As a note for this chapter I just wanted to say that I have no idea how the thing with Godparents and whatever is went through- I know a tiiiiny little bit- well- from the last Harry Potter book but that's it. But I can guess some things and another thing is that I could actually portray Burt and Carole and Emma and Will be really great friends. I don't know why but I believe they're kind of closer than we get to see in the series so… onto the chapter, I hope you like it

N is for Names

"Okay," Burt said in the phone and the way he looked to me when he was on his way to say goodbye to whoever he had been talking on the phone to the last half hour- it made me even more curious about who it was and what they were talking about- because even though I had only come into his office a minute ago- it felt like I had waited a lifetime for what was making Burt so excited he was almost jumping in his chair. "Okay… bye Will." First on the goodbye I heard who Burt was talking to as he hung up and put his phone down- it was almost me who was jumping where I sat.

I just knew the call was to tell something about the baby of Will and Emma, and seeing the look on Burt's face confirmed it- for him seeing the look on mine must have told him how sneaky I was because he turned back to his computer. "Oh come on Burt." I moaned. "What did he say?" Burt spun around in his chair, stood up and walked across the room and sat down by me.

"That was Will Schuester…" Okay- now I was really jumping where I sat! "And he told me that the other night Emma gave birth to a beautiful and perfectly healthy baby boy." I felt a smile form on my lips- a smile of that kind that had gotten way too uncommon the last few months- actually this would be one of the first since…. I shook my head- not think about that now Carole! This moment isn't about you!

"Carole?" Burt raised an eyebrow at me. "Honey?" I was pulled back to reality and shook my head. "Oh yeah, finally… are you alright?" I nodded. "Well… he said they wanted us to come over to talk about something- they're still at the hospital but… we made up and we…. We're going there tomorrow. So well… I'd go out and well… what is it out do? Fix the little boy something as a welcome to the world present and so…." I nodded. "But I'm not very good at that stuff… and stores close in…" Burt glanced to his watch. "An hour… do I know anyone who's better than me at that stuff?" I sighed and shook my head.

"I don't need to buy anything- I've got a box with loads of Finn's old things in the attic- I'll go get it. I'm sure there's something there we can give away." I stood up and walked up to the attic- I knew where the box was so only a minute later I climbed down the latter again and walked out in our bedroom where Burt sat on his side of the bed, I put the box in the middle of the bed, sat down on my side and opened it.

"Well…" I pulled out a body suit with the print reading "Someone tell my parents I'm the boss" and then bit my lip. "My Christopher had a… love for shirts with funny prints- he passed it onto Finn as well." I sighed and shook my head. "So at least we won't be giving the Schuester's anything they've already got." I put the first body- suit down and reached for another one.

"Eat, sleep, poop, repeat" Burt read out loud from another one and then frowned. "So was this when he was a baby? Because when I met him eat, sleep and poop was still everything of what he was do… WHOA" Burt ducked for the book I threw at him. "Sorry honey… just kidding." I shook my head at him.

"You're such a jerk"

"Whatever you say honey!" I glared at him and pulled out another baby body suit to change the subject, this one was just a plain- green one so I put it to the side and continued searching through the box, pulling out another few bodies- geez- how many of these had we actually had?- before I pulled out one white with a blue cross on the front and another one over the full back- like the Finnish flag.

"I'm so awesome I'm almost Finnish" Burt read out loud when I held it up to him- hoping that he would get the joke. "Finn- ish" Burt raised an eyebrow at mine and Chris's stupid humor. "Haha, very funny." I grabbed a paper that laid on my bedside table and made it into a ball that I threw at him. "Hey" I smirked at him.

"That was for the irony- and if you do it again- the only things that are still on my bedside table is a glass of- cold- water and a lamp so I'd tell you to be nice from now on." Burt smirked back at me and turned to the box again, but he seemed to be thinking of something. "What is it?" Burt frowned in a way that made me believe that another one of his jokes was coming up but instead he asked me where we had gotten the name Finn from—if it had been short for something or anything.

I sighed and couldn't help to let hear a short laugh. "Okay- you asked… well… the explanation is pretty simple. Christopher found out about the pregnancy at our first vacation together- in Finland. Christopher had a fix idea about naming the child Finn if it was a boy and at first I hated the name- but then the more I thought about it the nicer it seemed to be and as a last shot- even though I had told him I didn't like it- when I held Finn for like the hundredth time- and we were again thinking about names- Christopher said he looked like Finn and…. He did!" I smiled at the memory and took a sip from the glass on my bedside table- holding onto the glass just in case Burt would come with some stupid comment again- because even though I would never actually soak him it would be great as a threat to have him shut up.

