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Chapter 14 Pt.1 – Girl

(EPOV)

As soon as I had stepped out of Bella's house I had driven my Volvo a couple blocks down and waited patiently for Bella to fall asleep. I stealthily jumped into her room once again and watched fascinated, as her heart beat steadily and her breath was slow. Chopin was playing lightly in the background, and I smiled remembering how she had mentioned how she liked listening to them. I still had to hold my breath, but being there and watching over her was more than worth it.

She had once again started tossing and turning, and I watched anxiously for the new information I would learn about her. She always said interesting things that she never mentioned when we actually talked. Being the closest I could ever get to reading her mind, I sat in the rocking chair by her bed and waited.

She groaned and turned her face in my direction. I watched, entranced, as her lips parted and closed repeatedly. She was speaking but no words left that delicate mouth.

It was then that she said it. "Edward..", her voice was soft but clear, a small smile appearing on her face after saying my name. It shocked me so badly, I had let go of my breath. The second her sweet aroma went through my nostrils I scrambled. I nearly crashed through the window trying to get out of there. I went into my Volvo and sped at 140 until I reached home and into my room.

Alice was the first one at my side, reminding me repeatedly how nothing happened. It didn't feel like nothing happened! I can still taste the smell on the back of my tongue! I was so close to losing control, I could have killed her! Jasper, looking at me in awe, sent a feeling of calm through the area, allowing me a little more clear-headedness to think.

Emmett barged in and was the first one to speak. "Aw! I was just about to beat Jasper in a wrestling match! What's the big idea here!?"

Jasper simply chuckled. "No you weren't. And nothing special happened. Edward just needed some support." I threw him a pained but grateful look, and he nodded back.

Emmett decided to accept the answer and left the room to find Rose, who more than likely was staring at herself in a mirror again.

"I'm a monster...", I groaned mostly to myself. I could not be anymore disgusted with myself than at that moment. I shouldnt have let her think she could trust me. How could I? I can't even watch her sleep without want to kill her.

"Nothing was going to happen regardless Edward. And don't worry, I'll always be here watching out for you through this. I'm here to support you" Alice said soothingly, trying to get me to snap out of this black abyss of depression I had jumped into. It was strange at times, when I really understood the connection I had with Alice. She was always the first one to support me.

"We are here to support you," continued Jasper, correcting Alice. "You love her." It wasn't a question. "Firstly, I do not even believe you could do anything ot her, considering the intensity of the emotions I felt before you even got home. Secondly, we won't let anything happen to either of you either way. She might as well be a part of the family."

The thought of Bella as part of my family had me split in two emtions. Part of me was downright giddy to think of her as the final piece to make this family whole. The other was horrified to even consider damning her to this awful life I led. Always having to fight the urge to murder hoardes of people, never being able to sleep, never being able to properly eat.

Before I realized it, Jasper and Alice had me up on my feet and were pulling me towards the forest. "You need to fill up before your date, Edward darling" Jasper called teasingly and I suddenly found myself running faster than ever before. You're going to be strong. For her. Let's hope for some herds of mountain lions tonight.

Saturday had approached too slowly for me and my feelings of anxiety was close to driving Jasper up a wall.

"CALM DOWN!" he finally shouted, while him and Emmett were in the living room engrossed in an old 80's television program running.

I grimaced and looked once again at my clock. I originally planned on being half an hour early but Alice had somehow persuaded me to be just on time. That doesn't seem good enough.

I dressed in jeans and a cotton white v-neck tee-shirt. I personally thought I looked a litte ridiculously underdressed but Alice had once again convinced me that Bella would love it.

Rosalie looked ready to kill with the glares she kept sending in my room's direction, but Emmett looked simply amused at the whole situation. Make sure she doesn't trip...too badly, Emmett thought, which caused me to chuckle lowly.

I looked at my watch again. I had 8 minutes until I was supposed to pick her up. Screw it.

Deciding, I really did not have the patience for waiting, I ran straight to Bella's front door and knocked on it. Shouldn't you have flowers or something? Great, now you're too early. She's going to get mad! My mind clearly enjoyed verbally abusing me while under pressure.

As I continued the raging battle in my head, I heard a soft click of the door and realized she had opened it. I had to hold my breath as I looked her up and down. I chuckled.

