Still don't own Twilight, Stephenie Meyer is the one making money out of Alice and Jasper(How dare she XD). Also I don't own the song Imagine Me Without You, It belongs to the wonderful Jaci Velazques
In my eyes you're all that matters In my eyes the only truth I see When my hopes and dreams have shattered You're the one that's there for me When I found you I was blessed and now I'll never leave you, I need you Imagine me without you I'd be lost and so confused I wouldn't last a day, I'll be afraid Without you there to see me through. Imagine me without you Lord you know it's just impossible Because of you, I am brand new My life is now worth while I can't imagine me without you.
I finished singing my heart out to my little angel even though he had fallen asleep long time ago. We were sitting in the rocking chair in his bedroom. He was still wearing the clothes which surprisingly looked like a tux. We were tired and all I could pray is that after I changed him he will fall like a rock for hours.
Bella's wedding have been awesome, for me at least. I loved weddings. The dresses, flowers and the moment in which two people were united in Holy Marriage upon the eyes of God was just a favorite thing of mine. The church was decorated beautifully thanks to Esme. I was supposed to help, but Jason was too demanding not to spent time with.
Edward was wearing a black tuxedo with a white shirt and a light blue tie. Before the wedding began he came to see Jason at our bench. Little J smiled and kicked lightly at his arm, something told me that Edward was going to be his favorite uncle.
When Bella was walked down the aisle by Charlie everyone was focused on her. I was honestly praying she didn't take this as a good time to fall and rip the gorgeous dress that it took weeks for us to find. After she managed to get to the altar on her feet and the dress in one piece I looked at her.
Her hair was in tied in an elegant clasp and her make up was done tastefully. The dress was strapless with tiny flower details all around her waist and puffed at her hips giving her nice silhouette. Her shoes were visible since her dress was a little shorter. A pair of white Louiboutin heels I somehow convinced her to buy. She looked pretty, but what made her beautiful was the glow that emanated from her.
I looked besides me at Jasper who was looking bored at the couple in the altar. I managed to make him wear a vest, Yes it did take a pair of puppy eyes and a pouting lip but he obliged. He didn't hesitate to tell Jason about how I manipulated him, not that he really understood. Esme found a tiny outfit that was Jason's size and was appropriate for a wedding.
The rest of the afternoon went uneventful. Jason cried when he was hungry being quickly shut by the bottle being put in his mouth. Jasper was the one who mostly took care of him telling me to enjoy the wedding since he wouldn't.
The reservation was quite nice. Jason stayed awake and danced with the groom and bride, well they danced with him. Jasper and I danced for a while too. Then he picked up Jason and we danced together, the three of us.
The food was delicious and though J couldn't taste it he didn't mind because he had the formula that he loved so much. After two hours we said our goodbye and left. Bella was disappointed but I think she was able to understand that having a son was tiring.
After we got home Jasper instantly went to change and I took Jason into the rocking chair singing him to sleep. Now that he was asleep I changed his clothes careful not to wake him up and laid a kiss on his forehead before setting him down in his little crib. Jasper walked in seconds after kissing his cheek and turning the lights out.
"Jazz, I'm taking a shower." I informed him as I entered the bathroom.
"Need company?" He said suggestively.
"Nop, As much as I'll love it you need to look after him while I shower."
He didn't argue and I heard being closed. I took out my dress carefully and undresses completely grabbing a towel and putting it around my body to tend the dress in the bed. Happily I made my way to the bathroom and turned the water on.
There was nothing better than a cold shower after a long day. Some people say that a hot bath is better but I disagree. Cold Water is what does it for me unless it's extremely cold of course. I dried myself and put on my underwear and pajamas. Since Jason was still asleep I picked up the dryer and entertained myself with my hair for a while. When pleased I brushed my teeth and put deodorant on.
Jasper was sitting in the couch watching another NBA game. I could tell it was the Mavericks because he was concentrated in the screen and whispering atrocities at the other team. I sat down next to him and he put his arm around my shoulder turning the TV off.
