Olivia came into the room after her shower and stopped spotting Phoenix. He was lying upside down on the bed and his head was hanging over the edge. He was watching TV with his arms spread out.

Olivia dried her hair with a towel and sat down on top of him "What are you doing?" She asked as she rested her hands on his stomach that was even tighter how he was lying.

"No" He groaned, "Get off"

Olivia looked weirdly at him "What?"

"I'm trying to reduce my…" He thought for a second "Arousal"

"By lying upside down?"

"Yea. It's a weird blood technique," He answered as he looked up at her "I'm very horny. I'm sorry"

Olivia smiled and gave him a kiss as she rested her hands on his neck "Don't be. It's ok"

He pulled himself up and gave her a kiss. He lay down on the bed with her in his arms "You scared about tomorrow?"

Olivia shrugged and played with his watch "A little"

He brushed her hair away "It's ok to be scared. I'm scared too"

"You're not the one taking the test though"

"Do you want me to take it with you?" He asked looking at her.

She shook her head "No, I'll be fine"

"If you want, I will" He whispered.

Olivia nodded "Yea?"

"Of course"

"Then yea" She answered in low voice as she hugged him "Thank you for being so patient with the sex and everything"

"Don't worry about it. When you're ready just let me know" he gave her a kiss and got off the bed "I'm going to go research poverty to get me thinking about something unattractive" He left the room and went to his laptop.

Olivia laughed a little and got off the bed. She took her robe off she had from her shower and stopped at the mirror. She felt so ugly after everything. Maybe Phoenix didn't want her after she was raped.

He came in and stopped seeing her completely naked "I'm sorry honey, I didn't mean to just come in like that" He walked to his nightstand "I forgot my battery cable thing" He spotted her just looking at her beautiful body in the mirror and not paying attention to him "You ok Olivia?"

She looked over at him realizing he was in the room. She quickly pulled her robe on and shook her head "Everything is fine"

He slowly walked over to her "Sure?" he whispered looking at her teary eyes.

She shook her head as tears started to fall from her eyes "No. I feel ugly." She tightened her robe more.

He hugged her and kissed her head "You are beautiful. Inside and out"

Olivia just wiped her eyes and said nothing.

He slowly let go of her and moved his hands to where she tied the robe "Can I?" She nodded a little. He untied her robe and slowly took it off. He let the robe drop to the floor and he turned her to look in the mirror "You are beautiful"

She said nothing and looked down at the ground. He stepped behind her and placed her hair behind her ears "I love every part of you Olivia" He whispered as he picked her chin up to look into the mirror "You are beautiful no matter what"

"How can you say that after everything?" She asked quietly through tears. "I can't believe I'm standing here naked"

"I love you for you" He whispered as he rested his chin on her shoulder. Like it or not I want you even after all of this because you are my fiancé"

Olivia nodded a little. "Ok"

He picked her robe up from the floor and held it open for her "I'm getting aroused looking at you. Put this on please?"

Olivia smiled a little and pulled her robe on. "Thank you"

He gave her a kiss and left the room so she could get dressed. Olivia got her clothes and now felt better after her somewhat conversation with her fiancé. He didn't think she was ugly. That's all she needed to hear.

The next day both sat in the anonymous clinic for Olivia to get tested for any STD. She was holding his hand and he was reading a Sports Illustrated.

She rested her head on his shoulder being extremely scared. "Baby" She whispered.

"Hmm?" He kept reading his magazine.

"I'm scared," She said in a low voice.

He looked over at her and closed his magazine. "Do you want me to go in there with you?" She nodded "Do you want me to get a test with you?" She shrugged. "Yes or no?" She nodded again. He gave her a kiss and opened his magazine again as he held her hand.

"Olivia Benson" A nurse said.

Phoenix put his magazine down and got up with her. Both went into the room and waited for the doctor. Phoenix sat in the chair and Olivia sat on the table.

"Everything is going to be fine" He assured her as he watched her tap her foot on the floor.

