Okay guys! I know I am a really bad author but here is a chapter! For lent, I am trying to write a chapter every four days (Crazy I know) but I hope that this will mean that there will be ten more chapters by the end of this!

Summary: Jez and Morgead are on the run from not only Circle Daybreak but Esther and her evil crew of minions. Along the way they meet up with old enemies and make new friends but they can't escape the past. With Jez being pregnant and little money left, what will they do? And what will happen if they are caught? Maybe they can't cope but if they go separate ways and disagree, what are their chances of survival and will they risk them?

Disclaimer: I don't own The Night World. The characters belong to LJSmith but the plot line belongs to me.

Message about Chapter: When I first started writing it I wasn't expecting it to get so angsty and at the end I have to admit that I did cry slightly because all the emotions were getting to me but I hope you enjoy it! It gives more of an insight into Morgead's inner feelings and yeah...

IMPORTANT! I was wondering... Would you guys like me to end this story here and continue it as a sequel, write the same sort of chapter in Jez's POV and then write a sequel or just carry on writing this one? because i think that this is quite a good place to end one story and start another if I was going to do that... So i will post this same message at the bottom and a poll will be on my profile to please vote or say something in a review!

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Morgead's POV

"Right I've had enough."

"What?"

I had gone into Jez's room and had woken her up.

"I've had enough!"

"But what have you had enough of?"

"You, moping around constantly, blaming yourself for what happened even though you know it wasn't your fault. For you not realising that I would have got hurt anyway, whether you had run away by yourself or not, because I love you and I wouldn't have just stood around and waited for you to come back."

I was breathing heavily at the end of my outburst and I could see that Jez was shocked.

"Morgead, I didn't realise you felt this way."

"No, you didn't because you have stopped talking to me. You say things but they aren't what you really feel and I doubt you even know what questions you're answering. Everyone is going around on tipy-toes to try and make sure that you don't get upset or offended but maybe you should. That way you will actually be feeling something!"

"I feel things!"

I sighed and threw my hands up in frustration.

"No! You don't! All you do is nod your head and try to smile. Everyone here is out of their minds with worry, not only over you but also with what's happening! They want to know where Illiana is, and where Darren is. But they can't do anything because you aren't saying anything! How do you think I feel when everyone here looks at me with pity because of what happened. And the worst thing is, even I can't help them with the information, because you just abandoned me! You left me and that's what people are thinking. Maybe no one can help you, least of all me. And that kills me you know, I am your soulmate and I still can't do anything. Maybe you don't love me anymore, or maybe we never were really soulmates. And yeah, I'm sorry for the outburst but…"

"Morgead…"

"No! You didn't care before, don't try to pretend now. I'll leave you alone from now on."

I just walked out after that. I hadn't wanted to say all those things, but they just came out. All of this frustration had been building up inside of me and now I was just couldn't help it.

The door slammed behind me, I hadn't done it but I thought it added effect to me exit.

I had really meant what I said at the end, I was going to leave her alone, even if it killed me.

"Morgead, hey have you just been talking to Jez? How is she?"

Mary-Lynette had just come up behind me and was obviously trying to be overly happy.

"Yeah, I talked to her. Sorry I don't mean to be rude but there's something I have to do."

Mary-Lynette shocked at my tone but then softened.

She reached out a had and placed it on my arm.

"She will be okay. She's strong enough to get through this."

"Yeah whatever."

I brushed off her arm and then turned around the corner at the end of the corridor. Not waiting to see the expression on her face, knowing that it would kill me just that little bit more.

I was destructing my life and I couldn't do anything about it. I was such a jerk!

"Hey! Morgead, what the hell?"

I turned slowly to see Ash. He had obviously heard my conversation with Mary-Lynette.

"What Ash? I don't time for this right now!"

"Time for what? Time to see Jez? Time to apologise for being rude?"

He shrugged and looked disgustedly at me.

"I know you're under a lot of pressure right now but that isn't any excuse! Why aren't you with Jez? She needs you right now!"

I almost cracked then.

"No, she doesn't. She needs medical help, which I can't give her."

He snorted.

"You're her soulmate, of course you can help her, you have to actually try though, and how the hell would snapping out at Mary-Lynette help?"

Somewhere deep inside I knew that I should just walk away but I couldn't help it.

"Maybe it wouldn't help being rude, but I am just so sick and tired of people treating me like I'm an invalid or something! And what you said about Jez, I can't help her. She won't let me so just leave it!"

"What are you talking about? No one is treating you differently, they are just being sympathetic! And I understand—"

I cut him off.

"You understand? What exactly do you understand? Do you understand that my soulmate is being hunted down because of something I did? Do you understand how helpless I felt when she left me behind, abandoned me? Do you even understand that I don't think we're soulmates anymore?"

Mary-Lynette had come to stand behind Ash but I didn't realise until I had finished my little tirade.

I could see they were both shocked and Mary-Lynette was about to say something.

I shot her a withering look,

"Don't even bother."

Then I just ran, I ran out into the deepest part of the forest that connected to the garden.

There I just sat down and put my head in my hands. I though I had finally got some peace and quiet when I heard footsteps.

Poppy stood in front of me glaring.

"What do you want now?"

"You do realise everyone heard your little hissy fit."

"Wow? Really? I never would've guessed!"

She shook her head in disgust.

"How could you say those things? How could you be so unsupportive?"

I looked at her incredulously.

"Unsupportive?"

"Yeah! Unsupportive. Do you have any idea was Jez might be going through right now?"

"Do you have any idea what I'm going through right now?"

She shook her head again.

"You are always thinking of yourself! Why can't you think about someone else for a change?"

"I have been!"

She snorted.

"You call this, being supportive. I pity you, I really do. You are so concentrated on yourself and your so-called suffering that you can't even see the big picture let alone take notice of it. Have fun with your life and don't even think about coming back until your attitude has changed."

She turned to walk away, then paused, but still didn't face me.

"You don't deserve to know this but I guess I should tell you, Jez passed out just after you left, had something of a shock Thea says. I don't know, but I do know they are planning to do a caesarean,"

She paused and looked at her watch,

"About now. You're not welcome by the way, if you were even thinking of going. Which I doubt you were."

Then she was gone, just a flash of colour.

It was then when I finally allowed myself to cry.

I loved Jez and I loved my unborn child, not that anyone would believe me. I guess she would be better off now, I didn't care what it would do to me but I promised myself I would do anything until I knew what Jez wanted. I would do anything for her.

But I was alone and no one else could hear my thoughts. So I just cried, I cried because I knew there was no point trying to stop the tears. I cried because of what I had done but most of all I cried because I was alone. I had pushed everyone away and the one woman, who I thought understood me, whom I loved, had probably been in agony all this time she was with me because she didn't love me.

But no one heard, or if they did, they didn't care.

IMPORTANT! I was wondering... Would you guys like me to end this story here and continue it as a sequel, write the same sort of chapter in Jez's POV and then write a sequel or just carry on writing this one? because i think that this is quite a good place to end one story and start another if I was going to do that... So i will post this same message at the bottom and a poll will be on my profile to please vote or say something in a review!

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Poor Morgead! :( :(