Chapter 13: The Morning After
"If I fell in love with you
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
'cause I've been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands"
If I Fell - The Beatles
After Jared had slipped the ring onto Jensen's finger, they had dissolved into feral kisses and heated touches. They managed to make it to Jared's old bedroom and Jensen was vaguely thankful that no one happened to be coming up the stairs when they were making their way there.
Jared's old room held so many memories of before he was a big-time piece of star power and some part of Jensen told him to check out the room if he had the time to.
Jared closed the door with Jensen's body and deepened the kiss that they were sharing. Jensen responded by reaching up and running his fingers through Jared's hair, moaning quietly as Jared's body closed the space between them. Jared's tongue brushed Jensen's lips, asking for entrance which Jensen gave. He opened his mouth and Jared explored Jensen's mouth, teasing his tongue with his.
Jensen tugged at Jared's shirt a little and Jared's brain suddenly came on and he let up, earning a sad moan and pout. "What wrong?" Jensen asked and Jared looked down at the shorter man with a studying gaze. "Are you sure?" he asked and Jensen took a moment to process that question. He smiled up at Jared, heart spilling over with love. "I'm sure, Jay… I want to," he said and Jared leaned down, touching his forehead to Jensen's and said quietly, "I love you, Jen," which Jensen returned.
Jared tilted Jensen's head up a little and resumed kissing him but Jensen suddenly let go of Jared lips. "Jay…" he said, realizing something, "Jay, d-don't… don't judge me by the scars," he said, swallowing slightly but Jared reaffirmed him with a kiss on his forehead. "Jen, I fell for everything you have. You mind, your heart, your smile and your scars. They're a part of you albeit a terrible past, but Jen… I'm here now; and I'll never hurt you," Jared said and Jensen chuckled but placed a hand on Jared's chest, right over his heart. "I know," he said and slowly pushed Jared back until Jared stumbled and fell onto the bed. Jensen slowly went on top of him and straddled his hips. Somewhere in the back of his mind, the Jensen that had been a slave to sex for so many years perked his head up, thinking that he was back there, but Jensen told it to shut up and sit down.
Slowly Jared brought Jensen's head down and he kissed him with such passion that Jensen was sure the bed was going to catch fire. Jared flipped them over suddenly and Jensen grunted a little as his back hit the bed and then Jared was on top of him, kissing his neck and biting a little. Jensen closed his eyes and turned his head to give Jared more room and Jared responded by catching a piece of skin and biting down, leaving his mark there. His mark, Jensen thought and he opened his eyes when he felt the warm body leave him. Jared was hovering over him and he slowly took off his shirt. Jensen's breath caught as he saw the miles of skin and muscle under there. Long had he imagined this happening and now it really was.
Jared went back down, but instead of kissing Jensen's lips, he went close to Jensen's ear and whispered, "I'll make you feel good," which made a shiver of pure ecstasy run down Jensen's back. Jared put a hand on Jensen's waist and went down to just above the waist band of Jensen's jeans. Ever so slowly, Jared slid Jensen's shirt up, kissing each part of him; from Jensen's happy trail to his chest. As he went up Jensen's body, his kisses lingered on the raised bumps and soft lines that littered Jensen's body. Each time Jared's lips went onto one of those spots, Jensen felt a jolt of electricity course through his body. It felt as though each memory of his past was being taken by Jared and thrown right out the window.
Soon Jensen's shirt was on the floor and although Jared had already seen most of Jensen's upper body, Jensen still managed to blush as Jared's hands caressed him and he found Jared's lips again. His hands went around Jared's back and pulled him close. Jensen was suddenly acutely aware that there was a giant bulge in Jared's pants pressing down on him and a moan of want sounded from him, at the same time, he filled out and Jared's smile widened into the kiss. Jensen unconsciously rocked up into Jared's hips, causing a guttural groan come from Jared.
Jensen congratulated himself for being able to do that to Jared but Jared quickly got him back for that one, finding one of Jensen's weak points and exploiting it with a bite and lick. A shout of pleasure erupted from Jensen and his back arched up into Jared and Jared quickly took the opportunity and slid Jensen's jeans and boxers off him at the same time.
