Chapter 14

I Wouldn't Let That Happen

[Shiloh's POV]

"Where are we going?" I asked as I turned to her.

"You'll see." She said with a slight smile.

I sighed as I finished off my text with Roxy before sliding my phone into my pocket.

Roxy….she just literally came out of nowhere with this…thing she apparently has for me. I have to admit Roxy is a very pretty girl, but… she's not Sunshine. I want Sunshine. That's all I want but I know I can't have her. I didn't like to think about her but since I let everything free…I really feel so much better. I feel that I can say her name without wanting to kill myself. She's gone. I can cope with that way better now and the healing process is starting to take place. The question is….will it be long and slow? Or will I just drop it and move on? How am I supposed to deal with it? What would Sunshine want me to do?

Some people deal with death slowly and just day by day, while you have those other people who move on quickly with life. I don't want to spend every day in mourning. I know Sunshine would hate that…I just know she would. But then again it's kind of hard to move on. I want to do this thing with Roxy…I think…and….I just don't know what I want. Maybe just letting go will be the best thing. Maybe moving on and giving Roxy a chance now rather than later will be okay….it's just so weird. Roxy? I never would have thought….

"We're here." Stallone smiled as she put her car in park.

I looked around and lifted a brow. "Ice Skating? Stallone I can't ice skate!"

"But I can." She smiled as she opened her door and got out with me doing the same.

Way to take me out….

"This will only be fun for you." I said as I sped walked to catch up with her.

"No. It will be fun for us."

"But I can't ice skate!" I tried to get my point through her mind.

"I heard you the first time." She said as she walked inside the building and up to the small window.

"Two for an hour." She said as she started to retrieve some money.

"That'll be $15.24." The young lady behind the glass said.

I watched as Stallone handed over the exact change and got two tickets before handing one to me.

I rolled my eyes. I'm going to break my neck out here.

We walked into the double doors as a strong fan of cold air hit my face. I didn't even bring a big enough jacket.

"We get skates over here." Stallone said as I followed her to a different desk.

"8." She said handing her ticket over to the man who went and got her skates.

"Size 7 ½" I said as I handed him my ticket right after.

He handed me my skates before I turned to see Stallone sitting at a bench putting hers on. I rolled my eyes again as I walked over to her.

"Stallone what's the point of this if I can't skate."

She finished tying her skate before she looked up at me and smiled. "Has the thought ever crossed your mind that I brought you here to give you some free lessons from a pro?"

….Well no….

I didn't say anything. I just sat down beside her and put my own skates on.

"C'mon." She grabbed my arm and stood me up in which I literally fell onto the ground.

She laughed. "These aren't roller skates you have to balance. Use those ankles girl." She said as she helped me up.

She helped me walk to the ice and luky me the place wasn't packet at all. There were only a few skaters in the rink.

Stallone stepped onto the floor and instantly did a twirl before she helped me onto the ice.

"Stallone I'm going to bust my head!"

She laughed. "Naw you won't. I wouldn't let that happen." She said as she locked arms with me.

"Ice skating is all about balance. Good balance, good skater."

When did she become the ice skating pro?

I just nodded as I let her pull me slowly along with her.

I lost my balance and almost fell but she caught me quick bring me back up.

"See. Told you I got you."

I smiled as she winked at me.

"I want to watch you. Maybe I can learn from watching." I suggested as we came to another wall.

She nodded. "Okay stay right here. Watch."

She made sure I was okay with holding onto the wall before she skated off. She was going slow at first but sped up as she did a small jump landing perfectly on her feet. She turned around and skated backwards as she moved her feet so smoothly with the wind from her movement blowing her hair to the front.

She looked amazing! When did she learn this!?

She did another spin this time landing on one foot as she held the other one out in front of her as she squatted down low before coming back up and skating back over to me doing a side slide to stop herself.

"Wow."I smiled.

"Liked what you see?" She smiled with confidence.

"Where did you learn how to do all that!?"

She looked sad for a moment before she erased the emotion from her face. "Evelyn." She stated plainly before she grabbed my arm again.

"Want to learn some stuff?"

I nodded.

We ice skated for a little while longer as she showed me how to do some basic ice skating before I told her I needed a break and that's when she let me go in the middle of the rink and started to skate away.

"Stallone!"

She started to laugh as she made circles around me.

"Yes?"

"You know I can't skate alone!"

"Have you tried?"

"I'm going to fall!"

"Have you tried?" She asked again.

"No."

"Well try."

I rolled my eyes and took a small breath as I tried to move and instantly I hit the ice.

"See!" I said as I tried to get up but couldn't.

She laughed. "Sorry. I really believed you could do it."

"Well you believed wrong!" I smiled. "Please help me!" I said as I still struggled to get up.

I sat flat on my butt as the cold ice started to get through my pants. She skated behind me and I instantly felt her hands go under my arms and pull me up to my feet before she put one arm to the back of my legs and scooped me in her arms.

"Oh my gosh put me down you're going to drop me!"

"If you keep squirming I will!"

I instantly froze in her arms. I didn't want to fall.

