AN: I OWN NOTHING OF THE FAIRLY ODD PARENTS/WENN ELFEN HELFEN SERIES!
That night they lay in their bed in silence. Cosmo kept his arms wrapped tightly around her as she sobbed into his shirt. His own tears were flowing down his cheeks slowly as he thought of all this could mean. This could mean being taken away from Timmy, never seeing him again. It could mean death by slow and painful beating when Big Daddy found out that his idiot son-in-law impregnated his daughter with his sure-to-be-an-idiot seed. Most of all he'd caused Wanda pain. There were only three ways this pregnancy was going to end; abortion, which he knew he'd never forgive himself for and Wanda wouldn't be able to do without issue, miscarriage, which was painful in itself emotionally and physically. Then finally there was the one that would be most painful and take weeks to recover from, if not months. Birth.
She clutched onto his shoulder with her hand as she buried her head in his chest. She hated being this weak, that she'd cried already so many times in this past week alone. This was a new pain though. She knew that she wouldn't be able to have this baby if she were truly pregnant. Not the way she's supposed to have a baby. She wouldn't be able to give it the time it needed and she couldn't leave Timmy. Most of all she couldn't let it be born into something like this. Not when her father was a part of her life again and Cosmo's mother was going to be ever present. It wouldn't be fair, not to the baby. The part that hurt the most though, was that, even though she had no idea whether she was truly pregnant of not, she already felt attached to it. Just the thought that she might be pregnant had sent enough emotion through her that she'd actually felt that first feel of attachment to a baby she knew she couldn't keep. Not in this life. She could feel Cosmo's tears as some fell over her. It wouldn't be easy for him either, but he knew it had to be done.
"I-" he tried to speak, but his words caught in his throat as he held her, his voice was shaky and small, "I don't want to kill it..." Wanda shut her eyes tight and burrowed her head against his chest at his words. She took a moment before pulling back to speak to him.
"We can't keep it Cosmo... not in a world like this, we can't." She felt him nod against her head.
"Can't we give it to someone?" He suddenly asked her, pulling back enough to see her face. "Like an adoption? We don't have to kill it or lose Timmy if we give it to someone we can trust to watch over it." She sighed.
"Cosmo, it's not that easy, eventually I'm going to show and eventually someone in one of our families will notice and demand we keep it." He frowned for a moment.
"Well, until then we can sneak off to look for Timmy!" He suggested. "We can look for Timmy while you're pregnant and then when you have the baby, we'll give it to someone on Earth. It'll never know it was supposed to be a fairy." Wanda thought for a moment. "I mean there are ways that we can hide it's real hair color and wings and stuff."
"How are we supposed to get past our families? And besides, sweetie, eventually I'm going to get too pregnant to help actually look for Timmy with you." He frowned for a moment.
"Then I'll carry you. Please, Wanda, I don't want to live my whole life feeling like I'm the mirror image of my father because I agreed to kill my child. Even if I'm not the one raising it, I'll at least know I did it one good thing before I let it go." Wanda looked at him in the eyes. They were so full of sadness and confusion that she knew if she were truly pregnant, she'd never be able to forgive herself if she killed it knowing how he felt about his own father whom had caused his mother to miscarry twice and abort three other times. She couldn't do that to him.
"Please, Wanda. Just... please." She closed her eyes and he kissed her forehead.
"We'll wait out the rest of the visit and then we'll go start looking for Timmy. Until then, I'll get a pregnancy test kit from the store and if I'm pregnant we'll think about your idea." She told him. "But I don't want you ever thinking you're like your father again." He nodded and she lay her head against him again and listened as he breathed. She felt him tighten his grip on her. Her heart was already starting to break.
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