-1Chapter 14 Sorry about the delay I have no reason.
How do you go about putting your life back together when all your dreams are nightmares and all waking moments painful reminders that you are different? Irrevocable different. I sit watching my family gathered around the table, happily enjoying each others company, and I cant help but think that despite the roaring fire next to me all I feel is cold. I can feel Lupen's eyes on me as he sits beside me pretending to read a newspaper. My parents keep glancing this way, probably to reassure that I am still here. Malfoy is here too. Or I should say Draco. The mystery of my savior is solved. Apparently I wasn't the only one to hate the sound of my screams echoing in the dark.
Days pass by and I slowly start to feel alive again. Its not much, just a walk with Dan and Ginny, or a chess game with Ron. I still don't speak much unless I have to ,but these little moments give me hope that maybe I'll make. That maybe there is light after a lifetime of darkness. I sit outside watching Dan chase garden gnomes from my view atop the hill I can see Draco approaching a long way off. When he reaches me ,no words are spoken, he just silently joins me. I don't know how long we sit like this, it seems like hours, it seems like seconds. When the silence is broken its me that disturbs it.
"Nothing is ever going to be the same, is it?"
He shifts, looks at me sadly before answering. "Did you expect it to be?"
No. I guess I always knew I could never go back. But it sill hurts to hear the finality of it.
" I'm tired of being alone."
"Then stop."
" It's not that simple." He sighs.
" I know I just wish it was. But you know your not the only one he used."
With this he pushes himself up. For a moment the sun hits his hair sending flashes of gold across my face, then he's gone, carefully making his way back to the house. No I'm not normal ,but neither am I alone. Maybe it will be enough.
The END