye. And that she loves me. She hopes that I'll understand. But she's leaving, saying goodbye. And she's sorry." I told them. I was having no response from them so I turned to walk up to my room.

I went up three steps at a time. That way my mom won't be able to see me and ask what's wrong. She'll find out soon enough.

I opened the door and walked over to the window sill. I looked over onto Bella's house. She was standing there, in the rain looking up. She was crying. Her mascara smudged and streaked al down her face. My eyes filled with tears once again.

Why goodbye? I mouthed to her.

It's for the best. She told me silently.

Why?

Trust me Edward.

So I told her the truth. It's not for me though.

I'm sorry.

I was about to say something else when the door opened. I turned and all my friend filed in. I turned and she stood there. Then Alice walked over to say something, but she turned and fled. The door slammed shut.

"What happened Edward?" Emmett asked, serious for once.

So I answered his question. Truthfully.

"Did anything happen before she went this morning?" Jasper asked.

"Last night she asked me if I loved her and I said no. Then she asked whether I'd ever be able to love her so I said I don't know if I'd ever be able to love someone."

"Edward!" Rosalie moaned. "No girl ever wants to hear that from their long-term boyfriend. You should've just said I'll love you in time. Not that you'll never be able to fall in love."

"He didn't say he'd never be able to fall in love Rose." Emmett said.

"He basically did." Alice piped up.

"Not." Jasper argued. Great, one girl breaks up 3 relationships instead of just her own.

"Guys!" I said.

They shut up and apologised. Then left me. I was ok with that. I hope.

A few hours later, Charlie's cruiser shown up. He pulled into his driveway and looked at my house. He knew what was happening then.

I sat on the window for a further hour or two, I wasn't counting.

She stepped out of her house, pulling a purple suitcase on the wet ground and her guitar around her neck. She looked up at my house. My room was blacked out so she couldn't see me but I could see her. Charlie followed with two thermo-flasks. With coffee, I bet. But I won't find out.

Bella walked towards the garage but I couldn't see what she was doing. Then she walked to the door. I was getting ready to go down when my mother answered the door. They talked then my mom shut the door as Bella ran towards Charlie. He's going to be lost without her.

I ran outside towards the garage window. There was a letter addressed to me. I picked it up and sat on the porch. I read it.

Dear Edward,

I'm sorry. I love you but you don't love me. I can't say somewhere where I'm not wanted. I have Alice, Rose, Emz and Jazz Charlie too but I can't stay if you don't want me.

I'm going to be honest. I knew since you cheated that you didn't love me but I had to hear it from you. That hurt. Being cheated on. But you wouldn't know. I'm sorry. I guess I pushed you towards it. But still, Edward. That hurt. A lot.

I'm not going to lie anymore. I don't love you. What I said before and above was in the friendly way. I've never loved you romantically. It's over. I've realised that what you said and done was all pushing me in the direction I'm going in.

So to both save us the pain of it all, it's over. I realised this just as I write this. But I'm going to say it once because before all this happened it was true. Just don't take it as the present, ok?

I love you, Edward Anthony Cullen.

I'm sorry. I'm going now.

Bella

X

She pulled away and Charlie was kneeling on the wet floor at the end of the street, crying. I ran as fast I could with the wind blowing the letter in my hand. I clutched it further. I followed her. Then she pulled over. I sighed. I slowly walked towards her cautiously. She pulled away. I ran again. But she went faster, out of my life. I stopped for breath and watched her car disappear until all I saw was her lights indicating she was turning right.

"I love you Bella Swan. I love you." I shouted.

She didn't hear me. Just the people of Forks did instead. Bella will never know.

And I'm sorry that she didn't. I was stupid and naive not to tell her sooner. That I love her.

A/N: I don't know if anyone wanted Edward's POV but I heard the song that's chosen for this chapter on my iPod and felt that I had to do it. Like it? Want more Edward? Well there won't be for a while but I'll bring him in soon. Jacob, anyone?

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