Song is "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera.
Sami arrived at the Salem airport, praying EJ hadn't gotten on a plane yet. It had taken longer to get there than expected. There was heavy traffic all along the roads due to the storm that rolled in. The skies had turned black and the rain was coming down in sheets. It was almost impossible to see the cars in front of her.
She would absolutely fall apart if he really had left already. How could he have just walked away like that? How could he turn his back on her after everything? Did he really and truly still believe that Sami had went behind his back to be with Lucas?
As she walked into the airport, Sami thought to herself again that it was her fault. She loved him, yet drove him away. Unintentionally, but still. Despite Kate interfering, Sami knew that if she had told EJ the truth to begin with he never would have believed the lies Kate sent to him.
She felt so stupid. She should have known then that Kate was still around. She should have known Kate would be up to something. How could Sami have trusted her to keep her mouth shut?
Seems
like it was yesterday when I saw your face.
You told me how proud
you were, but I walked away.
If only I knew what I know today.
Making her way to the information desk, Sami berated herself for letting him go so easily. She should have fought harder to make him listen. She should have grabbed him and never let go.
He had been there for so much. He had saved her life numerous times. He had redeemed himself after causing so much hurt. And yet look what she'd done to him. She couldn't even give him the simple truth when he deserved it.
Sami
would give everything, anything, to be able to get through to him.
She could have called him any time within the past month, but, like
she'd told Hope, she was afraid. She was afraid he'd see it was
her and not pick up. I
would hold you in my arms.
I would take the pain away.
Thank
you for all you've done.
Forgive all your mistakes.
There's
nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again.
Sometimes I
wanna call you,
But, I know you won't be there.
"Excuse me, could tell me when the next flight out to England leaves?" she asked the man behind the desk.
"Yes, ma'am. That will be in 15 minutes." He gave her the directions to the gate. Sami thanked him and hurried off.
She assumed that maybe because she hadn't called, it made things worse. Maybe EJ was expecting her to call and when she didn't, he felt she just didn't care anymore.
Oh, how wrong he was.
He
had no idea of the pain Sami was in because of how she knew she'd
made him feel. Oh,
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do.
And
I've hurt myself by hurting you.
Fifteen minutes. That wasn't a lot of time. What if it was too late? What if he was already on board the plane?
A dead feeling began to creep inside Sami as she rode up one of the many escalators. It was a feeling not unlike the one she'd been feeling since EJ left. An empty, hollow feeling all throughout her body.
Her family had noticed she'd seemed quieter and more distracted recently. Of course, they were concerned and asked if she was all right. She'd told them she was fine. She gave them the same excuse she'd given her mother the morning after EJ walked out on her: the twins were keeping her up at night.
In
fact, some days Sami didn't even feel like venturing out of her
apartment. She didn't want to deal with facing life alone. She
didn't want to deal with more questions from her family. She
wanted be by herself and wallow in her own misery. Some
days I feel broke inside, but, I won't admit.
Sometimes I just
wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss.
And it's so hard to say
goodbye
When it comes to this.
As she hurried along the moving walkways toward the departure lounge for England, Sami found herself wondering what, exactly, she would say to him – if he was still there, that is. And, granted that he even paid mind to her and didn't turn his back again.
What if he did speak to her? What would he say? Tell her, yet again, that she'd ruined it all? Or would he talk through it with her? At this point, Sami would take anything as long as he was speaking to her.
A feeling of panic rose inside her chest at the thought of losing him all over again. He had been so close, yet so far. It was like a reality just beyond her grasp.
Sami
distracted herself by thinking of what would happen if – no, when
– she found him. She refused to believe he had gotten on that
plane already. Would
you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you
looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
Ten minutes until the plane started getting ready for take-off. The panic began to rise ever higher, ever faster.
She begged and pleaded with God inside her head to let EJ still be in the departure lounge. She needed to get through to him.
When
they had locked eyes inside the Brady Pub, Sami felt her whole life
inside that one long glance. It had meant everything.
Surely, EJ had felt that, too? There's
nothing I wouldn't do Oh, I'm sorry for
blaming you
To have just one more chance,
To look
into your eyes
And see you looking back.
For everything I just couldn't do.
And I've hurt
myself…
Finally, she rounded the last corner and found herself in the entranceway to the crowded departure lounge for England.
All she needed was to find EJ. To find him and speak to him…beg him, plead with him to listen to her. To make him know that she had missed him terribly.
Sami knew she was taking a huge risk by coming here. She knew that it might not have even been worth it. What if EJ really and truly did not want to see her again?
Oh,
if I had just one more day,
I would tell you how much that I've
missed you
Since you've been away.
Oh, it's dangerous,
It's
so out of line
To try and turn back time…
A miracle occurred. God had answered Sami's prayers yet again.
"Attention, all passengers," a voice blared over the loudspeakers. "Due to the increasing conditions of the storm outside, all flights have been postponed indefinitely. We're sorry for the inconvenience and thank you for your patience."
A collective groan escaped all throughout the entire airport. Meanwhile, a sigh of immense relief escaped from Sami.
There was time. Time to find EJ and make him listen.
And suddenly, there he was. Standing by one of the gigantic windows, his back slightly to her, looking out at the powerful storm. His forehead was leaning against the glass, his shoulders sagged. He looked…tortured. And Sami wanted to fix that.
Taking a steadying breath, she went over and stood almost directly behind him. It didn't take long for him to see her reflection in the glass. Quickly, he turned around, hoping against hope that he wasn't hallucinating.
"EJ?" I'm
sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do.
And
I've hurt myself…by hurting you.
