* Sorry it has taken me so long to post, real life has been extra rough lately. Thanks to all who've stuck by Leah and Embry as the story unfolds. Also, a thanks to Fantasylover74 for your PM's. It's always nice to know someone enjoys your work. Thanks again. With that…on with the story.
Three months. Three months since my first time with Embry. Three months since I told him I loved him. Three months since my life done a complete 360. The angry Leah that used to ghost through her life with a huge chip on her shoulder was now nothing more than a distant memory. My relationship with the wonderful Embry Call was to thank for that. I smiled all the time now. I was happy to wake up every day. My life was going great. I had a terrific man who I loved and loved me. I had my job, my friends and I had not phased in eight months. My sense's were still heightened, but my body temp was cooling down more and more. The only negative in my life was the random stomach pain that at first only came every once in a while, was now almost an everyday occurrence. Embry of course insisted I needed to have myself checked, but I wrote it off as some wolf thing. Maybe my body adjusting back to normal. Who knew? All I knew was that for the first time in forever, my life wasn't filled with heartache and depression and I was not about to soil that.
As I turned into the driveway at the Call home, I could see Lisa's red Civic parked in the yard. When Ms. Anne was released from the hospital a week after her stroke, the doctor wanted her moved to a facility better equipped to handle her health. Her heart was weakened and she had lost some mobility in her right arm and her body had stopped responding to her cancer treatments. Embry however wanted his mother home and agreed to all the stipulations that Dr. Larkin order if Ms. Anne was to return home. The main one being a home nurse at his house everyday. So it looked like it was Lisa today. My face pinched up as I stared at her car. Lisa was well aware of Embry and I by now, but it still didn't stop her flirtatious smiles and girlish laughs at everything he said.
I grabbed the shopping bags from the front of my car and made my way into the house without knocking. From the looks of the living room, some of the pack had been over here. Glasses and chip bags were scattered across the coffee table. I sighed at the sight that I no doubt would have to clean and headed into the kitchen.
"Hello? Embry?" I yelled as I put away the contents of the bag.
When I stood up from the fridge, Embry was leaning against the doorway of the kitchen. Arms crossed at this chest over his gray tank that looked nice with his gray basketball shorts. He had that favorite smile of mine on and his dark brown eyes were locked to mine. I could tell by his look what he had in mind. Since our first time together, our desire for one another had not slowed, but the last few weeks we had only been together a handful of times. And those times had been quick and rushed, but still didn't lack the fire that passed between us. I saw him bite down on his lower lip and smiled.
"What are you looking at?" I asked as I leaned back against the counter.
"You." He said. "Do you even know how beautiful you are?"
"You're just trying to get in my pants." I laughed at him.
Embry chuckled lightly before coming over to me, trapping me between his arms.
"That may be true, but I still think you're the most beautiful thing in this world."
"Promise?" I asked looking up at him.
"With all my heart." He said softly, then grazed his lips across mine.
I kissed his lips softly in return as he clutched me to him tighter. When I tightened my hand in his hair, a soft moan came from him. I traced his bottom lip with my tongue and felt him shiver. Embry picked me up by my hips and sat me on the counter top, his lips never leaving mine. I locked my legs behind his back pulling him into me and hands started to roam up and down my back.
"Oh, sorry." I heard from behind him.
I pulled away from his lips to see Lisa standing in the door way staring at us. I unwrapped my legs from around him and hopped off the counter.
"I didn't know you had company." She said looking to Embry.
"It's ok." Embry smiled looking down at me and pulling me into his side.
Lisa gave a flat smile and continued over to the sink, filling a glass of water. She kept glancing out the corner of her eye at us, making me want to claw her eyes out. The ringing of the phone pulled me from my daydreams of a full blown cat fight with her. I looked over as Embry answered the phone.
"Hello?"
"Yeah, she's here, hold on." Embry said, then held the phone out to me.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Leah, it's Sam. Emily wanted me to call you." Sam said in a rushed voice.
"Sam, what's wrong?"
"Emily's gone into early labor. We're on our way to the hospital." Sam said.
"She's only 36 weeks." I said shocked.
"I know, but her doctor told us that babies are born healthy all the time when they come early like this." Sam said, although the sound of his voice sounded as if he was trying to calm his self more than me.
"I'll meet you there. Do I need to call anyone for you?"