"What if it's not?"

Phoenix didn't get to answer as the doctor came in and closed the door behind him "Olivia Benson?"

Olivia nodded "That's me"

The doctor looked at Phoenix "Boyfriend?"

"Fiancé" He answered.

"Taking the test also?" The doctor asked.

Phoenix looked at Olivia and knew she would feel better if someone else was getting stuck with a needle "Yea"

"Who wants to go first?"

Olivia looked at the ground and didn't say anything. Phoenix looked at her and then the doctor "I will." He took his hoodie off and sat down by Olivia with only his tank top on.

The doctor brought out a needle "Either one of you scared of needles?"

Phoenix took Olivia's hand "I'm more scared then her" Olivia just smiled a little. She didn't know that he was actually scared of needles; she thought he was just trying to make her feel better.

The doctor put Phoenix's arm out "Ok Olivia's fiancé, we just need some blood." He put the needle by Phoenix's vein. Phoenix jumped a little. "You have to keep still"

"I knew that" He nodded "Sorry"

"Ok, lets try it again" He put the needle on his skin. Phoenix slowly moved away. The doctor pulled his arm back. "Sir, please"

Olivia noticed that he actually was scared of needles "Maybe I should go first"

"No, I'm fine" Phoenix answered and looked to the side "Just hurry up" He felt the needle go in. He let out a whimper imagining the needle going in. Olivia and the doctor looked at him "Just go dude" Phoenix rested his head on Olivia's shoulder.

The doctor finished with Phoenix and put a small piece of gauze on where the blood was taken from and then put a bandage on it.

Olivia pulled her sleeve up. Phoenix kept looking at his arm where his gauze was and then looked at Olivia and not the needle. "It's not as bad as it looks" He assured her "I'm just traumatized by needles"

"You have a tattoo," Olivia reminded him.

"I got traumatized after my tattoo in the Air Force," He told her with a smirk.

The doctor got another needle and put it to Olivia's arm. Phoenix made a cheesy grin to get a smile on her face. She smiled a little and rolled her eyes as the doctor put the needle in. He took her blood and then wrapped it the same way as Phoenix's arm. He left the room and left the couple alone.

Phoenix got off the table and pulled his hoodie on. Olivia just looked at him "Why didn't you tell me you were scared of needles?"

"Cause then I knew you wouldn't let me get the test also" He answered, "I couldn't let you go through this alone"

Olivia pulled her sleeve down "Thanks"

He nodded "Of course" He wrapped his arm around her and led her out of the room.

Olivia shifted a little as she lay on top of him as they watched a movie. Phoenix bit his lip trying not to get aroused from her slight movement. They didn't have sex for so long that he was getting horny by any movement she made on him.

Olivia breathed against his neck as she watched the movie. Not even realizing she was doing it in a sexy way that was torturing him since he knew they couldn't have sex. She cuddled closer to him and now her lips were on his neck just resting there.

He took a deep breath and tried not the get aroused since her lips were wet just a little bit. He shifted so no part of her was touching his crotch.

They were watching a romantic movie they rented. A sex scene came on.

This got Phoenix attention "Get off, off, off"

Olivia quickly moved off of him "What's wrong?"

He quickly turned the movie off and grabbed a horror movie "This is all we are going to watch ok? Nothing with women or sex ok?"

Olivia looked weirdly at him "Are you ok?"

"No" He answered, "You keep turning me on. I'm trying not to get horny or get an erection but you're making it really hard"

Olivia smiled a little "I'm sorry"

"We need to go somewhere public. This is just too intimate with only us in an apartment"

Olivia couldn't resist not smiling at him. He was just too cute when he was freaking out about something stupid "Ok. Where do you want to go?"

He took a deep breath "Now? I'm taking a cold shower and then we'll figure something out" He went to the bathroom and closed the door behind him.

Olivia laughed a little and followed him. She went in and there was no fog or steam coming from the water. He was actually taking a cold shower. She took her clothes off and got in behind him.