But Burt didn't come with a comment, in fact he didn't say anything for several seconds. "He was a special man wasn't he? Christopher I mean." I nodded- yes of course he was- why would Burt think otherwise? I folded the body suit with the Finnish flag and laid it to the side. "What about this one?" Burt held up a small T- shirt with a print of a moon and stars and the text "Does mummy look like I sleep through the night?"

"Yeah. We can give them that." I laid it to the side. "I'll wash what we're going to give them tonight. Well… this is just so…. Will! I think we'd better give it to them." I held up a black body suit with a print of two pictures of ice cubes and one picture of a baby, the text under read "Ice Ice baby" Burt let hear a soft chuckle and agreed with me.

At last we decided on that T- shirt and body suit, and another body suits that had arrows pointing to every opening for arms and legs and text "Arm" or "leg" by every arrow and then in the middle "Dad you can do this" and I had a good laugh about Burt pretending a book was a baby to try and see if he could guess what parts of the body suit was right- ending up putting it upside down, inside out and back and forth- on purpose of course.

"Since when are you so silly." I found a soft ball that had been one of the first toys we had bought to Finn and threw it at Burt. He laughed and threw the ball back at me.

"Me? What about you?" I smiled slightly, but wasn't with him enough to answer him, when I lifted up the ball it had revealed a pair of small shoes, I lifted them two up and put the other one by me at the bed as I carefully just held the first one and twisted and turned it to see every little piece of them while memories of the day I had gotten them for Finn flashed by.

Flashback

"Look mummy." Finn at three years old looked at me where I stood by a table on a flea market and almost jumped with excitement. "She over there- she's selling these shoes." He pointed to the woman standing by the table. "And they're really nice and they haven't got laces so I can take them on myself. Please can I have them? Please mummy?" Finn tucked his under lip out and laid his head to the side- looking at me with his best puppy- eyes.

I kneeled down and pressed by the toe of the sneakers- there were a bit too big for Finn so he'd have something to grow in and it would actually be a little while until I had to buy him new shoes- again. But then I checked the prize- and counted the cash in my wallet- even though I knew already before I did that I wouldn't be able to buy him these shoes.

"I'm sorry Finn." I put the wallet back in my pocket. "I just can't buy you these." Finn hung his head. "I know you want them Finn- I want to buy them for you too, but I can't." Finn gave me his best sad look and it made me want to just grab these shoes and walk away with them without paying. But of course I couldn't.

"But I really like them mummy." I nodded, I knew he did- I did too. But buying shoes that were as good as new wasn't cheap and I really couldn't buy them for him. "I wish daddy was here." Finn looked up again, "He'd buy them for me." He pouted and looked back to his feet. I shut my eyes closed still holding onto Finn's hand, fighting the tears away.

It had been two months since we had received the news that Christopher had died, his body shutting down by drugs running through his vessels in a hotel room in Cincinnati. It had been more than two months since I had seen him last and begged him to stop with what was tearing him down so badly once and for all.

And it had been almost two months since I and Finn stood in the church- his small hand in my bigger, dressed in black and white and looking towards the urn that stood by the altar and had what was left of what was left of my husband and Finn's dad- it had been two months- but it could have been just yesterday- because I still had no idea of what to do either with myself or with Finn.

It had been hard with money already before Christopher died- but now I really need to twist and turn every dime to make the money last until the end of the month- I was alright. I could wear the same clothes countless times over and over again, live on noodles and hard bred when the money wasn't enough to buy proper food for the both of us and save on what I could and needed to make things last longer.

But then there was Finn! He was still growing- and how he was growing! It felt like I had to throw away most of his clothes and sell the rest and then buy him new ones about every other day. He was also eating me out of the house and I just didn't have the heart to have him save on what he could as well- wanted him to live happily unknowing of how I would sit up every night and count out what I had paid for and what was left to pay for and how I could make it work.

"Finn" I took my son's over- arms in my hands and looked him sternly right into the eyes. "I know you really want these shoes- I want to buy them too and I know you need them. But I can't….. do you get what I'm saying?" Finn nodded. "Okay, do you want to take that shoe off and then give me a hug and a kiss then?" Finn nodded again and pulled off the shoe before I placed them back at the table and then let my son embrace me while I embraced him back.