"No, when I called your house, I informed Seth and he said he would make the calls, but thanks."
"Ok Sam, I'll see you there. Bye." I said.
"Bye Lee."
"What's wrong?" Embry asked as I started searching the kitchen for my keys.
"Emily's in labor." I said quickly as I grabbed my keys from the table. "I'm going to meet them at the hospital."
"I'll come with you." He said.
I saw Lisa roll her eyes out the corner of my sight, but instead of ripping them out, I let it pass. Emily was what was important right now.
"You don't have to." I said looking up at him. "I know you want to be here with your mom."
"Baby girl, I want to be there with you, besides, mom's fast asleep and she'll want to hear all about it when she wakes." He said kissing my head and taking the keys from my hand, "I'll drive you."
When we arrived at the hospital, I held Embry's hand in mine as we made our way to the floor Emily was on. When We entered the waiting room I saw most of everyone already there. My Mom and Seth were seated at a small table with Rachel and Paul. Kim was standing next to Quil, who was holding a grinning Claire and Jake was leaning against the window on his phone.
"How is she?" I asked stopping next to Seth, who stood to hug me.
"Sam came out a few minutes ago." Seth said taking his seat again. "Said she's doing fine, but it might still be awhile."
I nodded and looked around the room once again. "Why's Claire here?" I asked.
"Oh, well, she wanted to see Quil, so I drove down and got her this morning." Mom said smiling as she watched Quil and Claire. "She's been getting a little moody here lately when she's not around him."
I saw a smile come to Quil's face as he heard my mom. Jake looked up from his phone and smiled over at Embry and I, then looked back down at it.
"Where's Jared?" I asked as Kim came over to us.
"Should be here soon. He's out doing patrol." Kim smiled.
"Yeah, I called Brady, he was going to relieve him so Jared could make it here." Paul said.
"Well, guess we wait." I said stepping back and sitting on the open sofa with Embry.
Time seemed to move slowly as we all sat in the tiny waiting room. Not to long after we arrived Jared came in, making his way straight to his Kim. The same information was repeated for him and then we went back to the waiting game. I passed the time playing "I Spy" with Claire for a while, soon enough, Quil and Embry both joined in. After she grew restless of that, she moved on to using Paul as a jungle gym. Seth kept leaving and coming back with coffee for everyone. I was on my fourth cup when Sam came flying into the room, a huge smile plastered to his face.
"It's a boy!" Sam exclaimed with his arms held over his head.
The congratulations all came out at once as people started making their way over to him and shaking his hand or pulling him into quick hugs.
"How's Emily?" I asked holding Embry's arm as he shook Sam's hand.
"She great. A little tired, but she did wonderful." Sam said smiling. "Would you guys like to see her?"
"Take Seth, Sue and Leah first." Jake said from the back, "Let family go first."
"Well, Paul will you come too, Emily and I would like to talk to you and Leah." Sam asked.
Paul and I shared a quick look, then he nodded. I leaned up to Embry and kissed his lips softly before following Sam out the room. Emily's room wasn't far from us and with in moments we were entering her room. Emily was sitting up in her bed, her small baby boy bundled in a blue blanket in her arms. Sam went to her side and sat next to her. He kissed her head then smiled down at the baby.
"Every one, this is Sean Michael Uley." Emily beamed.
She held the baby out for my mom to hold. I kept my place next to Paul on the opposite side of the bed. Mom and Seth both cooed at the little thing, then mom placed a soft kiss on his head before walking around the bed and placing the small thing in my arms. I looked down at him. I could see traces of Emily in his features, mainly around the eyes, but the rest was all Sam. Even being only minutes old, I could see he would have Sam's strong jaw line and nose.
"He's beautiful Emily." I said looking over to her.
"Thank you Leah." She said.
"Yeah, the kids a looker." Paul laughed looking down at Sean in my arms. " So what did you want to talk to us about?"
Sam and Emily shared a quick look with one another, then looked back at Paul and I.
"Well," Sam said nervously, "We would like you two to be his godparents."
I felt my eyes pop open and I looked back down to Sean, then up at Paul who had the same look as me on his face.
"Wow… I don't know what to say." Paul said looking to them.
"You don't have to do it Paul." Emily said rather quickly.
"Oh no, it's not that I don't want to, it just surprised me that you asked me." He smiled. "Of course I will. Thank you."
