Chapter 14 (Don't own crap) Read and Review please thanks!

She's snuggled up against me and I'm breathing her in like a drug. I rub my face with my free hand in thought as the other's been wrapped around her the entire night. I've not slept at all and the sun is coming up. I'll have to let Sammy drive or I'll get us all killed. I sigh in thought and slip out from under her kissing the top of her head before I jump in the shower. The conversation I'd heard between my brother and angel plays like a broken record in my mind. I lean against the shower wall with both hands and feel the steaming water hit against my back.

I turn off the water as I hear her stirring around the hotel. I step out with the towel wrapped around me. She cuts me a look but goes back to what she was doing.

"Something wrong?"

"Nope. Everything's peachy." She says and I know when Bella uses the term peachy she's not a very happy camper.

I narrow my eyes and go brush my teeth. Once I'm done and get out she rushes past me and slams the bathroom door and locks it. I cock a brow at this and fold my arms as I hear the shower start.

"Ugh…" I groan and fall back on the bed knowing today was going to be a blast with Bella being rightfully pissed at me. Hell I bet Sammy was mad as well. Maybe I should just ride in the trunk? I half laugh at this thought as there's a knock on the door.

I open the door and Sammy throws down a box of donuts and sets down coffee for everyone.

"Where's Bell?"

"Showering."

He swallows and this usually would be where he makes some sort of sexual joke but he says nothing and stuffs a donut into his mouth. Reminding me of those Twix commercials I've seen where they do this so they don't have to talk.

"What no joshing about my girl at my expense?"

He shrugs and leans against the chair. Bella eventually comes out and I thought I was going to nut myself right there. She's wearing this damn near Tomb Raider outfit only complete with cargo green pants, knee high black laced boots and a tank top I desperately want to play around with. Damn it… Why does she have to dress sexy on a day she's pissed off? I turn to Sammy who was checking her out as well but grabs another donut and looks to his laptop. I grin shaking my head on this poor bastard can't help himself.

"Hey Sammy."

"Bell…" He says with a nod and sips his coffee.

I raise my brows as she says nothing to me and doesn't even look my way. Silent treatment? Really? That got under my skin more than actual fighting. I hated being ignored.

"Donut?" Sammy offers.

"Sure." She reaches over between us and grabs a chocolate glazed one.

She swallows it down and Sammy hands her a cup of coffee.

"Thank you."
I press my lips together and shake my head. After too long she goes back to the bathroom and we hear her cussing under hear breath about something.

"Something wrong?"

"NO!" She snaps but I hear a cabinet door slam.

She comes back out folding her arms.

"It won't wash out."
We both look to her confused.

"What won't Bella?"

"This!" She says touching the strand of hair.

We both look to each other wide eyed.

"Angel baby I don't think that's going to wash out. I think you'd better just get used to the new look."

She looks to me in a way that if she'd a gun I'd have my balls blown away.

"Great!" She forces a fake smile slamming her hands down.

"It's not so bad kind of suits you actually." Sammy says.

"He's right kind a sexy."

"You're both full of shit." She says grabbing her bags.

I go to help her and she gives me a look that I'm not sure about.

"I got this Dean." She says but looks as though she's about to fucking start sobbing.

I'm beginning to see the trend. All I keep doing is hurting her. She was acting this way not because she was truly angry not even about the hair. I'd hurt her I'm the one fucking person in this world that recognizes that sort of "Acting Out" hell I'm the king of it. Her way of dealing with things wasn't that much different from mine only I was far more of an ass about it and held longer grudges. I knew for Bella to act like this I'd once again really fucked up.

I grab her arm and she yanks away.

"Seriously I'm fine."

I nod deciding it best to let her cool off first. We finish packing up and I open the door for her to sit up front with Sammy. I needed some shut eye anyway so I lay in the back.

A couple hours go by and I'm still trying to sleep but can't but I've my eyes closed.

"Hey.." I hear Sammy say.

