A/N: IMPORTANTIMPORTANTIMPORTANT:
Edward behaves like a total douchebag in this chapter. DON'T WORRY! IT'S GONNA BECOME OKAY THE NEXT CHAPTER! I HAVE AN AWESOME PLAN! It involves Avatar... This is also the last chapter written by Saar, I will go on from now on.
Disclaimer: Did you seriously think I own Twilight? Nah, didn't think so either.
Previously:
I used not to care about those things, but that was because he used to do little things every day. That's why I really hoped he hadn't forgotten our anniversary. I certainly hadn't.
Chapter Thirteen
Happy Anniversary
[[EPOV]]
I just couldn't believe it. How could she do this to me? Misery filled my whole cold dead body. It had been like that since she had come to kiss me goodnight yesterday evening. That smell. It had come of her in obnoxious waves, hiding her own sweet smell. Wet dogs. I knew I shouldn't have believed her when she said Jacob was just a friend. I had known better. But I was so in love, that I would believe anything that meant she'd be mine, and mine alone. Naïve.
I sighed. My broken heart was silent. I know it had been since I turned, but it was silent in another way. It was sad. Silently crying in a corner, hiding from the truth. I was in a similar mood. Except I couldn't cry, which made me only more grumpy. For some reason, I became extremely edgy when I was sad. Jasper, who had been very relieved my moods had improved, had walked into my room this morning. I had expected him to be mad, or disappointed, because my moods ruined his day. But he wasn't. The contrary even, he was grinning. He came to stand next to me. And said, breaking my miserable silence, 'You know, your mood swings are kinda giving me a whiplash.' I had hit him in the face as hard as I could. 'Ow.. Edgy much?' He said. He ducked away for my next strike, and ran away. High-fiving Emmett, who was laughing in the doorway. I hadn't chased him, but returned to my grief.
I silently listened to a conversation my family was holding. 'I wonder what's wrong. The poor boy needs support, we should go and comfort him.' Esme, obviously. 'Are you kidding me? He's being pathetic! He ain't a poor boy, he is a creepy little emo!' Jasper. Emmett didn't laugh, which meant this was one of the rare moments he was thinking. 'What's wrong with him anyway?' Yes, he was thinking indeed. 'Bella, obviously. Is he ever upset about anything but her? It's his own darn fault. The arsehole left her himself. She didn't ask him to become all tortured.' Jasper, again. A low thud sounded. 'Ow, Alice!' I could her the grin in his voice though. I blocked the conversation out. And listened to Claire De Lune on my stereo. To make everything worse, I had the gnawing feeling that I had forgotten something.
I was lying on my bed. And for the first time since I changed, I wished I could sleep. I was not entirely awake though. My brain played the same images in all kinds of variations on my closed eyelids. My Bella hugging Jacob. My Bella kissing Jacob. My Bella marrying Jacob. My Bella's honeymoon night with Jacob. My Bella pregnant from Jacob. My Bella laughing with a child with pitch black hair in her arms. I couldn't blame her though. What was I thinking? That she'd stay forever with me? Young girls don't like walking corpses! I suddenly felt very angry, and started throwing everything around. Out of the window. Breaking everything, except her picture. I was angry at everyone. Fuck the world! I didn't need anyone. Especially not her! The sadness didn't fade, but is was overpowered by the overwhelming anger I felt.
The door bell rang. I could smell the sweet smell, with still a hint of that dog. How did she have the nerve to come here, if she only wanted that stupid muscled scum of a Jacob Black! 'Bella!' Even my own sister betrayed me. I couldn't see clear through my vision of anger. The love and sadness in the back of my head warned me. They tried to crawl forward. But failed. 'Hi Alice! Is Edward 'round?' I growled at the sound of the voice I actually loved more than my own life. But my anger shut everything else down. I knew somewhere I was making a huge mistake when I stormed downstairs. I didn't need breath, but I was panting anyway. Angry deep long breaths. Bella smiled at me. Oblivious to my anger. 'Hey honey.' She said. She sounded shy for some weird reason. In the back of my head I knew it had something to do with the thing I forgot. And then I snapped.
