As Meredith stepped out of the shower she grabbed Derek's robe off the door. Wrapping around herself she breathed in his scent, allowing herself to be comforted with the feeling of having him surrounding her. She knew she needed to leave, being here with him wouldn't solve anything it was just making the hurt grow.

Walking into Derek's bedroom she picked up her discarded clothes off the floor. Not even caring about the open door she dropped the robe and began to get dressed. Standing there in her bra and panties she looked up as Derek walked into the room. As he took in the sight of her his breath caught in his throat. What he wouldn't give to lie her across his bed covering her body with his…. Knowing this would only hurt her worse, he turned and walked away feeling the ever needing desire pulsing through his body.

A few minutes later Meredith walked out of the bedroom, her eyes were red from crying and her hair still lay wet on her shoulders.

"I'm ready to go home…." was all she said. She didn't look up to acknowledge him. It was as if she was empty…. As if the life had been sucked out of her. Grabbing his keys off the counter, he opened the front door, not wanting to take her home, wanting to show her exactly how much she meant…. Exactly how much he needed and wanted her.

The drive to her house was silent stretching on endlessly. As his car pulled into her driveway, both were drowning in pools of emotions. He didn't want to let her go, that last thing he wanted was to watch her open that door and walk out of his life…. Never again getting the chance to see her green eyes sparkle, or be engulfed in the smell of lavender that seemed to follow her. As he looked at the house he had spent so many days at he couldn't help but once again feel as if things were over, that the life he desired was slipping through his hands. As she opened the door to step out, his hand touched her shoulder…. He knew he shouldn't but he had to…. Leaning in he softly kissed her lips one last time. Stepping out of his car, the large house loomed in front of her, representing so much pain, so many nights of feeling alone…she knew he didn't want her, or at least he wouldn't let himself want her.

Turning one last time she thanked him for the ride, all the passion that normally filled her green eyes, was gone. Watching her as she walked up her front stoop his eyes closed for a moment in sadness for what couldn't be…. Wanting to scream out her name and beg her to stay…. "I'm sorry…" He softly whispered it instead as he drove away….

Opening the front door she could sense it…. Something was about to happen. In her life she had many moments where she just knew…. She knew when her Dad had died before they even received the phone call…. She knew the night she'd been with Derek that he was coming to her before his hand had ever touched the knob of the door and standing here now she knew….

"Meredith is that you?" Her Mother called from the kitchen. "Please come in here we need to talk…" Meredith recognized the tone coming from Ellis Grey, it was one she had become accustomed to…filled with disappointment and anger. As she walked into the kitchen, she was met by the sight of her Mother and Addie, sharing a cup of tea. She closed her eyes trying to block out all the pain from earlier, preparing herself for what she knew was to come…. Sighing Meredith took a seat beside her Mother never sparing Addie a glance.

"Yes mother?" She said, in a last attempt to seem like the perfect child. She wished she were anywhere but here right at the moment. Ellis swiftly pulled the teacup to her lips and sipped, setting it back down and looking her straight in the eyes.

"I think that some changes need to happen around here." She said as she looked over at Addie and then back at her. "I have been informed, that while Addison was trying to study on Friday night, that you held a party here." Meredith sat straight up in her chair, an astonished look washing over her features. She opened her mouth to protest, but was cut short by the continuation of her mother's sentence. "Don't interrupt me, young lady…Now as I was…a party, In my home. I specifically said no parties Meredith. I know that you are a teenager, but I just wonder sometimes how my daughters have turned out to be two very different people. Addison studies, and keeps up her grades, and she has even received a full paid scholarship for college. You on the other hand…." She stopped herself to take another sip. Meredith looked over at Addison out of the corner of her eyes. She had worry lines from one ear to the other. Addison was playing a game. She was pretending to be worried about her sister and drop everything on her.

"Do you know how hard it is for me to get a phone call from your sister, explaining to me how she went to Kristen's to study and came home the next morning, only to find out you slept with Derek? How could you do that to your sister?"

"I didn't do any of that mom! She's lying to you!" Meredith screamed as she slammed her tiny fists into the table, nearly knocking over the sugar. Ellis grabbed Meredith's diary off of the table and opened it to the entry from Friday.

"Then how do you explain this?" Ellis asked, shoving it towards her so she could read the words that were already ingrained into her mind, as well as half the student body.

