"I feel like I'm bigger and bigger every day" I said while caressing the small belly I had.
"Well, you are, honey" Esme laughed.
"I am huge, right" I laughed.
"Yes" she said and put her hand over mine on top of the belly. "But that's wonderful"
I smiled and was about to ask her about Edward, but broke into a coughing fit. She helped me sit and rubbed my back as I tried to stop coughing. When it finally stopped I was breathless, and she gave me a glass of water. I held it in my shaky hand and drank it greedily, though I knew it wouldn't stay in my stomach.
"You're fever is going up" she mumbled. "When Carlisle gets back, I will talk to him about more medication"
"Where is he?" I asked.
"He went to get O-negative in case you need" she said.
"Oh" I said, and I fought against the nausea.
"Bella?"
"I'm just dizzy…" I mumbled.
I gripped the glass so tightly it shattered to pieces in my hands and I yelped as a piece cut into my palm. I opened my hand and the blood flowed freely.
"Oh, dear!" Esme gasped reaching for a cloth.
"Sorry" I mumbled leaning back.
"It's alright…" she said as she brushed away the glass from my lap, and held the cloth to my hand. She took it away and opened my hand gently. "There's a piece stuck…"
She gently took it out, and wrapped the cloth back around my hand. She held it there for a minute, but the cloth was almost dripping with blood. She frowned and took it away, getting another cloth. After half an hour and three cloths changed, my hand was still dripping blood. I took the cloth away and frowned at the open cut. There were no signs of healing.
"It isn't healing…" I whispered.
"You need suture" she mumbled.
I scowled. No, I never needed suture. My body healed. I shook my head, but before I could tell her not to worry, it would heal soon, Edward walked in with a scowl and walked to me. I involuntarily flinched when he reached for me, and I gave him an apologizing look as he just stared at me. He took my hand in his gently, and sighed.
"I'll suture it, don't worry" he said.
"No, it will heal" I insisted.
"Bella, it's been almost an hour. It won't heal" he said.
I shook my head and wiped away my tears with my other hand.
"I'll get Carlisle's bag for you" Esme said before leaving the room.
"I thought… I thought my healing abilities weren't working just on the babies" I whispered. "But…"
"They are not working at all" he said avoiding my eyes. "The fetuses are shutting it off"
I closed my eyes and willed the tears away. I had some hope my abilities would work a little on the delivery. But they weren't working and I… I had no chance of surviving. I would not see them grow.
Edward sutured my hand silently and quickly. Esme helped me up so she could change the bloodied sheets. She took me to an armchair, and I stopped before sitting and looked outside the window. It was sunny.
"I want to go outside" I said.
She eyed me with concern and seemed to thing about it too much. It was just a walk. She nodded once, and wrapped an arm around me to help me walk out of the room. When we were reaching the top of the stairs, Edward rushed upstairs, and extended his arms to me. I smiled a little, but he didn't smile back. Esme let go of me, and I was about to take Edward's hand when he swept me into his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck, and he walked downstairs slowly.
"Thank you" I whispered as he gently set me down.
He stared at me with sorrow, and his eyes gave me a once over. When they reached my stomach he got a scowl. I looked down and saw my shirt had ridden up. My stomach was visible, and also were the light bruises on it.
"They are strong, that's it" I mumbled pulling my shirt down.
"That's it" he huffed.
He simply wrapped an arm around my waist, supporting me as I walked out to the garden. I saw Embry in his wolf form in the edge of the forest, watching us. I smiled at him, and he walked out into the sun, and in our direction. Alice set a chair on the grass, and Edward helped me sit down. Embry walked closer and stood in front of me, blocking the sun from my face. He just eyed me with sorrowful eyes.
"I have the glow, don't I?" I asked sarcastically, and he lay down in front of me. "I missed you guys. Why don't you come inside sometimes?" I asked.
He simply inclined his head and then laid it on my lap. I chuckled and ran my fingers into the fur between his ears.
"What? You're my pet now? Should I buy you a leash?" I said.
He narrowed his eyes and then licked my arm. I laughed and he seemed happy with it. He licked me in the face this time and I pushed his big head away.
