Do You Dream Of Me?

by siunove

this is a fanfiction of thor and loki and their relationship. what happens, when rulers of nine realms find out that loki is a frost giant? what happens when loki loses control over his jotun side? events take place after avengers and before Thor the dark world. last thing; i strongly recommend that you listen to soundtracks of each chapter(links will be posted at the begining).

14. old wounds, new pain

Chapter 14 old wounds, new pain

soundtrack for this chapter is ,,heal my wounds'' by the poets of the fall

in this chapter, i tried to be accurate with grammar and capital letters, as one of you advised, through I don't think that is important when it gets to liking or disliking the story :) The following chapter was strongly inspired by the song. i hope you are gonna like it.

Loki knew, he had nowhere to go. The sorcerer's hands dropped hopelessly, he turned to Thor with bitter smile on his face – so, it seems, here we are, dear sibling - as we always wanted, bound together, forever.

The silence felt. Loki was just standing there, with hand's crossed on his chest, while Thor could not stop walking to and fro. Flames were lighting the room even more with every second passed, both knew what that meant – that over there, somewhere, in cold, dark dungeons of Jotunheim, Loki was dying, freezing.

- What can we do about that? – Thor asked at last, nervous.

- About what, dear brother? – Loki smirked – about me being here? Well, I am sorry to disappoint you, I can't just vanish, believe me I would like to. What a terrible fate you have indeed – he added bitterly – to get a monster like me as a brother, lover, nemesis and even as mate in death.

- Loki stop that! – the thunderer took several steps towards his little brother, intending to hold him, to make this sarcastic look on his face fade away.

- Thor, don't you dare to touch me again! YOU DO NOT OWN ME! I'm not your toy! My fate may be kidding me and leaving me for the worst once more, but I won't allow you to do that thing again to me! I've had enough already. – Thor put down his hands, staring in Loki's eyes.

- What is wrong with you, brother – he sad sadly – what have life done to you? You are not the man I once knew, the one I loved. Why you say things that poison my mind? You desire to stuck the dagger in my heart once again?

the sorcerer's eyes were filled with horror and thunderer realized what he had just admitted. His brother knew he remembered everything. Loki felt as if he was on fire. Thor knew what he had done, he knew that all along and still wanted to heal his wounds, he pulled Loki in his embrace despite all the wrong the sorcerer had done, he did not want his brother to die. Oh, how Loki wished death sometimes, when he felt down, rejected, unworthy of his title, of his brother's love and now, now he was already dead and there was still no such thing as peace for him, not even in here – still suffering, pain tearing him apart, shame and worst of all – no privacy. He couldn't ever just break down, lye on the ground and cry out in pain, scratch his face and damage his body to make his guilt go away – Thor would not allow him such thing, he would resist him being hurt. Trickster hated his brother for being so kind, so full of love and affection, forgiving and patient – he really was like the sun, the only sun there ever was in his miserable life and Loki made this sun disappear from his life, no longer able to be it's shadow, but there was one thing he had forgotten – if there is no light, no shade is able to exist.

All the emotions roaring underneath the surface, the sorcerer had to stand with plain face and hide it all, pretend as always. Oh if he just could let Thor see what was tearing him apart – he'd rather be beaten, hated, ignored even – this worried and passionate look on the thunderer's face was what killing him. Loki felt darkness overcoming him, his strength fading, he was no longer able to stand on his feet, he felt on his knees, pushing his hands forward in order not to hit the floor with face.

- Loki? What's wrong with you ? – Thor rushed forward to hold him upright but he was not able to touch him – his hands just passed through Loki's body, his vision blurred.

Lights slowly faded through the room, Loki felt cold once again – you're going back, brother – Thor whispered in his ear –sleep now, let your mind have some peace. – that was the last thing he heard, before darkness overcame him.

Loki opened his eyes.

He was in his chamber, in Helblindi's palace.

The nightmare passed, he could sigh in relief.

He was alive.

COMING NEXT CHAPTER 14 TALES OF RAGNAROK :) I've passed that chapter to be next three times already, just decided the story needed a bit of THORKI ^_^