"We didn't have sex mom. Addison threw the party for Derek and I was there. You can ask anyone." Meredith pleaded, tears running down her face for the millionth time that day.

"I told you she would do this mother…Try to blame this on me." Addison said, raising her eyebrow. "I'm too close to graduation, why would I risk my reputation over a silly party." Meredith's mouth dropped. She couldn't believe that she shared the same blood as her. The people sitting at the table with her, were parts of her. They were nothing, compared to Meredith's kind heart. Her innocence of life. She started to get up from the table.

"SIT DOWN…" Ellis blurted out, and Meredith dropped to her chair, like a puppy that had just been kicked. She looked at her mother, tears brimming her eyes threatening to spill over, and waited for a resolution that would never come.

"So…In conclusion…I have decided that you will go live with your Aunt Judy." Ellis said with a stone cold face as she rose from the table and exited the room. Meredith felt everything spinning around her as the tears now streamed freely. No More Derek. No more Izzie or Cristina. She parted her lips, but nothing but a whimper escaped into the silent kitchen.

"Oh and Slut?" Addison added as she also got up and grabbed her purse. "I'm going out tonight, don't wait up. I probably won't be home." She turned on her heel and slammed the door behind her. Meredith just sat at the table staring at the wall for what seemed like hours. She could hear faint rolling thunder and the occasional lighting bolt, and the only thing running through her mind, was that she was going to be stuck in her house with her mother all night during a thunderstorm. As if right on cue, her mother's pager started blaring on the bar. She dashed down the stairs, not even looking at Meredith as she retrieved her purse and jacket, mumbling something at Meredith.

" 911 call…. Won't be home tonight…don't leave the house…." Her mother said as she slammed the door behind her much like Addison had just done earlier.

"Great. Now I'm alone." She said as she got up and drug her exhausted body up the stairs into her room. She peeled off her clothes that she had been wearing since the day before and pulled on a white tank top and some navy cotton shorts.

He sat alone in the dark listening to the rain beat against the windows of his apartment, the wind howling it's brutal sound. The storm was a great symbol of his life at the moment. Of the way the turmoil brewed inside him…the emotions stirring roughly as if he wasn't in enough pain.

Staring out the window the hum of his cell phone vibrating brought him out of his trance…picking it up he saw Mark's name flash across the screen. He had nothing to say to him, nothing left to say to the man he once called a best friend. He knew he wasn't being fair, and he knew he was unforgiving of Mark for something he was guilty of himself…hell maybe that's where half his anger came from. Seconds later the vibrating once again was making itself known. He picked the phone up, contemplating throwing it…hitting the talk button instead…

His voice was gruff. "What do you want Mark…I'm not in the mood for chit chat…don't call me again."

Getting ready to hang up, thinking his first instinct was right, he never should have answered…he heard Mark speaking up.

"Don't hang up Derek, this has nothing to do with you and me…its about Meredith." Mark quickly added before Derek could hang up on him. Hearing her name caused him to sit up, take notice, and listen to what his friend had to say.

"I know your being all Dereky sitting at home stewing about how wrong it is…how you betrayed people…but man she needs you, she needs someone." Marks voice showing sympathy for her.

"What's wrong…I just dropped her off…if it's Addison again I'm gonna kill her." Derek's voice was shaking with anger at the thoughts of Meredith enduring anymore torture.

"I know you don't want to hear this but Addie's here…" pausing, Mark's voice was a whisper trying not to be overheard by the person in the other room.

"Her mom's sending her away. Addie convinced her that everything that happened this weekend, including the party, was Mer's idea. Ellis thinks that you had sex with her." Derek sat there for mere moments listening to the storm brewing…he couldn't do it…he couldn't just sit here while she was hurting…

Grabbing his keys he hurried out the door of his apartment. Taking the stairs two at a time he rushed outside into the storm…he had to go to her, to fix things before it was too late…to fix things, let her know she wasn't alone in the world.

At first she thought it was Addie returning…then she noticed the mustang. She sat there staring out into the night…watching him step into the rain. Anger ran though her veins…he didn't want her, he'd used her, and now she was losing everything she knew…her life was being turned upside down over revenge and it had all been for nothing.

Her feet somehow took her to the front door. Pushing it open she stepped onto the front porch walking to the steps, she stopped him before he could join her in the protection from the storm.