"Ah, great" I said wiping my face. "I'll need sanitizer in my shower"
He was about to lick me again, but I laughed and pushed his head away gently. He just nudged my belly gently with his nose, and the laid his head on my lap again. I caressed his fur, and enjoyed the sun and his warmth. One of the babies kicked hard and I gasped, reaching to rub the spot. Embry watched me and then laid his head closer to my belly, his ear brushing against the spot the baby kicked. The baby calmed down.
"I missed the warmth" I said. "I love Esme, Carlisle and Rose, but their cold skin was starting to get on my nerves"
Edward reminded me he was there by kissing the top of my head and squeezing my shoulder softly before he walked inside the house. I had almost forgotten he was there. A few minutes later, Carlisle walked out and smiled at me and Embry.
"Embry" he greeted. "Bella, how are you?"
"Good" I said with a smile.
"You seem better" he said and touched my forehead to check my fever.
"I needed some fresh air and sun, I guess" I said.
"Your hand?" I waved the bandaged hand at him, and he gave me a sad smile. "Well, how about lunch? You need to eat something"
Embry's stomach growled loudly and I laughed as he rolled his eyes at me.
"I'm not hungry" I said. "This guy on the other hand…"
"Bella, you need to eat. The babies are starving you by the hour. We need you to have some strength"
"I'll try" I gave in.
He gave me a satisfied smile and extended his hand to me. Embry got up and Carlisle helped me up, and we walked slowly inside. I looked back at Embry who was watching us from his previous spot and smiled.
"Come inside" I said.
He nodded his head and I grinned before letting Carlisle take me to my room again.
"Dear Lord, Bella, you're too heavy. Stop eating so much" Emmett joked as he set me down on the couch.
Rose slapped his arm in chastisement but I smiled assuring him it was fine. He smiled back at me and sat beside me, searching for something on the TV. Carlisle now wanted me always close to one of them, to try to get the fever down a little. They made rounds. Esme, or Rose would sleep with me, and during the day I had Emmett, Carlisle and even Alice sometimes. She still was against the whole idea, but was helping at least.
Emmett was groaned with each possible chick flick we passed. I laughed and nudged him.
"Go on. Let's see if the Yankees kicked their ass" I said.
He grinned at me and put on the game. We stayed watching the game and talking for hours. I was watching with amusement Emmett and Rose fighting about who was the best player. They were heaving a heated argument, and I was half expecting Rose to start slapping Emmett with each of his arguments. I laughed as Emmett waved his hands widely and stuck his fingers in his ears to not listen to her, like a child. I took a sip of water, and then choked as I felt pain on my chest. Rose shut up immediately, but Emmett continued, not having noticed me. I gasped for air, and touched my chest.
"Bella!" Rose said getting to her feet.
Emmett turned beside me and looked at me with wide eyes. My chest felt tight and Emmett yelled for Carlisle. He came in the room and immediately got a scowl.
"Breathe, Bella" Rose said patting my back.
"She's not choking" Carlisle said and pressed his fingers to my pulse. "Her heart is failing"
I kept my eyes on Edward, who watched from the doorway with Esme, his eyes full of fear, guilt and sorrow. Carlisle explained that basically, I was almost having a heart attack and he needed to sedate me, I needed to relax. I nodded and tried to breathe as he injected something on my arm. Soon I was dizzy and lay back as Carlisle told me to.
"It's clearly progressing faster than a normal pregnancy" Carlisle concluded as he finished the ultrasound.
"Like Leah's?" I whispered.
"Kind of. Slower than hers, but still faster than human's" he said and sighed. "Bella, I'll need to put you on IV again. You're dehydrated and starving. You can't keep anything on your stomach. I'm sorry"
"It's alright" I sighed.
"I have to warn you, it's probably affecting the babies" he said. "We still have at least three months and with you so underweight, and starving, it's probable that they are suffering consequences… For now, let's put you on the IV and hope you get better enough to eat something"
"But they are alright" I whispered.
"I can't see them, so I don't truly know. But their heartbeats are strong" he said.
"Work on keeping them strong and not starving, Carlisle" I said.