[[BPOV]]
'How dare you call me honey! All you need is your filthy dog! Go ahead! LEAVE! Go call him honey! You thought you could just cheat on me without me noticing! HA! You're so dumb and stupid and naïve!' He yelled the words. Spit them out with venom. He had meant it when he had said he didn't love me anymore. The whole coming back thing was just a show. Just something to break my heart even harder. Tears welled up in my eye corners. The love of my life just called me stupid. 'Edward, I.. I don't understand. What are you talking about?' I whispered. My voice didn't go louder than that. 'What am I talking about? You ask me? You know FUCKING well what I am talking about, bitch! I am talking about Jacob Black! His smell was ALL over you when you came here yesterday!' He thought that I had cheated on him? I became angry. He didn't trust me. 'For your information, I was at a Quileute bonfire yesterday. And I didn't do anything with Jake. Like I told you before, he's just a friend. And I can't believe you don't trust me. You are the one that left. While I was broken hearted. If you still don't believe me, there are twenty people that can confirm my story. The chance of me ever cheating on you, is about as big as the chance that orange will ever come into fashion.' I kept my voice calm. Alice looked horrified. 'It won't. Orange will never ever come into fashion. I'll make sure of that.'
Edward's face became extremely sorry, and horrified at himself. I clenched the present in my pocket. I had spent almost an hour on wrapping it. And I spent months and a lot of money on getting the present itself ready. I begged in my head that he hadn't forgotten our anniversary. 'Anything else to say?' I asked him. Still unreal calm. Inside my heart was ripping itself in pieces. Inside I was crying like hell. 'I'm so sorry..' He whispered. Looking at his shoes. I didn't let him finish. 'Anything else to say, I asked.' He didn't understand it. My heart died at that very moment. His confused expression stayed. I waited one minute. Two minutes. When he still didn't answer halfway the third. I spoke. 'Okay. Well then, I'll go now, like you asked.' I walked away, when I opened the front door, I turned my head. I placed the present on the little coffee table next to the door. 'Happy anniversary.' I whispered, before I closed the door behind me.
[[APOV]]
It was official. My brother was a complete crazy fucking idiot. 'What the fuck Edward? What was that for? Congrats bro! You just scared away the love of your life. I wouldn't even mind that as much if she weren't my BEST friend!' My whole family stared at Edward. Esme stared at the door. 'My daughter.' She whispered. Carlisle just stared at Edward, disappointed. Emmett was only not crying, because he couldn't. Stupid vampirism. Rosalie tried to comfort Emmett, while he kept repeating 'My little sis.' Once in a while, she shot a deadly glare Edward's way. Jasper was… murderous.
He growled at Edward. 'FUCK YOU, YOU EMO! SHE WAS PREPARED TO GIVE MY SORRY ASS A SECOND CHANCE, AND YOU DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT? YOU DON'T DESERVE HER! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! AND NOW YOU'RE PROBABLY GONNA DROWN IN SELF MISERY AGAIN! KNOW WHAT? IT IS YOUR FAULT! IT WAS BOTH TIMES! STOP BEING SO UNBELIEVABLY SELFISH YOU BASTARD!' He punched Edward in the face, he fell down, and then left.
[[JasperPOV]]
I slammed the door behind me. My anger melted. Suddenly I knew I had to find Bella. I had to do something. I followed her scent, and found her pretty quickly. She was leaning against a tree. 'Hey Jasper.' She smiled weakly. A few flowers were blooming around her. I sat next to her. 'Hey.' I said. We sat there for a while. Ten her lips started to tremble terribly. She started crying and snuggled into my chest. I hugged her body. Even though she'd grown, she was still tiny to me. 'I don't… I never deserved him.' She cried. I grabbed her shoulders, and tilted her head by her chin with the other hand. 'Bella, you are worth everyone on the world. It's that dick of a brother of mine who doesn't deserve you. I made that pretty clear to him.' I said. She chuckled through her tears. 'I know, super hearing, remember?' She traced one of the scars on my arm. 'You know, I never asked you how you got those scars.' I grimaced for a second. But she looked at me so expectantly that I started to tell her my story. I told her about my change, about Maria, about Peter and Charlotte, about the wars I fought, about Alice. I told her everything.
