It's been almost three months since Barriss last saw Ahsoka. Three months since her former master, Luminara Unduli betrayed her. Instead of sending her to her home planet with her parents, she sent her to Dantooine with her estranged sister. Barriss didn't expect to learn very much from her, but she was proved wrong. Her sister, Barella, has praticed the ancient Mirialan are of shape shifting.

For years, they've been able to change into different beings or animals. They were like changlings, but they didn't have to touch a person to turn into them. They could just think of it and change. Barriss was learning this art fairly quickly. She's alway been a fast learner, but even Barella was surprised by how quickly she caught on.

"Wow, Barriss. I'm impressed. It took me a lot longer to get this down."

"Thank you, Barella. It's not as difficult as I once thought, but it's not easy either."

"That much I know. Let's take a break and pick back up on this tomorrow." They went to Barella's hut to rest. Barriss went into her room and plopped down on her bed. She was tired and exhausted. Training to be a shifter was more difficult than training to be a Jedi. It took a lot more concentration and focus. When her mind was finally settled, her thoughts drifted back to Ahsoka. She missed her a lot and almost hated her old master for sending her to Dantooine and not letting her see Ahsoka before she departed.

Barriss wondered many things. She wondered how Ahsoka was doing. She wondered how she was dealing with her pregnancy. She wondered how much she'd changed in the past few months. Every now and again, Barriss would feel a strong wave of sadness and depression through her bond with Ahsoka. Most times, she worried about the young girl. She knew how strong Ahsoka was, but even she had a breaking point. All Barriss wished was that she could she her again. There was a knock on her door and Barella came in.

"Hey, little sis. I brought you some water and an apple." She sat on the bed next to her.

"Thanks, Rella."

"You're welcome, Barri. So, anything new going on in your mind? I know there is."

"Nothing new, really. I was just..."

"Thinking about Ahsoka again?"

"I suppose."

"Barriss, I know what it's like to miss your friends, especially ones like her. Isolation isn't the best thing, but it helps for us to better ourselves when there's nothing to distract us from doing so."

"Is that why you left mother and father?"

"I guess you could assume that. There were many reasons I left. But the main one was so I could stay on the right path in my life. I've learned more here alone than I have my entire life back home. Sometimes being away from the ones you love is a good thing. If you can last a certain amount of time away, you know you can keep them close without overprotection." Barriss smiled.

"Thank you for the talk."

"You're welcome, little sis. Now, get some rest. I have a new lesson waiting for you tomorrow."

"I'm up for anything you throw at me."

"I'm sure you are." She kissed her forehead and left. Barriss laid down in her bed and slowly began to drift off to sleep.

At the Temple

Anakin was still keeping a close eye on Ahsoka. She hasn't tried anything lately, but he didn't want to take any chances with her. While keeping her in check, he was thinking of a way to find Barriss and reunite Ahsoka with her. He knew that there was no way Luminara would tell him where she was. He had to find out on his own. He had to really think of who else would know where Barriss was sent. No one came to mind. No one was really close with Luminara and no one particularly liked her. The only one she was close to was Barriss.

He was lying on his bed, watching Ahsoka sleep across the room. When he was sure she was in a deep sleep, he drifted off himself.

An hour later, Ahsoka woke up and saw Anakin asleep on his bed. She knew how worried about her and she knew why. She wouldn't deny that she was having a few issues. She missed Barriss a lot and her self esteem was destroyed by Luminara. She tried to convince Anakin that she was doing better, but, as expected, he didn't believe her. He never left her and when he did, he made sure someone was with her. Watching her. Making sure she wouldn't try anything. She hasn't tried in almost two weeks. She wouldn't try again. Or so she told herself.

She sat up in her bed and swung her legs over the edge. She rubbed her belly as she tried to settle her stomach, or the baby, before she got up. While leaning against the wall, she slowly and carefully brought herself to her feet. She wobbled a bit for she wasn't used to the extra weight on herself. She pushed off the wall and took a step forward. After that first step, she fell to her knees and grunted in pain. Anakin woke up at the sudden noise and saw her on the floor.

"Ahsoka!" He got up and dropped down to her. "Ahsoka! Are you okay? What happened?"

"Nothing. I was trying to get to the refresher. I'm fine." He helped her stand. Her legs were shakely and her knees gave out. Anakin caught her before she hit the ground again.

"Ahsoka, this isn't healthy for you. Look at yourself! You can't even stand!"

"So, I've gotten heavier because of the baby. I'll be fine."

"It's not just the baby, Ahsoka. You' haven't eaten any real food in weeks. You're weak and you won't do anything about it. You need some help." She looked at him with her darkened and weary eyes.

"Master, I know that I've been having a few mental issues and I'm not the best I've ever been, but I don't need any help. I'll be fine."

"When will you see that you're not? Ahsoka, you may not see the real damage you're doing to yourself, but I do. And so does everyone else. We're worried sick about you. I know you're trying to kill yourself and you're doing it slowly, but what will that solve? What will killing yourself do? It won't bring you peace. And it won't bring anyone else any good feelings. Do you have any idea what would happen to the rest of us if you dropped dead? We would miss you. We would be completely miserable without you. You've brought so much happiness to everyone and we don't want you to go." Ahsoka listened to what he said, but didn't respond. Anakin helped her to the refresher and she sat on the edge of the bathtub. Anakin kneeled infront of her and tried to look in her eyes. "Ahsoka?"

"Master, I understand what you're trying to tell me." She paused for a moment, then looked to him. "I'm not myself anymore. Anyone can plainly see that. People can see how much I've changed physically, emotionally, and mentally. Of all the stunts I've tried to pull, you've been the one to stop me. You've been the one trying to help me back on my feet. You're trying everything, but you just can't see that I don't want any help."

"But you need it, Ahsoka. Things aren't the same without you being there as your energetic, loud, upbeat self. Everything's changed since you have. I just want the old Ahsoka back. I want my Snips back."

"I'm sorry, Master, but not much is going to bring back anyone's old Ahsoka or your old Snips. I'm done trying." She unsteadily stood up and shooed Anakin out the refresher. He walked out and she closed the door. He removed anything sharp, pointy, or possibly anything she could hurt herself with, but he still stood by the door and mad sure she didn't try anything he wouldn't think of. All he heard was her throwing up off and on for about five minutes. When it stopped, he heard the faucet running. It stopped and there was silence. He prepared himself for her to try anything.

Inside the refresher, Ahsoka looked at herself in the full mirror. She saw that she was almost nothing but skin and bones. Despite her pregnancy, she could still make out a few of her ribs. Her shoulder blades were poking through her skin. Her eyes were dark, sulken and bloodshot. She almost didn't recognize herself. She saw why Anakin and everyone else worried for her. She closely resembled a skeleton. She didn't want this to happen, but part of her won't let her try to get better. Her emotions were taking over and destroying her from the inside out. Nothing could stop or reverse this process.

If you guess kinda want a better description on how she looks, here's something kinda helpful. If you saw the movie Breaking Dawn (yes, the Twilight one) and saw how Bella looked when she was pregnant, Ahsoka looks sorta like that.

Also, hope you like this chapter. A lot of drama, yes, but I promise it won't stay like this for much longer. Just bare with me for now. R&R.