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Chapter Fourteen
She walked into Sunhill station with her son wrapped in her arms and made her way to Jacks office, she knocked lightly and waited to be called in. "Stevie how can I help?" he smiled. Stevie glanced down "I have come to talk about Smithy...". He nodded slightly "How is he doing?". She rested into the seat oppisite him "They have said that he.. he should walk again but it is going to be a really slow process... it might even take years". Jack glanced down "How is he coping?". She smiled "He is putting on a brave face... they are transferring him to a specialist clinic which will hopefully get him walking again but he isnt going to be back for a while". Jack nodded "We have an Acting Inspector coming in from Barton Street.. he starts here tomorrow..". Stevie nodded "Will Smithy still have a job...". Jack sighed "There will always be a job for him in this station Stevie... but if he doesnt make a full recovery Im not sure he could return as Inspector". She nodded "Ok.. thank you Sir". As she rose to her feet Jack smiled "How are you... how have you been coping the last few weeks?". She smiled "I erm.. I cant get my head round it..". He nodded "It was a stressfull time". She nodded "I know we never saw eye to eye and I dont forgive for one second what she did but to see Sophie shot... its all I can think about when I close my eyes...". Jack moved round and placed his hand to Stevies "It will get easier..". She smiled "I have tried to talk to Smithy.. he has been there seen people killed in cold blood but he just keeps saying she deserved it.. and he is glad she and Larson died". Jack smiled "He is upset... he has been thinking for the last two weeks he would never walk again.. that in its self is a life sentence". She nodded "I know.. I have tried telling him it makes no difference to me.. and that I love him no matter what but he just gets angry and shouts at me". Jack gestured to Alfie "D'you get much time with just Smithy now?". She smiled "No.. visiting time is in the evening and Alfie is always full of life". Jack smiled "Do you want me to watch him for you tonight?". She smiled "You would do that?". He nodded "Of corse... it would be my pleasure". She lent up and kissed the older mans cheek "Thanks Sir". He nodded "I will come round about half six". She grinned "Thank you".
She had spent hours getting ready, she pulled on a tight pair of black jeans and a small waist coat over a white top. "You look lovely Stevie.." Jack smiled as she passed her son to him. She grinned "Thanks Sir... visiting finishes at nine so I should be home just after that". He nodded "Take as long as you need". She kissed Alfies head and made her way out of the front door. She climbed into the car and applied some lip gloss before making her way to the hospital. Arriving at the ward she walked through until she reached his room. She paused outside as a nurse called her "Miss Moss.." the lady gestured to a small room and Stevie followed her inside. "We are slightly concerened that Mr Smith is refusing to eat...". Stevie shook her head "Why is he not eating?". The nurse smiled "It happens sometimes... he may be worried about gaining weight". Stevie glanced down "I dont understand...". She smiled "He will not be able to do any exercise for some time and Im guessing he is normally quite a fit person". Stevie nodded "He is a complete fitness freak.. he spends hours working on his body". The nurse nodded "Ok well we need to encourage him to eat or he could end up making himself very ill". Stevie nodded "I will talk to him". She made her way to the door and the nurse called her back once again "He has asked that you dont bring your son in any more...". Stevie shook her head "What?". The nurse smiled "He has requested that we do not let him in.. as you are on your own tonight you can go and see him". Stevie nodded "Ok.. thanks". She made her way from the room and towards Smithys room.
She knocked lightly on his door before walking inside "How are you feeling?" she asked walking towards him, she placed her hands to his shoulders which he was quick to remove "Im fine". She nodded slightly "I have been talking to the nurse". Smithy just nodded. "Why dont you want to see Alfie?" she asked. He shook his head "I just dont want to". She smiled "I know you are hurting Smithy and that this is really hard on you but...". He interupted "You know... so how do you know Stevie... are you stuck in a chair.. people telling you how great it is that you took one step with a fucking zimmer frame... Im thirty five.. I might as well be dead". She shook her head "Dont say that Smithy". He glared at her "I wish Larson had killed me.. it would be better than this...". She glanced to the floor "And what about me and Alfie?". He stared at her, he could tell she was trying to fight back tears. "What about you... you are better off with out me now.." she shook her head "I love you.." he interupted "And you are still gunna love me.. when you have to look after me... push me round in this fucking thing... when I cant do anything for myself". She shook her head "You will walk again.. I believe in you". He glanced down "Well that aint gunna help me is it...". She moved over to him and lent down to his lips, he broke away and she smiled "I love you.. no matter what Smithy". He glared at her running his eyes over her, he knew she was dressed up "Where are you going?". She shook her head "No where Smithy..". He gestured to her outfit "Why are you all dressed up then?". She smiled "For you..." he interupted "What... you trying to tease me...". She shook her head "Of corse not". He glared at her "What is it.. trying to show me what Im missing out on..". She placed her hand to his face "I was trying to make you happy". He pushed her away from him "Get off me". She couldnt hold it in anymore, she let the tears slowly roll down her cheeks "I cant handle this Smithy... Im trying so hard to prove Im not bothered.." he interupted "So you wont be bothered when I cant play with our son, or go to work and provide for my family... or shag you". She shook her head "Its not about sex Smithy.." he interupted "Its always about sex with you but your right it dont matter does it... cause you will still be able to find someone else to fuck you while Im stuck at home in this... wondering what you are up too and how is shaging my girlfriend...". She smiled "It will never be like that... there is no one else I want". He nodded "At the moment... you are thirty three Stevie.. are you happy being stuck with a criple". She smiled "I love you". He glanced to the ground "Love doesnt come into it anymore.. I want you to go Stevie.. and dont come back". She shook her head "I cant walk away from you". He glared at her "I dont want to see you anymore... just get out".