Her face became immediately self-conscious, and began picking at everything she was wearing. Why does she waste her time? Doesn't she realize her own beauty?

"We match" I simply said and within a couple seconds of realizing she burst out laughing. It was a beautiful sound. It's the only sound I ever want to hear.

I decided that if I was ever going to learn control, I would have to learn how to handle her smell. So I stopped the hold I had on my breathing and allowed her smell to wafer into my dead lungs. It left my mouth dry but I managed to stay relatively in control.

I wanted her so bad it made me sorry, but I don't think I could ever bring myself to regret it.

I'll just be there for her. For all of eternity.

Chapter 14 Pt.2 – Hide Away

(BPOV)

I once again couldn't help but feel a little regretful at my sense of clothing. Edward was right, we were both wearing straightlegs with a vneck, but he always came out looking like he just walked off a Gucci runway, while I looked well, like me. No one asked you to pick that as your only friend.

It was hard to tear my gaze away from the peek the vneck shirt gave of the contours of Edward's chest. The shirt clung just tightly enough to give a faint outline of the lean muscles he had. I looked on a little more painfully as he walked to my truck. I realized he had a similar face as mine as he looked my way and it didn't take me long to figure out why.

"Sorry buddy, we made a deal" I sang smugly as he continued to grumble under his breath while I climbed into the driver's seat and let him in.

"I already feel nervous about this" he said half-teasingly, and I shot him a dirty look.

He gave me the directions but I found it particularly hard to concentrate with the way I could feel his hard gaze on my face. Not feeling competent enough to strike a conversation, I put the radio until I found a song I liked.

The song allowed us to be comfortably silent and I allowed myself to hum along to the sweet melody. We passed the town limits and within no time we reached the destination...a dead end of a forest.

"We'll be hiking for the rest of the trip.", he informed me, while all the blood left my face. HIKING!? I can't walk in front of him, let alone hike!

I weakly got out of my truck and waited for further instructions, contemplating whether I should fake a sprained ankle ten steps into the hike or not.

"Don't worry, it's only five miles or so, we have plenty of time!", Edward called out to me, as if that would make me feel so much better.

"You know, I have seen you run by yourself. You're actually quite graceful. Why does this bother you so much?", he asked, rushing his words again. He saw me running?! Gah, I'm done with that now.

"You just said the answer,". Whe he continued looking confused, I continued, "I'm only graceful when I'm by myself. Other people make me feel incredibly self conscious. I can't do anything properly knowing people are around and are watching. And hiking with you especially makes it difficult, since well, it's you."

Before he could question me further on what I meant, I quickly added, "So where are we going anyways. I don't like surprises." I pouted a little excessively, praying it would be just enough of a distraction.

He didn't seem to buy it and laughed. It puts my favorite set of chimes to shame. "Just a place I like to go when the weather is nice.", he said mysteriously and continued to lead me through the fields.

"Yeah, Charlie said the weather would be great today.". The air was not dry enough for my taste but still, it was warm, muggy in comparison to the usual cold.

"Does Charlie know you're with me?", he asked a little too casually.

"Nope", I replied in the same tone, creating a popping sound at the "p".

"So no one knows you're with me??" he continued, his voice picking up with each word.

"I assume you told Alice about our plans" I retorted, watching his face change into several angry emotions, with amusement.

It was then that he stopped. "Aren't you worried in the least that you just might not come home!?" he spat out, his tone overly sarcastic and too bitter on his velvety voice.

I looked him straight in the eye. "I trust you" , I breathed warmly and continued on, biting back the shudder wanting to shake my body.

Walking fairly steadily in silence, Edward seething ahead of me, I allowed my thought to wander to times of nature walks like this in Arizona with Astaire. It was a little over a year I had moved there from Riverside and Astaire he took me to a rose garden behind the park. It was our place, so he had said, where we could get a perfect view of the clear night sky and catch fireflies in jars. Thinking about it made my heart hurt, but not as badly as it used to. Edward's been making all the difference. Just by looking at me, he makes all the pain go away. I could never stop being grateful. Just how could someone so perfect, be meant to be my friend? I don't even deserve that much. Hell, I wouldn't even mind taking the glares I got the first day.

