Thinking of You

Chapter 14

Leonard sat in a cafe drinking his coffee it was a lovely day in Pasadena it wasn't too hot, so Leonard risked sitting outside. It wasn't too busy this afternoon, just how he liked it. Leonard just played catch up since penny's disappearance. His experiments had suffered while he was helping Penny with her rehabilitation. He was now working on a device with the military to build an alien detecting laser device to scan the skies. He decided he had done all he could for Penny, and the ball was now firmly in her court. He wasn't going to chase after her anymore he was tired. He needed to move on with his life. All she ever did was hurt him. From a younger age he thought his purpose in life was to study physics and change the world someday, but he doubted that now. Was his sole purpose to meet and fall in love with Penny and spend the rest his life looking out for her. And was her sole purpose to keep hurting him till eternity. Can't she see the pain she is causing him or doesn't she care. No matter what unknown forces keeps pulling them together. He had a feeling he would see her again he didn't know when but he felt it. Leonard spends his time working on his laser detecting device. It was the only time his mind would wander away from Penny. He became a loner working long hours to finish the project on time. It's was going to be the world's most powerful light-measuring spectrometer Its goal will be to capture signals from outer space using a comb laser device. The laser was at its testing stage, and if successful it will then be fitted with the world's largest and most powerful telescope scanning the skies for alien life. He didn't see the gang that much because of the late hours he was working he just made excuses why he couldn't hang out with them. He spends some time with Emma she was easy to talk to and understand how he felt she was always there when he wanted to talk about Penny.

"Hi Leonard" his thoughts were broken.

"Hi, Emma Thanks for coming." He smiled at her.

"No problem it's always nice talking to you. I just get some coffee I'll be right back."

He had called Emma and asked to meet as he wanted to talk to her about something. She came back and sat opposite him why sipping her latte.

"So what's up Leonard?"

"Well it's been nearly four months since Penny left and I still can't get her out of my mind. I feel like I have deserted her in her hour of need."

"Don't beat yourself up about this. You did all you could for Penny, and I'm sure she appreciates it. She just didn't want you to get into any trouble." Emma said.

"I feel I could have done more I was selfish and didn't try to find her."

"Do you know where she is Leonard?"

"Not really, but I hope she went to her parents and not shacked up with some ex-boyfriend."

"Is that what is bothering you?"

"Yes and no. I just miss her so much and hope she is not with some guy who is not treating her right."

"Leonard she will be fine she loves you."

"Sometimes I don't feel like she does. I feel hurt, resentful, disappointed and sad with her constant rejection of me. Be it as friends or in a relationship."

She touches his hands to comfort him and said. "Something I learned when I lived with my alcoholic father was to acknowledge my feelings without trying to suppress them. I practiced mindfulness thinking; you'll find that staying in touch with your feelings helps you quickly move on from negative thoughts."

"I can't help feeling down. Do you think I should try and find her I can't move on until I know she is okay? I spoke to my friends about this. They think I should do what I believe is right but look after number1. Me. It's affecting me emotionally and my mental well being I miss the playfulness and fondness we used to enjoy." A smile spread across his face. "Visiting local food and farm events. And getting me out of my comfort zone. I miss those times."

"Things will get easier Leonard. She will come back to you when she is ready. You see. I think you made the right decision not going after her. Stick with it. She needs to start doing things for herself instead of depending on others."

"I guess you are right she need to find herself again."

"I miss her too Leonard. But sometimes the best thing is to let it go, and if it comes back, then it's meant to be."

"You are right. Thank you for putting up with me. I'm glad to call you my friend. How is Sam? He winked at her. She blushed and said "he is fine we are going to an art gallery opening later."

"I hope you have a great time and thanks again for meeting me."

"Anytime you need to talk I'm here for you Leonard." They both stood up. She gave him a kiss on the cheek and said. "Thank you for introducing me to Sam."

He had decided to help Emma she had been a superb friend to him and Penny he set her up with one of his colleagues, and they hit it off. Leonard was happy for them he had made two lonely people happy. It is what he needed too. Happiness. But he knew there was only one person who could give him that. She wasn't here. Leonard wasn't short of admirers he had been asked out three times in the last month and declined each time. Because all he would do is compare them to Penny, and that wasn't fair to them, they had no chance.

Penny walked out of the police station in shock what the hell just happened. She sat just in her car. She couldn't drive because she was shaking all over. All that went through her mind was that she wasn't going to jail. She was a free woman. Who paid off her debts? It's wasn't her parents they would have told her. It was not one of her so called friends who deserted her when she lost everything, maybe it was the gang and Leonard. It then hit her. Leonard. But while she knew he was rich he didn't have $million to spare. She began to panic. Did he spend all his saving to bail her out? What if he bankrupt himself for her he probably borrowed some of the money. She began to tear up. She had to see him she missed him so much, but she also needed to know he was okay. She hoped he still lived in his apartment and not moved somewhere else because of her. She needed to get herself together. She took small breaths trying to get her breathing under control. She was hyperventilating. He took the responsibility to pay her debts, and they weren't even together he has made this massive gesture for her but then what if it wasn't him. He never tried to find her or even call her parents to see if they knew where she was. What if he's given up on her and met someone else. She needed to know. She had to see him.

Leonard felt better after his talk with Emma. She made a lot of sense. He just hopes Penny was safe where ever she was. He sat on the sofa and turned the TV on there was an episode of Sex in the City playing. He smiled to himself. He didn't change the channel. There was a knock on the door he wasn't expecting anyone. He opened the door and was stunned "Penny" was all he could get out.

"Leonard" tears in her eyes.

"I'm home Leonard. I came home."

They just stared lovingly at each other the next minute his lips was on hers. It took her a few seconds to realize what was happening his tongue begging entrance she gave in as shivers ran through her body. He was hungry. The anger, the pain and frustration all evident as he pulled her into the apartment and closed the door Penny's leg gave way as the good feeling ran through her body. He had caught her before she fell, but she ended up falling on top of him his tongue latching onto her weak spot she moaned in pleasure. They ripped their clothes off and all the passion that has been missing for three years was now on overdrive. She shuddered under his touch giving herself to him. Her eyes stared long and hard at him panting breathlessly and wanting more. He called her name but before he could say anything else her tongue was stroking his. She moaned into his kiss.

It was raw sex. Tonight Leonard was the king of foreplay and sex as they explored each other's bodies. The talk will have to wait.