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Sorry again it's been so long.

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Did you ever know how it feels like to be in the state of half dreaming and half awake? That's how Magnus felt like now, his eyes fluttered open ever so slowly and all he saw at first were red and blue flashing lights. He groaned when he moved a little like his brains were trying to escape from his head. This terrible headache was the first sign of one nasty hangover, but he didn't drink anymore so that couldn't be it. Okay, maybe sometimes just a little nightcap, it was every night actually and maybe a little bit more than a nightcap. But he doesn't remember having any drink lately the last thing he remmbers is that he was opening the door.

He looked around his surroundings with a blury vision, trying to figure out where he was and after a little while realization hit him. He was in an ambulance. But why?

"Master Bane, can you hear me?" asked a woman with a squeaky voice, "if you can, blink your eyes twice" she instructed and Magnus did blink twice as told.

"Okay, can you speak?" she asked again and the reply came shortly after her question.

"Yes, I can" Magnus replied with a raspy voice. His throat was scratchy and he had to cough a few times to clear it. His vision was getting clearer and now he could see the woman talking to him, she had a small frame that you could mistake her for a child and she had a short blonde hair.

"Do you remmber what happened?" she asked and Magnus was still for a moment collecting his memories.

"Uh...I was opening the door and came face to face with Eric...then nothing" he answered the woman who just nodded and said "You got it in the head pretty hard, you're lucky there's no serious damage"

Magnus saw the flashing red and blue again and got up on his elbows to see what it was. And the scene that met him strucked him. He noticed that he was in Isabelle's yard, there were a few police cars that must be the source of those flashing lights. He saw Jace who was yelling at one of the cops and Clary was trying to pull him away, he also saw Isabelle who was being held by his mother...wait is that his mother? What was she doing here? And what was the police needed for? What the fuck was going on?

In the moment his mother's eyes locked with his she ran to him and in a blink of an eye he was pulled into her tight embrace. She drew away and he could see unshed tears making her eyes look glassy.

"Oh honey, are you okay? Does anything hurt?" she spoke with worrisome and her eyes were running all over his body to make sure he was alright.

"I'm okay, but I want to know what's going on? He asked, confusion and concern lacing his voice.

She sighed not quite knowing how to inform him.

"What I'm going to tell you now is not easy. So please try not to freak out cause it's hardly the time, okay?" she put a hand on his cheek seeing worrisome and a hint of fear swimming in his gold-green eyes she took a deep breath before she spoke again.

"Eric has Alec as a hostage, we're not hundred percent sure, but we think he's armd" she spoke in a little voice like she was afraid of what she was saying. After a moment of processing her words Magnus got pale, his bottom lip was trembling slightly. "No, that can't be true" he whispered, it can't be true this's just a terrible nightmare and any time now he'd wake up and find everything okay.

She shook her head a few tears running down her face. She knew how much her son loved that boy and she knew if he was hurt Magnus will fall apart. She put a hand on his shoulder, but he shoved it away and jumped out of the ambulance.

He half expected that his legs would give away, but surprisingly they were just fine and he found himself running towards the house when suddenly a hulky man dressed in a bulletproof vest, a helmet and a gun fastened in a belt loop obviously a cop stopped him.

"Sir, you can't go any further there's a serious situation here and you have to wait right here for your safety" the cop said so calmly that it only ignited the anger he was trying so hard to keep inside.

"THAT'S MY BOYFRIEND IN THERE YOU FUCK SO STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY" he yelled at the top of his lungs, not thinking twice about calling Alec his boyfriend it was a pleasant thought in this fuck up situation. He tried to shove the cop away and despite his impressive hight and his working out he held no candle to the hulky build of the cop.

"I know sir, but please calm down whoever that person means to you. You have to be strong for him" the cop was trying to calm him, but it didn't work. In fact he got angrier.

"Calm down? How in hell I can calm down? He's trapped with a lunatic man in there and you want me to calm down? And why the hell you're not doing anything?" Magnus tone was harsh, but he couldn't help it Alec was in danger and the fucking cop wanted him to calm down.

"Sir, we're doing our best we can't just barge in that wouldn't be in the victim's favor. There's a therapist inside who would hopefully help us to understand the accused man and his wants. We've seen this situation a thousand of times. We know what we're doing. So please step back and let us do our job" the cop was speaking with a gentle tone that succesfully made Magnus shut up and step back. He was right this's thier job and he was praying that they would get Alec out safe and sound.

He felt a hand on his shoulder and without turning around he knew who it was.

"You don't need to worry, the cops are doing thier best. Besids Alec has a black belt in krav maga he can defend himself" his mother was trying to reassure him, but it didn't work because he knew. He knew Alec for so long, he knew his fears, his wishes and he knew that he might look tough from the outside, but in the inside he was fragile and vulnerable.

"How the hell all this happened?" he asked his mother in disbelief just a moment ago they were kissing and the next he woke up to all of this, life is really unfair.

"Isabelle got out of the bathroom and called the police when she heard distributing noises then she called all of us. Catrina was here too she took Church and the kittens to her place" she was speaking softly unlike the thoughts in his head. They were crying out loud, urging him to run across all those cops and get inside at any cost.

He was so scard, Alec can be dead for all he knew. Everything was finally getting better they kissed and Magnus was at last getting his chance. He was so scard that the kiss they shared not so long ago might be the last one, scard that he might not be able to hold his warm body again or to look and get lost in his crystal blue eyes or not seeing his bright smile again.

He will never have a future or a happy ending and Magnus won't have one either. All because of that fucking Eric.

