EPOV
Charlie and Harry left a few days ago. We are at the house by the base this week and things are so fucking tense. We seem to be nit picking over every little thing and it's driving me crazy.
Bella was sitting on the couch sewing in name tags to my clothes, I had argued that I'd just pay someone to do it, but she threatened to kick me in the balls. So need less to say I let her do. She's been scowling at the clothes and me off and of for the past hour now. I've been trying to be so understanding with her and let her have her moments, but I feel the need to drink all the time now and that shit just doesn't fly.
"Think you should meet my mom before you go?" She asked while starting on a new shirt.
"Bella why you being like this?" She is driving me crazy.
"Like what?"
"Urgh so fucking Difficult" I got up to sit next to her on the couch. "It's like your trying to pick a fight with me."
"You think I'm difficult? Because this is who I am Edward, maybe your realizing when we got married you didn't know me from a house cat and now you are realizing that you made a really big mistake"
Leaning forward I kissed her forehead and then got up walking away. There wasn't any response I could make to that would make any of this better. She had tears streaming down her face. I deploy in a week and I don't know what she is going to do. She has met some of the women around here, but none that seems to make her feel more comfort. She is going back to stay at her place while I'm gone to be closer to everyone, but I worry about her. A new marriage, new baby and not knowing about this whole military thing.
I grabbed my smokes and a couple beers and walked out to the deck. This was driving me insane and I needed some sort of calm before I dealt with her tonight. I love that woman with all I have, but she drives me insane with just a look.
2 smokes and 2 beers later Bella was crawling into my lap, cuddling into my chest.
This is a very common thing when we argue. One of us walks away, the other follows. We have never gone more then 15 minutes waiting for the other to follow us.
"I'm sorry." She sniffled while kissing my jaw.
"There isn't a reason for you to be sorry. We are both stressed and taking things to seriously. I know me leaving is a serious thing and I wish like hell I didn't have to do it, but this will just make us stronger. I love you baby. I can't make a trip to meet your mom, but if it means that much to you we will fly her in.:
"I'm just being a whiney baby."
"Yeah, but you're my whiney baby and I wouldn't trade you for anything in this world. I know this is going to be the most stressful, worrisome and hard time you will have to ever do. I am sorry I am putting you guys through this and leaving you with two kids. I am so grateful that you married me with knowing before hand that this was coming."
We cuddled waiting for Trevor to come back before deciding on what to make or go get for dinner. He always seemed reserved when he comes back home. Like he is waiting for the fighting to start again and I hate that I'm doing this to him. He doesn't need to see this.
"Hey Trevor what do you want to do for dinner?" I called into the kitchen from our seat on the deck when I heard him coming into the house.
He walked out joining us on the deck smiling that we were cuddling, but his face seemed to drop when he seen the beers sitting out. I should have remembered his memories of his dad and alcohol.
"We can just do something here if that's ok. We don't have to go out." He shyly stated like he was trying not to tell us what to do, but not suggest anything that would get him in trouble.
"Baby can you give me and Trevor a minute please." I whispered into Bella's ear. She nodded and got up kissing his head and walking into the kitchen. He looked kind of nervous.
"Hey buddy can we talk for a minute?" I knew he wouldn't say no, but still wanted the question out there.
He walked over to the other seat and sat down tentatively and looked at me nodding.
"Did you agree because you are afraid to tell me no?" I saw the scared look in his eye. "Trevor I don't want you to feel like you have to agree with me or be afraid to tell me what you think. I know things have been stressed around here and I know you coming home seeing the beer bottle scares you. I have only had the two of them today. I'm sorry I didn't clean them up, but I don't want to hide it from you either. I want you to know that just because I have been drinking a little that it's not going to change who I am. Alcohol or no alcohol you are still ok to act the same."
"I want to believe that, but I still have memories of dad. I know you are not him, but it's hard not to act the same."
"I know buddy and its ok. I know you have been through hell with all the adjustments lately and I'm sorry you are having all this new stuff to deal with, just getting use to me being an authority figure and then to deal with me leaving. I'm sorry I have put you into this, but I want you to be proud of me."
"Shouldn't I be trying to make you proud of me?" He chuckled nervously.
"I already am so proud of you. I love you Trevor, not because I have to or because I married your mom, but because of how you are."
"I love you too. Is it ok if we have pizza for dinner if mama isn't already cooking?"
"Sure thing bud, want to order out or go to this pizza parlor that makes the best stuff I've ever tasted?" I knew I'd win him with the parlor, but I wanted him to feel like he had options and was making the choices.