They both smiled at him then looked to me. "Lee?" Sam asked.
I had a million thoughts running through my head at a million miles an hour. I looked quickly back and forth between all that were in the room. I had no idea how long I stood there holding Sean in my arms, not speaking, but finally Paul chuckled nervously and nudge my arm.
"Earth to Leah." He giggled.
I blinked and looked down to Emily and Sam. I could the tears threatening to flow in her eyes if I rejected this. I looked back down at the baby in my arms. After watching him for just a moment, I felt a smile take hold of my lips. I looked back up to Sam and Emily.
"Of course. I'm honored." I said with a smile.
The tears in Emily's eyes fell anyways. "Oh Leah! Thank you! Thank you so much!"
I leaned down and placed my godson in her arms and kissed his head, then Emily's. "I love you Emily."
"Love you too Leah." She said rubbing my arm.
A nurse came into the room. "You've got plenty more visitors waiting out there." She laughed. "Do you want me to send them in?"
"Yes please." Emily smiled.
The others joined us in the room making the already small room even smaller. The others gave Emily hugs and kisses to the head before taking turns holding Sean in their arms. Rachel and Kim looked down at the little one with tears in their eyes. Paul noticed the two and poked Jared in the arm. Jared laughed and made his way over to Kim.
"I want one." Kim smiled.
"One thing at a time woman." Jared laughed as he took Sean and passed him back to me. "First let's just get you through college, then a wedding, then the rug rats."
Kim rolled her eyes, even as she hugged Jared closer to her. I stepped back from everyone and sat down in a chair with Sean. His little eyes stared back up at me making my heart melt. Embry knelt down next to the chair and smiled.
"Want to hold him?" I asked.
Embry looked terrified at the thought. I laughed and stood from the chair. "Sit." I said.
Embry sat down and I placed Sean in his large arms carefully. It took a moment, but Embry finally relaxed. I knelt down next to them, watching as Sean looked back up to Embry. We didn't speak. We just watched Sean's every move with smiles.
"Wonder what our kids will look like?" Embry said pulling me from my thoughts.
I looked up at him to see him smiling down at me with a twinkle in his eyes.
"W-what?" I stammered. "You want kids?"
"Someday." He smiled. "Hopefully they'll have my skin tone, your hair, my devilish good looks, but your attitude."
I choked on the air in my throat and blinked several times. I could hear my heart take off like helicopter blades and my hands started to sweat.
"Leah? You ok?" Embry asked looking down at me.
I stood up quickly and bolted from the room without a word to anyone.
"LEAH?" I heard Embry call, but I kept my speed and fled down the stairwell.
I ran with everything I had towards my car. Once inside I started it and drove out of the parking lot. I caught a quick glimpse of Jake and Embry running out the door of the hospital before I rounded the corner. I had no idea where I was headed or what I was even running from exactly. I knew somewhere down the line I would want kids, but Embry saying "our kids" threw me for a loop. We had never discussed such things. I never knew he thought about our future like that. I was still enjoying the present and he apparently was thinking much farther ahead. When I finally realized where I was, I was pulling into the lot at second beach. I parked and killed the engine.
I stepped out of the car and made my way half way down the pebbled beach. My mind racing over what Embry had said. "Our kids". I reach down and picked up one of the smooth stones tossing it back and forth in my hands. Embry wanted kids someday. He would make a wonderful father. Any kid would be lucky to have him. I wish I could be the one to give him that, but I couldn't. My body didn't work that way. I felt the tears starting to sting at my eyes and the heat of anger building in me. I tossed the pebble at the soft crashing waves.
"DAMN IT!" I screamed as I hurled the pebble.
I reached down for more and continued my assault at the waves screaming out my frustration. I was a genetic dead end. The was why no one imprinted on me, why my body stop working like a woman's should. What in the hell did I have to offer someone like Embry? He wanted kids… Something he could never have with me. He deserved better. This thought made the tears run freely down my face and I threw the last pebble in my hand with everything I had, putting my whole body into it. When I did, an almost blinding pain swept across my abdomen. I gasped and clutched my stomach dropping to my knees. I took deep breaths as I waited for the pain to cease. When it had I looked back out to the water.