'That's quite a story you got there.' She said, admiration dripping through her voice. I smiled. 'Thanks. Now what was that present you dropped at the coffee table? I'm pretty curious.' 'Oh that. Nothing.' She mumbled. Aha. This meant it was something extremely awesome. 'Seriously? Think I'll buy that? C'mon, I just told you my whole life story. Tell me.' She sighed. 'It was an iPod. But not just any iPod, I made the design myself. I recorded all his favourite songs, singing them myself. Playing the piano myself. In total, there are 138 songs on there. All of them with a clip of me singing them. I also put on two other videos; One of me congratulating him with our anniversary, and Avatar. I adore that movie so much. I saw it sixteen times already. Pandora is so beautiful. The earth is so pure and beautiful. I wish I lived there.' She said, the nymph in her speaking. Exited. Then her face went sad again. 'I can't believe he forgot.' She shook her head. My jaw was on the ground. She designed an iPod for him? She sang 138 songs for him? And the son of a bitch forgot? 'Wow. Bella, that's the best present ever. I'll make sure the asshole's gonna pay.' She looked at me. 'Jasper, does he love me? No lies.' She asked. I didn't hesitate. 'Yeah. He does. And I can't believe you love his sorry ass as well.'
[[EPOV]]
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
Did I mention I hate myself? Jasper was right. I was so extremely selfish. I sat on the couch. The wrapped present was lying in my lap. Alice was angry with me. Very angry. But also wanted me to open the present. Open it already! She shouted in her thoughts. I carefully opened the package. In it, was a most stunning iPod video. The front was black, but the circle with the icons on it was blue. On the back, the Cullen crest was engraved, in the same blue. Under it was a little text in that colour. We're together for the first year of forever. I love you, Bella. In a beautiful handwriting that must've taken her ages. I turned it on. There were already 140 videos on it. One in a map labelled 'Introduction', one in 'Movies' And 138 in the map called 'Music'. I couldn't believe she did something like this. I wondered what 'Introduction' would be and selected the movie in it. Her beautiful face appeared on the screen. She started to talk. My whole family was huffing in my neck, watching along. Except for Emmett, who wouldn't even do as much as look at me.
Hi Edward! Congrats with us! We've lasted a year. Well, I'm counting our little… break along. But that's alright. I hope you like this iPod. I made the design myself! As you'll see, I did a lot more myself. Except for Avatar, of course. I don't own that one, sadly. I know we'll stay together until… Nope. No until. Just forever. My love's that strong! Hope you like the present, can't wait to see yours! Love, your Bella.
I roared in misery. My eyes couldn't tear, but I could cry without tears. My whole body shook. Emmett slapped me in the face. 'Shut the fuck up. You know very well it was your own fault.' He was still mad at me, his voice was emotionless. I opened the map music. Only to see all my favourite songs sung by my favourite person. Oh hell I screwed up. But self-pity wasn't gonna help me now. I had to face my mistakes, and take care of them. I had to do something really epic for Bella. Something awesome. Something that could make up for this. And then beg for forgiveness.
And I had a plan.
A/N: I know you hate me for this. BUTBUTBUT: I thought it had to go worse before it turns okay. I thought it'd be weird if Bella'd just forgive Eddie like that. Edward is gonna do the MOST romantic thing EVER. Next chapter. Bella WILL forgive him. NO WORRIES, really EVERYTHING WILL BECOME OKAY! After this bad thing, everything will be BETTER than it was! Review if you liked it, review if you hated it. Love you all! Ayla Please review! 4 reviews and thirteen chapters? Come on! You can do better than that! I will try harder if you review more often...(I know, mean)