BPOV
I was standing in the kitchen listening to their conversation, just to make sure I could step in if I needed to. I really needed to stop day dreaming about what happened on the other night with Edward in the shower. Not only was I going through underwear like a potty-training two year old, but Edward and the family was starting to question me, and just yesterday I sliced her finger earning 10 stitches, now I have a cast on one hand and stitches on the other. I look like Edward was abusing me and I hated it, I never want people to even second guess that shit with him, he would never raise a hand to me. There was no way I could tell anyone what really happened thought the deep strawberry glow on the apple of my cheeks would clue them in that it was something embarrassing.
****Flashback****
"Isabella, shower now." Edward called in a surprisingly sexy, but no fucking with voice from the bathroom.
Walking into the bathroom Edward had a towel slung low on his hips leaning against the counter with his arms crossed. Fuck if he didn't look hot when he was trying to play the role of intimidating.
"This is going to be very simple Isabella. I want to wash you head to toe, then I want you on your knee's so I can fuck your tight mouth, then I will be fucking you up against the shower wall. I don't want to hear anything from you. Do not speak unless I ask you a direct question and tell you to answer me. Think you can handle that?" He was staring at me with this look that told me he was trying to tap into my submissive side, but that I had the option to back out. Fuck if I wasn't soaking wet and ready already.
I dropped my eyes to the floor and nodded. Blushing was beyond words here. I knew I was fire engine red, but fuck if this wasn't one of his hottest ideas yet.
We didn't always have sex like this. More times then not it was sweet and slow, we had our no holds bar fast fucking, but some times it was nice to know I was safe to drop control and just be told what to do.
Pulling me from my thoughts I felt a firm slap against my ass. Startled I squealed while jumping a little.
"Undress for me." It was a command. I agreed to this and was to play along now. I knew he wouldn't treat me wrong and that I was safe and this was the best way to play.
I slowly started removing my clothes not wanting to rush this and look like a slut, but not take so painfully slow that he didn't want to do this anymore. The last of my clothing fell to the floor and I felt him come up behind me. I could feel his hard cock press into my back while he whispered into my ear.
"You please me very well Isabella. I am pleased with you. Now take off my towel and I want you to appreciate what my reaction is to you."
I turned in his arms and slowly removed his towel looking at the best site I have seen since started sleeping with Edward. I dropped to my knees and tentatively licked the tip when I felt his hands in my hair lightly pulling me back to look up at him.
"Damn it Isabella. I don't remember telling you that I was ready for that yet. I wanted you to look and appreciate not more directly to sucking me off. Now stand up and lean over the counter. Forearms flat against the surface, ass out and don't you dare move." With that he pulled me up, spun me around and was pushing me down over the counter before I even knew what was happening. We have talked about spanking and how it turned me on. "You are lucky I'm just going to spank you with my hand. Had this been in the room I'd be using something a little harder to get my point a crossed."
"This is where you are going to talk. I want you to count each one and say think you sir. Don't lose count or I will start over. Forget to count and we are moving to the bedroom for a belt and you will go to bed right after that. Understand me? You may speak."
"Yes sir." I stammered out. I could feel my juices running down my legs.
Edward leaned over me and kissed under my ear. "Baby you ok? I'm not scaring you or taking this fantasy to far am I?" "No baby, I am good I am sure you can see what this is doing to me. Keep going. I remember the safe words we talked about and I am not afraid to use them if I feel uncomfortable. I love you." I whispered back, he did this a lot. Checked in to make sure I was ok. Some times I wish he would just keep going and let me decided if this needed to stop. "Ok baby. I'm not checking with you anymore tonight. Use your words other wise I'm going to keep going." I nodded slightly and prepared for Edwards hand against my ass.
Smack, the sound was harsher then the feeling. "One sir, thank you."
He gave me a few in a row to try and trip me up I'm sure. "Two, three, four, five sir. Thank you."
"Ok Isabella, I know this punishment is going to be hard to do with counting. I just want it over with so I can fuck you. Don't move, keep quiet and this will be over soon."
With that he started raining down hand to ass over and over again moving from cheek to cheek and down on my upper thighs. He wasn't really hitting hard, but the amount and placement was starting to sting and I was fighting back tears. I caught his eyes in the mirror. He seemed to be enjoying this, but when he noticed the tears he let a few more down and then started rubbing my sore ass.
"I love you Isabella. Please listen to me in the future. I don't like having to punish you. Let's get you cleaned up so I can use you to my pleasure."
We got into the shower and he started washing me head to toe just like he said. He was so gentle. I'm sure this was his way of making up for the spanking and the way he was going to treat me in a few minutes.
Once I was all washed up I felt a light push on my shoulders and knew this was the start of the rest of it.
"On your knees, I want you to relax and let me use you. I promise you will get please from all of this, no teeth, no fighting me and we can get on to the furcking here really soon."