"Alice I want to talk." I don't think I like the way he said it. It sounded like when the Carlisle gave me the 'Pregnant' talk. Was I in trouble, did he realize that I was not what he needs and wants to leave?, Did I upset him by forcing him to wear a vest?.
" 'tthinki'mgoodenoughforyou?" I closed my eyes as I blurted everything out. Tears were already welling up in my eyes.
"No, I'm not upset or leaving so you can open your eyes, take a deep breath and listen to me."
I didn't open my eyes because if I did he will be able to see the tears in them. I just shook my head and covered my eyes with my hands turning away from him. I tried not to cry like an idiot, but a sob escaped through my suddenly dry throat followed by another. He was instantly wrapping his arms around me brushing hair out of my face.
"Ali, Don't cry baby. That kills me."
He was in front of me gently removing my hands from my face and lifting my chin up. I opened my eyes seeing his face in a blur while I cleaned them until I was able to see him completely. For minutes I just stared at his face and he did back at mine. My hand touched his left cheek and settled on the simple forming while he smiled.
I felt him wrap his arms around my waist and secured my legs on his back as he took us to our room. He settled me on the bed not breaking apart from me.
"I wanted to ask you a little something. You have to promise you won't interrupt or cry." I nodded my head not speaking.
"So, not long ago I was pissed off at Edward for letting a woman take command of his life. I didn't understand what it was to feel so much love for one person you can't stop thinking about her. I had serious feelings for Natalie, my high-school sweetheart but it was never something like Edward described. I was jealous, not about Bella she's too plain for me. I was jealous that he had someone that cared like that for him."
He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.
"I was happy being alone. It was never a big deal for me, having a girlfriend would mean putting up with her drama and having to listen to her tell me about her day when I honestly don't give a fuck. It didn't matter until I slept with a woman one day."
He opened his eyes and smiled looking down with so much love at me I wanted to cry. I could feel every ounce of love, devotion and adoration pouring off him in waves.
"You see we didn't use protection and sometime later she showed up at my room telling me she was pregnant. I sent her to hell at the beginning and told her to get rid of it. She didn't, She said I was an idiot, bastard and a whole bunch of other things but for some reason she kept on letting me in her life. I planned on marrying her because it was what my momma taught me. I remember she started feeling bad and was taken to the hospital."
I remembered that well, We had a huge fight and I started feeling bad. That's the day Edward discovered his best friend had gotten his fiance's best friend pregnant. They fought and so did Bella and Edward but everything came together after that, piece by piece.
"She accepted and we went on some horrible dates. Not too long after that she had a car accident with her best friend. I lost my shit when I heard about it only to be informed that she was okay and that our little thing was also unharmed. I spent my days visiting her at the hospital while secretly finding a place to live. " He paused laughing at the memory.
"After that things were going well. One day she was feeling insecure about her looks so I made her watch her reflection in the mirror. She told me she loved me and I chickened out like an idiot. I left her and after thinking about it I came back to her with my tail between my legs. I only did ot because for some reason I couldn't pull away from her or my son. She took me back, not asking a single question. I got a job and tried to behave." He got off me and laid on his back pulling me on top of him.
"Since that day. I watched all of her. How she frowned when mad, She hid her face in her arms when embarassed or sad. She likes to sing, I remeber every night she sat in that old rocking chair and sang while rubbing her belly. I just stood in time helpless as her belly grew and she stole a piece of my heart day by day."
There was a silence and I could see that his eyes were watering, his bottom lip trembling slightly.
"We went to the Doctor and she told me that we were going to have Jason in our arms soon but I didn't listen. Hours after I heard the soft crying of a baby while she squeezed the blood out of my hand. That night my life changed. She looked so beautiful you know, Crying and all sweaty but with the most beautiful smile in her beautiful face. I held my son that day, fell in love with the perfect mix of me and that persistent woman." His voice cracked and I cleaned the single tear that left his eye.
