Arranging

Kendall and I were at the hospital for the final check up. After this one I would be completely allowed to do everything I wanted. The casts would be gone and I could walk normally again. I still shouldn't dance and everything with my ribs, but I didn't really care about that. My headaches were almost completely gone and I felt better than ever.

Kendall definitely noticed this and was very amused by my enthusiasm. He was sitting on a chair in a corner while the nurse was doing some last things, signing forms and everything.

"You're free to go. Be careful, though. If it hurts again, you should come back so we can keep an eye on it. You're ribs could be more damaged than we thought. Don't do anything dangerous and stay calm for the next few weeks, then there should be no problems. Have a nice day, boys" She quickly walked off. She probably has a busy schedule.

"Walk to me" Demanded Kendall. He held out his arms and smiled.

I rolled my eyes and slid of the bed. Hesitantly, I took a step and smiled when I didn't feel any pain at all. I took another step and then another until I was walking normally again and almost ran to Kendall.

"God that feels good" I said happily. "Can I drive home?"

Kendall laughed. "Sure, sweetie"

We went to the car and I claimed the driver's seat instantly. We drove home, while making small talk. We still got one week of freedom left and I wanted to do something before Mrs. Knight and Katie came home. We never actually talked about it, we just felt out how far we could go with each other. About this, however, we had to talk.

For a while, I had been feeling that Kendall wanted more than what we have done so far. After our little-more-than-a-make-out-session on the couch on the night Kendall found out James kissed me, we had some more of those 'situations'. He didn't want to push me, but Kendall was most certainly getting sexually frustrated. I really had no idea how I should bring this up, I was way too shy to just tell him I wanted to go further.

Kendall noticed I have been drifting off, but didn't ask me about it. He knew I would tell him what was on my mind eventually. He softly sang You're Beautiful from James Blunt when it came on the radio. I was wondering why he knew the song so well. I mean, it is like four years old already and he never listens to this kind of music.

"How come you know the lyrics?" I asked curiously at the end of the song. I'd been waiting to ask him about it until it end, because I still loved listening to his voice too much to interrupt him.

"It's about you" He admitted quietly. "I used to listen to it before I told you how I felt"

I blushed again. "I'm flattered" He leaned over the seat and kissed my cheek.

"Everything about that song represents exactly how I felt back then. Only you lived with me, you weren't just someone I saw once" When we had to stop for red light, I grabbed his hand and held it in mine the rest of the ride home.

We walked back to 2J, where James and Carlos were playing doom hockey together. We pretty much didn't notice any signs of a relationship with them. They were just acting like normal, the only differences were that they spent a lot more time in their room together and touched each other more than before. They weren't that affectionate and clingy all the time like Kendall was.

"Hey, Logan! You can walk normally again!" Shouted Carlos. He had taken a quick look before fully concentrating on his game again.

"Yes, it's pretty awesome" I answered, but I didn't get any respond. They were too focused on their game. So I turned to Kendall.

"I want to talk to you" I said nervously.

"You finally gonna tell me what's been on your mind?"

"Pretty much" I mumbled while leading him to our room. I wasn't going to start the conversation. I couldn't, simply because I wasn't brave enough. Instead, I just kissed him as soon as the door closed. Kendall was surprised, but went with it and kissed me back. I parted my lips for his tongue and slowly walked back to my bed, mine was the closest. I pulled him down with me when I fell back. I wanted to kiss him again, but he stopped me. Looking down at me with concern in his eyes.

"I thought you wanted to talk?" He asked.

"I do. I just don't know how to start this particular conversation"

"You'll have to start at some point. I can't smell what you're thinking"

"I was pretty much showing you what I wanted to talk about" I blushed and didn't look at him. When I finally did he seemed still confused.

I inhaled deeply. "Sex, Kendall"

"Well, that wasn't hard, was it?" He asked amused.

"You knew?"

"Duh"

"You're an ass. Why did you make me say it if you knew exactly what I wanted to talk to you about?" He lay down next to me and spooned around me.

"Because I wanted you to know you can tell everything to me"

"Right"

"So you want to take that step?"

"Yeah"

"You sure?"

"I guess"

"We're not doing anything if you're not certain about this" He said strictly. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck.

"I know you want to and I think it's time for me to do something back for you, because you have done an awful lot of things for me lately. Let's just say it's my way to say thank you"

"While that means very much to me, I don't want you to do something you're not ready for. I'm not going to forgive myself if I make you do something you'll regret later"

"I'm not. Why would I regret you?"

"…"

"I want to, Kendall. Preferably before your mom comes back, because that would make it a little bit more difficult"

"But that's next week!"

"Then you better plan a date, Mr. Knight"

"You sure?"

"Kendall, if you don't stop asking that all the time, I'm out. I'll stay a virgin for life"

"You're a virgin?" He asked surprised.

"Yes. Why were you surprised?"

"I don't know. I think I just didn't expect you to say that"

"Are you?"

"I am…?"

"A virgin?"

"Yes, sweetie"

"Good" I snuggled closer to his chest, wanting to feel more body heat.

"So we're really going to do this?"

"Yes. Now shut up about it"

"One last thing"

"Spill"

"It's about sex between two guys…"

"You can top, Kendall" He sighed in relieve, but tried to hide it as much as possible.

"You sur-"

"Kendall, I swear. One more time and I'm going to strangle you"

"Fine. I just wanted to be sure. It's going to hurt, you know"

"I know. And thank you, but I think it will be worth the pain"

"I'll make sure of it"

"I love you"

"I love you too, sweetie"

I smiled. I still loved the nickname. Kendall wrapped his arms around me tighter and pulled up the sheets when he felt me shiver. I didn't even notice I fell asleep.

When Logan was fast asleep I climbed out of the bed and went back to the living room. I still had some talking to do with James and Carlos for not telling me what had been going on. It had been four days ago, but I still hadn't managed to get them talking to me without Logan. I hoped this wouldn't take long, because after our talk I had to arrange some things for my date with Logan. I decided on the last day before my family came back. Then I had to get to do some research on sex, but I was pretty sure we needed condoms -not that Logan could get pregnant- and lube. I was sure we didn't have those articles at home, or maybe James… But I wasn't going to ask James. I still hadn't forgiven him yet and it's just weird.

I stood at the top of swirly and I definitely wasn't prepared to see this. James and Carlos were no longer playing doom hockey and were standing completely tangled with each other, eating faces. They had been so platonic all the time and this was the first time I had seen them kiss since the day they got together. I decided not to disturb them and first go out to get buy the things I needed.

Carlos saw me when I walked to the hallway to get my shoes. I heard a pop –gross- when he stopped kissing James.

"I'm sorry you had to see that" He blushed. "Where are you going?"

"I've to get some- I mean, I've to do some things for my date with Logan next week. I want you two out of the apartment, by the way" I finished my first shoe.

"Why?" Asked James curiously.

"I'll forgive you if I don't have to answer that question and you just take that him out so you're not getting in my way" I smiled lightly at him. I had missed James.

He grinned back. "Deal"

"Great. Well, continue you're… uhm, just continue whatever you were doing. Logan is sleeping, please don't wake him up"

"Okay"

"Later" I stepped out the door, just before the door closed I heard James and Carlos saying something. "They're so going to have sex"

How was this?