Jensen's dick was already weeping and as Jared looked at Jensen, he felt a tug and suddenly, he wasn't wearing anything either. "You really know how to get a guys pants off, huh?" Jared said and laughed as Jensen smirked and said, "Years of practice."
Jared kissed Jensen once, cupping the back of Jensen's neck and Jensen responded by clutching as Jared's shoulder. Jared let up and kissed Jensen's cheek, "Wait, baby," he said and he leaned over and took out the two essentials he needed from his bedside drawer.
Jensen raised his eyebrows and Jared just shrugged at it with a knowing smile and Jensen shook his head. Jared nudged Jensen's legs apart and slicked up three fingers with lubricant. "You sure about this?" Jared asked but quickly apologized at the look at Jensen gave him. Slowly, very slowly, Jared pushed a finger into Jensen and Jensen gasped a little, not out of pain, but out of pleasure. Feeling Jensen respond to to him like that, Jared's dick throbbed with want, but he knew he had to do this first or he would hurt Jensen. He pulled out a little and dove in again, causing Jensen to clutch at the sheets and audibly moan.
Jared bit down on his lower lip and thrust another finger into Jensen. Jensen's body slowly rocked against it and Jared went up to Jensen's face and put his lips over Jensen's. He was surprised when Jensen issed back hard, bruising their lips in the process. Jared's third and finger went in and Jensen's shout that echoed through the room was almost deafening. Jared was actually a little scared that his whole family was already outside his room listening, but he really couldn't care. They were enveloped in a thick layer of love, lust and want that they really couldn't give a damn.
Jared slowly scissored Jensen open and Jensen caught Jared's lip between his teeth and sucked on it hard causing Jared to exhale a soft moan. He didn't know the exact moment of when it happened, but Jensen was unraveling Jared in a way that had never happened before.
It wasn't lust… it was love.
Jensen felt Jared's finger's exiting his body and he pouted and moaned at Jared but Jared smiled and kissed Jensen again. "I'll make you feel good, Jen. I'll make you feel so good," Jared said and meant it. Jensen exhaled a breath that was halfway a mean and a chuckle. "Yuh m-make me f-feel plenty… g-good, J-Jay," he said and Jared opened Jensen's legs wider and slid on a condom then slicked up his dick with copious amounts of lubricant.
He positioned himself right at Jensen's entrance and with his free hand, he entwined his finger's with Jensen's. he stared down at the man he loved with half lidded eyes and Jensen returned the look with a steady gaze. Jensen's hips went up a little when he felt the cold lubricant touch him but as soon as he felt Jared's dick pushing itself into him, his mouth opened a little and he threw his head back against the pillow in an inaudible groan. Jared pushed himself in until he was fully seated and stopped. He waited patiently for Jensen to get used to the intrusion. Jensen waited for Jared to start but then he realized that Jared was waiting for him. Jensen wasn't used to this kind of treatment – the soft kisses and sweet nothings, the scissoring open gently and the waiting to be comfortable. So this is what making love is like, Jensen thought and he slowly rocked his hips back against Jared and he heard Jared gasp a little.
Jared leaned down and kissed Jensen and Jensen wrapped his legs around Jared's thighs as Jared began to pull out and push in again. It started out slow, but soon, as the kisses and touches grew more intense, so did the rhythm of their sexual dance. Jensen started to move along with Jared's hips which drove Jared absolutely crazy and suddenly, Jensen felt a large, warm hand on his own dick. He opened his eyes and found Jared smirking down at him, stroking his length and slicking up his hand with Jensen's precome.
Jensen felt hot breath against his neck and Jared nipped Jensen's earlobe a little before saying in a heavy voice, "Come with me, Jen… come with me."
He stroked Jensen harder and increased his pace and Jensen felt himself coming to his peak fast. Jared was pretty close himself and suddenly he heard Jensen gasp. "J-Jay, I…" was all the warning he got before Jensen's muscles tightened around Jared's dick and Jared saw ribbons of warm white liquid spray onto Jensen's belly and even a little on his chest. As he felt that, his own climax came fast and hard and they rode each other's aftershocks out together.