"That was quick..." Jack smiled as Stevie walked through the door. She shook her head "He erm... he doesnt want to see me or Alfie again". Jack sighed "He actually said that?". She blinked back the tears in her eyes "I cant handle it Jack.. I have tried so hard to prove that I love him and the wheel chair doesnt bother me... but he just wont believe me". He smiled "Im sure he will come round... just give him some time". She nodded slightly "Thanks for looking after Alfie for me". Jack nodded "Anytime Stevie.. you know where I am... everyone at Sunhill is behind you and Smithy...". She smiled as she hugged her son.
He pushed everything from the table infront of him to the floor before wiping his eyes. "Well your temper is still intact..." Jack smiled from the door way. Smithy glared at him "I dont want visitors.. I told the fucking staff not to let anyone in". Jack flashed his warrent card at him "It dont work with everyone". He walked in and pushed the door closed "How are you?". Smithy shook his head "How do you think?". Jack smiled "Well Im guessing from the state of Stevie you had a row". He glared at him "Its nothing to do with you". Jack smiled "You can be a idiot when you want to be... you have a lovely little boy and a girlfriend who adores you". Smithy nodded "Yeah.. I was so lucky.. but look at me now.. Im stuck in this thing... I will never be able to teach my son how to play football or how to ride his bike... and I will never be able to do all the things me and Stevie have planned.. I have ruined her life". Jack moved over towards the bed and sat down on it, staring at Smithy sat next to the window "And she has said that has she... that you have ruined her life?". He shook his head "She wont want me". Jack smiled "Why because of a bit of metal.. she loves you.. she is heartbroken all she wants is to stand by the man she loves.. and you.. all you are doing is pushing her away..". He wiped his eyes again as the tears began to run down his cheeks "And what if I never walk again and I am stuck in this for the rest of my life". Jack smiled "Im not saying it will be easy.. but I never had you down as a quitter". He pulled his phone from his pocket "So why are you quiting on the most important thing... ring her.. tell her you love her". He smiled "I cant do it on the phone.. and she will never come back now". Jack nodded "Do you love her?". Smithy nodded "Stevie and Alfie are all I care about... she is my life.. thats why Im giving her a chance to move on with her life". Jack nodded and walked towards the door "I have some where to be... see you soon Inspector Smith". Smithy smiled slightly as the man left.
He sat watching the clock, it was only eight thirty it felt more like eleven, its all he really had to do with his time now. He sighed at the knock on the door "Im fine... I dont need anything" he shouted to the nurse he assumed was the other side. She pushed the door open slightly "Erm.. Jack said you wanted to see me... I.. I can go if you want". He smiled "Stevie... come in". She walked in and pushed the door shut, he held his hands out and she reluctantly moved over to him, he placed his hands to her hips and stared up at her "Im sorry... Im sorry Stevie.. I should never of spoke to you the way I did...". She placed her hands gently to his face "I love you Smithy... I will stand by you no matter what... it doesnt matter to me if you never walk again". She lifted his chin as he stared at the floor "But I know you will do it". She wiped the tears that were running down his cheeks "Please dont Smithy". He smiled "I am so sorry I have been so horrible to you the last few weeks... I just.. I dont want you to ruin your life". Stevie grinned "You make my life... you and Alfie.. you will keep me happy for ever". He smiled as she lent down into his lips "I love you Stevie Moss". she nodded "I love you too Smithy... now what is this I hear about you not eating?". He smiled "Im already losing my six pack Stevie and its only been two weeks". She laughed "So when you are back on your feet you are gunna need to spend a few hours in the gym... and Im sure I can help you exercise" He smiled "Yeah..". She ran her hands down his chest "Please dont give up Smithy... you have to do this for me and Alfie". He nodded "I would do anything for you".
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