"I love you Finn." I said. "You know that's what most important do you? " Finn nodded towards my shoulder. Then leaned a bit back and placed a wet kiss on my cheek.

"I love you too mummy." I bent down and helped him get on his own shoe, where I was a miracle the sole was still hanging onto the rest of the shoe, and I tied it and then took Finn's hand in mine and walked away. I didn't notice the bald, green eyed man that- just as I and Finn left ran up and paid for the shoes and then came running after.

"Hey… ma'am. I…" He jumped out in front of me to catch my attention. "I'm sorry I couldn't… I couldn't help to hear the conversation between you and your son and… I…" He reached me the shoes. "I think you should have them." I looked to the shoes as if I had forgotten how to stretch out my hand and take them.

"I- I- I can't." I started searching my pockets for my wallet but the man shook his head.

"These are on me- and just take them." My chin dropped and I looked from the man, to the shoes, back to the man and then back to the shoes over and over again. I didn't say thank you I didn't say nothing- but Finn jumped away from me and threw his arms around the man's legs speaking his thank you's what must have been at least a thousand times.

"Thank you sir, thank you, thank you sir, thank you, thank you…" Finn continued, and then ripped the shoes out of the man's hands and sat down on the ground to pull his shoes off and then pulled on his new ones- and I was still speechless.

"I… I couldn't thank you enough." I shook the man's hand while Finn danced his silly little dance around us. "You have no idea how much this means." The man smiled.

"Just seeing your reaction- and- Finn's reaction is enough." I could guess the man had caught Finn's name while I was talking to Finn earlier. "And… well whatever your name is…" I wasn't even enough there to be polite enough to tell him what it was. "Finn's mum… I hope they come in handy." The man pulled on a peaked cap he had been holding in his hand and started walking away while I slowly realized what he had said.

"It's Carole." I said before the man had walked too far away to realize I was talking to him, he turned around and slightly touched the front of the peak of his cap.

"Nice to meet you Carole- I'm Burt."

End of flashback

"Holey moley" I said staring out in the air barely noticing that I was staring like crazy at Burt. "Burt!" Burt looked up from some body suit he was folding to put back in the box. He frowned when he saw the look at my face and came to sit down by me and placed a hand on my back. I turned my head and when I looked him into the eyes I couldn't for my life imagine why I hadn't remembered him from the flea market before.

"What is it honey?" Without answering I laid my hand against his cheek and then kissed him before I hugged him tightly. "Not that I'm complaining, but what is this for?" I hugged even tighter and with tears rising in my eyes- with me being a bit too overwhelmed from everything that had turned up all at once.

"Burt?"

"That's my name!"

"Thank you." I scooted backwards and lifted up one of the shoes and looked down on it again, ignoring Burt's question about what I was so thankful for. "I can't give these away." I carefully placed the shoes back in the box. "It will be years until he's big enough to wear them at all and I…. They just have too many memories…. Maybe in a few years but… not now." Burt laid his arm around my shoulders and kissed the top of my head. "I love you so much." I whispered turned my head and rested the side of my head towards Burt's shoulder.

"I love you too honey." Burt parked the car just as he answered my statement the next day and I lifted up the wrapped present holding the body suits and the T- shirt to the little one before we both stepped out of the car and walked up towards the hospital and the NICU. We had gotten the number of the room and hallway over the phone from Will and I knew the corridors of this hospital- where I worked at the ground floor in the emergency room- better than my own pocket.

And even though I knew every stair, every floor and every hallway it felt like I had walked through a thousand different corridors before I knocked the door to room number one- fifteen in the NICU and then pushed it open. Emma was currently alone in the room, a crib stood there too, as well as one bunk for Will or Emma. Two arm chairs stood by the window and in one of them Emma sat and looked out the window- I doubted she had even noticed we were there- she seemed far away in her own thoughts.

"Emma?" I spoke, and not until she flinched and looked up I realized she had been sleeping. "Oh, I'm sorry honey." Emma shook her head and pushed her hair away from her face before she took a deep breath and then looked up at me, even though it seemed like it took her a few seconds to orient herself and notice what was going on.

"It's okay" She said tiredly. "Hello." She smiled up at me and Burt. "They needed to do some tests on our son, Will went with him. He'll be back any minute." Just as Emma had said that- as on a given signal the door opened and Will came in with the baby lying on his arm, he mostly looked tired but he lit up and smiled when he saw us.