Jared almost collapsed on top of Jensen and slid out of him carefully. He somehow or other managed to tie up the condom and throw it into the waste bin before he looked as Jensen. He slid down Jensen's body and licked Jensen clean, slowly making his way up to Jensen's lips and he kissed Jensen. Jensen tasted himself in Jared's mouth and couldn't help but smile at that.
Jared lay his head down on Jensen's chest and wrapped an arm around his waist. "I love you, Jensen," he said and Jensen put a hand on Jared's shoulder and with his other hand, he entwined his fingers with his own. "I love you too," he said sleepily.
For the first time in his life, Jensen slept soundly; the demons kept at bay by their love.
Jensen awoke to a giggle from the other side of the door and a soft knock on the door. He opened his eyes a crack and when he realized someone was on the other side of the door, he tried to wake Jared up but he wasn't in time. As Jared grunted awake, the door opened and Sherri and Megan came in holding two trays of food. "Good morning," Sherri said brightly at them and Megan giggled again. "G'morning lovers," she said shyly and Jensen's face heated up at mach speed. Jared didn't help, kissing Jensen on the cheek before hugging Jensen a little tighter. "J-Jay, get up," Jensen said and Jared laughed as he saw Jensen's red face. Sherri laughed appreciatively. "It's alright, Jensen, there are no secrets in this house," she said and Jensen realized what she was implying and he put his hand over his mouth. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry, Sherri," he gasped out but Sherri waved a hand at him. "Jensen, it's a normal part of a relationship," she said and Megan laughed, "Yeah, plus, Jeff's room is next to yours and he had the time of his life."
Jensen buried groaned and buried his head in the pillows while Jared burst out laughing. as Jensen turned his body, his back was exposed and Megan gasped and at the same time, Sherri frowned, her eyebrows creasing. Jared looked down and saw what they were so shocked at. Jensen's back was riddled with deep lines and cuts. Even two letter's carved into the middle. "M. W." Jared looked up at them and shook his head seriously, telling them with no words that he would explain it.
Megan swallowed and smiled again. "Come on, you two, have your breakfast then we're all going shopping for the dinner tonight," she said and Sherri shook herself a little before agreeing with her daughter.
They left the both of them alone with a click of the door and Jared slowly pried Jensen from the pillows. "Hey…" he said and took Jensen's hand's from his face. Jensen was still a little red but he smiled at Jared a shy smile and Jared kissed his cheek. "Good morning," he said and Jensen hugged him and nuzzled into Jared's chest a little. "Good morning, Jay," he said softly. Jared lifted Jensen's face a little and looked at him. In the morning light, Jensen's face glowed and as a slow smile crept up onto Jensen's face, Jared's breath caught; he swore he was looking into the face of an angel. Jensen felt the same too, staring into the content face of Jared, hair tousled and sleep still playing at the side of his eyes.
The smell of coffee and toast brought them out of their little world of perfection and Jensen sat up and took the two mugs of coffee. He handed one to Jared as he got up and sipped his own. Suddenly he realized he was shirtless and hastily covered himself with the blanket and looked down, a little embarrassed. Jared saw that and leaned forward. He put a hand on Jensen's shoulder and Jensen face turned up a little. Jared wordlessly slid the sheet off Jensen's shoulder and kissed it. "Don't be afraid, Jen," he said quietly and Jensen allowed him to take the blanket off him. it fell in a heap around Jensen and Jensen exhaled a slow breath and met Jared's gaze.
Jared trailed his hand slowly down Jensen's scarred arm and then up again to cup his cheek in his hand. "I meant what I said last night, Jen," Jared said and Jensen's eyebrows knitted together in confusion. "I meant what I said when I said that I'll never hurt you, Jen. I'm gonna try to fix this. And I promise you, Jensen, I'll never leave you."
Jensen's eyes fogged up a little and he took Jared's hand in his and kissed it. "Thank you, Jay," he said softly and then another memory flashed in his head.
"Jay…" he said quietly and Jared 'hmm'-ed at him, "We have to tell them… about the ring…"
"Mmm, let me do it, okay?" Jared said and Jensen smiled gratefully at him but then Jared smirked playfully, "But you have to tell my mum."