Chapter Fourteen
Dean
My heart stopped when Lucifer uttered the words, 'they're leaving' to Sam and I. I'd known things were bad…Cas and I had broken up the night before after all, but I hadn't thought it was this bad. I glanced at Sam, seeing a look of shock and pain….and remorse on his face so strong that it almost sent me to my knees. Instead, I ran. I ran like hell to the room Cas and I shared. He and Gabe stood at the window, staring out of it as though trying to find a reason to stay. Cas' back was shaking, Gabe's was rigid. They were grieving in their own way. Cas crying and Gabe shoving the emotions away, trying to hype himself up. I couldn't let this happen. Cas couldn't leave me.
"CAS WAIT! …please…"
He turned, bright blue eyes filling with more tears as they settled on my face. Beside me, Sam was stepping towards Gabe, his eyes filling with tears. I fixed my entire focus on Cas, on the man I loved. He took a hesitant step towards me and then took it back, looking uncertain. God I'd screwed up so much.
"If you leave I'm going with you. You…I'm sorry. I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry I fucked up last night. I'm sorry we keep fighting. I'm sorry. Just don't leave me behind. I…I can't lose you Cas. Not you too. Everyone and everything else….just not you. Never you." I whispered, tears rolling unchecked down my cheeks.
"It was me that fucked up. I…I shouldn't have ended things with you like that. I…I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
He was whispering apologies even as I pulled him into my arms, tucking his head beneath my chin. Rocking him back and forth, I turned to cast a look at Gabe and Sam. Gabe had Sam pressed against the wall and was kissing him as though they'd been apart centuries. I smiled. Didn't look like anyone was leaving today. Not without us at least. Cas pulled away to kiss me, effectively ending my thoughts.
"So are you two done being idiots?" Lucifer asked from the doorway and Cas turned red.
"Yes. I'm sorry Lucifer. I…didn't think."
Lucifer's face softened. "It's all right. I'm just glad no one's leaving."
Cas nodded, looking upset again and I kissed him. "Stop mentioning leaving. You make him feel bad every time you do. It's okay. We're all staying and that's that." I said to Lucifer, kissing the top of Cas' head.
"I'm sorry Cas. I just…I am not being left behind again. You and Gabe run every time something happens and I'm always left behind and I can't do that anymore. I can't be left again guys. I…I can't handle it. No matter how strong you think I am, I'm not."
"We won't do it again." Gabe promised, his arms tightly around Sam.
"Don't promise that. Just…promise you'll take me with you next time. If we're together, it isn't so bad. But apart…guys I can't do that."
He stood in the doorway, watching his brothers a little awkwardly before they ran for him, hugging him so tightly he probably couldn't breathe. When he could talk, he motioned for Sam and I to join the hug, smiling widely through his tears. We stayed like that for a long while, not wanting to let go of our small family.
AN: Hey guys. So I know that was short and the "we're back together, I'm staying" part was really quick…but I meant it that way. Neither Cas or Sam meant what they did…as soon as they saw Gabe and Dean…it was over. They knew they were gonna go back as soon as they saw them. And Lucifer…the next chapter has a bit of his background in it as well. Although, you should probably be warned. I have a sequel planned for that one. I'm also going to be abandoning "Broken Silence" for a bit to work on a fic that I think you guys are going to love. It's an Outsiders fanfic that I've been given permission to work on since the author never updates anymore. She's actually gonna let me work on both of her stories. One of them being an HP fic and one being an Outsiders fic. So look forward to that. And if you haven't read The Outsiders, you can always watch the movie. It's amazing and you'll get caught up really fast if you can't find the book. Anyways, I hope you enjoy and remember to review.
T.R.A.