Welp this is it for these two kids *sad face*

There is a small tiny smidge of sex in this. I was going to outtake it, but it was literally under 200 words. And it was kind of important in a sense that everyone needed to read it.

ANYWAYs hope you enjoy it and will review! *I hope you enjoy it for what it is and had to be*

Quote: the amazing…

Kazuo Ishiguro 'Never Let Me Go (how fitting right?)

Chapter 13

May 2008

'Hey, I'm thinking about you'

Bella giggles like a damn child…never mind. And she can't stop the crazy smile on her face. They have had sex a handful of times and it is so delightful. It is an act she can't correctly describe. It feels like the world is opening up beneath her, inside of her when they become one. They are so raw with each other, knowing everything about each other. And the act itself is so real, so honest.

Being with him makes her happy, he is an amazing man. They can talk and talk for hours, which is a dangerous thing. Dangerous when she needs to be at point B sometimes. But she wouldn't trade any of it. She loves making love to him, but she also thoroughly enjoys picking through his mind.

"What are you so happy about, we have exams" Alice grumbles looking at her text book. She, Angela and Bella are having a 'study session'. The study session involves books, papers, highlighters, TV on, cell phones on, ice-cream, check!

"I know" Bella says pulling a face. She is making the face because this is true, and she is finishing up her yearlong class with Edward. She won't see him each Friday anymore. But she will see him. They are together.

Angela makes a face at her. "What is going on with you?"

"Nothing" Bella tucks her phone away not having a chance to respond. "I'm good"

"Hey Bells" Jacob calls jogging to catch up with her.

Bella freezes and turns around.

Jacob cocks an eyebrow up at her. "What you got there?"

"Nothing much"

Jacob laughs. "I haven't seen you around much, hanging out with Alice and Angela and the jock?"

"Pretty much" She nods, her head bobs. "How is Billy?"

"He's good; I hear you're going to see your mom this summer"

"It s not official yet" Bella says, she still is hoping to speak to Edward about what his summer plans are.

"Well maybe we can get together at some point this summer, hang out" Jacob says cocking an eyebrow up at her, with hope.

"Yeah, maybe" Bella nods and smiles. She does really like Jacob, he is a good friend.

"I have to head home, need a ride?" He questions her.

"You know what, I do" Bella smiles. She has been a bit out of touch with him lately, school is winding down and she can 'hang' a bit more with him.

"Are you taking the job son?" Carlisle questions.

Edward got the letter two weeks ago; well his parents got the letter. They couriered it to him right away.

"I know this is what you have wanted since you finished school, a chance, has something changed?"

"No" Edward clears his throat. His father is not putting pressure on him. He knows his dad is confused as to why his bags and boxes haven't already been shipped back to Boston. "I…it is complicated"

Carlisle frowns. "Complicated…sounds like a girl"

Edward smiles. "You could say that"

"So you are going to give up this job for a woman?"

"Dad, so much has happened since moving here" He can't even begin to explain it all.

"I'm sensing this"

"I'm in love with this girl, and I shouldn't be"

Carlisle frowns as he sits in his office. "Edward" He says carefully.

"It is totally complex, unethical and illegal" He can't talk to anyone about this. He wants to talk to someone, someone he can trust. Garrett and Jasper are his closest friends here, and he cannot talk to them about the fact he is in love with a student. Not to mention sleeping with her.

Carlisle says nothing; he is at a loss for words.

"I love her, I'm in love with her, she is like my match, my soul to soul match" Edward rambles completely torn. He holds it back, in front of Bella because he doesn't want to hurt her or make her feel like it's her fault, like he is rejecting her. He isn't but he is completely torn between what he wants – her. And what he knows is right – law.

"I'm disappointed in you Edward" Carlisle speaks in an even tone. "So disappointed, do you know what this could do to you, what it could do to her?"

"I know" Edward sighs dropping his head. There are only the sounds of silence between them for long moments.

"Is this what you want for your life Edward, a fall from grace of this magnitude?" Carlisle shakes his head. He and Esme raised their children better than this, better than what Edward is showing him now. "I-I Christ Edward are you even thinking clearly?"

"I know it sounds crazy, but I love her"

"How old is she, 17, 18 in a few months?" Carlisle wonders.

"No, neither" And waiting to say this to his father a man he has such respect for, it is a mutual respect…was mutual, he feels how wrong it is in this moment. He knows how much he is holding her back. And right now it seems like very little because she is only 15. But it is because she is 15 that it is really much more. She has the world at her finger tips and in a second, one wrong move her world could be over because of him. He is not so much worried about his soul as he is worried about hers. She would be crushed, questioned, frowned upon. The female always get the raw end of the deal, always.

"How old is she Edward?" Carlisle growls.

"15" He breathes out, it is almost a choked sob of what he has been doing, what he has taken away from her.

"Shit" Carlisle whispers. "You need to break this off, move back here, take this job and pray to the lord this girl" He emphasizes the word 'girl' because she is not a woman. "Pray to whomever, that she doesn't speak a word of it"

Edward nods absentmindedly to himself, to his empty apartment.

