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When the Doctor found Alyssa, she was curled up on the sofa in the library with a book. She stiffened when he sat down and kept her gaze fixed on her book. "Ali", the Doctor said but she didn't lower the book "Ali I'm sorry that you had to see me like that" the red haired woman still didn't say anything to him. The Doctor got up, he wasn't going to force her to talk to him.

"I'm scared", Alyssa said as he started to walk away "I'm scared of you" the Doctor turned around to face her but didn't sit back down. "The way you just looked at the Racnoss, completely emotionless…surrounded by fire and water… you looked like an avenging god. I've never seen you like that. It scared me"

"I'm sorry you had to see me like that. I never meant to scare you"

Alyssa looked at him. She knew he was telling her the truth this time. She also could tell that he didn't mean to scare her either. Alyssa stood up and gave him a hug "I promise you won't have to see me like that again"

"Don't make a promise you can't keep Doctor" Alyssa stepped back out of the hug "we can go anywhere in time right?"

"Within reason. Is there somewhere you want to go?"

"Late January 2008"

"Easy!" the Doctor said taking Alyssa's hand leading her to the console room. "Not the most interesting point in time. How come you want to go there?" the Doctor asked when they got to the console room.

"To warn people"

"Warn people? About what?" the Doctor asked bouncing around the console.

"Tanya Barrett"

That made the Doctor stop and look at her. "You can't"

"Why not?"

"Ali you can't go back because it's dangerous if you run into yourself"

"Then I'd make sure not to run into myself"

The Doctor knew that she only had the best intentions, just like Rose had the best intentions and that turned out to be a disaster. He wasn't going to let Alyssa make the same mistake. "Ali you can't go back and changed what happened period"

"Why not? It's not like I'm asking you to go back to the later 1930's to assassinate Hitler to prevent the formation of the third Reich. I'm asking to prevent the deaths of 6 people"

"Ali I know you're missing your best friend. I understand how much it hurts…"

"I'm not asking to do it for me. I want to do it for the victims who had their whole lives ahead of them; their families who wouldn't have to mourn for them and you. You would never feel guilty about taking Tanya's life in order to save me", Alyssa said interrupting the Doctor.

"Why would you think that I felt guilty?"

"Because you were sad the morning after we confronted her, I could feel it. I also felt terrible because you would never had to have gone that far if you weren't saving my life. Again. Maybe you should've let her kill me", she said muttering the last part which he heard.

"Don't you ever think that Ali. Yes I would've rather had a different outcome but when it came down to it, I couldn't let you die"

"Why? It's like you said to Donna: not important; not special. I'm just a human. One of billions living on planet Earth"

"You're a psychic. That's pretty special"

Alyssa scoffed "not really. I can't advertise what I am because then people would look at me like I'm a freak, just like my dad does. Do you know what it was like being at Ellie's Wake? I felt like I was suffocating in grief, sorrow and pain. That why I want to go back. To change what happened so Ellie's family doesn't have to feel that pain"

"Ali I'm sorry but you can't not without consequences"

"Consequences? What consequences could there be?"

"You wouldn't understand", the Doctor said going back to the console.

"Oh and I suppose Rose did understand"

The Doctor turned around and stormed up to her "yes she did. You really want to know what would happen."

"Yes!"

"Fine", the Doctor said before putting his fingers on her temples. Alyssa gasped at the flashes of images the suddenly bombarded her mind. Please no more! She thought wanting them to stop. The Doctor quickly removed his fingers from her temples when he got a sharp pain in his own mind as if something had lashed out at him for what he did.

Alyssa stares at him, green eyes wide and brimming with tears. "Ali I…"

"Just leave me alone", she said before running off to another part of the TARDIS.

"What have I done?" Doctor said sitting down in the chair putting his head in his hands. Alyssa only had the best intentions. She didn't understand what would happen.

Alyssa ran through the ship to her room. She entered, slammed the door behind her and flopped down on the bed sobbing. She couldn't believe what the Doctor had shown her in her mind. Alyssa also couldn't believe that the Time Lord would force his way into her mind without even asking first.

Come on sweetie he was just trying to explain to you

"Why didn't he just tell me what would happen? I think I should leave. I can't stay around him"

He needs you

Alyssa shook her head "no he doesn't"

Yes he does. He's hurting more than you know

The young woman sighed "what am I supposed to do Sexy? He shouldn't have done what he did"

It takes two to make an argument. You both said things that you shouldn't have said

"I suppose we did", Alyssa said sitting up and wiping her eyes "you meant he's hurting because of losing Rose"

Yes

"I take it you're not going to tell me about it"

It's not my story to tell

"I understand Sexy", Alyssa said. She got up and slowly walked back to the console room. The woman found the Doctor sitting on the chair with his head in his hands. "Doctor", she said and he looked up at her. It looked like he'd been crying too.

"I take it you want to go home", he said getting up. Alyssa wanted to but when she saw his expression, she couldn't be angry with him.

"No", she said walking up to him "I want a reason to stay". The Doctor looked at her wondering if he'd misheard what she said. He assumed that Alyssa would've asked to be dropped off. The woman shook her head and started to walk away.

"I need you", the Doctor said making her pause. Alyssa turned back around to face him. "I need you Ali".