"Bella…" he sighed. "I truly wanted to tell you everything will be alright, the babies are going to be fine and you will survive, but… Your heart is weak. And I might be able to work against your fever, starvation and dehydration. But I cannot do anything if your heart stops soon. The babies will only be fully developed in two months, I calculate, but if your heart fails, and I can't fix it…"
"Then I'll die and so do the babies" I sighed and nodded. "I'll try to keep my heart beating for the next two months"
"Rose, get another blanket" Esme asked.
I shivered and she sighed as she threw it over me.
"This is insane" Alice said from the corner of the living room. "One moment she's burning up, the next she's freezing"
"I think I can help" Embry said walking in the house.
I smiled at him, and he smiled back as he walked to me. He pulled the blankets, and sat down pulling my feet to his lap.
"You really are freezing" he said rubbing my feet.
I smiled again, and tried to sit up. He helped me, and I changed positions so my head was in his shoulder. I sighed as the warmth sipped in, and he used one of the blankets to wrap me up.
"What?" he asked with a smile, "What's that smile for?"
"I missed you. I'm happy you're here" I shrugged and he took my hand rubbing it gently.
"You say it like I was your favorite person in the world"
"You are one of them"
"Right, after the vampires, Charlie and Jake… And Alex… Dammit, I'm pretty far down on that list" he chuckled.
"Remember when Jake hadn't phased yet, and the Cullens weren't in town" I said with a smile. "We had so much fun"
"Paul would disagree" he laughed.
"Although I love him, Paul is a pain in the ass, let's admit it" I chuckled weakly.
"Well, at least I come first than Paul on the list"
"You come in front of many people you think you don't" I whispered, entwined my fingers with his.
"I thought just fever made you delirious" he said quietly.
"I love you, Embry, you're my second best friend, and the best warmer I've seen" I said with a smile. "And I'm not delirious"
"Okay, Bells" he laughed and kissed my forehead. "Sleep, love you too"
I had just relaxed against his shoulder when my stomach started to ache. I snapped up, and Edward knelt in front of me with a bucket. Embry rubbed my back, while Edward pulled my hair aside and caressed my neck. I whimpered as my stomach tried to expel something, but couldn't.
"She needs to feed, even if it doesn't stay on her stomach" Alice said with a frown. "This isn't good"
I shuddered and enjoyed the coldness from Edward's hand on my neck and the warmth of Embry's on my back. My body seemed undecided about what it wanted, cold or warmth. I sighed and leaned back against Embry's side.
"The babies will starve soon" Rose said concerned. "She doesn't get any nutrients into her system"
"It's their fault she's starving" Edward grumbled.
I pleaded with him to not go into that argument and he sighed, got up and walked to the glass door to the balcony. I frowned and looked around at everyone who watched us with pity or concern.
"Can you all leave? Give us a moment?" I whispered.
They all left silently, and Edward continued to stare out at the forest.
"Edward, I'm sorry" I sighed. "No, not really. I am not sorry…"
"Bella, it's killing you" he said turning to me, arms crossed and eyes cold. I had never seen him so defensive.
"They are a miracle… Our miracle, Edward" I said rubbing my belly. "Why can't you see it? Why can't you accept it?"
"Because it's me the one who will lose you!" he snapped.
"You won't. You will have a part of me, on them" I said.
"Do you honestly think I'll love them or even tolerate them if you're dead? Because of them? If they kill you?" he said.
"Please, Edward" I cried. "You will see. Our babies…"
"No. I won't see. You won't see! You won't be here!" he yelled.
"You have to accept…"
"Because you don't give me a choice!" he yelled, "We were supposed to decide things together. Dammit, Bella, we were going to get married in a few months! Now… We're losing everything because you're crazy"
The babies were moving and kicking. Maybe…
With a lot of difficulty I got up on shaky legs, and he came to my side, wrapping an arm around me to help me.
"Bella…"
I took his hand, with our wedding ring from our 'elope wedding', and laid it on my belly. He frowned at me, and I pressed his hand against my skin.
"Do you feel it? Them?" I asked.
I knew he could, there was a kick against his hand, and he nodded once. I smiled at him.