"Great. Like I don't have enough problems, now I have to deal with random pains? Like having a wonderful man that I can't give children to isn't enough? Like being a freak among freaks isn't enough? What the hell did I do to deserve all this shit? I screamed out to the ever moving tide.
I watched it move silently back and forth for a moment. Sighing, I pulled my self up and started to wipe away the tears. I looked down at my now damp cloths and shook my head.
"Great Leah. Just great." I said to my self.
"Is this a private rant or can anyone join?" I heard a familiar voice say behind me.
I sighed and looked over to see Jacob standing behind me. He had his arms crossed over his chest and a small smile on his lips.
"What are you doing here Jake?" I asked looking back out to the water.
Jake came to stand beside me and smiled over at me. "I was just catching the last little bit of your self hating rant. So, like I said, can anyone join? Cause I have a few complaints of my own."
"Feel free." I said gesturing to the waves.
Jake turned and faced the water, drew in a deep breath and began to shout.
"How dare you do this to me? Do you know what it's like to have to deal with Leah Clearwater all the time? This chick is down right annoying! Why oh why did you make me feel like she had the strength to help me run a pack? Why then did you make her one of the most good hearted people I know? There in making her one of the best friends I have? Why did my other best friend have to go and fall in love with her? Like he needs someone as great as her? The boy is head over heels and there for will only love her the way she deserves! How dare you do that to her? How dare you give her such wonderful friends as me? You ought to be ashamed! I mean this is LEAH FUCKING CLEARWATER we are talking about!"
He drew in one last breath and looked to me grinning. "There, I feel better."
I rolled my eyes. "Thanks Jake. I feel loads better. You're supposed to shout out your anger at your own problems."
"You are my problem." He laughed.
I shook my head as I looked back out to the water. Jake placed a warm hand to my arm.
"How'd you know where to find me?" I asked.
"Your in my pack. I always have a pull to you and I know when your upset. It's an alpha thing." He said.
"Great. Guess I'll never be rid of pack life." I huffed.
"Lee," Jake said squeezing my arm, "Even if you were free of it, I'd still know when you're hurting. You're one of my best friends. I care about you and hate to see you like this. Is this about what Em said at the hospital?"
"I can't give him what he wants." I sobbed.
Jacob pulled me into his side and hugged me to him.
"Leah, what Embry wants is you. You have to know that by now. He loves you so much. The rest will work it's self out. All he wants is you." Jake said softly.
"He wants kids. Hell, he deserves them. How can he want me when I can't give him what he deserves?" I choked out. "It kills me that I can't Jake."
"Just talk to him Leah, please. He is worried sick about you. You'll understand what I'm saying if you hear it from him." He said pulling back to look at me.
"What do I say to him?"
"Everything you just said to me. Then he can tell you how crazy you're being." He laughed. "Go Leah. Trust me, you'll feel better once you see him."
"I don't know where he is." I said wiping my tears.
"I told him to wait at his house, that I'd find you." Jake smiled, then turned to walk away.
"Thanks Jacob."
"Anytime Lee."
I watched as Jake disappeared into the darkness. After gaining control of my breathing I made my way back to my car and drove towards Embry's.
As soon as I cut off the engine in Embry's front yard, his front door swung open and he ran down the steps making it to my door before I could even open it.
"Leah!" He exclaimed as he pulled me into his arms. "God, I was so scared! What happened? Where did you go? Why are you wet?"
I rested my head against his strong chest breathing in his calming scent before answering. "I went down to Second Beach. Sorry I worried you. I just needed to think."
Embry looked down at me. Worry still clear in his deep brown eyes.
"Let's get you out of these wet cloths." He said taking my hand and leading me into the house.
He lead me down the hall and into his room. He dropped my hand and started pulling open his dresser.
"Here, put this own." He said softly handing me a long tee shirt.
I took the shirt and smiled weakly at him before he stepped out of the room closing the door behind him. I sat the shirt on the bed and began to pull off my wet jeans and tee. Once all my cloths were in a pile I pulled on the baggy shirt. I pulled my hair from the ponytail and ran my fingers through it. I laid down on Embry's double bed and rested my head against the pillow. His scent was so strong coming off it. I closed my eyes and let it calm me. I heard the door open and saw Embry come in, coffee mug in hand.
"Drink this." He said handing me the mug.
