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Stupid

Kate PoV

"And then she said, "I..think.. I might be very close to falling for him, possibly." Can you believe it? She admitted it! Once again, Alice's plans go right, but then again, are you really surprised?" Alice said as she clapped her hands in joy, she was trying to stay quiet as she was sure Edward was still lurking around the forest where she dragged Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie and I.

"Oh yeah?" Rose started staring at her nails, but we could all see the happiness in her eyes, "that's good, and just to tell ya' Rosalie thinks Alice shouldn't speak in third person." Rose said to her sister rolling her eyes.

"Yes! This is amazing! I suppose it's about god-damn time though." The pixie mused, "And yeah, Emmett, I know you doubted my ability to get her to admit it, so ha, ha, ha."

"Sorry for doubting you, Alice." He mumbled. "No need to rub it in.."

"I don't think this is good, Darlin'." Jasper said to his wife, who was still clapping her hands. God it was annoying.. "I think we should have left it to Edward and Bella to figure it out for them, I mean, they aren't little kids and they can think for themselves."

"Yeah," Rose scoffed, "I'd just love watching them dance around each other for the next fifty years. Jeez." She rolled her eyes once more.

"And so what if they can think for themselves? They are big kids, both older than three fifths of the group here but that doesn't mean that they'd realize that they have the hots for each other." Emmett pointed out.

"In other words," Alice continued Emmett's point, "We just wanted to help." I was confused, Bella liked Edward and I get that part. Edward liked Bella, really hard to see...Not. But why can't they see that the other one feels the same. Hoy Vey..

"Actually it's kind of scary that you are doing this to them," I said, as I said before; I was totally confused with what they were doing. "I mean, like, you all betrayed Bella and Edward's trust in you by telling other's about the things they told you.. In CONFIDENCE."

"Why are you here again?" Rose asked me rhetorically, the urge to electrocute her was getting stronger.

I glared at my beautiful cousin, "I'm here because Alice came into your room and dragged me out here, like I didn't have to do anything else."

"You were with Rosalie discussing Bella and Edward. You know why you are here, as does Rose." Alice told me. Yeah, I did know why I was here. I was here as an accomplice, as a co-conspirator to this stupid ploy to help their brother and aunt get together.

I was the one to roll my eyes this time, "I'm the one to help with my crazy-ass sister."

Alice smiled, "And other things.."

"What other things?"

"Oh, I don' know.."She evaded.

"Shortie, what do you know?" Emmett asked her. Shortie? Really?

"Nothing of importance, right now."

"You are so cryptic!" Rose exclaimed, "My God!" She threw her hands up in the air and began to walk away, Emmett quickly following behind her. Jasper quickly went to Alice's side and took her hand; I dropped my gaze from the two lovers, ah love..

Bella PoV

Stupid! I'm so stupid! Telling his sister! Smart move, dipshit. I started pacing my room once more. I knew Alice probably just skipped away to go tell him, even if she was my friend, she still had a greater loyalty to Edward. Even worse, she probably told Carlisle. "No! No!" I chanted aloud as I paced. It isn't hard to guess how he'll react, especially when he jumped to all those conclusion when Jasper and my lip's touched briefly. Stupid over-bearing brother. Stupid Alice. Stupid Edward. Stupid Me. The killer thing is that he doesn't even love me back! Of course he doesn't! How could I even entertain that thought? So why did I have to go blurting out my one-sided love to anyone who'd hear it. Pathetic. I am pathetic, that's the only thought I could really, well, think. I am pathetic.

"Bella?" Esme called from the other side of my door, "Are you alright, dear?"

"Yeah."

"Are you sure?" In her thoughts I knew she wanted to talk about something but couldn't find the words to ask me.

"Yeah." I replied stoically.

I heard her sigh. "Bella, can I come in?"

"Sure." She opened the door and walked into my room that just screamed dark and gloomy at that moment, I could feel my own depression emitting from each corner of the room and bouncing back into me. I stopped pacing around the room, I was pretty sure the floor was starting to get worn down by my feet. "What's wrong, Esme?" My self-hatred suddenly turned to confusion and being concerned at Esme's worried face.

"Nothing is wrong is the matter with me." She said with a sad voice, "I'm only concerned about you."

"Me? Why?"

"You seem down." She explained, "By any chance, does it have anything to do with Edward?" Her eyebrow curved as she walked into my harem and sat on my unused bed.

"Edward?" I choked out, "No, nothing to do with him, besides, I feel really happy.. so happy." I began to look around the beautifully decorated room to avoid Esme's refuting gaze.