"They know, Edward. They do this when you're around, when we're talking… They know you, Edward, they know who you are, their father" I said. "It's our sons" I whispered. "Open your eyes, baby. I know it's scary, but… It's beautiful"
His frown deepened and for a moment I thought he could cry. He looked so young then, and it reminded me he was just seventeen, even though he lived a century. He looked like a scared boy. He wiped away a tear and brushed his lips against mine. I smiled and he kissed me softly. I gasped as the baby kicked harder and he pulled back.
"Bella?" he asked alarmed.
I cried out as I felt a sharp pain in my side. Edward picked me up and he carried me to Carlisle's office. They examined me, took x-rays, and gave me painkillers, though we all knew my body would wear it off soon.
"There's a broken rib, and the one above this one is dislocated" Carlisle explained showing me the x-ray, "There are no splinters, so I can just reset them"
"They're breaking her bones now" Edward grumbled. "Can't you see, Bella? It's crushing you from the inside out"
"I'm just fragile… It's no big deal. I've heard even in human pregnancies there are dislocated and broken ribs" I mumbled.
"You're fragile?" Edward said angrily. "For God's sake, Bella, you are as strong as Esme, Rose, Alice… You can kill a vampire. You are not fragile. These things are sucking the life out of you. Don't you see? His vampire part is killing you! Your system is rejecting it, they are killing you… They are monsters"
"Stop" I cried.
"Edward" Carlisle said warningly.
"Tell her! Tell her what you've been thinking this morning" Edward said.
"Edward…"
"It's okay, Carlisle" I said wiping away the tears, "You can tell me"
He sighed and took my hand.
"With each day, the babies grow and… They need more. Normally they would just get the nutrients you ingested but… You haven't ingested anything. Yet, they demand more as they grow; the blood flow directed to them is growing… It's overloading your heart too much. And I've been doing some tests. I can't use any medicine on you, because it simply wouldn't work and we don't know what it could do for the babies…"
"What you're saying is…" I took a deep breath. "I might die any minute, and you can't do anything to prevent it or stop it"
"Yes. If your heart fails again, I cannot get it working again" he said.
"How much time do they need to be fully developed? Able to live outside me?" I whispered.
Edward groaned and left the room, slamming the door. I frowned and sighed.
"A little over a month" Carlisle said.
"I just have to keep my heart stable for a month… If they are fully developed, and I haven't gone into labor yet, you have to induce it. We can't risk them" I said.
He nodded and I stared at my belly while playing with my engagement ring.
My stomach growled and ached. How could it be asking for food it would reject? I took the glass of water Alice passed me and put my feet on Embry's lap. Alice was brushing my hair, because I hadn't the strength anymore. Or I didn't want to. I had looked myself in the mirror after Rose helped me take a shower, and I had been horrified. I could see my bones; I looked like a skeleton, except the huge belly with bruises on it. My hair was lifeless, as were my eyes. My lips were pale, I had dark circles under my eyes and my cheeks were hollow. I understood why Edward could barely look at me.
I played with the rings on a chain around my neck. The 'false' wedding band and engagement ring were too big for my finger now. Embry shifted and his stomach growled.
"Do you need something to eat?" Esme asked with a smile. "I can get you something…"
"No, thank you" Embry said politely.
"Embry, eat" I whispered. "Someone has to. All food they got for me is wasting, and you must be starving. You've been here for hours without a snack"
He smiled and nodded to Esme. She went to the kitchen and soon came back with a plate full of food. God, it looked delicious. My stomach growled louder this time, but as the scent of the food hit me, I was nauseous again. Carlisle held the bucket this time, though I had nothing on my stomach to return. I frowned at the IV that was supposed to keep me from starving and dehydrating.
"I'm hungry" I said quietly. I knew they couldn't do anything, yet the words left my mouth.
"If we knew what the babies need" Esme mused.
Embry snorted, still stuffing his mouth with food, and I looked at him questioningly. Edward got up and walked closer.
"Maybe you're right" he said.
"What?" Embry asked his mouth full of food. I gave him a disapproving look and he shrugged, swallowing.
"Embry had an idea" Edward said.
"No, it was a snide comment the pack say frequently" he said with a frown.
"What?" I asked.