"I know you, this isn't you, and you aren't a child rapist"

"It's not like that, it's so not like that between us" He shakes his head vehemently.

"I know, because I know you, you are my son, I know you must care for her, but you can't, it can't, you can't be"

"I know" He breathes out. He knows what his father is saying is true. He knows this in his heart as much as they are in tune with each other. Their lives are so out of tune it is insane.

"Edward you need to end this, if not for you, but for her"

And he knows this; he knows he is denying her, not giving her another option. She only knows him, nothing more. She doesn't know enough, hasn't experienced enough. It is unfair, it's cruel. He has to be strong for her, and let her go. And the hardest thing is to let her go and be away from her. She is so clearly his other half, the better part of himself.

June 20th 2008

Edward's 26th Birthday

"I got you something" Bella whispers. He has been off for the past few weeks. He won't say, just that he is fine. She isn't buying it, she hasn't being buying it. But she has let it go because being with him is euphoric, and the worry lines suddenly disappear from his face when they are together.

They just enjoy each other. And no matter what mood he is in when she gets to him, it turns around pretty fast when they start just talking to each other. Her hand strokes down his face.

It was his last class at Forks High School. He resigned a few months ago after he accepted the job offer in Boston. He asked the administration to keep it quiet. His last class with Bella, the last day of the school year. In September he will start teaching in Boston. He won't see her again, and it has been eating away at him. He will tell her tonight, he is leaving Monday, and having his things shipped, a company is coming in to pack his belongs. It will be like he never existed. If she is lucky she will forget and move on to do the amazing things he knows she is destine for.

Bella stares up at him. "Tell me what's wrong" She whispers pushing on her toes and rubbing his face and cheeks. Her thumb glides over his lips. "Hmm?"

"It's nothing" He cups her face and brings her mouth to his. "I love you, know that" He mutters into her mouth. Pulling back he moves to press his forehead hard against hers. "I love you" He whispers again.

Bella sighs and holds his sides. "You're scaring me, it's your birthday, can't we celebrate, relax, be together?"

Nodding he pulls back and looks down at her. "We can for tonight"

Frowning she shakes her head and smiles not understanding. "I got you a card" She smiles and moves away from him to go through her bag. Turning she hands it to him.

Edward smiles, it doesn't reach his eyes. He wants to do it right before he leaves so he doesn't have to see the heartbreak he will cause by prolonging his departure. A clean fast break.

Bella shifts and watches him read the card.

"I love you too Bella"

Smiling she shrugs a shoulder.

Edward rests the card on his coffee table and kisses her forehead.

"I also made your favorite" It was tough doing it when her dad was around. He is at the station tonight, and she is at Alice's…naturally. She made the lasagna for her and Alice's dinner. "No mushrooms" She carries it to the kitchen to heat in the oven slowly.

Edward stands and watches her move comfortably around. She fits right into his life. "Sounds great" His arms cross over his chest.

"Have you thought about if you're going away this summer, and when?" She doesn't want to seem pushy but she wants time with him, as much as she can get. The summer is the perfect chance.

"No, not really"

Bella eyes him and smiles, moving she touches his stomach before unfolding his arms. "Tell me" She begs kissing his chest. "I can feel something is wrong, is it me?" She wants him to tell her so they can get on with their evening. She bought something for him, to wear for him. She feels so much like a woman with him.

"No" Edward grips her cheeks. "Never, you are perfect" He whispers kissing her firmly on the mouth.

Moaning softly she runs her hands up his chest. "I want to" She breathes, her lips at his neck and her fingers tugging and pulling on his shirt.

"Dinner" He wants to talk to her. This is not the best thing to be doing tonight. But he is needy for her. He can't deny her, not this, not this last time.

"Dessert first" She laughs into his mouth grabbing him around his neck.

Edward groans and lifts her up; he sets her on the counter. "Bella"

"Yes?" She asks sweetly batting her eyelashes at him, overly just to make him smile.

He laughs forgetting everything besides this moment, these last moments with her. She looks so happy and full of life right now. It is uplifting having her here making his heart beat a little faster.

"We've done it before" She whispers pressing a few kisses to his panting lips. They are so warm and soft.

"Bella" He whispers, her hand is around his cock as she pumps slowly up and down his length. "We can't" She is wearing this amazing little underwear number. She is always exquisite, but tonight she is glorious.

"Edward, please" She loves feeling him bare inside of her. It happened before because it was such a heat of the moment, it happened so quickly. He was so upset with himself after. She loved it and she knows she shouldn't have, she should have been worried, but she wasn't. She has been on birth control since she was 13 - thanks Aunt Flow for being a harsh creature.

"No" He is standing firm with this. It happened twice, most recently last week, and he won't do it a third time with her. Risk her for a third time.

Bella looks at him through heavy eyes. Pushing on her toes and pumping him over and over she kisses under his jaw. "I love you, I want this"

Dropping his head he shakes it no.

She kisses down his chest. Feeling him inside of her, it is something she can't begin to explain. Feeling him inside of her bare and feeling him exploding head on is - she shudders with pleasure at the thought. Bodies, human bodies, the way they explore and love each other, is so amazing. They are like machines, real live beating heart machines. One touch can send a person over the edge; one look can bring someone to their knees. Love is huge; it is so much bigger than she is, than he is. But together it feels perfect, the perfect size for them.