"You alright there?"
"I'm perfectly fine Sammy."

He sighs.

"You don't seem like it."

"Please Sam…" She says in a way that breaks my heart.

"If you need to talk…"
"I know and I appreciate it."

Bella I knew didn't want to talk even to Sammy at the moment. I peek an eye open and see her feet kicked out of the window and she's got her shades on. The part that sucked and I knew only I could see it was the tears that she was trying to mask. I close my eyes and roll over not able to bear watching them make their way down and her hurriedly wiping them away in hopes that Sammy doesn't notice. Bella hated crying. She hated showing any sign of weakness and thus just makes me add up everything I've said or done she's come back to find my sorry undeserving ass. I'm beginning to realize that maybe I myself am a shark. I was just as well feeding off the life of an innocent girl breaking her heart because of my own hang ups and because of the love I feel for her. I knew the risk I was taking when I left that clue. I knew what could very well happen but honestly I really never thought she'd want to find me. I thought that day was it. That a few years from now I'd pass through Forks and see her either with this "Fairy Vampire Glitterboy" or some other lucky bastard, she might even have children running around and I'd see that she only grows more beautiful with time and I'd want to slit my own wrist because I wasn't the lucky bastard that she settled down with. I half laugh to myself Dean Winchester settling down? That's a joke in itself. That's why this will be interesting to say the least. There is no settling down in the life of a hunter and those that have tried have met death's far more gruesome than I'd like to think about.

"Dean!" They chorus.

"DEAN!"

I shoot awake and look around they're both looking to me concerned both have a hand on my arm. I swallow realizing they must have heard me talking in my sleep. I think about the dream I was having and look directly upon Bella.

"What did I say?"

"You were screaming tiger… You weren't saying anything just screaming."

I raise up and swallow I see that we're pulled over out in the middle of nowhere.

"Just give me a min I got to take a leak."

I lean against a tree trying to shake it out of my head. I take a piss and head back and they're both still looking to me.

"I'm fine let's go."

I rub my eyes and lean over turning on the radio and I pop in a Metallica cassette "Ain't My Bitch" starts to play as try desperately to get the fucking nightmare out of my head.

The flashes of the hellhounds dragging them both away are burned into my mind, both with claw marks going across their faces and stomachs, both reaching to me as I'm tied up watching them be ripped apart and I'm fucking pissed because I'm not being ripped apart alongside of them.

I look to Bella and reach over undoing her seatbelt. I have her crawl into the back with me and I put my arms around her. I motion for Sammy to pull into a bar and grill so we can grab something to eat. I force a smile and wink upon Bella. But first thing I do is head to the bathroom lean over and puke in the toilet. This stupid fucking ass wave of emotions hit and I start fucking crying like a chick and am pinching the bridge of my nose trying to stop. I clear my throat hearing someone enter the bathroom.

"Dean?"

"I'm fine Sammy just go on you and Bella order you some beers or something."

He sighs. I clear my throat again and come out. He does that fucking bullshit of trying to study me like one of the cases.

"What?!"

"Nothing." He says as he washes his hands.

I see him looking to me in the mirror.

"Everything's going to be ok Dean."
"Um yeah ok…" I shrug and pat him on the back.

"It wouldn't kill you to let Bella see your vulnerable side every once in a while. She might actually think you're fucking human after all."

I close my eyes at this and grab him by the collar of his shirt penning him to the bathroom wall.

"I'm not the enemy bro…" He says staring me in the eyes.

I let him go and shake my head.

"Go to her Dean show her you have a fucking soul for once!"

I close my eyes again and exit the bathroom. I look to the girl in the booth going over more case notes. I sigh on this and reach over taking the pad away from her and shutting it.

"None of that tonight."

I take her hand and lead her outside the bar. I pull her to the side of the building and kiss her. I then lean my forehead against hers and pull back looking into her eyes.

Something comes over me and I fucking lose it. Bella's jaw drops.