With that he grabbed the back of my head twisting his hands in my hair and navigated his rock solid hard cock into my mouth. He was gentle to start with but then he started going deeper and harder. I never knew till Edward and us playing like this that I could take him fully into my mouth and down my throat. I hummed and sucked like a champ. This all must have turned him on as much as it was me because with in minutes I could feel the hot spurts going down my throat. I swallowed everything he gave me. Licking my lips as he pulled out of my mouth and just waited for him to give me further instructions.
"Fuck I love your mouth, but not as much as your pussy and one day I will be fucking your ass." We had talked about anal and as I had never done it before I wasn't sure if I would like it or if I wanted that, but I would do anything to make him happy and I knew he would stop if I told him. I also knew I was going to offer it to him before he left. I wanted him to know what he had waiting at home as a constant reminder.
"Ok. After that excellent performance I need a few minutes to recover. Wash me." I set to the task and might have over handled his cock while washing him to make him recover quicker. I was throbbing to the point of wanting to reach between my legs and show him how I take care of myself.
After I was done washing him he wasted no time hoisting me up and burying himself deep with in me. I moaned into his neck.
"This isn't going to be sweet and loving and it's going to be quick. You better cum before me or I am taking a belt to that ass and then you won't get release tonight. Understand me?" I nodded into this neck. It wasn't going to take me very long to cum with him talking like that. I leaned up and whispered in his ear. "Keep talking like that, and I wont last very long." I kissed his ear letting him known I was back into the scene of him being in charge.
He started thrusting into me as hard and quick as he could. I was using his shoulders as leverage to meet him thrust for thrust. "Your pussy is so fucking tight and warm. This is mine. You better not be sharing this with anyone else. I don't share my things and you are no exception. You are mine Isabella don't you forget that." With that he bit the junction where my shoulder and neck met.
That did it. With in seconds I was exploding with one of the strongest earth shattering orgasm's I have ever had in my life.
****End Flashback.****
I made myself look buys when I heard them coming in here.
"Mama have you started cooking yet?" Trevor asked while Edward walked to the trash to throw away his bottles. I was pissed that Trevor seen them, but Edward had reasoned on several occasions that Trevor needed to see that alcohol doesn't effect him the way it did Jake.
"Nope, what you guys have in mind?" I smiled at Trevor and then looked at Edward.
"Pizza, lil' man just needs to decide if we are ordering it or going out to eat it."
"Can we go out and eat it? Please mama?" Trevor bounced with pleading eyes.
"Sure let me get your sister ready. Go wash up and change into clean clothes and we leave in 10 minutes." Trevor took off up the stairs to his room. Edward pulled me into a hug. "I'm driving so you are going to have to tell me where to go."
"I've only had two, but that is fine. I'd rather you guys feel comfortable and be safe then be a stupid pig headed man and make you guys nervous."
"Thank you. Let me get her ready can you make sure every things in the diaper bag please?"
"You got it." He practically jogged off to get the bag out of the truck. I think he wanted this pizza the same if not more then Trevor.
*** 3 days to deployment***
BPOV
Is it wrong for me to be thinking of ways to injure Edward so he doesn't have to deploy? I know I went into this knowing this would happen, but I'm a selfish bitch and seem to have taken to treating him like shit for some ungodly thought that if we were fighting it would make him leaving easier. I'm snapping at him, commenting about him leaving me alone with the kids and about him going back to his man whoring ways.
"Just remember me here with YOUR kids when you are having fun with Shelly." I yelled the your part at him. Shelly has been a sore subject for us because she is almost super model pretty and I know she wants Edward, who doesn't? I'm just trying to get him pissed off like always.
"What the Fuck is that supposed to mean Isabella?" He was trying to full name my ass. Either I'm succeeding in pissing him off or he is trying to take his dominant stand with me. Either way it's not working.
"You know damn good and well what I mean, panty-dropping-Cullen." Evil glare while stomping out of the room. Yes I'm childish, but for fucks sake I can't shake this feeling of him leaving me and needing to be pissed to ease the pain.
I was kind of glad that Trevor has found friends around here and tends to be at their house when we argue like this. Poor Trevor has seen more of the fighting then fun these past few days. He's found some good friends close by though so I know he will be ok when we come back her to live. I'm going to have to stay here a few nights every so often so he can keep building the friendships.
"Bella, please stop this. I love you. I want you." He pushed his erection into my ass to emphasize how quickly he got hard by just holding me. He once said it also had something to do with the way I looked while pissed. What ever that's supposed to mean. "There is no way in fucking hell I would ever cheat on you. You don't see yourself clearly. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. I am coming home to you." Edward stood behind me keeping me pulled close to his chest. He tended to do this so I couldn't run anymore.
"I can't do this." I stuttered out. Leave it to him to turn me into a blubbering stuttering idiot. "I'm not going to survive you being gone."