He feels her take his cock and rub it up and down against her, between her labia lips. "Sweetheart, condom"

Edward thrusts into her slowly deliberately over and over, his hands and fingers are hooked with hers pressed on either side of her head. His forehead down against her own, his eyes are completely glued to hers. They move slow and steady in and with each other. He swallows her moans with kisses; eyes opened kisses, beating hearts kisses. All his love kisses.

"Yes" She moans softly. Her grip tightens on his hands holding hers. "I love you" She arches staring at him. The way she has her legs lifted over his everything is rubbing and feeling something. Bella keeps looking at him; it feels so different right now.

He thrusts into her one last time before collapsing on top of her.

Bella lies under him, her legs still tightly wound around his body, she is scared to let go. "Wow" She whispers.

Lifting his head that was dropped to her shoulder, he now stares down at her.

Her eyes find something new in his. Inevitability it's there, she sees it now. She couldn't place it before but he has never looked at her like this after they have made love before. She doesn't like it for a second. "No" She whispers.

He hasn't even pulled out of her.

"No"

"Bella, we need to talk" He feels her struggle against him and he lets her hands go. Rolling to the side he takes her with him. "Sh, sh, it's okay"

Bella clings to his chest and moans softly when he pulls out of her. Her legs drop and relax as she lies face to face. "What aren't you telling me, Edward please?"

His hands run up and down her back. "Let's clean up and talk, okay?"

Her eyes are wide and she nods her head slowly.

'I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it's just too much. The current's too strong. They've got to let go, drift apart.' The oven is out; he sits next to her on his couch. It is them, he knows this. They can hold on to each other as hard and as much as they want to. But in the end they have to let go. "I got a job offer in Boston for a September commencement"

His quote just said it all before he even told her. But hearing it still..."Wow" She swallows a thick lump in her throat. "It is what you have wanted, to have a teaching position in Boston, why you were here, to get the experience, to move forward" She knows this; they have talked about…everything.

Edward nods. "I have to take this job"

"Right, of course" Her face heats, with despair.

"Bella I never wanted to hurt you, I never came here looking for anything, you just happened and everything, everything about you is wonderful, was wonderful" Right now he doesn't know what to say, how to do this.

"You can stop" Bella forces a smile. She knew this, this isn't a shock, and this was going to come sooner or later. It doesn't stop the aching hole growing in her chest. Swallowing she knows she needs to leave and get out of here so she can break down alone.

"Listen" He grabs her hands. "What happened between us-"

"Edward" Bella pulls a hand away and touches his cheek, she tips her head and smiles sadly at him, his eyes are watery.

"Always the most level headed person in the room" He mutters. "I love you, but this can't happen, we can't happen and really the sooner we both accept it the easier it will be to move on"

Bella nods, she knows he is not being cruel. This would be easier if he hated her, if he was using her and she was angry. But she isn't, she's just sad and heartbroken. But she knows he is right. "I know" Her hand drops from his face and she looks at her lap, their fingers are linked. "I should go"

"I'm leaving Monday"

Her head shoots up.

"The sooner the better, start over, give you a chance to meet new people this summer, make new connections, live"

Bella licks her lips and nods. She doesn't trust her voice with anything right now.

"I can't give you what you deserve Bella, you know I can't and I want too but it" She deserves to be courted by someone her own age. She deserves to go to the movies with the boy she likes and hold his hand eating ice-cream. He can't give her any of that. Only these very precious stolen moments

"Shh" She presses her fingers to his lips; she can see how torn he is over this. "It's okay" She says strongly. "I'll be fine, I wish you all the best" She moves to stand. Her legs shaky. When she met him she had never felt anything like it. Now, she has never felt anything like this, this is torture. Her heart is breaking very slowly, her knees feel weak and the tears are threatening to pour from her eyes like the great flood.

Edward watches her. "Please" He doesn't even know why he is stopping her. It just feels so unfinished, everything, they didn't, they never had enough time. But there was never a chance to make it anymore. It can never be anymore.

Turning with her bag on her shoulder and forces a smile. Her shoulder slumped.

"I don't-I" He cups her face and shakes his head. "What do I say?"

Bella forces another smile. Her hands rest on top of his as he holds onto her face. "We say goodbye I guess"

Edward presses his forehead against hers.

Her hands rest on his hips. "I should go"

"Let me drive you, its late" He sniffs letting her go because she has stepped away from him again.

"No" She shakes her head. "It's best if I just walk"

"Bella it's late and dark"

"I'm okay" She gives him a half smile. "Take care of yourself Mr. Cullen"

He watches her walk out of his life.

It took so long because I didn't want to do it!

Someone asked about it in a review, and I did answer them. So this is how its gonna roll now:

Chapter 14 I planned on doing the whole pregnancy, birth & baby key moments

Chapter 15 Lead up and Prologue

BUT since I think I want to do a bit of high school with Bella pregnant Prologue might be Chapter 16

We shall see how it goes but that is the skeleton.