He was just standing there letting the cold water fall down his stomach to get rid of his arousal.

Olivia wrapped her arms around his stomach from the back "You're going to freeze"

"Oh don't do this to me." He whined "Don't touch me in you sexy way like that"

Olivia moved her hands up to his chest and kissed his shoulder from the back. "You're so cute"

"Aw don't" He whined again "You're killing me"

"You know you can touch me in here and the cold water will make you not be horny" She whispered as she kissed the back of his neck.

He turned to look at her "Yea?"

She nodded "Yup"

"Can we kiss?"

Olivia giggled a little "Sure"

He picked her up against the tile and started to kiss her. Olivia wrapped her legs around his waist and gripped the back of his hair as he kissed her neck and shoulders. She felt him get hard against her body. She smiled and slid off his body. She pressed him against the tile and kissed him.

She slowly ran her hand down his body and stroked him. He jumped a little but let out a moan.

He made his hands a fist trying to resist the urge to go inside of her as she kept stroking him.

Olivia kissed his neck as she kept going. She felt his body tense up a little. She knew he was about to orgasm. She turned a little hot water on and moved both of their bodies under the water.

Phoenix whispered her name as he reached his orgasm. Olivia smiled and got out of the shower. She wrapped her towel around her and left the bathroom.

Olivia was lying in bed reading a book as Phoenix finally came out of the shower completely naked. Olivia looked at him but then quickly looked at her book so she didn't get horny looking at his body. She kept taking peeks as he pulled his boxers on.

He flopped down on the bed next to her and just looked over at her with a smile "Hi"

She smiled and gave him a kiss "Hi"

"I love you," He said with a dreamy face and still with his goofy smile.

Olivia laughed and put her book down. "I'm guessing you liked that?"

He nodded with a grin "You know where we could go?"

"Where?"

"You like my parents house. Plus we can go horse back riding over there"

Olivia nodded "Great idea. You want to go tomorrow? Maybe stay the night?"

He nodded and wrapped his arms around her and rested his head on her stomach "I love you"

Olivia laughed again and then turned the light off by her nightstand. "I think you are high from your orgasm honey"

"Yea I think so too" He mumbled and slowly drifted off to sleep.

Olivia and Phoenix arrived at Phoenix's old house the next morning. He unlocked the door and went in. The house seemed very quiet. Both looked over at the living room and spotted Angie and a guy making out on the couch.

Phoenix cleared his throat which made his sister jump up. She looked over seeing her little brother and his fiancé in the hallway "Hi" she blushed and wiped her lip.

Phoenix kept looking at the man on the couch. "Who are you?"

"Phoenix this is my boyfriend Jason" Angie introduced "Jason this is my little brother Phoenix and his fiancé, Olivia"

"Where are mom and dad?" Phoenix asked.

"Shopping" She answered "We were just leaving" She took Jason's hand and led him out of the living room and past Phoenix "Bye Olivia" She giggled a little and led her boyfriend out of the house.

Olivia smiled a little and looked at Phoenix "Oh stop being protective"

"Don't encourage her" Phoenix shook his head at her. Olivia smiled and gave him a kiss.

They heard laughter up the stairs and both turned around. Emily was coming down the stairs with a guy. She stopped seeing Phoenix there "Hey bro"

Phoenix crossed his arms on his chest "Are you kidding me?"

Emily smiled and gave him a hug "Love you. Don't tell mom and dad. Bye" She grabbed her jacket "Oh this is Kevin. Kevin this is Phoenix and his fiancé" She took his hand and led him out "Bye Olivia" She closed the door behind her boyfriend.

Olivia tried to suppress her laughter "This is too funny"

"What is it open season on my sisters?" He shook his head. "I'm examining every room before my parents get home" he went up the stairs.

Olivia started to follow him but then saw the kitchen door open and Jacob was coming out with a girl. "Hi Olivia"

She waved a little. "I'm going to join Phoenix upstairs" She went up the stairs with a small smirk.