"Bella," She replied to my denial, "your gloomy mood is being projected onto everyone. I know something is going on, Mother's intuition." Damn you, Jasper.

"Oh," I mumbled, "it's nothing."

"You can tell me anything, you know. I won't tell anyone, if you don't want me to." She smiled openly at me. Her face was so welcoming, gracious and trustworthy. "Trust me, Bella, please." Trust her. The words Edward once said to me popped into my mind. "...Bella. Trust me on this..." Why does this family think I don't trust them? And why did he have to come into my mind with I am talking to his mother?

"I do trust you.." I muttered.

"If you trust me, then you can tell me what's on your mind." She patted the space beside her on the bed. I slowly went to her side.

"It's just.." I began, but then my mind went blank. What was I suppose to say to her? That I was falling for her son, that I was beginning to love him so much, that I was so stupid for coming here to Forks, that I was stupid for staying so long when I knew it would only get harder to stay away from Edward.

"Yes, Bella?" Esme coaxed me on, she grabbed my hands. "Can I say something first before you begin, please ?" She asked me and I nodded, as long as I got more time to drag my stupidity of love on. "Are you starting to want to leave?" She asked me solemnly.

"What?" I exclaimed, "N-no! I mean, I don't want to go anywhere.."

"But..." She nudged me on.

"I think there will come a time where I have to." That was all I said, no more explanation.

"Do you know this for certain?" I nodded, "Is there someone who will make you leave?" I didn't answer, silence was better than knowing.

"Ignorance is bliss, Esme." I quoted.

"Yes, sometimes it is. Though, if there is someone who knows something and if they don't let it out, it will eventually eat them inside and they will be in a terrible pain pushing everyone they love and care for away, isolating themselves. In that pain, they will wish that they had someone to tell, but no one is there anymore to listen." She began thinking about the awful time when her first husband, Charles Evenson, abused her greatly after coming back from the First World War, and when she figured out that she was with child soon after leaving Charles.

"Esme, I 'm sorry.. for everything." I whispered to her, too afraid to speak above a murmur.

"Bella, nothing that happened to me is your fault." She laughed once, "Sometimes I forget that I have children who can hear my thoughts, sometimes I can't control them." Did she call me her child?

I choked, "Esme.." I hugged, "You shouldn't have to control what you think, I shouldn't be able to hear your mind, nor should E-Edward." I stuttered out his name.

She let go of me after a few minutes of embracing each other, "About Edward.." She smiled at me sympathetically.

"Did you say just say those things so Edward's name would come into our conversation?" I asked her suspiciously.

"Why, Bella, I'm shocked you would think something like that of me." She batted her eyelids. Oh she's good..

"Fine, what do you want to know?" I asked with a sigh.

"What do you want to tell me?"She countered me with another question.

"I don't know." I said suddenly more grave than before.

"I'm not going to question you about him; all I want to know is if you are serious about him."

"How could I be serious with him? He ignored me for a month and a half, telling me cryptic little things driving me crazy and then suddenly starting speaking to me earlier today. How is that serious? Is he serious about me?"

"I think you misinterpret my question." She mused.

I continued, "I have never met anyone more self-loathing nor stubborn in my whole existence. He is mind-boggling and I'm not sure if it's always in a good way, he is cynical and dark and moody." I complained. "When does he ever have a good word to say about anyone?"

Esme perked up, "If I remember so correctly he said something flattering about you this morning. What was it? Something you said towards someone's thoughts about your life holding no importance and Edward denying that and saying "It's more important than you think, Bella." I think that was a positive thing to say about someone." She smiled as she knew she won.

"I am starting to think of him as more than a friend." I whispered to her, fearful someone would hear.

Her eyes widened slightly then returned to normal, "Starting to.."

"Yes."

"Only starting to?" She asked disbelievingly with her eye brown curved once more.

"Maybe it's not starting to, maybe it's been for a while." I murmured. "You won't tell Edward or Carlisle, will you?"

She looked like a deer caught between the headlights. "I'm not allowed to tell your brother?"

"No, he would get all Carlisle.."

"He would get all Carlisle? What is that suppose to mean?" She laughed, lightening the tensing mood.

"You know, Carlisle? He would get all brotherly and over-bearing and protective and-" She cut me off.

"Okay, I won't tell him! Don't worry."

"I-I'm not worry." I griped, knowing that if I'd been a human I'd be 'sweating a bullet' as Charlie used to say.

She looked at me as if to say 'I-know-you-are-freaking-out-right-now'."Sure, Bella." She smiled at me and bit her lip before saying, "Young Love.."

"DON'T!!" I yelled at her.

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~YMCM