She skated me all the way over to the edge of the rink where carpet was and gently put me to my feet before she stepped onto the carpet as well.

"Enough?" She lifted a brow. I nodded.

"C'mon let's go eat."

She's taking me to eat too?

It didn't take us long to get out of the skates and into the car. The restaurant she took me too called Safari's was a pretty nice sit down restaurant.

"Here's your drinks, we'll have your order right out." The waiter said before she walked off.

Stallone put her elbow on the table before she rested her chin in her palm.

I smiled. "You know putting you elbow on the table is rude."

"Oh sorry." She said before she put her other elbow on the table as well. "Is that better?

I smiled and shook my head. "How would that be better?" I laughed.

"Well you said it's rude to have my elbow on the table…so I figured if I put both elbows on the table I wouldn't be breaking any rules." She lifted a brow.

I laughed again. She's just like Jade.

I think it's so funny how technically Jade is my mother and technically Tori is her's, but I'm always compared to Tori while she's always compared to Jade. I had a friend even tell me I looked like Tori….which had to be the biggest lie in history!

She took a drink of her water before she looked over at me with serious eyes as she removed her elbows from the table.

"How are you Shiloh?"

I put my head down. For some reason after having Sunshine pop up in my mind all day and I was okay, I break down at the small thought of her now. Tears filled my eyes and I tried so hard to hold them in but I couldn't. I put my hands to my face and cried as softly as I could. It didn't hurt as near as much as it had last night, but it still hurt a little and I had to let the rest out.

I felt a body next to mine and an arm go around my shoulder.

"I'm sorry Shiloh." Stallone whispered to me as she pulled me as close as she could to her.

My face went to her chest as I let out quiet sobs as I felt her hand stroking my hair. After only a few minutes of the small episode I was wiping away my tears and sitting back up.

"You okay?" She asked as she still stroked my hair.

I nodded as I continued to wipe my eyes.

"Here." She said as I felt a napkin wipe over my eyes as I knew she was wiping the running make-up from my face.

"You good?" She asked as she held my face in her hands.

I nodded.

She scooted out of my side of the booth and moved back over to hers.

I looked around to see if I caused any attention to myself, but luckily no one seemed to notice my little episode.

The waiter came with our food moments later before disappearing again.

I looked down at my plate and I really wasn't even hungry. I don't feel like eating.

"Eat." Stallone said to me as if she read my mind.

"Can I just take it home?"

"No. You're going to eat. You haven't eaten all day and I'm pretty sure you haven't eaten anything before I came this morning."

I sighed as I looked down at the plate of food sitting in front of me.

"You've lost a lot of weight Shiloh. I don't want you getting sick. Has Jade or Tori not been making you eat?"

I shook my head. I don't think they've been paying much attention to whether I eat or not, because I really haven't been eating much. I just haven't been hungry.

"Yeah well you're definitely eating tonight because I'm making sure of it." She said as she took a bite or her own food.

I sighed as I picked up my fork and started to eat slowly.

"How are you doing in school?"

I shrugged as I started to play with the food. "Not so well."

"Things will get better for you."

"I know they will." I gave a small smile. "I just…really miss her."

Stallone turned away from me for a minute before she turned back to me. "I know." She said with tears in her eyes. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there."

She reached her hand across the table and grabbed mine. "I love you Shiloh. I know I'm a bullshiter sometimes…well 99% of the time, but I truly deeply am so sorry." She said as a tear fell from her eye.

I scooted from my booth and slid into hers as I let my arms wrap around her body tight. I forgive her. Of course I forgive her. I always do and I understand. She did have Evelyn as well to be with and it probably was hard for her. I can't blame Stallone for not being there but she is here. That's all that matters now.

[Beck's & Tori's Text]

Beck: Hey how's Cat?

Tori: Did Jade tell you?

Beck: Tell me what?

Tori: That she found out about Sunshine last night.

Beck: She did!? How did she take it?

Tori: She's just been crying all day non stop and when I say all day I mean all day. She keeps screaming her name every so often apologizing for not being there it's really hard to watch.

Beck: I feel so bad for her.

Tori: I kind of do too. And on top of that she keeps begging for drugs. She's tried to run off every chance she gets but Jade holds her down now because she knows she's most likely running back to it because of the news.

Beck: It has to be so hard to come home and have your child just…gone. I can't imagine the pain she's in right now.

Tori: I can't either. I think she's going to need to go to a doctor though.

Beck: What do you mean? Why?

Tori: I think she's kind of sick. I don't think the right thing to do is hold her back from something her body has been hooked on for who knows how long. That's something you slowly get off of right?

Beck: I don't know much about that stuff. We need to get her into rehab.

Tori: Can you please look up some places you think we might can take her. We are still trying to find a place to take Shiloh. We think we might have found a place today. She needs someone professional to talk to.

Beck: Is she still doing the alter ego thing?

Tori: I think she might be done with it, but we still want her to talk to someone anyways.

Beck: Yeah I understand. I'm going to stop by on my way home from work. Is that fine?

Tori: Yes it's fine.

Beck: Okay I'll just see you guys then k?

Tori: Alright.

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