Phoenix came out of a room "It's all good"

"Good" Olivia nodded "Can we go eat something? I'm starving"

"Yea, yea" He led her down the stairs and they went to the kitchen. He opened the fridge and looked inside "What do you want?"

"Food" She teased as she sat down on a bar stool "You know Jacob was in here with a girl"

"Huh?"

Olivia looked around "I'm not having food on any of these tables"

Phoenix smiled and nodded "Deal."

They got a sandwich and watched a movie in the living room as they ate. They finished and decided to go horseback riding.

Olivia got on Gladiator and Phoenix got on behind her. He held the reins in front of her as she rested her head on his chest.

"I can't wait to marry you," She whispered.

He rested his chin on her shoulder "Yea? Why?"

"I want to call you my husband," She whispered with a smirk. "You have been so great after everything that I don't know how to thank you"

"You don't need to thank me sweetheart," he whispered as he gave her a kiss on the cheek "I'm here for good and bad"

"I want you to promise me something"

"Anything"

"If I do have HIV I want you to be with me through it all. I know it's a selfish thing to ask but I need you"

"Olivia-"

"Don't say it will be alright because I'm scared that it wont be. Can you promise me that?" She whispered.

"Of course" he whispered "I'm going to be with you forever. I promise"

Olivia nodded and snuggled into his arms more. "I love you Phoenix Neal"

"I love you too Olivia Benson"

Phoenix woke up the next morning and noticed Olivia wasn't in bed. He pulled on his jeans over his boxers and went down the stairs.

Olivia was eating cereal and reading a newspaper in the kitchen.

He rubbed his eyes and gave her a kiss "Why didn't you wake me up?"

"Oh. Thought you might want to sleep in" She answered as he went to the fridge and got an orange juice carton out. "Don't drink from the carton. I got yelled at earlier"

He chuckled a little and took a sip of juice from the carton.

His mom came into the kitchen "Phoenix Leonardo"

He choked over his juice "Sorry mom"

Olivia smiled a little "Told you"

Annie shook her head and started to make breakfast "Honey how did you sleep?"

"Fine" He answered.

"I was talking to Olivia sweetheart" Annie shook her head at him.

"Great. Thanks" She answered with a small laugh. Phoenix shook his head turned to the fridge again.

Annie looked over at Phoenix who was shirtless and still drinking from the carton even if he was told not to "You better learn some manners young man before you get married."

He nodded "Make breakfast mom." He smiled and sat down by Olivia "I'm hungry"

"Be nice" Olivia warned.

His father came into the kitchen drinking coffee. He spotted his shirtless son sitting there and eating some of his fiancé's cereal "And they said chivalry was dead"

Phoenix laughed a little and took Olivia's newspaper "I'm sharing. She steals my cereal all the time"

Olivia snatched her newspaper back "You can have the cereal but I'm reading"

He rolled his eyes and took her cereal "Geek"

"Geek lover" Olivia opened her newspaper with a smirk.

He smiled at her and ate her cereal.

"Sweetie is that your phone?" Richard asked as he drank his coffee.

Olivia put her newspaper down and left the kitchen to find her phone. Phoenix took her newspaper and read it.

A couple of minutes later Olivia opened the door to the kitchen "Honey can I talk to you?"

Phoenix got up and left the kitchen "What's up?"

"The doctor called," She whispered.

"And?"

"Well you're fine"

"Forget about me. What about you?"

She smiled a little "All negative"

He closed his eyes in relief. Olivia hugged him right away "Oh god" he whispered as he held her. "That's the best news ever"

She held him and gave him a kiss "Yea. I'm so happy"

He put her hair behind her ears and gave her a kiss. "Me too"

"Olivia, Phoenix. Breakfast"

They let go of each other and went into the kitchen. Olivia sat down and Phoenix was about to sit down. "You are not eating breakfast shirtless" Annie ordered.

Olivia laughed a little "Loser"

"Loser lover" he smiled and left the kitchen to get dressed so he could eat breakfast.