I smelled the hot chocolate and smiled up at him. Embry didn't look down at me, but proceeded to pick up my cloths and exit the room. A moment later I heard the dryer start up. He came back into the room and sat on the end of the bed. He went to pick my feet up when he sighed.
"Your feet are freezing Lee."
He rose once again from the bed and went to his dresser. He returned with a pair of white cotton socks. After sitting back on the bed, he placed the socks on my feet gently. The softness and warmth from them felt really nice. After they were on, Embry began to slowly rub my foot, then turned his gaze up to me.
"I'm sorry." He whispered.
"For what?" I asked sitting the mug down on the nightstand.
"What I said at the hospital. I didn't mean to scare you." Embry said.
"No Em, No." I said shaking my head as I moved down to kneel on my knees next to him. "You didn't scare me."
"Then what was it?"
"I… I can't give you what you want." I said as the tears started to flow. "It kills me that I can't. I just want to make you happy, but I can't give you children."
"Lee…" Embry sobbed kissing my head. "You are what makes me happy baby girl. You and you alone."
I looked up to him. "But don't you want children?"
"I want you. That's all I want. Would kids be nice someday, sure. If it doesn't happen would I love you less? Never. Besides, there's plenty of kids out there that need good homes."
"Embry, I don't want you to have to settle for anything less." I choked out.
"Hey, look at me Lee." He said pulling my face close to his. "I am not settling for anything less than you. I love you so much baby girl. You're my everything. I love you Leah Clearwater. I love you."
My tears ran faster now. I crushed my lips to his for a moment then pulled back to look into those deep brown eyes. "I love you. So much."
Embry reached up to stroked the side of my face with his finger. "I know you do baby."
He then pushed our lips back together, sending the butterflies in my stomach into a frenzy. His hand started to move up my thigh slowly, electing a short moan from me.
"I love you." I whispered once more as I kissed his jaw.
"I love you too." He said with a husky voice as his hand rounded my hip before moving to my navel, "Let me show you Lee. Let me show you how much I love you."
I groaned before moving my lips back to his. I eagerly sought his tongue with mine and welcomed the sparks that shot through me when they met. Embry pushed his hands up and brought my shirt over my head. When he had tossed it to the floor, his lips started kissing along my shoulder as he laid me gently down on the mattress. I pulled him free of his shirt as his hands went to work at his jeans. After they joined my discarded shirt on the floor and we were both left in only our underwear, Embry knelt between my legs and placed soft kisses along my stomach from hip to hip. My breath came out in shudders and my legs kept moving up and down his sides.
His fingers wove into the hem of my panties and he began to pull them down my legs, leaning back to look down at me, desire clear in his eyes, he pulled them from my feet. He dropped them to the floor and picked up my leg, kissing my calf as his warm hands moved up my thigh slowly.
"Embry…" I moaned, "Please…."
He kissed my other leg before speaking. "What baby?"
"I can't wait any longer." I mewed.
He stood from the bed and removed his boxers. Once he was back between my legs I could feel his hardness pressing against me and my eyes rolled back.
"I love you." He said kissing my ear. "Do you want me to make love to you baby girl? Can I show you how much I love you?"
"Yes, Please." I cried.
He kissed my lips and I felt him push into me. I tightened my legs to him as I moaned into his lips.
"Show me Em, please." I moaned.
He groaned and gripped my hips as he began to thrust into me, causing a gasp or moan from me each time. I felt so loved as he gave me all he had. I could feel everything he felt for me as we continued to join together. Our passion for one another was boiling over as he need became harder and I welcomed each thrust he gave me.
When I felt the tightening in my stomach I held him tighter to me, kissing his neck and shoulders. He grabbed my legs holding it up to his side and pushed into me harder and faster.
"Em! God! Please, don't stop!" I cried out digging my nails into him.
"Lee, baby….." He moaned, his head tossed back in pleasure.
He pounded into me a few more times, then I let myself go with a cry. As my body shuddered under him, I felt his release and he cried out my name before falling onto my chest.
"I love you." He said in a ragged breath.
"And I love you." I said running my nails through his hair.
He kissed the swell of my breast then rolled off me, pulling me into his side and kissing my head.
"You're my everything Leah. Always."
"And you're mine."
He reached down and pulled the blanket that was at the foot of the bed over us. Sleep quickly found me as I was right where I wanted to be, safe in his arms.