"Maybe they're just looking for someone to sink their teeth into" he smiled sadly. "I know it's a bad joke"
"He's vampire part won't accept what a shape-shifter or even human would eat" Edward concluded.
"They're thirsty" I whispered.
"I know the feeling" Emmett mumbled.
I looked into their eyes, and realized no one had hunted for weeks. Everyone feared a fight would break any moment, or that I would go into labor, or die… No one left.
"I can phase and go hunting with the pack" I whispered.
"It's too dangerous, it would demand too much of your body" Edward said.
"And if it craves blood… They won't want animals' blood" Alice whispered.
"What?" I said. "Then what? We can't kill…"
"No, I have some O-negative I kept for you in case…" Carlisle said trailing off as he walked out of the room.
"Jazz, wanna take a walk?" Alice said jumping up from the couch.
I stared at his black eyes as he nodded and got up from the other couch.
"Go hunt. I'll stay alive until you're back" I said rolling my eyes.
Emmett gave me a sad smile at me and left with them. Carlisle came back with a glass full of blood.
"Wait!" Embry said. "You're gonna make her drink that!"
"It's the fastest way to test the theory" Rose said.
"I think I'm gonna be sick" Embry said putting the plate of food away and sitting away from me.
"Hold on" Edward said.
He got the glass from Carlisle, went to the kitchen and came back with a white plastic cup with lid and dark pink straw. I smiled at him as he sat in front of me on the coffee table and gave me the cup. I took a deep breath and took a sip from it. It was cold, and tasted sweet, like I was drinking milk, or ice cream… They all looked at me expectantly, and I smiled.
"Tastes good" I said and continued to drink it greedily.
"That's a good sign" Rose said.
Embry had a frown while watching me and sure, if I really thought about it, it was disgusting, but if it helped the babies, then I would do it happily. When I finished the glass, Rose asked if I wanted more and I nodded.
"Your pulse is getting stronger!" Carlisle said happily.
Edward gave me a true smile and held my hand, caressing my knuckles with his thumb.
"Here" Rose said giving me another glass.
"Are you feeling sick? Nauseous?" Esme asked as I drank.
I didn't stop drinking, just shook my head.
"Your… You're blushing" Edward said happily. "It's working"
I smiled at him, and he kissed my forehead. I knew everything would be fine then.
"Right here?" Esme asked from a corner of the room.
I was sitting in a rocking chair they got, and watched as Emmett and Rose finished painting the room. It was beautiful. With mixed shades of green with a little of brown, I felt like I was inside the forest. They painted one wall blue, making the room lighter, though the big window/wall of glass let enough light in.
"Yeah. One there, and one there" I said pointing to the spots I thought we could put the cribs while drinking my blood.
"The changing table?" Rose asked while wiping her hands off.
"I think… there" I said and shrugged. "I don't know… Why don't you decide? I think you will spend most of your time here"
She gave me a sad smile, and started cleaning things up with Emm. Alice came in with catalogues of furniture, drapes and stuff. As I got better with the blood, Alice seemed more cooperating, accepting. We had just finished a catalogue when I saw a different magazine. I frowned and held it to Alice.
"I don't need a bride magazine" I whispered.
"Bella…" she sighed. "Come on, maybe…"
"Maybe what, Alice?" I asked. "I won't have the wedding. I won't… be here"
"I just…" she sighed. "I finally saw something. And…"
"What did you see?" Esme asked.
"Bella holding a baby, and Edward kissing her forehead. It was fuzzy but it was there" Alice said.
"Are you saying…" I swallowed hard. "How I looked in the scene, Alice?"
"It was fuzzy" she repeated.
"How did I look?" I insisted.
"I… You looked tired and... weak. Sweaty, like you had just…"
"I had just given birth" I sighed. "That doesn't mean anything, Alice. It only means I might live to hold one of the babies"
"Let's be optimistic" she said with a weak smile.
"Let's be realistic" I said giving her the bride magazine.
"Hey, dad" I said on the phone.
"Bella! How are you?"
"Good"
"You sound better"
"I am" I said.
"Well, that wasn't a nice start in married life" he said.
"Yeah… Things are different now" I said with a frown.
