Monday, August 27, 2012

Itachi was driving me back home from Kakashi tonight, when he announced that he was picking his friends, including Kevin, up on the way. Apparently they were going out afterwards. I didn't know what to say. He was doing me a favor by driving me afterwards (my dad took my car; as I mentioned he has to punish me somehow after any argument we have). But being in the same car with him… I know he wouldn't make it awkward but…

For the next hour, I sat next to him. Shoulder to shoulder, silently. Some of the guys kept making comments about how strange it is that Kevin who is usually the most talkative was suddenly so quiet. I crossed my fingers and hoped Itachi doesn't suspect anything. I know he would blame me, accuse me of using his friend to make Naruto jealous or something.

"Why don't you come with us, little Itachi?" One of my brother's friends suggested. Apparently "Little Itachi" is my new nickname. He didn't mean it as an insult, but I still wanted to head-butt him.

"Sasuke has plans," Itachi answered. He hadn't been the same since our last fight. He would usually be trying to get me to go with him, but it was as if he was too angry at me to put in the energy anymore. I saw him packing his bag this morning as well. He is probably moving back to his apartment. On this note, I think he might have fought with dad as well. I didn't see them fight or anything, but they seemed very strained all day long.

Before arriving at home by around 5 minutes, Kevin whispered in my ear asking me how it was going with Naruto. I smiled at him and said everything was fine. In retrospect, I should've asked him about his life back.

My appointment with Kakashi just made me more nervous. He said that it is understandable not telling Sakura right now, because it is the decent thing to do, but he asked me if I think Naruto might get comfortable with the idea of having us both in his life at the same time. I couldn't answer. Then he mentioned how it will become harder to explain to Sakura as the time goes on. There is a different between being cheated on, and your boyfriend falling out of love with you, as he explained.

I asked him to give me a solution, but he wouldn't give me any. I also told him about Naruto's relationship to my dad. I swear for a second there, his features weren't as casual as usual. At first I thought that perhaps he thinks something might be wrong with Naruto, but when he insisted on discussing my relationship with my dad directly after… Is he hinting to what I think?

On another note, after leaving, I remembered that I had forgotten my mobile in his office. So I went back, and saw Kakashi standing with the other therapist (I look his name on the clinic's website and I think he's called Yamato). They weren't kissing or anything, but the man was stroking Kakashi's back. It looked intimate. Surely nothing colleges or even friends would do. I didn't know before Kakashi was gay.

Anyway, he noticed that I was there. I hope this doesn't make our future sessions awkward.

Anyhow, Naruto called me today again. He asked me if I wanted to go to a bathhouse with him. I have seen too many gay pornos shot in bathhouses to agree. I am not sure this is what he was hinting at. He might just like sauna, or maybe he just wants to meet me at a place none of his common friends with Sakura would see him at. I don't know. I don't mind his sex jokes, but I wonder if I'll have to have sex with him soon after he breaks up with Sakura. Now, I'm dying to. I really am. I get turned on just thinking about it, but I don't want to rush into anything. I hadn't noticed that before, but it seems like sex is essential to him. He has already made a few jokes about doing something on skype, and I wonder if they are merely "jokes" and not hints to test the waters.