As if seeing himself in my thoughts he turned around and I gave him a soft smile. All the anger on his face seemed to melt away and we walked at equal pace.

Soon, I was able to see the glow of sun rays and a lighter color in the shrubbery surrounding us. I picked up my pace eagerly and gasped at the sight.

In front of me in the pool of light was the most beautiful meadow I had ever seen. It was small and round, covered in a field of wildflowers of all color. There was a light dew on the soft grass, and the buttery sunshine allowed it to glisten like crystals. In the distance, I could hear the light sound of water rushing in a stream. The scenery was just so peaceful.

And with that I ran straight into the light.

Chapter 14 Pt.3 – I'm Yours

(EPOV)

I watched from the dense canopy as Bella started running like I had seen her that one morning into the meadow. It pleased me greatly how much she obviously loved the meadow. It was very beautiful, but not even close in comparison to Bella. With childlike grace, she twirled in the field, taking in the warmth of the sunshine. The sight of her was enough to confirm my belief in angels.

The rays caught in her hair, giving it mahogany highlights, as it tumbled softly against her back. Her pale arms were stretched out as she twirled and her eyelids were closed. After a few seconds she opened her deep chocolate eyes and gave me the most breathtaking smile I had ever seen out of her. She raised one hand towards me and motioned with her index finger to join her.

I had to admit, I was quite reluctant to do so. I don't really know what I was thinking when I decided to show her how I looked like in the sun. Oh please, you never know what you're thinking when you're around her. She smiled more encouagingly and took a step toward me.

I stopped her from getting any closer and took a deep breath. It's now or never. I stepped out into the sun.

I watched carefully, as it took a few seconds for her to register my form in sunlight. Her eyes traveled from my face to my arms, the pale alabaster skin shining and sparkling like the facets of diamonds. It was so abnormal. Just like you.

I laid my body in the grass, and Bella curled herself into a ball not so far away from me. It was then that I realized. I had been breathing the entire time. The longer I spend time with her, the less the smell gets to me.

I felt ecstatic. I could control myself around her! I let myself close my eyes and imagine what it would be like to hold Bella without attempting to suck her body void of blood. It seemed human. She makes you feel human though.

I began to sing a soft melody I had came up with, thinking of Bella in my mind. I didn't feel the need to be careful of how fast I was going.

"Edward.." Bella's sweet voice timidly started, "what are you doing?"

"Singing" I said simply, allowing myself to revel in the moment.

"Can I hear?" she asked eagerly, her tone making me chuckle. I did owe her, after all the times I had listened into her singing.

"So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It can not wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate our time,
It's sure this is our fate, I'm yours
Do you want to come scoot over closer dear,
And I'll whisper in your ear"

I opened my eyes and looked into hers. They looked wistfully on, but a sweet smile was on her face when she looked at me.

"That was a beautiful song! Who wrote it?", she asked, and I had to chuckle. For someone so perceptive, she sure missed the things that were so obvious in front of her.

"I wrote it for you." I blurted, and felt like hitting myself after saying it. She's not supposed to know that!

"You..what?", she asked confusedly, but she knew exactly what I had said.

"I wrote it for you. Because that's how I feel about you"

I watched her face anxiously, waiting for a response. I knew it was futile, but part of me hoped for a return of feelings. You idiot! Do you really want her to waste her time on a monster, who can't give her a single thing a human can?

I wasn't expecting the reaction I got however. Tears started to form in her eyes, and before I could add some comforting words at all, she put her hand out.

"Edward you don't know what you're saying. You don't have those feelings for me." she said, a sad smile reaching her lips but not her eyes. The way she sounded so sure of that, sparked something in me.

"What are you talking about? I know exactly what I'm saying!", I said angrily. Of all things, why would she question the fact that I had those feelings. I could understand if she didn't feel that way back, but how could she think I was making up that she was my world?

She got up and I joined her. She walked up slowly to me, close enough to have her breath swirl in my face. It was enough to block all my coherent thoughts.

"You can't"

And with that she started walking her way out of the meadow.

Finally! I am so sorry about the looooong time it took to go to finish this.
I was writing this chapter with whatever free time I had this past week.
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