"How is Edward? And the family?"
"He's good. The family is good too. Alice and Emmett are better too" I lied.
"When can you go out? Or when can I visit?" he asked.
"Dad…" I sighed. "I don't want to worry you. But, I don't think you can visit anytime soon"
"But you said you were better"
"I am. I just don't want to risk your health. And I am not one hundred percent. You shouldn't see me like this"
"Bella…"
"Imagine me healthy. Imagine I'm devouring a pizza with you, eating you out of home" I said with a sad smile and wiped away the tears.
"You want me to picture it? Dammit, Bella, I'm coming to see you"
"Dad, no" I said. "Don't come. We're still not well enough, and… We're moving to Cleveland"
"What? No, you're not. Cleveland?" he freaked out.
"There is a medical center, Carlisle will work there and…" I sniffed, "We all can go to the same college…"
"Bella… no"
"I'm sorry, dad" I cried. "I love you"
"Bella –"
"Bye" I said and hung up.
"Hey" Edward said sitting beside me in the bed.
"Hi" I said with a sleepy smile.
"I'm sorry" he said as he extended me my glass of blood. "I'm sorry I was there for you. I should have. You're my fiancée"
I put the glass down, smiled at him and reached for his hand. He squeezed my hand, and kissed my knuckles.
"I love you" he said.
"I love you too"
He kissed me softly, and stayed beside me as I watched a movie, and finished my glass of blood. He brought me closer to him, so my head rested on his shoulder and his arm was around me. He had his face buried in my hair and was inhaling my scent when suddenly his head snapped up and he had a frown.
"What is it?" I asked.
"Who…" he mumbled.
"Edward, what's wrong?" I asked worried.
"God" he mumbled. He reached his hand and touched my belly. One of the babies kicked, and he chuckled breathlessly.
"What?" I asked.
"I can hear them" he said. "In mind"
"Oh, god" I said with tears in my eyes. "Really? What are they thinking?"
"They… They like the sound of our voices. And music…" he smiled. "They're happy"
I sobbed and put my hands over his.
"Of course they are. How could they not be? All protected, warm… I love you so much" I cried.
Edward kissed my forehead and caressed my belly.
"What are they thinking now?"
"I thought… I thought they were like me. But they aren't. They are like you, innocent, pure and good… They are like you, Bella. They try not to hurt you; they don't like it when you cry… God" he smiled at me and wiped my tears away. "They love you"
"Oh, God" I cried wrapping my arms around my belly.
Edward hugged me and a few minutes later, he let go of me and kissed my round belly. I giggled and he chuckled, peppering kisses on my belly, and then on my face. I knew then, he loved them too. He was undecided, but all he needed was some kind of proof that the babies weren't what he thought. The babies were capable of love, and because they loved me, he could never hate them. Because they were trying not to hurt me, he couldn't see them as killers anymore. He had finally realized they were our babies, our miracles, and he loved them, I could see it in his eyes.
Everything would be alright.
"We have to decide the names" I told Edward as he gave me my glass of blood. "I've been drinking it too much, don't you think?" I frowned.
"I think you're carrying two babies, it's alright to be hungry… or thirsty in this case" he smiled and looked at Carlisle. "But… We need to get more blood. It's almost over, and soon she will give birth…"
"You're right" Carlisle said. "And we have to go hunting"
"You should go. I will stay with Bella" Edward said.
"Edward, I will need your help in the delivery. We don't want any accidents because we weren't careful"
"I will be alright" Edward insisted.
"Edward, he's right" I said. "You need to hunt. You have to help him, and we don't want anyone thirsty around the babies, right?"
He agreed reluctantly, and the next day they left with Emmett and Rose.
When they came back, the rest of the family went hunting, and Carlisle had a new stock of blood. Alice had gotten a baby names book, and for the next few days, Edward and I discussed names while watching the others get the room ready.
"We need to teach Edward how to change a diaper, and breastfeed" Emmett joked while moving a white crib inside the room.
Edward glared at him, and everyone fell silent. My smile faltered just for a second and I decided to light things up.
"Well, there is that fake breast vest so daddies can breastfeed" I said jokingly.