"Yes you can. You are the strongest woman I have ever met. You're not going through this alone. I don't want to leave, but it's my job. The kids are going to need you more now then before. You have my family and yours for support. If it gets to bad ask them to take the kids, get some ice cream and a sappy chick flick and have a good cry, then pick yourself up and move on again. It's ok to feel weak and it's more then ok to ask them for help. We are going to talk, email, write and video chat as much as possible."
"You make it sound so easy. You really think I can handle 2 kids, no job, worrying about the women that will throw themselves at you. I'm sure even the ugly ones start looking pretty after being away from here for a short while. Not to mention those things like bullets, IED's and ohh yeah lets not forget bombs and missiles. I could more then likely get over and deal with you cheating on me, but don't you fucking dare die on me or these kids. I wouldn't survive if that happened." Yes I was asking him to promise the impossible, but I wouldn't' be able to do it with out him coming home to us.
"I love you baby. Please can we just head to bed, stop packing my stuff. I will pack it. Lets just cuddle; we don't have to have sex or anything. No expectations. I just want you in my arms. I want to engrave the way you feel in my mind so when I'm over there hugging my pillow I can pretend that it is you I'm cuddling."
**Deployment day**
The past couple of days passed way to damn quickly. I don't know how time slipped by, but we had everything packed up to go back to South Carolina, and Edwards bags to take him on base to meet the busses rolling out.
We were all loaded into the truck and Edward was chewing on his thumb. I've been sick the past few days and he was more nervous now then ever to be leaving me alone with the kids. We have talked about the time off I have now and I'm going to stay home, maybe pick up some classes to finish the last few credits I needed for my masters and then I'm thinking about writing a few books that have been swimming around in my mind. I might never send them anywhere, but at least I wouldn't feel like I was wasting time.
All too soon we pulled up to the loading area where all the other families were waiting and the nausea took over once again. I bolted out of the truck to the trash can we happily were parked next to.
"Baby please stop by and get checked out before you guys head back home." Edward asked while rubbing my back and holding my hair.
"I will see your dad in a few days if it hasn't gotten better. I'm sure it's just the stress of everything. I promise by Wednesday if it's not better I'll see your dad. You can call and ask him if you want."
"Ok. I'm so sorry I have to leave you while you're sick. Emmett and Rose have offered to take the kids for the weekend so you can rest up. Other wise my parents have offered for you guys to stay there so you can sleep but have the kids close by as well. Please do one of them for me."
"I will be more then fine, but if I'm not feeling better tonight we will go stay with your parents for the weekend." I took the water he offered me rinsing out my mouth spitting into the trash can and then started getting the kids out of the car. Trevor was already holding Lux in his lap while they were waiting for me to stop showing the trashcan my breakfast.
Getting to the right area for the drop off Edward pulled Trevor into his arms hugging him tight. I could see him trying to chock back the tears.
"I'm going to miss you son while I'm gone. I love you so much and am so proud of you. Take care of your mama and your sister while I'm gone ok buddy?" Trevor nodded unable to speak around his tears.
Edward put him down and then squatted down in front of Lux's stroller. "Baby girl, you have no idea what this is or what's going on. I love you and will miss so much of your life." He kissed her forehead and then stood up grabbing me in his arms and spinning me a little.
"Bella baby, please forgive me for leaving you guys. Make sure the kids don't forget me and please take care of yourself. Relax and enjoy some time with the kids before you start back into school or writing. Go visit your dad or your mom. Just please take care of yourself. I will love you forever and will be coming back to you before you know it. Remember I want you, I love you and you are the only woman I want to share a bed with or to have in my arms." He kissed me deeply earning some cheers and whistles from guys in his command.
"Here," I handed him an envelop. "Don't open it until you get on the plane. I love you and I will miss you while you are gone. There is nothing to forgive. You take care of yourself, take care of your team and I want to have all of you guys back here when I come back to pick you up."
We exchanged some more words with each other, him with the kids and some of the guys that didn't have families here to send them off. I knew this was going to happen and knew a head of time who they were and helped Trevor prepare a letter for them. He wanted to do something to make their time away more pleasant so he decided with mine and Edwards ok that he would be pen pals with them so they would have someone to write to and get things from. We had their address there so we could send boxes when ever Trevor wanted to and to make sure they had what they needed.
A/N
Lookie, lookie I snuck another lemon in their… 2nd lemon ever written by me. Feels kind of good. Short, sweet, but fuck hot. Even if you don't appreciate some D/S its still fuck hot.. I wont ever go to deep into that type of thing, just enough to make it hot, but not make people uncomfortable..
The deployment is finally here. Kind of bitter sweet to get to this point, but it's a needed thing to get him home. Things are going to go crazy and more focus on Bella while he is gone, but we will get EPOV's as well. Hope you guys liked this and keep reading when I get updates out…
Tell me what you think and what you want to see while Edward is gone…
Thanks.