It's been four days now and I am going to talk to him tonight. I've washed the little ones and now Rin is in the wash room bathing. I dressed Micheko first and put him in his small bed. Then Umi and I placed her squirming into her crib. I was just finishing picking up the dirty cloths and towels when Rin came in ready for bed.
" Mother, can you sing to us? " Rin asked me. Mayumi started to fuss in her crib. She was almost weaned and only drank from me when she couldn't sleep.
" Alright. " I told her as I picked Mayumi up. I sat in the rocking chair in between the feet of Rin's and Eko's beds. I sat the candle on the stand beside me and loosened my yukata for Umi, I began to sing.
" Did you not see my lady? Out in the garden in singing. Black bird and thrush are silent to hear the Alleys' ringing. Oh, saw you not my lady out in the garden there! Shaming the Rose and Lilly! For she is twice as fair. " I paused and bushed the hair from Mayumi's brow when I saw him standing there. His eyes roamed over my exposed neck, then me shoulder, and finally came to rest on my breast. At which our daughter now suckled. His gaze set heat through my veins and goose flesh to rise on my cool skin. Dropping my eyes I continued my song.
" And though I am nothing to her. And though she must rarely look at me. And though I could never woo her, I'll love her 'till I die! Have you not seen my lady? Out in the garden singing? Silencing all the song birds! And setting the Alleys ringing! Oh saw you not my lady, out in the garden there! Rivaling the glittering sunshine! With the glory of golden hair! "
The soft breathing of Rin and Micheko were the only sounds to be heard in the quiet room. Mayumi snuggled against me, as I quietly placed her in her crib. I pulled my yukata tight. Retying it at my waist. I lifted the candle and closed the shoji screen behind me. Sesshomaru had gone outside. Blowing out the candle and setting it aside, I walked outside.
No sooner had I stepped outside, than he had me. Sesshomaru pulled me to him roughly and kissed me. The kiss was gentle and hungry. I felt myself being walked backwards and then I felt the wood of the hut's wall press into my back. Sesshomaru's mouth left mine and trialed down my neck. I moved my neck aside to give him better access. When he brought himself closer to me, I could feel his desire press into my hip. Reality came crashing into my passion filled senses and with strength totally unknown to me, I pushed him away.
" We can't. " I whispered. His eyes were wild, hungry, and unguarded.
" Yes we can. ", He said simply, " You are my wife. " I felt warmth spread through me form my heart, but I refused to let myself her the catch in his voice.
" I ceased being you wife the day you let me leave! " I told him. My voice rising in pitch.
" I did not let you leave! " He whispered to me with is head bowed.
" Yes you did! ", I cried, " You stood there and let me leave! You didn't even try to stop me! " He'd started to walk away from me, but as I said this he came back towards me.
" Do you think that I wanted to hear you hateful words again?! To see the look in your eyes as you said them?! " Sesshomaru yelled at me. I shrank back against the wall as I looked at him.
" They weren't hateful.", I whispered, " They were hurt. " I said truthfully. His face suddenly cleared.
" Are you afraid of me? " Sesshomaru asked softly.
" No. " I said too quickly. He smiled and came to ward me.
" Then what are you afraid of? "He asked me gently.
" I am afraid of…of loving you. " I said softly, " Afraid that you could hurt me more if I say it aloud. You can hurt me more than any one and that scares me. You can because I…because I. " I was cut off as his lips pressed gently against mine. He pressed me back against the hut. His lips gentle and caring. I felt him nibbled at my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I gave up and kissed him fully. I don't care what Sango and Kagome say, I've missed him so much. And he feels good pressed against me this way. I'd missed him for so long and I wasn't about to ruin this, as only a fool would.
Warning: Lime!
Sesshomaru kissed me long and hard. Whatever he wanted I'd give. So long as he didn't stop what he did to me. I'd missed him so much. His touch was heaven to me. I felt his need press against my hip and then the blush on my cheeks, as heat flooded through me. Filling me with need and want.
Sesshomaru left my lips and kissed down my neck to his mark. He placed a small gentle kiss there. I held him to me as he loosened my yukata. His hands traveled down my sides to my legs. And like the first time, he lifted me and I wrapped my legs around his waist. And like before his hand went between us. Then I felt him come inside me and I hissed with pleasure.
Sesshomaru buried his head in my neck. He rocked his hips into mine and I cried out. He did it again. This time as I cried out, I dug my fingers into his shoulders. He rocked again very slowly and gently. I heard him give a low chuckle as I whimpered at his teasing. And he pulled back to look at me.
" Missed me? " He chuckled.
" Yes. " I whispered breathlessly. I sucked in a breath as he started moving again and hit a sweet spot. Sesshomaru didn't teas me this time and set a slow and yet hurried pace. Our cries mingled with each other as we began to cress the peak of completion. I felt the coil in my belly winding dangerously tight. And just as it was about to break, I heard Mayumi cry.
" Stop…stop…stop., " I whispered, " I have to.. " I was cut off as he spoke.
" I know. " he told me softly. Sesshomaru pulled out of me and I missed the feeling of fullness he gave me. We straightened our cloths and went inside. Sesshomaru to his small futon by the hearth and I to take care of Umi. I put her to sleep and found him sitting there by the hearth. I thought a moment before I spoke.
" Sesshomaru? Are you coming? " I asked him. He looked at me confused in the direction of my bedroom and his confusion cleared. I saw an emotion flicker across his face so quickly that I couldn't be sure what it was.
Sesshomaru stood up and came toward me. I slid the shoji screen open, he walked in, and I closed it again. He stood there looking at me.
" What are you doing? " I asked him.
" Looking at a beautiful angle. " He replied. I smiled and walked to him. He took me in his arms and held me. I laid my head on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around him. I missed the times like this. Before I left, when he would just hold me. The memory of that day made me remember that this moment was now, not then. I tired to pull away then, but he held me tighter to him.
" I am so sorry for that day, ", Sesshomaru whispered, " And for not coming after you. I have looked for you for so long. " I felt the tears fall down my cheeks and splash on his silky shirt. He pulled me closer and rocked me as he rubbed my back and ran his hand down my hair.
" I still love you. I never stopped. " Sesshomaru whispered against my hair. I sucked in a breath and looked at him. I felt the butterflies I'd thought I'd lost flutter in my stomach, I looked into his eyes. I kissed him then. Sesshomaru was shocked at first, then he kissed me back. The kiss was gentle until it broke. I broke away from him and laid down on my futon. He looked down at me, a strange expression on his face. I reached out to him and he came and laid down beside me. He took me in his arms and held he close to him. It was a moment before I could speak.
" I love you. ", I whispered, " I never stopped. " I felt him pull me closer and I turned toward him. It was then that I noticed the slight wetness of his cheeks and I realized he was crying. I brushed away the few tears that remained and placed my hand on his cheek gently before I finally fell asleep.
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Well that's a wrap. I am sooooo sorrrrry for leaving you all hanging, but it's hard to get time on the computer with six people living in the same house with only one computer. Imagine smack down raw, but only with kids and not really big hot muscular guys. Drool. Anyway so sorry and another chapter within the next two hours. It also takes forever to type. So sayonara! J