"Dean?" Damn it all to hell…

I try to stop. I try to talk to say something but I can't and it makes me mad at myself for acting like this. I'm supposed to be the strong one; I'm supposed to look after her I'm supposed to be the shoulder SHE CRIES on. Man what the fuck! I feel her run her fingers through my hair and I bury myself into her shoulder.

"What is it tiger?"

"I don't want to lose you."

I gasp out feeling like a complete pussy.

"And I really don't want you leaving… angel I…"

She puts her hand under my chin raising me up looking into my eyes.

"I don't want to lose you either. That's why we stick together on this tiger and quit fighting each other. We fight whatever comes our way and go from there!"

"You're crazy you know that!?" I say this but with a smile.

"Yeah I do."

The way she looks at me and says this has me lift her up, her legs wrap around my waist and we're making out, when I hear the clicking of a gun and feel the cold chamber against my head. Son of a bitch really?

"Give me everything in your pocket and I want the girl."

Bella and I look to one another shaking our heads. Bella sighs as if merely irritated.

"How about you give us all your money and I stay right here?"
The man looks to her confused. I feel her hand in my jacket and continue to stare into her eyes sure enough she fires.

"Sorry tiger I owe you a new jacket." She says as the man shouts out falling to the ground.

I shake my head realizing just how crazy she truly is.

"God damn I fucking love you." And yes I was totally aroused by that wrong as it was that was hot as hell even if I'd a gun to my head.

She laughs at this as I place her down and we focus on the man that's down now. I take his gun and pocket it for my own collection.

"Oops looks like you found the wrong couple. Better luck next time…" I kick the bastard as we leave him with his hip wound.

We hurry inside. I motion for Sammy to come on knowing we better hurry up and get out of dodge now. He looks to us oddly but follows us out as we load back up into my baby and find another town in which to brew up hell in.

Do to Bella just having her first case and well our little trials in our relationship we all decided to take a couple days off and for once get separate hotels. Ugh and it goes like this… 'naturally'

We'd been going at it pretty hot and heavy and I'd even taken it upon myself to teach her a few more other 'exciting' things. Literally we've spent the entire day just messing around and well frankly going at it like rabbits. We're finishing once again and we both roll over and I'll be damned if I didn't hear the familiar sound of flapping. I sigh shaking my head and cover Bella's mouth to keep her from screaming as he appears at the foot of our bed.

"I waited until you were done..."

I close my eyes on this.

"Cas! I said no barging in and I also said to KNOCK!"

"I heard noises so I thought you were in trouble. But then I got distracted and then I got bored."

Bella covers herself with the bed sheets as she notices Cas looking to her oddly.

"CAS!"

"I notice you spanked her but you weren't dressed as the pizza man. Did she do something wrong?"

Bella's jaw drops.

"What did he just say? And how in God's name did he know what we were doing? AND what PIZZA MAN?" I wasn't about to tell her about the porn he was referring to…

"God?"

"You're killing me CAS!"

"You were doing that in God's name? How does that work?"

"Turn around Cas!"

"Why? Do you need to finish?"

Bella breaks into uncontrollable laughter but she's blushing.

"I'm sorry angel baby remember me telling you about Cas?"

"That's ok I forgive you, but why are you referring to me as a baby?" Cas says tilting his head.

I take in a breath.

"I wasn't."

"You said angel.."

"When have I ever referred to you as angel by name?"

"I thought that maybe..."

Bella's got her face buried into my arm dying with laughter.

"Ugh Bella this is Castiel an angel from hell."
"Heaven…" He corrects looking to me oddly.

"Yeah, yeah that other place."

"Castiel this is Bella."

Castiel walks around the bed sitting next to Bella and holds out his hand for her to shake.

She shakes his hand but he gets right in her face looking upon her.

"CAS! What did I say about boundaries?"

"That meant her too?"

"Especially Bella!"

"Oh…"

He stands up but still stares at Bella. I fall back on my pillow knowing our little time together was officially over.

"What brings you here Cas?"