'No' Magnus screamed in his mind. He won't think like that, Alec still has many years to live and they still have many things to do. He could picture both of them as a couple living together under one roof, spending holidays together the Halloween parties, the Christmas mornings and valentine's Day. He could picture them getting married on a beautiful beach with all thier family and friends to congratulate them. He could picture them moving to a nice country house with a big backyard in a nice neigbourhood, having children, two little girls Amanda and Jamie, getting another cat and maybe even a dog.

Some would call him crazy for thinking like that when Alec can be dead already, but he had something those people don't have. Hope.

Just then a woman with a brown curly hair and an oversized glasses that certainly didn't fit her rather small face walked out of the building, the cops who were standing in front of the house moved aside allowing her to pass then they closed up the space very quickly. Magnus hurried to them with a guess that the woman was propably the therapist.

The woman looked at them with a tired expression she gave a loud sigh and said "He definitely has a mental issues. He told me that he was going to kill the victim and then kill himself, he seems to like that boy so much his body language pretty much explains it not to mention that he keeps saying 'i love him' every five seconds. I also noticed that his mood changes like a pregnant woman, one second he's happy then he's angry and then he's sad and disappointed" one of the cops was writing everything down on a clipboard, but he barely noticed, every little bit of hope he had moments ago disappeared, he felt his body going numb and couldn't focus on anything, he leaned against the wall not sure if he could hold his own weight.

He felt someone patting his hair and talking softly, but he couldn't focus on what the person was saying. "Honey, just breathe, take a breath" he took a deep breath and released it. He couldn't believe all of this, that lunatic was going to kill his angel and he was just standing outside not doing anything.

"Baby, you need to calm down. I know you're shocked let me help you" his mother was trying to help and so she led him to the ambulance where one of the nurses ran to him with a syringe full of what he suspected a sedation, she pushed it into his arm gently and everything around him was going numb and the last thing he heard was a lound yell and a gun being fired.

Alec POV

Alec has felt many things in his life; happiness, saddness, madness, depression, anger, fear. But he has never felt this kind of fear before not even when he was trapped in a closet with Cameron, though the situation he was stuck in was very similar, he was standing inside a small closet and Eric was holding him so tightly from behind and holding a knife to his neck, the cold metal was biting his delicate skin drawing few blood drops.

He knew that he was about to die and he thought about everything and nothing at the same time, he thought about his first kiss, Max's birth, the childhood memories, the swing in the backyard, high school days, the feeling of rain falling on him, his mother singing him lullabies, Jace glowing on sunshine, Isabelle's terrible cooking, Magnus's eyes and how they reminded him of autumn with their gold-green specks. It's funny how you think when you know your life is about to end.

Eric was rubbing his nose in the crook of his neck and whispered "Do you believe in God, Alec? " Alec took a shuddering breath and nodded slightly. Eric was whispering all the time sometimes just a little things like 'I love you ' but sometimes he asked something different like now.

"I believe...th..at every one... has their o..own heaven " Alec said weakly. Eric kissed his neck and smiled "Our heaven is going to be wonderful, angel, just a few minutes and we can get there, isn't it great? " his hands crept under Alec's sweater and began to caress his soft skin, Alec shivered and tears escaped from his eyes freely, he didn't want Eric to touch him like that anymore he'd rather die.

"Why don't you kill me already? "Alec asked desperately, "I just want to spend more time with you, in case we're separated" he kissed his neck again. "And I want to make love to you for one last time" he added, a shattering sob ran through Alec's whole body, it was just like the other time with Cameron only without the knife.

Alec felt so weak and vulnerable in that moment, he felt like he was just a doll that anyone can use. Eric turned him around and kissed him full on the lips, he nibbled Alec's bottom lip drawing a pained cry, but he just swept his tongue inside Alec's mouth and that's when Alec pushed him with all his might "get away from me " Eric just chuckled and pushed the other boy until he was trapped between the wall and his own body, he grapped Alec's hands rather roughly and pinned them above his head.

He kissed him again this time harshly with no trace of passion or love, only possession that Alec has never witnessed before. He broke the kiss leaving Alec breathless and sobbing, "Please, I don't want to do this, stop " Alec pleaded with tears wetting his pale face.

"Why angel, don't you love me? " Eric asked with a melancholic eyes. Alec just cried more this was not the man he fell in love with and he was scard to say that he didn't love that new man standing in front of him.

"You need help you're not the man I loved" Alec stated softly trying not to anger Eric.

"Why don't you love me? Can't you see what I'm doing? I'm giving us forever together. " Eric was pleading while he was pulling the hem of Alec's sweater up, but suddenly Alec pushed him violently, he stumbled a few steps back and glared at Alec in disbelief. Alec was shocked himself, he didn't know where all this power came from. Maybe it was true that you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Alec thought.

"You're making a permanent decision for a temporary emotion, Eric" Alec said with more tears streaming down his flushed face, he never cried that much and he was merely afraid of dehydrationn.

"My love for you was never a temporary emotion" he growled.

"And what if I don't love you? What if I love Magnus? What if I prefer to be at the bottom of the ocean rather being here with you?" Alec said with a sad voice. He wanted to say much more, but he couldn't. He had so many thoughts yet so little words.

"DON'T YOU SAY HIS NAME, YOU MUST LOVE ME ALONE " Eric yelled at the top of his lungs. And he launched forward with the knife in his hand and stabbed Alec right in the chest, Alec's scream of pain only turned him on and he stabbed him repeatedly drawing more pained screams from the other boy until Alec slipped down to the floor, his sweater stained with blood and eyes closed.

His breath was shallow and his heart beat weakened and all he thought about was that he'll never see his family again or Magnus or even Clary and Simon. He was going to miss them all so much and he hoped someone will miss him too. At least a little bit

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