" She doesn't know it, but I love her. I love that she never gave her back to me even when I deserved it. She grew my son on her tiny belly and kept him safe while he was there. And now I want nothing more than to do that. I don't fucking envy Edward anymore because when you look at me I feel like I deserve it. I feels so loved and I feel it too, The want to protect her and put a smile on her perfect lips."
He sat and held me in his lap kissing me lightly. Our lips close but not touching. Our eyes were closed and at this moment everything felt perfect. Every tear, Every hurt and pain. It was all worth it.
Alice, I'm not even close to being the guy you want me to be. I'm never going to be the one that wears designer clothes and loves every holiday in the calendar even if he's sad. I'm nothing, but I only need you. You're what makes me who I am. I'm likeable because you make me want to be someone and I don't want to make you suffer anymore. He kissed me again this time more passionately.
" Will you wait until I grow a decent pair of balls and ask you to be my wife?, Are you gonna be there when I stop being a coward and make you mine forever?"
Will I? Was I ready to wait for him to realize I'm all his and he is all mine. I waited nine moths to have my prince in my arm, seventeen years to find the man that mom told me to stay away from but stole my heart. Could I really wait a little more and have him by my side like I imagined all my life,
"Yes and Yes again."
He didn't speak instead he kissed me with all the pent up emotions he had been dealing with for the past couple of weeks. I kissed him back with all the love and trust I had in him.
He laid on his back and let me straddle him as our kiss became more passionate. His lips parted allowing my tongue entrance the same way his heart had opened and allowed me a guaranteed space in there. We broke apart and he pulled the shirt over my head kissing my neck. He was shirtless which made my work a lot easier.
I could feel his erection through the fabric of his jeans and my mind went numb with pleasure. He ground into me making me feel how excited he was about all this. I pushed him back and attacked his neck like a vampire thirsty for blood, only I was thirsty of him. He let out a moan and I continued my torture on him moving to his nipples.
I kissed each before biting softly and sucking on it. My lips moved to his stomach next appreciating the toned flesh. I let my lips linger for a little on his belly button licking the trail of black hair that led me to where I wanted to go. His pants were in the floor in seconds only his boxers between his hard flesh and my awaiting mouth. I took hold of his boxers and pushed them down.
He was fully erect standing in attention to me. I took him in my hand watching his face as I stroked it. His eyes were closed and his mouth was slightly open. I massaged him loving the little sounds that left his mouth and the quickening breath with each stroke. I've never touched a man like that but after sharing so many girls night with Bella I had learned a few things.
I was about to take him in my mouth when I heard the crying from the other room.
"You're kidding. Come on Jason you seriously gonna give your dad a case of blue balls." He said throwing his head back and leaving to the bathroom probably to take a long, cold shower.
I should be annoyed like him, after all I had hormones and I've only had sex two times in my entire life. They say it gets better with time and though I enjoyed my night with Jasper it wasn't pleasurable at all.
For some reason I was not upset in the least I loved my life and even if I was going to have to relieve myself in my dreams I was happy, This is my future and I couldn't ask for a better setting.
STATS: Until this point this story has 10,882 hits, 60 alerts and 54 favorites. Thank you everybody for the amazing support this is the most succesful story I've had in FF and the only one I have completed. Little Rant: I don't know about you guys but I detest Bella/Jasper. I just can't see it happening or working even if they make Alice a heartless cheater and Bella OOC, I just can't sorry if you like them whatever floats your boat but those two really annoy me. Jalice Rocks! and Jackson/Ashley is just too adorable. So on that same note I have very dark thoughts about James/Alice or Demetri/Alice(If they do it with annoying Bella why not with perky Alice). Another thing. Thank you again to everybody I'm working on some future ideas and if u have anything you may like( a one shot, pairing) feel free to suggest it, Or if you're bored PM me and I will respond and make your day a little bit better. I can't mention all those who supported the story but know that I'm grateful and you're the best! Til next time, Take Care!