"Hey…" He said in almost a whisper not to wake the baby up. "I'm so happy you could come… How are you guys?"

"Well…" I started- after Finn died- I just wasn't able to say good. "Better and better for each day." I smiled slightly at him and shoved my empty hand in my pocket not to give out that my hands were shaking from all the feelings inside of me. "We… we brought you these…. Their hand- me- downs but hopefully they'll do anyway." I handed the wrapped present over to Will that had just laid the baby in his mum's arms.

"Oh… you shouldn't have!" Will smiled and hugged me with one arm while he took the parcel with the other and then shook hands with Burt. "Oh come on, come here." Will held his arm out and hugged Burt too. "Thank you guys- Well come here." He laid the present in the window seal and took a two chairs that stood by the wall and moved them over to the other end of the room where the two arm chairs stood by the window and nodded to them while he sat down in the empty arm chair himself. "Sit down."

Burt kept a hand on my shoulder while I and him slowly walked across the floor and sat down in each chair just as Will pulled off the tape from the parcel and folded away the colorful paper. "Oh this is great." He held up the T- shirt in front of him. "Look Em'" He turned it so Emma could see. "Does mummy look like I sleep through the night?" Will read, Emma, that seemed a bit more alert than what she had done earlier but still very tired smiled at it just as Will seemed to remember something and folded the T- shirt again.

"I- I was going to start right away but… but the lack of sleep makes you forget things for a bit." Will rubbed his eyes and let hear a short chuckle. "But… we wanted you to come here because… we have been thinking about names… and we agreed on…" Will cleared his throat. "We agreed on Daniel for his first name, but we had an idea for his middle name… Carole… of course- if you wouldn't like the idea of it we'll drop it but since you're the closest to ask then… then we'd like to get your permission to name him Daniel Finn."

I couldn't help but to pull for my breath and gripped tighter around Burt's hand. "Ehrm…" I cleared my throat. "I don't need to give my permission to that if you want that but… if you think I do then…. Then I would really think that Finn had been honored… and of course… I guess I could say that I would be honored too."

"Well…" Will smiled tiredly just as Daniel seemed to start waking up in his mother's arms. "Daniel Finn it is. Do you want me to take him Emma?" Daniel started whimpering waking up. Emma shook her head and stood up, then walked out in the hallway. Will looked to them tiredly along until the door had closed behind them, and then rested his head back towards the chair. While he laid his hands towards either sides of his forehead.

"I never knew you could love somebody this much." He said. "And I never knew… Never knew I could feel something like this. I'm just… wow!" He let hear a short laugh and laid a harm over his eyes. "We just haven't got a lot of sleeping the last week." Will lowered his hands and shoved them in his pockets. "Well I guess you guys know…"

"Oh… maybe I should let you know that as well." Will started talking after staying silent for a little while. "We're here because… Well as you probably know Daniel's a bit premature- he won't eat, he's been having icterus and they say he's got a heart murmur… Sorry I didn't mean to spill that all on you- well- they've all agreed on the fact that it's nothing to worry about but… couldn't help but worry right." He cleared his throat, I let go of Burt's hand and leaned forward and reached for Will's hand.

"Will…" I spoke. "Loads of children are born premature and they often can't eat because the sucking- reflex that babies have isn't fully developed when they're born too soon. And loads and loads of children get icterus and heart murmurs as new born's. I'm sure it's nothing to worry about and especially if the doctors says so too. So you just try and concentrate on Daniel and taking the most out of every moment yeah?" Will smiled and nodded, but at this point almost seemed more asleep than awake- and I had an idea. "Hey Will… I and Burt could stay here for a few hours, you and Emma go home and eat, shower and get some sleep okay honey?"

Only from the look of William Schuester's face I could tell how much he was struggling with what to answer. "I… It's a kind offer but… I… I didn't mean to be a bother." I shushed on him- he was never a bother and I wouldn't have given him that offer if it was something I didn't want to do. "I…" He let hear a short laugh again. "I… I will talk to Emma about it… I don't know."

I squeezed Will's hand and then let go of it, Will placed his hands back on the arm supports of the chair and sat like that with his head rested backwards, all until the door opened and Emma came back into the room. "He's still awake." She spoke. "But at least he's calm now." She went over and sat down in the same spot as earlier. "Do you want to hold him for a little while?" I had been sitting lost in my own thoughts for a minute and didn't get the question was for me at first. "Carole?" I looked up when she spoke to me and went back to memorize what the question had been.