Emmett laughed and soon the others joined. Edward just rolled his eyes and squeezed my hand, going back to the discussion of why we couldn't name one baby Edward. A question though lingered in my mind. Would the babies need only blood or did they breastfeed? And how would they do? I asked Carlisle and he thought it was a good question. Esme pointed out my breasts were fuller, possibly of milk, so maybe the babies would drink milk. But extract milk wasn't an option. It would go bad quickly, and maybe the babies wouldn't be able to drink. So Rose and Esme went to the store to get formula. There were so many things to solve because I wouldn't be present after they were born. I told Edward to take them to meet Charlie some time. Of course, he couldn't tell who they were really, but when they were old enough to understand, he would take them to meet Charlie. I asked Edward to tell them everything about me and the pack, because if they phased someday then they wouldn't be freaked out. I asked him not to tell about the Volturi and what happened to me. There was no need. I asked him to take them to our meadow sometime. He interrupted me and asked me to stop. He was avoiding talking about what to do without me.
"We still haven't chosen names" I said.
"What have you thought? We've read the entire book already" he said.
"I like… Darcy" I laughed and he rolled his eyes. "Mr. Darcy"
"Great" he said sarcastically.
"No, really… Ahn, Edward Jacob" I said.
"Bella…"
"EJ" I insisted.
"That wouldn't be fair with the other baby don't you think?" he said.
"Yeah, you're right" I sighed.
"How about… I give you the names and you mix then however you like" he suggested.
"But what about the meaning?" I asked.
"After you mix them I will tell you the end result of the meaning. See it as a game"
"Alright! Let's do this" I said excitedly and he chuckled.
"Alright, ahn… Kevin, Nathan, Aiden, Andrew, Levi, David, Liam and Thomas" he said.
"Wow, ahn…" I frowned and tried to combine something. "Kevin Thomas!"
"Beautiful at birth, twin" he smiled.
"Oh, but that wouldn't be fair to his brother" I scowled. "So… Andrew Liam?"
"Warrior, will, desire, protection" he raised an eyebrow.
"No" I shook my head. "That leaves us… Aiden Levi and David Nathan"
"Little fire, combined and beloved, gift of God" he smiled.
"Perfect" I smiled and kissed him softly.
"What if they are girls?" he asked.
"They are not. They're boys, I can feel it" I said.
"Well, just in case, don't you wanna see girls' names?" he asked.
"Fine, just because this game is fun" I smiled. "I have no doubt they are boys"
"Alright" he laughed. "So… Charlotte, Layla, Zoey, Ella, Evelyn, Emma, Anna and Brianna"
"Why you chose such hard names to pick? They are all nice" I said and he just smiled innocently. "Brianna Layla"
"Sure?"
"Yes!" I said, "What's the meaning?"
"Noble, strong, dark beauty"
"Oh" I breathed. "That's beautiful"
"Next"
"Charlotte Emma… no! Ella Charlotte" I said.
"Ella Charlotte?" he asked and I nodded. "Bright light and free"
"See?" I said with a smug smile. "I can create perfect names!"
"Yes" he said with a smile.
I sipped my blood and leaned back on the swing we were sitting on. I was about to ask him what were the meaning of the other names, but a sharp pain cut me off.
"Ah" I cried out.
"Bella!"
I clutched my stomach, and took deep breaths.
"Bella?" he asked.
"A hard kick" I said with a frown.
"Are you sure?"
I cried out as the pain came back, and he called Carlisle. I leaned forward and saw my wet, blood stained shorts.
"It's time" Carlisle said.
I looked up to Edward and found his scared eyes with mine. I squeezed his hand and gave him my best reassuring smile, which probably wasn't good enough. I wasn't ready. I was about to give birth… And die. I wasn't ready.
AN: I hope you're enjoying. I put so much thought in this chapter, and I'm not satisfied. I know it's basically Breaking Dawn, but I couldn't write about a Bella-pregnant-dying without using BD as reference.
I made a video for this fanfic, a trailer, the link on youtube is on my profile. Go check it out!
REVIEW! I love your reviews and they give me inspiration. Tell me what names we use now that we have a boy and a girl.
xoxo Luuh