"Her… what? Me? I… I don't know. Are you sure?"

"We just want to check something, come on now, we wouldn't let you if we weren't a hundred percent sure you'd take good care of him. Just continue to cradle him so he doesn't get grumpy again." I held out my arms to carefully support Daniel's head with my hand and his body with the other arm, he was looking around, and for just a split second his eyes met mine.

I knew that all newborn babies had blue eyes, I knew that they seemed big on the small head, and that they seemed far apart and crossed- eyed. But what I didn't know was just that Daniel's eyes would look so exactly like Finn's had done when he was a new born to later change into their permanent chocolate brown color.

"Hey" I spoke to him in that light, silly voice you use for small children. "You're such a beautiful little boy aren't you? Oh yes you are!" I silent, and even though Will was telling Emma about what I had asked him to be the room seemed absolutely silent as I just sat there and cradled the baby in my arms- like I had cradled my baby all those years ago.

"Carole!" I looked up when Burt spoke my name. "Honey you need to breathe." With all the emotions that came into the limelight in a place like this I hadn't realized that my breathing had gone short and shallow, almost forced. "I'm serious, I don't want you fainting on us." I nodded and concentrated as much as I could without stopping to concentrate on the baby on breathing.

And with everything that was going on I didn't notice how Emma and Will looked to each other and nodded as if they agreed on something, and then looked back at us. "Burt, Carole." Emma said as if she had something really important to say. "I and Will have been discussing some different people and of course… if something happened to us we'd want Daniel to be with someone who really loved him and could take care of him like we would…" She looked over to Will who continued.

"And that is why we'd like to ask you two if you two would make us all the honor of being godparents." He silent, I barely knew what I was saying or doing, but I heard myself stutter something and Will shot up and carefully lifted the baby from my arms. "Carole? Are you alright?" I barely heard his question, the thoughts were just spinning in my head too much for me to think clear.

"I…" When the thoughts started clearing up I could finally clear it out enough to know what I was saying I spoke again. "I… we… we would be honored but are you… are you sure?" I couldn't help to feel scared- if something happened and we were put to raise Daniel- what happened if I failed again? What happened if a problem turned out and I chose not to see it until it had gone too far? What if…

"Yeah I mean… we have gone through some of our friends and family and… we really can't see any better option. You two- you have raised each amazing boy and two of the most fantastic people I've met- and you two I mean… I mean you're just…" Will let hear another short laugh. "… you!" If something happened to us then what would be most important was that we'd know Daniel was safe… and if we knew you'd be the ones to take care of him- then we'd never have to worry." He took a deep breath. "And as well… we wanted to see you and him so… I guess we could almost just hear it click between you two." He laughed slightly again

The room fell silent again and I looked to Burt. "Well…. If you want a while to decide and just spend just you and him then we agreed on… that it would probably be the best for both us and Daniel if we maybe went home and… slept at least." Will rubbed his eyes. "So if you're sure it's not a bother then… then you could get to stay with Daniel today"

I couldn't help but smile. "Okay… that was enough of an answer. Ehrm… they should come around, around one and feed him through the hoses whatever it's called. You've got everything you might need in that bag," he pointed. "If not then you can just ask some of the staff… and you've both got our numbers so just call if there is anything at all I mean it! Call right away if something happens." Will stood up, carefully laid Daniel in my arms again and then pulled his jacket on and then helped Emma with closing hers- poor thing was so tired she couldn't steer her fingers enough to close the zipper- and that she could keep standing was a miracle.

"I mean it, don't hesitate to call!" Will said and then hurried after his wife just as Burt noticed something lying in the window seal, he stood up and got it, speaking Will's name to catch his attention as he held up the car keys. "Oh of course, I was just checking if you would… notice." Will took the keys and walked towards the door again. "Okay, have a good day, morning evening- God I don't even know what it is anymore… I'm so tired I don't remember my name…" Will stood with his back against us but turned his head. "What is my name?"

"Gaylord!" Burt half- shouted. Will smirked.

"Oh yeah that's it… merry Christmas, easter… summer, Halloween- whatever!"

"And your last name is Albert" Burt continued. "Have a nice Hanukkah Gaylord- Mr. Albert!"

Oh my! Poor Will! I didn't really know how I would make Will and Emma let Burt and Carole stay with Daniel for the day but I think it turned out good.